The third option: I am uncle control

Xiaolu looked at his body with very meaningful eyes, and turned around to find out the sunscreen.

Come here a little, I'll wipe it for you.

Um.The uncle took advantage of the situation and lay flat on the raft, closed his eyes contentedly, and pulled down the brim of his hat.

I leave it all to you.

okay.Xiaolu swayed and adjusted his sitting posture, introduced clear sunscreen into the palm of his hand, rubbed it on the man's fleshy instep, and followed the trend. There were strong calves and slightly rough thighs. Passing by, the man shook without saying anything.He felt his warm, lubricated palms squeeze a little, and then began to smear his belly and chest, then every finger, every muscle in his arm, and finally his shoulders.That shoulder reminded Koji of a sailor in the sun for a second.

Finished, like a big ice cream with oil.Xiaolu clicked his tongue in praise, and began to paint his bare arms, chest and thighs, and ended up lying on his back on the other side of the raft wearing only a pair of shorts.

Alas, how long has it been since you basked in the sun seriously?

Xiaolu looked at his face: Are you talking to yourself?

Well, after thinking about it, it's been a year.

I remember that the first real sunbathing was in the second class of the kindergarten. All the children were stripped to only one pair of underpants and then dragged to the grass to expose themselves to the sun, and each was given a plastic sunglasses.At that time, I loved to be funny, but I couldn't get rid of it.My aunt threatened me that if I didn't take it off, I wouldn't give me the sunglasses. I said I wouldn't give them if I didn't, and I wouldn't take them off anyway.In the end, I still got sunglasses, and I didn't take them off until the end of the sun.

Hehe, with your character, it is impossible to become an actor.

Yes, when I grow up, I realize that being physically incapable of being seen by others is a label imposed by parents.But since then I have liked basking in the sun. It turns out that exposure to the sun is not such a terrible thing. Of course, the premise is that there was still an ozone layer on your earth in that era.When I grow up, on the warm and sunny days off, I will ride a bicycle alone to the fields without people, find a clean place to dry my body and nerves, and feel reborn after drying.At that time, I hadn't learned how to digest the unhappiness in my heart, and it was a way to just leave my own problems to the sun.

Yes, when students are busy, it can really be described as "there is no sun to bask in". A large chunk of time is wasted on textbooks and papers. This is probably the darkest time in life, and it is unbearable to look back on.

It’s all right now, I live independently outside, stay at home on rest days, wake up, take off the quilt and let Father-in-law Sun look at my naked body, it’s also very pleasant, I can feel the sunlight seeping into my body bit by bit.

If you buy a house again, you must buy the top floor, so you can bask in the sun on Sundays.

Yes, the time to be exposed to the sun is the most sunny and free time in life. If you feel that there is no time to be exposed to the sun, it means that the sky is not happy, people are not happy, and life really needs to be adjusted or adjusted. Something changed.

The sun is getting hotter and hotter, the two of them stopped talking, enjoying the tranquility like a spring water, the switch is in their own hands, and now they can spend without guilt.The sound of water flowing under me is so unreal, and when I close my eyes, I have an endless soft bed, allowing my consciousness to sink endlessly and die endlessly.Is this the river in the Garden of Eden, which can carry them away endlessly.Everything that has accumulated at this moment is collapsing, perception, experience, sin, memory, cognition, reincarnation, karma, history, nightmares, numbers, stardust, and the fairest time ever.

The world swelled wantonly in the city, but it collapsed wantonly here.Life is advancing in such a large breath and breath, so people inside and outside the city choose their own suitable time to exchange venues.If one of them is chosen, it will inevitably cause numbness of the limbs of life, or nothingness of consciousness in a saturated state.Regarding this kind of rule, neither he nor he can escape, which inevitably made him sigh.

You say, what is the saddest?The child asked suddenly.

road.The male voice under the brim was quick and clear.Any form of road frees people from many useless worries and denies rational freedom.

If you don't choose the path, you will have to give up the naked ease, fully armed, and be fully armed. Few people will do that.

After all, life is limited, but it is not shorter than all roads, it depends on how many lives you have.

Most people will choose the existing road, and then gradually submerge the road.So even if it is crowded, I don't want to worry too much.

If you find a road that already exists, but few people take it, you will be so happy.

Provided there is no disorientation.

Ok.

