Stranger way home

Chapter 64 The choice between love and not love

(I feel that the writing is not very good...)

Isn't it that there are too many helpless choices in life.Society is like rivers and lakes, people are always involuntary and insincere.Everyone is alive, carrying one or more heavy burdens. Some people choose to accept it, while others choose to stand up and resist.But no matter which way of life you choose, the final result is often unsatisfactory, just like the saying - "It depends on people to make things happen", even a smart person like Zhuge Liang can only sigh like this, let alone us These mortals.

Coming out of Luo Bin's school and walking back to Uncle Liu's house, Shen Hanxing kept thinking about one thing, whether his trip to X City was right or wrong?Also, the relationship between Luo Bin and that girl should not be shallow, I wonder what happened to them?After much deliberation, it is just fantasy. There are many things that we cannot control, so we can only choose to control ourselves.

When he reached the familiar area, Shen Hanxing stopped, raised his head and looked at the familiar building not far away, which contained all his past joys, sorrows and joys.However, now they have to face a choice, a difficult choice!

The sky gradually darkened, and the sun in the west was less than halfway down. The cold evening wind raged on the empty streets, stirring up the dust all over the place.Shen Hanxing sighed softly, Uncle Liu should be back now, after thinking about it, he still picked up his steps and walked towards the building not far away.

With a "pop", Shen Hanxing gently opened the door, only to find that Uncle Liu was sitting on the sofa in the hall watching TV.When Shen Hanxing came in, Uncle Liu turned his head to look at the gate, and the eyes of the two happened to meet.Standing there staring at Uncle Liu in a daze, Shen Hanxing had the illusion that he had returned to a few years ago - when he came back to Uncle Liu's house after get off work, Uncle Liu was also lazily sitting on the sofa watching TV, and when he saw him coming in, he snapped Turned off the TV with a bang, and turned to booing to myself. The life with Uncle Liu at that time was really sweet.

Shaking his head to get rid of the messy thoughts in his mind, Shen Hanxing smiled at Uncle Liu who had turned off the TV at this time, then walked over and sat down next to Uncle Liu.

Those are all in the past, Shen Hanxing kept reminding himself in his mind.

"What's the matter, aren't you happy?" Uncle Liu stared at Shen Hanxing's face for a while, saw that he was silent, and asked a little puzzled.

"No, do I look very unhappy?" Facing Uncle Liu's question, Shen Hanxing smiled again, expressing that he had nothing to be unhappy about, and told him not to worry.

Uncle Liu chuckled lightly and said, "You've written the word depression on your face. Those who can't read... really can't tell."

"Hehe, you are still so humorous, no wonder he likes you..."

"What's the matter with you? Why are you talking strangely?"

"Uncle, I went to see him today..."

"He? Who."

"You know who else can be."

"You mean Xiao Luo? Actually, I guessed that you would go to him, but I didn't expect you to go there so early."

"I ask you, do you love him? I mean love, not liking, and you understand what I mean."

Facing Shen Hanxing's sudden question, Uncle Liu was stunned, looking at Xing'er's sad eyes, Uncle Liu didn't know how to answer.Don't you love it?That must be against my will; love?What should I use to face the star in front of me.

"Why don't you talk?" Shen Hanxing looked at the person in front of him, seeing him looking at him without saying a word, feeling more and more uncomfortable in his heart, and the words he said were all sour.

"Xing'er, I..."

"Uncle, stop talking, I think I know the answer."

Shen Hanxing turned his head away and didn't look at Uncle Liu again, but just lowered his head and looked at the floor under his feet. There was a pain in the corner of his eye, as if something was about to burst out of his eye socket, but he still tried his best to endure it.

"Xing'er..." Uncle Liu turned around, cast his eyes on Shen Hanxing's drooping head, and pressed his hands on Shen Hanxing's shoulders involuntarily, "Xing'er, you know, Uncle Liu is not a person who starts in chaos and ends up giving up. Not someone who has a new love and forgets the old love. To be honest, I really love him, yes, I love Xiao Luo, just like I loved you back then!"

"Then, do you still love me now? Just like before."

Although he had been mentally prepared for a long time, knowing that Uncle Liu would tell such a fact, but hearing Uncle Liu say it with his own ears, Shen Hanxing still felt that his chest was blocked by something, and his heart ached.

"Xing'er, listen to me." Uncle Liu loosened his grip on Shen Hanxing's shoulder, his eyes seemed to penetrate Shen Hanxing's body, and cast his gaze to a distant place. "Xing'er, I remember all the things we met when we first met, and I can vividly remember all the thoughts. If it weren't for my existence, you would not have entered this circle, let alone have a relationship with a middle-aged man. However, fate It’s just such a trick, let you come to my company for an interview, and let me interview you in person, our tragedy gradually happened. Until, I learned that you are the only seedling in your family, and your parents also started to ask you to go home for a blind date. Only then did I realize how selfish I am, and I am not the only one who needs you. I have always hated myself and hated myself for bringing you into this circle. Later, you finally went back to your hometown. I thought you would finally return to normal. By being an upright and normal person, the guilt in my heart calmed down a little."

