you know i know

two years later...

On the eve of the summer vacation in 2009, Ye Chen searched for information in the electronic reading room of the school, and hung up QQ by the way.

There was a coughing sound, it turned out that someone on QQ sent a request to add.Ye Chen opened and added the person's profile, Bi Anhua, female, 20 years old, Yangcheng.With a heartbeat, Ye Chen accepted the addition request.

The girl was online, and she sent a sentence first: "Hi! My name is Lian Fang, a friend of Hua Yu."

Ye Chen replied, "It's you!"

……

One night during the summer vacation, Ye Chen asked Zhang Zifeng for a walk, and Zhang Zifeng only saw Ye Chen once after returning from Ye Chen's vacation.

In the past two months, Zhang Zifeng was extremely busy.My mother was seriously ill and stayed in the hospital every day, but I fell ill again.The doctor kept telling me to rest and rest!Zhang Zifeng could only endure the torment of illness and chose to stay by his mother's side.

The two walked for a while in silence, Ye Chen looked at Zhang Zifeng, opened his mouth to say something, but didn't say it.The evening wind gently brushed Zhang Zifeng's hair, and the hair danced with the wind, as chaotic as his own heart.Zhang Zifeng looked forward, giving Ye Chen a beautiful profile, a handsome and straight nose brought out her decisive personality.

Ye Chen hesitated, should he tell Zhang Zifeng about that matter?Where should I start?Does saying it mean the end?

"Do you have something to say to me?" Zhang Zifeng noticed that Ye Chen hesitated to speak.

"I...I..." Ye Chen stammered.

"What's the matter with you?" Zhang Zifeng stopped and looked at Ye Chen suspiciously.

"I'm in love with someone else." Ye Chen summoned up his courage and looked at Zhang Zifeng.Zhang Zifeng was not surprised. In the past two months, although he didn't care enough about Ye Chen, it wasn't that he didn't care at all.

"Can you tell me who she is?" Zhang Zifeng looked very calm.

"Lian Fang, Xiao Fang who has lived with Hua Yu for two years." Ye Chen's tone was a little timid. Zhang Zifeng had told him more than once not to associate with Hua Yu, including the people around Hua Yu.

"How did you know each other?" Zhang Zifeng still seemed calm, but his heart was turbulent. Xiao Yezi, why didn't you listen to my advice?I managed to pull you out of that endless vortex, and you went back to the past!

"Xiaofang asked for my QQ number from Huayu, and she added me at the end of June. I have always been curious about her. At the beginning, we were talking about Huayu, and as we chatted we..." Ye Chen His voice became smaller and smaller, and he lowered his head, not daring to look at Zhang Zifeng again.

"You guys fell in love after chatting, right?" Zhang Zifeng said coldly.

"Xiaofang is actually a woman with a hard life. The two years she and Huayu have been together can be described in four words-the water is hot. Huayu is lazy. Every time she looks for a job, she complains that she is tired and quits after working for a while. Xiaofang has to stay at home and rely on Xiaofang to support her. Xiaofang not only has to work, but also has to be beaten and kicked by Huayu when she returns home. Xiaofang also wants to break up with her, but every time she mentions breaking up, Huayu repents and beats her. Myself. The two of us wereted like this until Xiaofang found me..."

"You don't need to tell the rest of the story. It's nothing more than that you saw injustice, drew your sword to help, and finally used your love to help Xiaofang get rid of the flower rain. This is exactly the same as when I helped you get rid of the flower rain." Zhang Zifeng's tone was full of sarcasm.

"I'm sorry, I can't control myself." Ye Chen's tears were about to flow out.

"There is no right or wrong in love, since you have chosen, love it well!" Zhang Zifeng couldn't bear to see Ye Chen cry, but isn't his heart also crying?

"Feng, don't go, I love her, but I love you more!! Don't leave me!" Ye Chen cried and stopped Zhang Zifeng who was about to leave.

Zhang Zifeng smiled sadly: "I didn't abandon you, it was you who abandoned me!"

