our psalms

The left hand holds life, and the right holds true love. Together, it may be a lifetime.But I am doomed to never have both.I don't know how many times I have called, how many times I have looked forward to, but the happiness I finally pursued has to be cruelly and forever stranded.

I finally opened my eyes from the endless darkness, and saw the infusion bottle dripping with medicine dangling in front of my eyes, and underneath was a desperate and decadent face.

He was holding one of my hands, crying, never seen him cry like that, crying so purely and deeply, like a child who lost a toy, heartbroken.

"Cheng'er, wake up quickly, go home with uncle, go home with uncle..." His voice was low and hoarse, desperate and deep.

I moved my fingers, which almost exhausted all my strength, I seemed to feel like a useless person, I just wanted to be able to touch his face, but my body can only support me to move those fingers That's all.That decadent face seemed to sense something, he raised his head, saw my faint gaze, and then screamed in shock: "He's awake, Cheng'er is awake, he's awake!" He ran to the door of the ward and looked at me There was a shout outside, "Doctor, doctor, come quickly, Doctor He!!! He's awake!!!"

When Uncle He ran over with a few nurses, I saw that he was sweating profusely, and there were bloodstains on his white coat.

"Cheng'er, are you feeling better? Can you talk?" Uncle He walked up to me and asked carefully, stroking my forehead with his cold hands, "Hurry up and observe the ECG record, is it stable?" Already?" He called to the nurse, "heart pulse is normal, body temperature is normal..."

At this moment, I saw Lao Cao standing behind them, motionless, shrunken and looking down at me with fear. I have almost never seen him so scared.

"How is he, Lao He?" He walked up to Uncle He and asked in a low voice.

"I'm awake, I'm fine for the time being." Uncle He said expressionlessly, but his eyes were obviously moist.

"What do you mean I'm fine for the time being?" Lao Cao looked at Uncle He with his tired eyes.

Uncle He shook his head and turned to leave the ward, but Lao Cao grabbed his arm.

"Please let go of me, Officer Cao. Now is a special period, and there are still many people waiting for me to rescue." Uncle He didn't dare to look at Lao Cao's face, "You should also go back to your job, such a big Disaster, don't forget you're a cop."

"I don't care about earthquakes or disasters!" Lao Cao shouted, "I want my Cheng'er!"

"Do you know how ignorant and selfish you are when you say this." Uncle He raised his head and said.

"Selfish?" Lao Cao smiled crazily, "Why did Cheng'er become like this when he was hit by a tile? Why, why? Tell me now that he can't stand it any longer. How do you want me to accept it?" Is it?"

"I've told you everything I need to say. What do you want? This is what he meant!!" Uncle He became emotional, pointing at me lying on the bed and shouting to Lao Cao, "I didn't expect you to be like this!" Cowardly, he just wanted to make you happier without telling you. He has endured so much pain for you, but you are so selfish now, who are you right, and lying there right? Cheng'er's expectations for you, love for you?"

"I don't want..." Lao Cao sat on the ground, "I don't want it, why is it like this..." Two tears ran down his face and ran across his messy beard.

"Stand up, Cao Yongwen!" Uncle He yelled, "You have been a policeman for decades, is this what you look like in the end? Are you right? What I want to see is what you are like now. Now that there is such a big earthquake disaster outside, if you don’t return to your post and cry here, are you still a man?”

"No!" Lao Cao raised his head and shouted in despair. He turned his head and looked at me lying weak on the bed, "I want you to heal him, heal him...you must heal him no matter what. No, it’s okay to get it abroad, there must be a way, there must be a rescue, tell me!”

"Impossible! Even if you find an immortal, it will be of no avail!" Uncle He roared with tears, broke away from Lao Cao's hand and left.

After a while, Lao Cao struggled to stand up from the ground, and he staggered to me. I saw his mouth pouted, with sadness written all over his face.And I can only look at him so weakly, I know that Uncle He must have told him everything, at this moment, everything has come to light.

"Yes... yes... I'm sorry..." I struggled to say these three words. At this moment, I was really sad and wanted to blame myself. Why did I make him suffer so much? He is at ease.

He slowly stretched out his hand, wiped away the tears from the corners of my eyes, and told me calmly: "Cheng'er, you have to get well soon and be good, you know, let's go home when we're done, go home..." He finished When I was there, his tears dripped down on the back of my hand again, as cold as the ice of despair.

A few days later, I finally saw him put on the tall and familiar uniform again and stand in front of me.I smiled at him, really relieved and moved.I know that he must have made a lot of determination and perseverance, and finally decided to get out of this endless sadness, this cruel fact, and do what he should do.He took off his hat, kissed my forehead lightly and said, "Uncle is going to work in the disaster area and will be back soon. You must obediently wait for uncle to come back, okay?"

I nodded at him and kissed him lightly on the cheek.

"Don't worry, Cheng'er, Dad won't let you down..." He said, but his eyes became moist again, "I'm sorry, uncle will never cry in front of you again, you have to Promise uncle, be good, and wait for uncle to come back." He turned and wiped his eyes, then dragged his heavy body and walked towards the door of the ward.

"Uncle..." He turned around again when he heard my cry. "I promise you that I will wait for your return. You also promise me that you will come back safely and well."

He smiled and nodded, but ran out of the hospital in tears...

I fulfilled my promise and finally waited until he came back.Although at that time, I couldn't stand anymore, I could only sit in a wheelchair, pushed by him, pushed through those hustle and bustle, and walked through those disturbances.

Another late autumn is approaching, and people after the disaster are boosting their confidence and preparing to start again.Lao Cao and I sat on Fengshan Mountain in our hometown, looking at the red maple leaves falling all over the mountain, smiling happily.

"Haha, you still remember." Lao Cao touched my head and said, "It was really embarrassing at that time."

"Yeah, you yelled Yang Xing's name when you were drunk, and you said that young people are not a good thing..." I laughed.

"It was you who sent me to the hotel. I don't know if you ate Dad's tofu at that time."

"Tch, I'm not that kind of person."

"Hehe, but the old uncle is..." He put his mouth on my face playfully and kissed, "I never thought that this place is really beautiful."

"Yeah, I grew up here since I was a child. In autumn, the whole land is covered with thick leaves, giving people a solid and warm feeling. Just like you..."

"Cheng'er, do you still remember Xiaodong? At that time I always didn't understand him, but now, I seem to understand a little bit."

"There are also Lao Jiang, Lao Xie, Yang Xing, and Uncle Tian who lost his life trying to let me come back to you, and Yong Zhe, I am really happy that he can be with Uncle He now, they will definitely Very happy, right?"

"Well, they will be very happy, just like us..."

"uncle……"

I gently fell into his arms, and pressed my white lips tightly against his chest, "If you feel lonely, just look up at the sky that once belonged to us, the sky is still so blue, there should be no regrets , there should be no tears, this is what you said..."

Lao Cao hugged me tightly and kept nodding. "Don't worry, child, my world is already full of your shadow, whether it is this life or the next life, it will be engraved here forever."

"Uncle, I'm really tired..."

"If you're tired, just lie down in uncle's arms and sleep..."

"Well... Uncle... I love you..."

"I love you too... Cheng'er..."