"Uncle Liu..." Hearing Uncle Liu's words from the bottom of his heart, Shen Hanxing's eyes were confused and moved.

"Xing'er, listen to me." Uncle Liu waved his hand, stopping Shen Hanxing's words.Some things I want to express are difficult to say at the beginning, but once I start, many things can be said smoothly, "After you left, I can't stop thinking about you, but I know that our relationship will only hurt you, So I can only choose to forget you gradually. Maybe this is my self-deception. In fact, I have never forgotten you. By chance, I met Xiao Luo. At that time, he had just broken up with his Uncle Wang. I thought of me With you, I can’t help but feel like we are the same people who have fallen into the world. Gradually, I got acquainted with him, the first time we met, the first time we talked, the first time we ate together, the first time... ... I gradually discovered that Xiao Luo is a kind and simple person like you, but he is also different from you, that is, he is weaker than you. Later, we had a lot of things in the short few months of acquaintance. It was unexpected until we had a relationship for the first time. In fact, it was an accident, but we established a relationship because of this incident. From then on, I swore that I would love him well and not let him suffer any harm. I won’t leave any regrets like I did for you. But it seems that I didn’t fulfill my promise. Instead, because of my existence, he suffered more injuries than before. But, I really like him, love him! In the days when I had him, I seemed to have forgotten your existence, until you appeared, and my heart became confused and flustered again."

"Uncle Liu, do you still love me? Or do you like me?" After a while, after listening to Uncle Liu's words, Shen Hanxing asked in a daze.

"Xing'er, I..." In fact, Uncle Liu already had an answer in his heart, but he didn't know how to speak, and swallowed the words again.

"Forget that I didn't ask." Shen Hanxing looked at the expression on Uncle Liu's face, and he already had the answer in his heart, so he could only say disappointed.

"Xing'er, how can uncle not like you, but even if I like you, so what, we can't go back after all. I don't want to delay you, and Xiao Luo needs me more than you, I can't Hurt him again." In fact, Uncle Liu said these words, but his heart was bleeding.These words against his will were just to make Shen Hanxing give up. What he did a few years ago was wrong, Uncle Liu didn't want Shen Hanxing to continue to make mistakes.

"But, are you not afraid of delaying him—your little Luo? He also has parents and relatives. And it seems that there is a girl who loves him deeply."

"So, no matter what the future holds, I will respect his ideas. Now, I just want to do my best to care for and love him."

"Oh, really? Well, since you said so, I can only admit defeat."

For some reason, Shen Hanxing felt relieved when he heard Uncle Liu say what was in his heart.Perhaps, people are a kind of contradictory animal. When you are persistent, your heart is dead, but when you let go, it is another mood.

"Xing'er, do you hate Uncle? If you do, Uncle will feel better." Seeing Shen Hanxing's gloomy expression, Uncle Liu couldn't bear it, but he didn't know how to comfort him. When the words came to his lips, he could only say Say something like this.

"It's just your choice, and my choice is to forget you from now on, so I don't need to hate someone who has nothing to do with me from now on." Shen Hanxing pretended to be indifferent, but anyone with a discerning eye could see that The loneliness in his eyes.

Uncle Liu said sadly: "Xing'er..."

"Okay, I already have the answer I want, and there is no point in talking about the rest. What's more, I am also a person who is going to get married soon."

"Married?" Uncle Liu looked at Shen Hanxing in surprise and asked.

"Yes, that's the purpose of my coming to X City—to see you for the last time before marriage, and I have to go back tomorrow. The other party is a gentle and virtuous woman, and the wedding date is set after the new year. I thought our last Once we meet, it will be such a lingering and reluctant parting scene, but it seems that I was wrong, you seem to have a good choice. In fact, I pretended to love you, just to test you and Luo Bin. "

"Xing'er..."

"Okay, I've said all I need to say. Let's just pretend that the previous things didn't happen. Uncle Liu, I'm hungry. Let's cook. This meal is better. I won't have the chance to eat your cooking again." the meal."

"OK, all right."

Looking at the expression on Shen Hanxing's face, Uncle Liu felt as if the previous dispute had never happened.But, Shen Hanxing can really be a normal person, isn't that his wish?In the end, I couldn't even say the words of blessing, the reality has always been so helpless.

After thinking about it, Uncle Liu turned and left the hall, and went to the kitchen.