Direction... Most people have lost their direction on the road, you must have felt it too, right?The road is getting wider and wider, but the boundaries are becoming more and more blurred, the road signs are collapsing one after another, the performance of the car is getting higher and higher, but the driver is at a loss.Everyone thinks that the so-called driver is the person holding the steering wheel. This is also the experience of most people and they take it for granted. When they are lucky enough to know that there is a kind of driver called an eagle or an astronaut, they will try their best to hide their stunned.

This is your original?

No, it's the European netizen I talked to before.have you been to europe

have been.

Where do you like most?

Norway.

Clean, right?

Not only that.What impresses me the most is the expression of the Norwegians, and more specifically, the smile.

how to say?Xiaolu leaned forward, staring into the depths of the man's pupils.

I went to Europe with my monitor in high school. At that time, he had already made a lot of money as a painter, and he was quite well-known in his field.I have worked hard in China for ten years and planned to emigrate to Europe with my family. I fell in love with it just because of one sketch.That time, I accompanied him and spent a month exploring the countries in Europe, large and small, where he should find his new home in the future.The last stop was Norway. We accidentally met a family. That day I went to climb a mountain with the squad leader, a small hill, and took a lot of photos. My God, it is really a fairyland. I will never forget the air there, you can feel it Every time I breathe, what I inhale is snow mountain spring water, and what I exhale is mud that has accumulated in my body for decades.Standing there, as long as you lie on the thick grass on the hillside, look at the deadly blue sky at the top of the zenith, and then breathe wholeheartedly, that is an incomparable super super great super enjoyment. For 41 years, I think there are only two things that can be called enjoyment on this earth. One is to read and read without selfishness;We were all drunk at the time. My painter squad leader, a man of temperament, looked at Tianxin that day, with tears on his face, and kissed me hard, saying that he was going to make his home here, and he made a decision immediately.After he finished talking to me, he screamed and ran wildly all over the hillside. He was so excited.When we were going down the mountain that day, we met a few Norwegians, a family of five and a big dog. They went out for a ride on the weekend to relax. Their youngest son was slightly injured and a piece of skin was rubbed off his palm. He was pestering his father to help him. He looks.I took out the Yunnan Baiyao I carried with me in my pocket and applied it on the child. The child's father thanked me, and we chatted.When the squad leader said that he was going to immigrate here, the Norwegian family was very happy and proud.Six months later, the squad leader became neighbors with them.The night after we went down the mountain, we went to the Norwegian’s house for dinner. We took a group photo at the dining table and took it with the instant camera. When the photo was passed to me, I was surprised by the Norwegian’s smile. Every soul in every cell above and below is smiling, which is completely different from the smiles of people I have known before, just like the difference between Sirius and a compact disc.After a period of time, I used my portable camera to take pictures of the smiles of many Europeans, and when I returned to China to savor them carefully, I was shocked as much as the mountain in front of you.

Life and life itself determine the soul of a person, and a smile is the feedback of the soul.

Yes, a feedback that goes beyond any acting.Having said that, the Norwegian family is definitely not a wealthy family by any standard, not even a middle-class family.But their smiles are simply imported from outside the earth. I have never seen them before. They are beyond imagination. They are so shocking that I am speechless.

understandable.Xiaolu nodded deeply.I have only been to Italy once with my father, and what impresses me the most is undoubtedly the smiles of their citizens and the light in their eyes.I have never seen that kind of light before. Everyone has it. When they shined on me with that kind of light, I was filled with happiness, and there was a sound of cracking and cracking in my chest, and then Just a burst of relief, as if something in their veins had been copied to me.

Attitude to life and life?

Maybe.You know, the first time I saw your body through a telescope, it gave me that feeling.

Hehe, what should I say?

Unprecedented, different, beyond previous experience and imagination, indeed.Do you understand?

Generally can.

There's everything in there that matches the frequency of your brainwaves, and it's not bad at all.It’s as if the person who wanted to get [-] million really got [-] million, and the person who wanted to go to the moon actually stepped on the surface of the moon, that’s the feeling.The reality of happiness is as real as an illusion.like now.

Doesn't it feel real now?

It's not real, even if I bite you in my mouth, it's not real.Xiaolu flicked the water droplets on the man's instep, sighed, and looked up at the sky.When I saw you for the first time, I thought, if there is such a man, together with him, like Adam and Eve in the Garden of Eden, holding hands and running wildly in the clean woods, on the grass, on the river beach, without any illusions , without any labels and skins, what a fun thing it is.

It is almost achievable, there are woods, grasslands, and river beaches.But until we drift to our destination.

I'm afraid I'll die from it.

