commemorating our third anniversary

I took her back to my house, the silence all the way, the exhaustion of thoughts, made me feel very tired.

"Hello, auntie, are you working?" I thought my mother went to bed very early, who knew that she was still preparing the vegetables to be sold the next day, and she hadn't even eaten dinner.

"Ah, Xiao Wu is here, go in and sit down."

"Well, auntie, shall I help you?"

"No, I'm fine. You and my family, Xiaojie, go in and eat some fruit."

"Mom, haven't you had dinner yet? I'll make you whatever you want."

"No, I'll make the dishes myself, and I'll do it myself."

"Wait until you finish the dishes, then cook the food. When do you want to rest, let me do it. I'll make egg fried rice for you."

"That's fine too."

"Xiaojie, are you going to make fried rice with eggs for auntie? How about I do it."

"Okay, you come and you come." Looking at her cooking fried rice with eggs, my heart is still very warm, it's just a burst of warmth and pain, I think such days will never happen again.

"Auntie, you can eat."

"Xiaojie, why do you ask others to cook for me? How embarrassing."

"Auntie, you are being polite. It's okay for such small things. Xiaojie and I are such good friends, so don't bother with me about such small things."

"Well, that's good, it's hard work for you, you go upstairs to rest"

"Well, Mom, let's go upstairs first."

In fact, I am really tired today, I really want to let me go upstairs to sleep soon.

"Joe, thank you just now for making my mother's dinner."

"You're welcome, that's what it should be. Besides, it's nothing. It's just fried rice with an egg, and I didn't let me cook a full banquet."

"Well, anyway, thank you."

"Xiaojie, can I hug you? Can I hug you and chat with you for a while before going to bed?" Looking at her expression, which seemed wronged, I still felt very distressed.

"Okay. Okay."

"I want to ask you, has your wedding date been set yet?"

"Well, it's settled. I don't know if God is playing tricks on me or what. I chose that day... I don't know how I feel when I know it."

"What's wrong? Is there something wrong with that day?"

"October 10th. Do you know what date it is?"

"What day is that?"

"Maybe you have forgotten, or you have actually met me for the first time, and you just met me with curiosity, loneliness, excitement, and fun. That was the day we first met. At first, they came to pick When I was living, I was thinking about how to go so fast, thinking about how to give you an explanation, and I agreed to it without paying attention to that day. When I looked at the familiar number again and again, I remembered that it was our first time. The date of the first meeting, maybe it was arranged by God on purpose, it was after you told me that we would not be able to maintain a relationship in the future, and soon they came to pick a date, and in the end they chose such a day, maybe it was God They are telling me that I should wake up, once I enter the door of marriage, I should completely end the relationship of these three years, and then be someone else's wife, someone else's daughter-in-law."

"God knows how to joke."

"Yeah, and it was a big joke."

"Xiaojie, sometimes I find that you are also cruel. You are almost married, but today you tell me so much about me. You make me feel very guilty, but what can I do? I think, what I can do , only in the remaining month, let me make it up to you and love you well. Let me love you well for another month. After one month, we are just friends, okay? Then let me be alone Go heal."

"No need, really, I don't think it's necessary anymore. I don't want you to heal my wounds alone after you make me happy. Even if you hurt me too much, I still don't want to see you sad because of me. .I told you so much today, maybe I have expressed all the dissatisfaction that has accumulated in my heart for the past three years. Stupid, why say it? What's the point."

"Xiaojie, I know, in the past three years, I've done a terrible job. In the past three years, you have never left, and you can get along with a difficult person like me for three years, and love me for three years. It's also your ability. Really, Few people can tolerate me, including my parents, so I know that you really love me with all your heart. You don’t care about the result, as long as you love with your heart, you don’t care about the hurt, even if you are scarred, but I am not, I always thought that I was afraid of getting hurt, and I was very careful to protect myself. You can say that I am selfish, but this is me, and I have always been like this. I know that this is not good for me, and it is not fair to you, but I... But, you Can you give me another chance, let me love you with all my heart and heart for a month. Give you the feeling of first love when we first met, and give us a good memory of each other. "

"Memories are all in my mind, happy and unhappy, but I remember the happy ones more. And I don't want to face the cruel reality soon after enjoying the good memories. It’s very painful, don’t you think? You’re right, I need time to accept the fact that I’m going to get married, I also need time to tell myself that it’s time to face the reality, and I need time to think about what will happen after getting married How should I get along with his family. Even if I don’t love him, I still have to do what I should do. Moreover, I have given you too many opportunities, and you always give me hope , but destroy hope with his own hands. Some opportunities are gone, like our time."

"No matter what you say, but I still want to treat you well and love you well in the last month."

"Then it's up to you. What you want to do is your business. How I want to face it is my choice."

Hearing her say that, my heart is still very sweet. Even if I know, or have a hunch that she may not be able to do well this month, I still have expectations for her. Maybe I am stupid, because she has violated so many promises. After the oath, I am still looking forward to it.Even if I have a premonition that I will be disappointed, but I still have to look forward to it, then do I count it, knowing that there is no way out, but I still want to find my own death, and I can't live without doing my own crimes.