Me and Boss Bear

I lay with my back to the boss, and all kinds of emotions came to my heart, including warmth, gratitude, guilt, and self-blame... unbelievable tears flowed down, and the flow became more and more turbulent, and I couldn't stop it.

"I'm not forcing you, my heart, I just hope you understand." The boss said this sentence silently behind my back.

Boss, my good boss, how can I not understand your mind, I am alone in Xiamen, in this cold society, only you and I are the best, and it even makes me feel the warmth of a family.It seems that in the dark, you have become my inner support. I always look so strong in my daily self, but every time I think of having you by my side, I can't help but feel a burst of sweetness in my heart.It seems that I have decided that no matter what happens, there will always be a boss who loves me deeply standing behind me, as if no matter what kind of storm I have experienced, there will always be a warm harbor waiting for my return.

The bright starry sky outside the window is still so pleasant, it seems to be the most suitable for sweet couples who rely on each other to sit by the sea and look up at the starry sky.But now the relationship between me and the boss is like a red thread that has not been successfully connected, and it can't hold the hearts of the two of us.I am the one who is sorry for the boss, and it is my blessing to meet someone like the boss, but I have been hesitating all the time. The pressure on the boss's mind is all my fault.Obviously, he wanted to accept the boss in his heart, but unknowingly, he broke the heart of the boss...

"I met Mr. Qian in SM Plaza and asked him to send me back. This is really an accident!" I turned my back and managed to control my voice before saying this.I slowly closed my eyes, hoping that this hurtful conversation tonight would be over.

"I hope so too..." the boss said.

My heart trembled violently.The boss said something that I couldn't imagine.Tears overflowed from my closed eyelashes again, how many times have I cried tonight?Never been so cowardly... Have you lost your patience with me?Did my behavior hurt you to this extent?You hope so too?Is it not?What do you mean by that?Are you unwilling to believe even my explanation?So what can I say?Maybe I shouldn't come to your house with you tonight, and let everything pass by...

After a long time, we stopped talking, and the extreme sadness in my heart caused my tears to be uncontrollable.The boss reached out to hug me again, but suddenly found that my body was shaking.The boss was shocked, and hurriedly raised his upper body and asked me with concern, "What's the matter, Xiao Lin, why are you shivering? Are you cold?" I was shocked, and hurriedly stopped the shaking of my body, forcibly suppressed my runny eyes, and still did not speak. .The boss hurriedly reached out to help me lift the quilt, rubbed my face with his hand, and suddenly stopped.He stretched out his hand to touch my face, and all the tears on my face stuck to his hand.

The boss got up, turned my body, and I was facing him. "What's the matter, Xiao Lin, why are you crying!?" The boss asked eagerly, holding my right shoulder tightly.

Seeing this scene, I finally couldn't restrain my emotions and burst into tears.I don't even understand myself, why am I crying?Because of your cowardice?Because of my entanglement with this emotion?Because I broke the boss's heart? ... I don't know anymore, I only know that I am facing the boss's concerned eyes, and my tears keep flowing.

The boss immediately hugged me tightly in his arms, and my wet face stuck to his shirt and his fleshy, warm chest.The boss didn't speak, and let me vent my emotions to my heart's content. He just hugged me tightly with both hands, and kept patting my back lightly. At this moment, in his eyes, I really became an "injured" child. What is given to me more is only that more warmth.

After a while I finally had enough crying.The crying has stopped, and the body is no longer shaking from crying.Only then did the boss let me go gently, and looked at me gently in the dark, almost nose to nose, and I could clearly feel the boss' breathing. "Stinky boy, you are so grown up, you still cry like a child, why are you crying?" the boss said softly.

"Boss, I know that you have always been very kind to me, and I know your heart for me." I said weakly, "It's my fault, it's because I can't take it, I can't let it go, I'm entangled too much. You have always loved me so much, but I have not accepted you for a long time, I made you sad, I made you angry..."

When the boss heard this, he burst out laughing with a "puchi". "You silly boy, you really look like a child, and you cried for a long time because of this?" After speaking, he touched my head with his right hand.

