our psalms

Lao Cao's daily work is very heavy and tiring.I can see his swaying body every time, even walking is so heavy.But when his eyes are intertwined with mine, he always looks so energetic and energetic.I cooked the dinner at night. This may be the first time in my life that I cook by myself. He seemed a little surprised, but he still praised me, hugged me in his arms and kissed me, saying that it was his. Good baby, say that I am finally sensible.I watched sweetly as he ate my stir-fry and my boiled rice, even though it was burnt.He still didn't show any pain at all, instead he praised me happily, saying that it was the best food he had ever eaten in his life.

When I saw him like this, I smiled so sweetly and happily on the surface, but the bitterness in my heart could not be expressed in words.After the meal, I took the initiative to clean up with him, although I wanted to, but he always refused, he still wanted to treat me like a child, let me sit and wait for him obediently.I looked at his increasingly thin body, busy in the kitchen, he paid too much for me, what can I give him in return, I thought about spending a lifetime of selflessness And sincere love allowed him to live this life without regret, but I still don't have that qualification.

Looking at the plants he carefully picked and planted on the balcony, I remember that when I was with him, these little things were just some seedlings. Although Lao Cao seldom takes care of them now, they can still grow so strong When it grows up, it grows so dense and so bright.What a vigorous vitality, what an amazing perseverance.

Lao Cao's desk was full of documents and materials, and he sat there quietly to review after finishing the kitchen.I would also sit quietly next to him and look at him with that serious and serious expression, thinking in doubt at that time, sometimes nodding in a naive way suddenly realizing it, and occasionally raising my head and smiling kindly at me.Whenever this time, I will feel sad for a while, and suddenly feel like crying.

It’s been a long time since I heard him sing. Although it’s humorous and funny, he’s incomplete and out of tune. In the bathroom, the sound of the water from the sprinkler is the most beautiful melody I’ve ever heard in my life. He smiled in a distorted tone, while gently rubbing his thick back, he suddenly looked at me affectionately, hugged me, and sang a song while listening to the sound of water quietly, every time At this time, my heart can't help but become tense, the tenderness of his erection will never fade away, undulating around my body, when his tongue slips into my mouth, I'm intoxicated, and the water flows from me Sliding across his face, washing away the invisible tears together, I held his arm tightly and told myself that he was by my side, really always by my side...

Another day of waiting, after sweet goodbyes with kisses every morning.I am the only watcher left in this house.I really want to fill up all the regrets in the limited time.Although I don't know where to start, I wake up early, smile in the mirror, and then find something meaningful to me, such as cleaning the room, and then surfing the Internet to watch those heartbreaking but true Gay stories.Suddenly, I also want to write this tortuous journey into a story, let others see it, let those who are still in despair believe that there is true love in this world, as long as you work hard, there will be it.So I tapped on the keyboard and typed out the vivid faces recorded in my mind, word by word: His name is Xiaodong. I remember that when I saw him for the first time, he was always very naughty. Know Lao Cao before I do...

When my hands were still flying on the keyboard, I heard a knock on the door. I thought it must be Uncle He, because Lao Cao should still be at work at this time.I walked over to open the door, but saw a hideous face, it was Cao Wenxi's mother, and behind her stood the child who came to the hospital to look for Lao Cao that day.

"You..." She looked at me and was shocked. "Is your body not broken, how is it possible?"

"You really want me to do that?" I said, "Dad, he's not at home, I'm sorry!" When I was about to close the door, I was suddenly blocked by her. She rushed in angrily and yelled at me: "Bitch! , I have the nerve to call him Dad, whose dad is he, he can only be my daughter's dad!" she cried, as if the boy behind him suddenly looked at her unnaturally.

"Please show some respect, I don't want to quarrel with you!" I tried my best to suppress the anger in my heart.She didn't think about it, but she jumped up even harder, "Respect, to you shameless GAY? Look..." She brought the child forward and said, "He's just like you, but he's just playing with Brother Yong." It's just an old toy, and it's only a matter of time before it gets thrown away!" The child obviously became short of breath after hearing her words, but he was restraining himself, at this moment he must be restrained by this crazy woman .

"It's up to you what you think. I hope you don't disturb his peaceful life anymore. Don't you love him so much? If you love him, you shouldn't make him sad!" I said seriously.

"Let's not confuse people with evil words here. Don't think that you can turn black and white because you have a handsome face. Isn't Han Yongzhe tender and obedient, or thrown away after being used? How long do you think you can hang around him? ?” Her words became more and more provocative, and I was really irritated by him. There should not be many people who can not be irritated under such circumstances, although the child standing next to him is one of them.I'm still enduring, forcing myself to endure, because I really don't want any more accidents to happen.Just like that, he has been enduring this woman's bad words.

"You should get out early, you shameless homosexual, don't force me to do anything cruel, then I will expose all your affairs, and see how you are still together!"

"What did you say? You can't hurt him like this!"

"It's not me, it's you. If you want to blame all of this, you, the pervert, seduce grown men, and you won't be able to justify it to anyone!"

"You are so hateful!" I stood up and grabbed her clothes, "I warn you, you will hurt Lao Cao by doing this!"

"At that time, he can go back to the United States with me, and you, just wait to be a perverted homosexual who is despised by others for the rest of your life!"

"Shut up!" I yelled, pushing her hard out the door.But at this moment, I was so weak that she broke free and slapped me in the face, "Dirty thing, you dare to touch me!" As she spoke, she grabbed my clothes even harder and threw me towards her. Push it on the ground.I fell to the floor with a flutter, and my head fell heavily on the coffee table. When I raised my head in a daze, the blood in my nostrils kept gushing out again.

"Stop it!" The boy finally couldn't help shouting, "How can you behave like this!?"

"Go away!" Cao Wenxi's mother slapped the child again, which completely angered us. I jumped up angrily, grabbed her hair, and slapped her hard in the face. fist, the boy also ran over to help hold her down.Just when the fight was at its peak, Uncle He rushed in from the door, "What are you doing, stop!"

The boy and I let go of Cao Wenxi's mother slowly and stood up. My nose was still bleeding. From the beginning to the end, I was the only one who was really bleeding.Cao Wenxi's mother looked angrily at me and then at the boy, and shouted, "I won't make it easy for you!" After she finished speaking, she tidied her hair, picked up her purse and walked out the door.

"Are you okay?" Uncle He came over with a tissue, "You can't be so excited, you forgot what I said?"

"It's okay, Uncle He, I'm fine..."

"Then who are you?" Uncle He looked at the boy and said.This is also a question I really want to ask.