dance like a butterfly

No matter how stupid comrades are, they can guess what's going on after seeing such a scene, let alone Guo Jingqi is not stupid!

Come over and pat me on the shoulder, Guo Jingqi said: "The little man who was flirting with you just now is the old Han you mentioned, right? Did he hit you?"

My heart is desolate, like the northwest wind blowing through the snow-covered grassy beach.

Tears rushed from the sockets and dripped onto the floor.Snot and saliva hung on my chin like glue.

"How can this be? If you like someone, you should cherish them. Why do you do this?"

Guo Jingqi was talking to himself.

Love, this simple word, in the two parties in love, because of the differences in their personalities, the way of expression is simply too different.However, the sweetness of love and the lingering lingering of love are everyone's supreme pursuit.

I don't know, if I had chosen Guo Jingqi back then, what would be the outcome of my love affair now.

The flaws in my character made me hold a Yitian sword with a cold light. The two encounters with Lao Han either hurt him, or hurt myself even more painfully when I returned the sword.

Perhaps, after getting the news of my return to Xi'an today, Lao Han waited for me at Zhang Wenqing's house, just thinking about reconciling with me and reconciling.However, when he saw Guo Jingqi, he was no longer furious.He must be thinking, after being separated from him for a few days, I, Xiaohui, couldn't bear the loneliness anymore, so I found a rough guy and took him home. Isn't this a demonstration for him? What is this?

The super sensitive sense of smell among comrades made Zhang Wenqing and Lao Han definitely able to tell that Guo Jingqi was a comrade.

Lao Han will definitely not allow me to play wild for him under his nose!

How could he endure such humiliation? !

In Huaxian County, I was the one who broke up with Lao Han, and he was so annoyed that he left.

At Yuxiang Gate, I took a comrade home. No matter how tolerant he is, Lao Han will definitely feel cold from the soles of his feet, let alone his heart.

But, can Guo Jingqi be blamed for this?

It was me, after all, we had a good relationship with each other before, maybe in the past three years, every time I think of Xi'an, I will think of the tall, handsome, smiling and sunny Hong Xiaojun, who went to Xi'an to do business , See if he is right after all?

When I realized that it was inappropriate to cry like this in front of Guo Jingqi, I stood up, held back the sadness in my heart, stopped crying and went to the bathroom to wash my face.

Alas, let it be like this, if it is destined to end this fate with Lao Han, it can only be like this!

If I were to bow my head to Lao Han to express my deep regret for him, to explain to him that Guo Jingqi's visit to my house was not what he imagined, I would never be able to do it according to my personality.

I haven't been so lowly that people bow their heads, you old Han can think whatever you want!You old Han hit me over and over again, but you have a beating hand, I'm used to you!Looking at you like that, you still want to beat me to death today!go to hell!

Thinking about it, I became angry with Lao Han.

I was like a severe patient suffering from typhoid fever, thinking about Lao Han hot and cold for a while, thinking about the kindness and resentment in it.

Guo Jingqi was sitting on the sofa, tapping the glass top of the tea table boredly.Seeing me come out, I smiled naively: "Is it because you guys keep arguing?"

"No, very little noise."

"Is he serious with you?" Guo Jingqi asked.

I admit that Lao Han is very serious about me.

Just like what Xueping and Meimei felt, as for the relationship between the two of us, they don't necessarily know, but they can already feel how obvious Lao Han's mood changes when I'm with Lao Han.

I smiled and said, "Well, let's not stay here anymore. It's not very convenient for you to live here, so let's go to a hotel."

Guo Jingqi stood up with a smile and did not speak.

In Liuhua Hotel, I registered a house for Guo Jingqi.

"Friend!" Guo Jingqi sat down on the sofa and called me in a low voice.

When I looked at him, the yellow halo of the floor lamp was covering him.

"Friend" Guo Jingqi shouted again.

Although I didn't answer, I could foresee what he might say after his affectionate call.

In such a space where two people are alone, the love they once had for each other is impossible not to make people fantasize about it.

"Is it because you never thought about me after we broke up three years ago?" Guo Jingqi repeated the old saying.

What?never thought about?is it possible?

