虐渣男从 现在 开始

Looking at the densely packed handwriting, Zhao Xianghai didn't know why and panicked.

Xiao Ye is an idiot.

I wrote a letter in my own handwriting, put it in a book and gave it to him, but didn't tell him clearly.

Really awkward.

Zhao Xianghai shook his head, and looked at the first line one by one

"My brother Hai:

After hesitating for a long time, I still plan to write such a letter to you.

I recalled it for a while, only to realize that from the time the two of us met until now, I haven’t even written a love letter to you. I’m so negligent, I’m sorry.

I don't know where I will be when you read this letter.

May be in company?Might be on the way to chase you?

Of course, it would be best if he was already quietly lying beside you, holding you in his arms and dreaming contentedly.However, no matter where I am, I will always think of you and miss you. As long as I have the opportunity, I will definitely hold you and never let go.

I still remember that the first time I met you was at a reception held by the Hongzhan Association.

I saw you standing in the crowd wearing a straight suit, wearing glasses, and a gentle smile, giving people the impression of being so mature, stable, gentle and charming.After seeing you, I couldn't look away like I was possessed. From that moment on, I had a thought in my heart, I want to have you.

You don't know how happy I am when someone tells me that you're also male and you're single.Under the introduction of the boss of Hongzhan, you walked towards me, exchanged business cards with me politely, and extended your hand.The moment I shook hands with you, my expression was very cold, but what you don't know is that in my heart, I was so happy that I was going crazy.

Everything that happened after that went smoothly beyond expectation.We have dinner together, we walk and talk along the coast, and the closer I get to you, the deeper I feel.

I always feel that I am very cold emotionally, and I have never sneered at things like love.It wasn't until I met you, until I was with you, that I realized that I could have such passionate feelings.

Not long after we were together, my brother had an accident and we welcomed our baby girl, Lele.The little girl was still in her swaddle at that time, crying from time to time, which was very annoying.But you acted quite nervous. Before Lele was delivered to us, you had already dragged me. Together, we searched all the baby products in the mall and bought a whole room of things.

The night Lele came, you hugged her and fed her the milk powder that she had soaked.I went to get her a new diaper. When I walked next to you, I saw the tenderness on your face that made my heart flutter. I saw Lele sucking the milk powder obediently, sucking it like a small seed. Nutrients are the same, grow slowly.

At that moment, I was very proud.

I thought, standing next to me was my brother Hai, the love of my life, holding our daughter in his arms.The light was very soft that day. I looked at you, hugged you and my daughter, and felt that this was home.

This is the feeling of home.

I discovered my sexual orientation very early, so I thought that I would spend my whole life wandering among the flowers, and I would not have anything like a home, nor would I look forward to it.

But since that day, I have had infinite love and anticipation for our family.

We have watched Lele countless times, seeing this little guy sleeping soundly, we both smiled at each other, took a bath and rested; we have been lying together countless times, imagining what an excellent person our daughter will become in the future; We used to lean together, I hugged you, you closed your eyes, we were both awake, but no one wanted to get up, and everyone wanted to indulge in this quiet home atmosphere for a while longer.

I think you love me very much.

You have always tolerated me and let me go.Every time outsiders inquire about gossip and hear that you are below, they will be extremely surprised.How can a strong and stable man like you be willing to be under a man?

But you just accepted it so calmly.

Every day we are together, you water our home with full love.Every day when I wake up and walk out of the room, I can see you busy in the kitchen of the restaurant, I can see you busy making milk powder for Lele, and I am enjoying your goodness with peace of mind. The happiest years have passed.

I was actually very ashamed of what happened afterwards, and I really didn't want to mention it again.

But today, I still want to be honest and honest.

Because learning to face and face up to mistakes is what I have to do.

I have been educated at home since I was a child, and my parents have always only told me that to become a person with skill and ability in the business field, I must become the most outstanding successor of the Xiao family.

However, they and the people around them never taught me how to love, what is contentment and what is cherishing.

So, like you said, I have been low in EQ since I was a child, and I am also stupid.

Emotionally, very stupid.

I obviously have you and a daughter, and I have the warmest home in the world, but time passes day by day, and I get used to it day by day. In the end, everything seems to have turned into air and water. I know they are important , but their seeming absence finally made me habitually start to ignore them.

I thought I was tired of you, but I was actually a little depressed and flustered.

In the first few years we were together, the days were obviously so sweet and passionate, and every day was so exciting.But later, the relationship between us became more and more dull, just like a middle-aged heterosexual couple, there were only countless daily necessities and quarrels.