I’m also worried about this. I remember when I was on that hillside in Norway, I had that feeling that my heart was about to bulge out of my body, and all the parts of my body had to be disassembled and scattered into the air. go.

High-quality sex is what you're talking about, right?

Ha ha, no comparison.

It's true, you are already an old uncle who has been abstinent for ten years.

Your mind is full of those things.

Hey, in your eyes, I am the kind of person with strong desires, right?

Ok.

But now, I don't have any crooked thoughts, it's very clean, really.Look at these mountains, water, woods, blue sky.I feel like a thing, whether it is a branch floating in the water, a dandelion seed in the wind, or a stone, it is clean anyway, without any bad thoughts from anyone.

So yeah, I come here every year.

A regular cleansing ritual, like breathing?

Yes.

Every time I see office workers traveling on holidays, I feel uncomfortable. Everyone's time is divided too uniformly, and even work and rest are quantified and programmed.As in the city, so in the country, each group acts as its own driver along the highway.As for you and me, although our road is different from the highway, it is a three-dimensional intersection, but the direction is very different, and the distance from the highway will gradually increase.But functionally, we are still drivers with the steering wheel, not eagles or astronauts.

So in this reality, if we want to fly, we have to take pains to modify our car and turn it into a jet or a flying saucer.To achieve this, it is not enough just to have a smart head, one must also have the desire to activate the head that can transform life forms.

It is desire that drives quantitative change to qualitative change.

Desire is not a purely bad thing, this one is like nuclear power, as long as the goal is clear.

The problem is that most people’s desire activates the wrong object, instead of the head that transforms the life form, it only activates the head that transforms the quality of life.Many, many people have forgotten what they live for, why they are busy, and why they are like this now.A why can make almost all human beings fall into bewilderment and ignorance.In the final analysis, they are all their own desires, most of which are selfish desires.Whether it is you or me, even though they have left their original life and the original group of people, they still have regular people around them, such as colleagues.Over time, people always come up with similar clichés: Why did you choose this life?Usually, I am telling the truth. I say that I also want to satisfy my own ideas. I want to live a life different from most people, and have a life different from most people.Although the way of life and the form of life are similar, but the form is a form after all, it is just a way, the process and result are completely different, which is what I want.For example, money, everyone will have a lot of money flowing out of their hands in their life, where the money goes, what effect it has, and the stories it triggers are completely different.Although everyone uses the money at face value.My younger brother once questioned me, saying brother, you are fully capable and have the opportunity to live a nearly perfect life, but why do you deliberately avoid it?I said that the so-called almost perfect life you just talked about, in my eyes, is full of holes and cannot be called life at all.

What I said made him very puzzled, and he asked me why my life with a good job, a fixed income, a luxurious car and a luxury house, and having children and sharing a family relationship was called riddled with holes?I said, that is someone else’s life. For thousands of years, the vast majority of people have longed for, experienced, and experienced countless times. I don’t need to fill in the countless times. I can just watch, but other than this, no one asks me to watch, I have to do it myself.After all, in this life, I only have one life, and I don't want to make fun of my life.The kind of life that the vast majority of people yearn for, are working hard for, and are experiencing is, in the end, nothing more than collecting the things they own through various channels—jobs, income, houses, cars, and even family members and children. This can all be called material, if we talk about non-material aspects: such as emotion.It also needs certain material protection and support.Well, here comes the question, what is the ultimate purpose of these substances that are pursued?Everyone needs to eat, wear and live.Of all the material things, one part satisfies one's physical needs, and the other part supports one's spiritual existence.This is what most people would answer, right?If you want to dig deeper - eat, wear, live, the family is good, the wife and children are hot, what is the meaning of these existences?To prove yourself?Prove your existence, prove your strength?Prove that your life was not in vain?If you want to prove yourself, then you don't need to spend so much effort, right?As the saying goes, I think, therefore I am, you realize that you exist, then you exist, you have already proved it, and there is no need to add more things to it; if you want to prove your own strength, well, everything is there and achieved, then this People can leave this world.But the vast majority of people did not leave and chose to continue. Why?