To be honest, I should be grateful to Guo Jingqi.I thank him for giving me the first sexual excitement in my life.Even in the subsequent passion with Lao Zuo Lao Han, not every time can reach or even exceed the feeling of being with Guo Jingqi.

Before I met Lao Zuo and Lao Han, I have been searching hard in my life.After that contact with Guo Jingqi, I have always wanted to find a mature man like him: simple and honest, enthusiastic, calm yet lively, with a strong physique and a sexy and tough appearance.People say that sex is not the whole of life, but how important is sexual attraction to choose a person to spend your life with!

However, the boundless fallen trees are rustling, and the thousand sails are all gone, so I am still constantly disappointed.

Time and time again in the long nights, when I was so stimulated by the exuberant hormones of youth that I couldn’t sleep, I thought of Xinjiang, which was like fruit and honey, Aksu, who was dressed up in the Kucha Cultural Festival, and the empty movie theater. Those suffocating but crazy feelings and images in the corner of the movie, I deeply miss the rhythmic aura of the man on Guo Jingqi.

All of that is as gorgeous and magnificent as the rainbow after the rain, hanging in the high sky of my life, so clear, but it is so far away if I want to touch it.

I even regretted whether I should have seized that feeling in the first place.Should I follow him to Awati, find a job with him, and settle down there.

Guo Jingqi has four children and a wife who rides a horse and herds sheep.I can also not care about anything, just so that he can comfort my lonely youth.

However, when I woke up from my sexual fantasies, I felt how shameless I was!

Am I destroying other people's families just for my own selfish sexual desires?As if only God knows the abnormal relationship between me and him in this world, can I be worthy of his children and his wife?Can I ignore my elders and leave my hometown for a simple desire and emotion?

The hustle and bustle comes for fame, and the bustle goes for profit. This is the sage's summary of all living beings.

I admit that I am an ordinary person, I have no official career, and I can't make a fortune, but I can't just go to a remote Xinjiang, which is thousands of miles away, to a desolate small town.

I can only let that love be killed in my memory, and I can only force myself to forget him.

So, after replying a letter to Guo Jingqi tactfully, I didn't read all his letters from now on, and just tore them up and threw them away.Although my heart was very painful and I was very reluctant, I said in my heart: I'm sorry, friend!

"Friend, have you thought about going back to Xinjiang with me? Now you and Lao Han are like this, he's gone!" Guo Jingqi's eyes were enthusiastic and persistent.

I used to watch Ang Lee's "Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon". When I saw Luo Xiaohu chasing all the way for love, he chased him all the way to the prince's mansion, and came in through the window in the middle of the night, hugged Yu Jiaolong madly and said to her: "Jiaolong, come back with me!" Let's go to Xinjiang, Xinjiang!" At that time, my thoughts crossed thousands of mountains and rivers more than once, flew across the vast sea of ​​people, and searched for the shadow of Guo Jingqi one by one in the crowd.

This scene has appeared in my dreams more than once.

But today, when Guo Jingqi appeared in front of me like a dream, and when he reproduced the lines of the movie affectionately, my heart was already calm.

I smiled and shook my head: "It's not that I don't want to, it's that I can't."

How could I possibly give him an affirmative answer!The current bond with Lao Zuo is hard to shake off. Although Lao Han is in deep crisis and fascinated, how can I continue to entangle a relationship that has been barren.

However, in just one thought, someone whispered in my ear: "Xiaohui, go with Guo Jingqi, don't think too much, only if you go with him, can you get out of the whirlpool of Lao Han and Lao Zuo. broke free!"

I shivered nervously.

Looking around, there was no one around me except Guo Jingqi and me!

Guo Jingqi became anxious when she heard this, and grabbed my hand: "My friend, haven't you ever liked me?"

I nodded: "I like it!"

I don't like him, how could I spend those two days with him?I don't like him, how can I often think of him!

Guo Jingqi exerted strength in her hands and pulled me into her arms.

His taste of the man that I have been thinking about since then is slowly approaching.

This smell makes me want to hold tightly in my arms all the time, and never let go in this life.

His thick lips were attached.

I hadn’t made out with Lao Han for a few days, and something poked my heart, a familiar yet unfamiliar warmth flowed through my whole body, and my restless evil roots swelled straight up , Just like the dry land dragon suddenly filled with water, so suffocated, so full.