Me and Fat Bear Classroom Teacher Cheng: South Edge and North Track

I put my mouth on it, and gently kissed the tears in the corners of Chenghui's eyes.

"It's getting late, go to bed." Cheng Hui seemed to have regained his composure, and whispered.

"Teacher... I... like you..."

"Hmm." He said lightly, without any emotion.

...

The price of wisdom is contradiction, gain and loss are twins... This is the joke that life makes on the outlook on life.

That night, Cheng Hui and I slept together without hugging each other. I turned my back to him and felt very uneasy.

After the passion, Cheng Hui was very indifferent, and I felt a little lost.

Did I get Cheng Hui?

the answer is negative…

Cheng Hui's face was obviously not tears of happiness... He didn't even want me to touch his body when he was taking a shower.

The physical collision has gradually run aground, the result I expected has not appeared, and the confession after the impulsiveness is even less creative...

Cheng Hui's breathing could not be heard in the darkness, only the ticking of the clock, mixed with a touch of remorse and a trace of loathing for himself.

I don't know when I fell asleep, and I woke up very early the next day, it was still dark, but Cheng Hui was no longer by my side.

My heart is very confused, I don't know how the relationship between me and Cheng Hui will change after what happened yesterday.

After getting dressed, I opened the bedroom door. Cheng Hui was sitting on the sofa in the living room in a daze. He was obviously startled when he heard the sound of me opening the door.

The moment I looked up...a ​​sad glance...I will never forget it...

"Go to bed and sleep for a while, I'm going home first..." I picked up the coat that I took off last night from Cheng Hui's side, and broke the silence by the way.If he doesn't want to stay in this oppressive atmosphere, a man should be more relaxed, anyway, what he lost yesterday was just his first kiss.

"Let me see you off..." Lao Cheng stood up.

"Send me out or send me directly to my house?" I tilted my head and smiled and teased. At that moment, I suddenly hoped that Cheng Hui and I could go back to the past.

Cheng Hui looked at me blankly, his tired eyes were filled with many emotions that I couldn't understand.

Maybe it was only a few seconds, maybe more than ten seconds... But Cheng Hui still spoke after all...

"The sea..."

"Ok?"

"I was impulsive last night..."

"Me too."

"We... don't do this anymore."

Although I had guessed such a result earlier, it still hurt my heart to be told by Cheng Hui himself.

"it is good!"

Probably didn't expect me to answer so simply, Lao Cheng seemed a little dazed, and the corner of his mouth twitched, "Dahai, you... are different from me..."

"Because I'm gay, so I'm different from you?!" I finally couldn't help it, and interrupted him loudly.He has a family and I can understand not being with me, but I don't want him to draw a line with me in such a ridiculous way!Most importantly... I don't want to see a fake old Cheng.

Seemingly startled by my voice, Cheng Hui opened his mouth and finally said three words: "I'm sorry..."

I didn't want to say anything, I opened the door of the unit abruptly, and wanted to leave, but I felt very unwilling after taking a step.Turning around, I saw Lao Cheng looking at me stupidly, I said viciously, "I'll wait for you!" and closed the door.

Walking out of Cheng Hui's community, the sky was just getting brighter. There were no people around at this time, and there was no way there would be a bus. I leaned against a utility pole by the roadside, thinking of Cheng Hui's charming smile by the sea, tears flowed down my cheeks down.

...

A few days after I got home, I started to study and do my homework dully, and for the first time since I went to school, I finished my homework for the holidays.

Philosophically speaking, it is impossible for a person to cross the same river twice.

Why?The dead are like this.

Not long after school started, Hu Yan resigned from the position of class monitor because she was afraid of delaying her studies. I volunteered to become the new monitor of the "exchange class".Firstly, he wanted to stimulate Lao Cheng's nerves, and secondly, he wanted to get himself too busy.

I won’t say much about the basketball game, because I was in a bad mood and scolded the referee on the court during the semifinals.We failed to play in the final, but with the excellent performance of our teammates, our school still won the third consecutive championship.

As for me and Cheng Hui, no one mentioned what happened that night again. On the surface, my life seems to have returned to the days of my first unrequited love... Cheng Hui’s lectures are still chic, and I still enjoy arguing with him It seems that when the office is empty, he will still make small noises and take advantage of him...but that's all.

I still remember that he liked to pinch my neck when I was tutoring in his office, but now he will only quietly point at the side...

I still remember when I hugged him before, he would smile and pat me on the back, but now he just stands there like a puppet...

I still remember that when I teased him before, he would wink at me mischievously, but now he just smiles lightly...

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The Buddha said: Looking back five hundred times in the previous life, only in exchange for a passing by in this life.If Cheng Hui and I are destined to pass by each other in this life, then I would rather not look back at him so boringly five hundred times in my previous life... (Borrow, sin, sin...)

Sometimes self-soothing.Maybe... It's not bad to be able to finish the third year of high school with Cheng Hui like this - this immature encounter...

Unexpectedly, an incident in mid-March completely broke Cheng Hui and me.