Just because the desire is endless, with the current house, car, wife and children, I will think of a better house, car, wife and children than the present, with better ones, and the best, with the best today, and The day after tomorrow is the best...but human life is limited, especially limited.All this, any normal adult knows.But why bother knowingly committing crimes?The answer is often: it must.So good, dig a little deeper, everyone must, already must, so is this necessity the end?If you say yes, then it doesn't make sense. Must itself can only be a reason, not an end.What is the necessary purpose?why must?Let's sort it out: All material supply and collection serve the needs of the body and the so-called face; the service object of the body and the so-called face is for a "self", that is, consciousness, who is the service object of consciousness?Western philosophy calls it the soul, Buddhism calls it the consciousness, and in Buddhism, the so-called soul is also a form of expression of the consciousness.Well, who is the service object of the divine consciousness or the soul?No definite answer can be found, or there is no answer anymore, and we have already stood at the extreme end of the known range.Standing at the pole, there will be nothing further ahead. Is there any place further south than the South Pole?No, if you go that way, it's the opposite north.

That's it, it's back to the concept of "emptiness" in Buddhism, busy to go, nothing to do, can't find the ultimate service object, everyone is aimless, the content of the quarrel and comparison among the shooters is actually not shot by anyone Accuracy is about who shoots better, who shoots at the right time, and whose bow is more exquisite.Look, it's a weird game in itself, and if it happened at the Olympics, I'm sure everyone in front of the TV would go nuts.

I said this to my younger brother, and my younger brother kept pinching his nose and lowering his head to think. After I stopped talking, he didn't speak for a long time, and then he said suddenly: really stupid.After that, he never questioned my life again.

In fact, the people around you don't need to be too nervous about people like you and me. They are all pilots, but their destinations are different. It won't be too late to be nervous when they meet real astronauts in the future.

I thought of an interview in a certain magazine. The subject of the interview was a sheep-herding boy in a ravine. The reporter asked him what his ideal was, and the boy said, herding sheep.What are you doing after herding sheep?When you grow up, marry a wife and have children, what about having children?The child continued to herd the sheep.This is a frightening cycle.Look at the vast majority of people in turn: go to key schools, find a good job, earn enough money, get married and have children, save money for children, and work hard all your life for what?In order for their children to go to key schools, find good jobs, earn enough money to get married and have children, and then save money for their children... Most people are shepherds in disguise, right?Every time I think about it, my back gets cold.Every time I talk about this set of things with people, some people will laugh at me: You think too much, and you can't think too much or too much in life, otherwise you will go crazy.Well, here comes the problem again, if you think too much, you will go crazy, and if you don’t want to, you will be stupid. If you have a certain degree—thinking no more, no less—that is muddled.Crazy, fool, fool, choose one of three, which one do you choose?

I choose crazy.Xiaolu said firmly.Not crazy, not live.Crazy and dazed are all masters.

Crazy people are often laughed at by fools and fools.

Fools are laughed at by lunatics and fools, and so do fools.

Anyone who makes fun of it will have no results, and it is back to Buddhism: everything is for naught.

The Buddha is really powerful, he thought of everything 500 years ago.

Buddha is a person who jumps out of these three categories, a wise man, who has figured out everything, then jumps out, and then turns around to warn those who did not jump out.

Well, the incomparable teacher.As if stepping on a water bed, Xiaolu swayed and bent over, laying his head on the man's bare belly.You are an incomparable uncle.

Hehe, don't say that, there is no way to compare it. There are [-] Buddhist scriptures, and I have only read a few of them.

Is it all in the stomach? Xiaolu listened for a while, then raised his head with a frown.

Hey, I said, why is there no sound in your stomach, no gurgling, you don't even need to digest?

Presumably I have a good gut, and I can handle everything silently, without having to go to war.The man smiled.

Well, you have a good gut, you don't need a teacher to teach you, you can achieve it by yourself by drilling in the pile of books, right?Xiaolu climbed onto his shoulder, put his ear on the man's forehead, and closed his eyes.

If only I could read minds.

what.He hugged Xiaolu's delicate shoulders and brought him closer.

See how you feel about me.

The human heart is no easier to read than a Buddhist scripture, it is not enough in a lifetime.

I am not a child yet.

Well, then there are two Buddhist scriptures.

Well, I took it as a good word.

Ha ha.

Tell you.Xiaolu slid down that ear, and gently pressed the tip of his nose against his middle.My heart is very simple, I want to gain something, I want to be happy, and I want to live clearly.I want a man, a teacher, an uncle, and at the same time, let the other party feel that he is not my man in vain, my teacher, my uncle, every time I think of me, I feel that it is worth it and will be very happy ,It's that simple.That person is you, and I hope I am qualified.

you already……

Xiaolu quickly sealed his lips with his own, and he opened his eyes to see the child staring at him.

Xiaolu let go of him, pressed his fingers on the line of his lips, shook his head lightly and said: Wait until later, and draw conclusions later.

Later, how long later?