"Feng, I..." Ye Chen's tears flowed out uncontrollably.

Zhang Zifeng sighed: "Chen, no matter what, thank you for telling me this yourself. At least you dare to face it. You made me respect you."

"Feng, do you know? It's been four years, and I've become less and less aware of your need for me. In your eyes, I seem to be dispensable. But Xiaofang, she needs me, and she is like a child every day." Stick to me just the same."

"It turns out that what you need is someone who clings to you every day. Congratulations, you found it." Zhang Zifeng couldn't help but mocked again.

"Feng, don't say that, okay? The four years I've been with you are very happy! But I'm also very lonely! I want to see you, not just because I want to see you, but only when you have time and opportunity. When it comes to you, even calling you must be at your convenience, have you ever thought about my feelings?" Ye Chen was sobbing.

"I'm sorry, I..." Zhang Zifeng felt very guilty, and took out a handkerchief to wipe Ye Chen's tears.In the past four years, Ye Chen has indeed suffered a lot of grievances.What about yourself?Isn't it also under tremendous pressure?The love for Ye Chen is always incomplete.Since Ye Chen went to college, the conflicts between the two have increased. The conflicts come and go, and they always revolve around one point, that they have a family and children.Ye Chen was tired, and he was also tired.Letting go may not be a good thing, instead of endless entanglement, it is better to give Ye Chen and himself a good time.The once predicted summer has finally come, and it seems that everything is concentrated in this summer.Come on, let the storm come more violently! !

"Little Yezi, life is short, as long as you are happy, I have nothing to complain about. I remember who said that the good things you get in the end are not luck. Sometimes, you have to work hard before you meet by chance later. Hope You will cherish it in the future!" Zhang Zifeng tried his best to calm down, but his words were very bitter.

Ye Chen looked at Zhang Zifeng, hoping that Zhang Zifeng would scold him severely and snatch him back into her arms, but he only saw Zhang Zifeng's calm and tired face, maybe this is the "indifferent" that he often sees in books. "...

At the intersection near Ye Chen's house, the two stopped at the same time.

"Feng, will we still be friends in the future?" Ye Chen was very sad, but still wanted to hold on to the last hope.

"What do you think?" Zhang Zifeng forced a smile on his face.

Ye Chen gently hugged Zhang Zifeng, tears blurred his eyes.

Zhang Zifeng didn't dare to look at Ye Chen, and squeezed Ye Chen's arm with both hands: "I'm leaving, you take care!" After saying this, he turned and left.

Ye Chen looked at Zhang Zifeng's back like a knife, wishing that Zhang Zifeng could turn around and wave at him like before, but Zhang Zifeng didn't look back until he disappeared at the corner of the street...

In the autumn of 2010, Zhang Zifeng came to the bank of the Han River alone. The music cafe beside the river bank was playing a familiar song "Equator and North Pole". Listening to this song, Zhang Zifeng fell into deep memories. Five years ago, she and A lovelorn girl listened to "The Equator and the North Pole" all afternoon, almost going crazy, but she smiled and said to the girl, "It's okay, I'll listen to it with you."

……

A gust of breeze blew by, and the willows by the river fluttered with the wind. Zhang Zifeng's eyes began to blur. She seemed to see a girl fiddled with the willow branches and made a playful face at herself. Zhang Zifeng sighed and stared blankly. On the sparkling river surface under the setting sun, there seems to be someone whispering in the ear:

who remembers

that lost autumn

strip the soul from reality

What kind of beginning is only pure touch

who remembers

I passed by your door that day

The home is full of dark night

I put my fingers against the fence and gently stroke

Pass by

who remembers

All we ever achieved was a life

Life is the other side we can't reach

tears of joy

who remembers

when we bring our souls down to reality

neither right nor wrong

can listen to the same song again

I can also smile relatively like yesterday

who remembers

only occasionally

occasionally

will be careless under the gentle moonlight

The fragmented silence scattered all over the ground

……

<End of the book>