I began to fear that we would become so vulgar and boring in the future.

I began to try to break through, to make my heart as passionate as before.

Fu Zhouming was recommended to me at this time.

I looked at his skin, only to find it particularly amazing.

I am a fool, I took that moment of amazement as love.

I started dating him for dinner, started watching movies with him, and tried to find what I needed in him, but unfortunately, I actually found nothing, and my heart became even more empty.

After you found out about my dating with him, your heart became cold and you broke up with me decisively.

I panicked.

During that time, I was really anxious and panicked.

I panicked, thinking why you left me, how could you be so cruel to leave me?On the other hand, I thought conceitedly, you have been by my side for so long, I can see you as soon as I turn around, just talk about it, you can't do without.I can use any means to bring you back to my side.

But this time, you are really cruel.

I used many wrong methods to make you turn back, but in the end, I could only watch you get farther and farther away from me, no matter how uncomfortable and struggling I was, you refused to look back at me.

In those days when I was separated from you, I was really not happy at all.

As soon as you left me, all the strength in my whole body seemed to be drained.

I can't sleep all night long, all I can think about is getting you home, I get rid of everything, I want you to stand by my side again, we get our home back, and we will never be apart again.

Others think that I was very irritable and irritable during that time, but only I know, as long as you gently comfort me, as long as you give me a gentle look, all my anger will disappear, and only my anger towards you will be left. Longing, and anticipation of coming home.

So, Brother Hai, no matter what your thoughts are now, I still want to tell you here in a serious way, sorry.

I'm sorry, I'm so stupid, so stupid that I ignored your kindness to me.

I am sorry that I have caused so much harm to you by being so vain and self-righteous.

I'm sorry, I tore apart the family we finally formed with my own indifference and disdain.

Sorry for those nights when I mistakenly thought my love for you ran out.

Sorry for the days that left you behind.

Brother Hai, I'm sorry.

I'm so stupid, stupid, so stupid that I can't help but want to clench my fist and hit myself now as I write this letter.

I had the best in the world once, but I missed it and watched him slip away.

It was me who was young and too energetic, and my understanding of everything was superficial and arrogant.

Until now, I really understand this truth one by one

Those days tempered by time, plain but warm and accompanied by each other, are the essence of love revealed after taking off the soul-stirring mask.

In the past, I thought that love needs countless freshness and countless stimuli.

Until now, I have discovered that love is actually the simplest kind of thing.

The old couple with white hair on the side of the road, but holding hands, without needing to say a word of love, the trembling old couple supporting each other, is much more touching than the young couple shouting on the top of the mountain that the sea will never be separated.

Now I don't have any expectations for the feasting, the intense and exciting life.

I want to hold your hand and walk slowly on the warm sandy beach.

I want you to lean on my shoulder more, you read the book, I look at you, and we spend a sunny and warm afternoon together.

I want to hug you even more, secretly kiss you on the forehead, watch you raise your eyelids, and look back at me with that kind of shrewdness and ridicule that sees through everything.

I want to be with you more, spend every quiet and ordinary morning, eat the fried eggs you made by yourself, and use the best words I can think of to praise your cooking skills.

I want to go to Lele's school with you, and we will attend the parents' meeting together, with a little anxiety and expectation, and start to outline our daughter's future.

do you know?What I once had but lost is what I want to exchange with everything I have now.

As I write this, my hands are trembling because of the happiness in my fantasy.I, who never cried, couldn't hold back my tears.

That's a shame, it's a good thing you didn't see it.

This letter is written to you without any intention of forcing you to come back to me.

I just tell you everything I have experienced, everything I think, frankly.

If... If you still don't forgive me, and don't want to look back, then, Brother Hai, I wish you the next happiness, and I hope you can find another one in the future.

A better man who loves you and understands you.

If you need help with anything, just reach out to me.Don't worry about embarrassment, I will learn to respect and accept every choice you make.

in case……

If you are still willing to forgive me.

Then, even if I am thousands of miles away, I will catch the fastest plane and appear by your side, hug you and never let go.

Even if my heart stops beating, even if I lie in the tomb, I will beg the gods and Buddhas in the sky to give me a chance to be reincarnated. Even if my knees are smashed and my forehead is smashed, I will return to you It's good to hug you one more time.

Brother Hai, I still want to tell you.

The mistakes I have made, the days and nights I have been indifferent to you, are true.

But you must believe that my belated love for you is also real.

Brother Hai.

I love you.

I love you.

I love you.

Handwritten by Xiao Ye. "