Xiaolu smiled, did not answer, turned over and lay on the man's belly, put his hands on his knees, and looked at Tianxin's unreal blue as if sitting on a sofa.

The raft floated leisurely down the water.

Look.

The man raised his head, and the colorful luxuriant branches and leaves increased imperceptibly, forming two frames for the blue sky.

In art class in preschool, I did this kind of handwork.The man said softly.Other children used the leaves they picked to stick on the drawing paper to form pandas, tigers, and houses. I only made a border for the drawing paper.The teacher asked me what it was, and I said it was a picture frame, but he said it wouldn't work, so I put another leaf in the middle.

Behaving so weirdly since I was in preschool, hey, I want to see your photo album when I get back.

Row.

Will it reveal some feelings?

Probably not, since they are all photos, they are all dead.

Wouldn't that photo album become an urn?

Much the same, only dead things are left behind, and living things cannot be kept.

When you're dead, I'll put your ashes in my mouth spoon by spoon, and wash them down with water.

Boy, you are too cruel.

If I die before you, you will throw away my ashes, burn everything, and leave nothing behind. I don't want to leave any traces.

Without me?

If you die, you will die clean. If you don’t do anything, it will be nothing.

Your place must be clean too.

Fortunately, I can't compare with yours. My things are all old. I like old things, and I don't feel wasted.

Old things are more content.

yes.Hey, there is a question I haven’t asked you all the time: I said you are so world-weary, why do you still decorate your home so stylishly, it’s impossible to pretend to be for others, you never entertain guests; say you like that, right? Not like your character.I can get by, but you are very particular.

It is precisely because I am dissatisfied with the world that I am satisfied with my own small world. If you have used my things, you must have a deep understanding. The materials I choose are not easy to get dirty and easy to clean.

This is true.

The functionality of the material is the first, and the ornamental is only secondary.

Well, it is worth learning from.

I'm going to go to the little nest in a while, you must like it, it's all old things, I moved all the things I used in the past here.

Why spend such a big project and move things from such a long distance.

There are not many things, just enough for vacation. The house was left by someone else, and I bought it with some money, and the family just now will come to see it regularly.Come on, I need to get up.

Want to take a pee.

Just you.

Now it's all right, you can't run away, and Xiaolu sits on the other side of the raft to keep his balance.

Pass me the paddle, and I'll test the depth of the water.

You still want to go ashore?

It's right in the river, so you can't stand on it.

Xiaolu took the paddle and plunged into the water.

Can't get to the bottom.I'll get you an empty bottle.

Stop making trouble, what kind of words are that.The man said, and jumped into the river with a plop.

Hey, let me say, as for making such a big fuss.Xiaolu was taken aback, and when he looked again, he had swam up with his arms waving, and went around to the front of the raft, holding on to the rubber ring on top.

Not too deep, my feet can reach the bottom of the river.

Well, you just stay there, Uncle Anchor.Xiaolu picked up a cigarette, lit it, and blew it out.

The water is the warmest right now, do you want to come down for a swim?

I can't swim, you can teach me tomorrow.

OK.The man smiled, floated up, and returned to the raft with a body of water.

Soaking in the water to bask in the sun is really comfortable.The man was half lying on his back, with his bipods on one side of the boat.Xiaolu handed him a towel and a humidor.

Thank you, you really understand me.

You always make one before smoking this at home.

Xiaolu watched as he dried his hands carefully, covered them with a white towel, then took out an exquisite cigarillo, drew a long-stem match, and twirled it to ignite the solid cylinder, a cloud of light blue diffused on the water.

Well, smoking a cigar with the mountain breeze is similar to making tea with spring water.The man admires.Do you want to try it?

A gentleman does not take advantage of others.Xiaolu extinguished the cigarette butt, put it in a small iron box, put it back in his backpack, and carefully took out a dark hollow clay egg, and held it in his palm.

Do you know this?

Can you blow the xun?

Xun, flute, xiao, wind music only, string music I am in a mess.Xiaolu smiled and sat upright, with a sense of ritual on his face.Press the air hole with your fingers and close your eyes.Everything around me fell into a strange silence.

Under the mottled sunlight shining through the branches and leaves, the weak fingers move open and close like stroking hot springs.The cool and distant voice seemed to emerge from the bottom of the water, and the two of them were surrounded by a smog-like situation.I don't know if it was the provocation of the music or what, Xiaolu's eyelashes trembled slightly, and he stared at the man intently.

The ancient sound is melodious, the smoke is curling up, and the light leather raft is going down the river.