I paused, and hurriedly explained, "What happened this afternoon was really an accident. I really bumped into Mr. Qian by accident while waiting for the bus at SM Plaza. He just sent me back. Don't think too much about it. It really has nothing to do with him! Please believe me!" I looked eagerly at the boss, his eyes shining with gentle light in the dark.

"Okay, okay, I believe you, if you don't believe me, who else can you trust? If you hold on and keep explaining, it will make me feel that you really mean something to him, hehehe!" The boss grinned. I couldn't see it, but I could feel it. The smile was so real and gentle.

I hurriedly said, "No, no, absolutely not, I only have..." At this point, I stopped suddenly, and my face turned red in the dark. Fortunately, it was night and the boss couldn't see.

"Who is the only one in your heart? Tell me?" The boss asked provocatively. I insisted that I didn't have the nerve to say it, and my face was hot.Seeing this, the boss put his arms around me and laughed loudly, "You boy, are you blushing?".I was speechless for a moment, and really wanted to ask him back, "How do you know I'm blushing, can you see it?"...

I was quiet, and said again, "Just now you said that, you were clearly angry. I was so scared, afraid that you would be angry. I have never seen you so angry. I was also afraid that you would not believe what I said, let go of me, and no longer love I don’t care about me as much as before.” I breathed lightly, looking at the boss’s face, “I’m really afraid of losing you, I only have you in my heart. I’m afraid of the worldly eyes, I rejected you impulsively, But I am so afraid of losing you, and I think about you every day, can you imagine my inner feelings and pain?" After speaking, I gently buried my head in the boss's arms.

"Understood, I understand. How can I say that I have lived more than 20 years longer than you? This kind of identity is not only after I met you. I have had your thoughts before, but... hey...how should I put it? "The boss put me in his arms and squeezed my shoulder with his right hand.I lay quietly in his arms and felt his heartbeat.

I looked up at his face, and even though it was so dark that I couldn't see it clearly, it made me feel so happy.The boss turned his head sideways, his right cheek was pressed against my left cheek, and his beard rubbed against my face, which was very comfortable.The boss suddenly turned his face and covered my mouth with his lips.I was taken aback, but before I could react, the boss's tongue had already reached into my mouth, and our tongues quickly blended together, pouring out the word "love".

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"Why do sometimes seemingly correct choices make people so sad?" I lay back in the boss's arms again, moaning.

The boss smiled softly, "Sometimes there is no way, society is like this, life is like this, people are not allowed to change, it is not so easy to change!..."

"It's very meaningful, I don't understand"

"You don't need to understand, just let him go. I don't want to think about it too much. On the contrary, it seems that you are much more sensible than me." The boss laughed.

"Sanity? I've been too sane for so long, haven't I? Sometimes it's not a good thing," I said stubbornly.

"Hahaha, yes yes, it is not a good thing, it made my baby Xiao Lin cry." The boss Xi said with a smile, "Okay, okay, you still have a fever, let's sleep?"

"En!" I agreed softly, I let go of my hand, turned around and was about to lie flat and sleep, but the boss hugged me back into his arms again.

"Just sleep in my arms, so I can rest assured." The boss leaned into my ear and said softly.

I didn't speak, just buried my head in his arms again, continued to wrap my arms around his waist, with a sweet smile on the corner of my mouth, as an answer.

The boss gently hugged me in his arms, comforted me with his right hand from top to bottom over and over again, and said softly, "I can finally hold you in my arms with peace of mind."

"Me too." I said to the boss.

I snuggled into the boss's arms, and at this moment I really felt how warm his chest was. Lying in his arms seemed to help me through the whole winter.I hugged the boss a little tighter, buried my face in his chest and rubbed it, then raised my head again, and the tip of my nose just touched the boss's chin.I like the feeling of the full beard brushing my face lightly. "Boss, I love you so much!" I said affectionately.

"Me too!" The boss responded to my words.

We both laughed softly, the boss squeezed my shoulder, "Mian, you say what you say, look at us two big men, hahaha!" I couldn't help smiling shyly.

"Okay, okay, stop making trouble, go to sleep!" The boss urged with a smile.In this way, in the warm arms of the boss, I fell asleep sweetly.A night like this is something I've been thinking about for a long time, and now it's finally come true.Soon I fell asleep, and even the dream was full of the sweetness of love...