dance like a butterfly

The landscape of West Lake is still the same,

It's hard to look haggard and full of autumn.

Frost dyed red maple cold forest thin,

Unbearable to look back and recall the old tour.

Back then, in Emei, once alone,

Accompanied by the green lamp, knocking on the ancient chime, and practice hard for thousands of years.

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This is a libretto of the classic aria "Broken Bridge" in "The Legend of the White Snake" in Qin Opera.The land of the Three Qin Dynasties is known to all women and children.

I also know that I have pity on my kind of emotion that is different from the world. I don't know what fate in the previous life led to this encounter with Lao Han in this life!People say: If you cultivate for a hundred years, you can ride on the same boat, and if you cultivate for a thousand years, you can sleep together.Could it be that from now on, I have to go back to the Buddha's feet, kowtow again like pounding garlic, and kneel down for many years before I can get back my lover? !

Facing this fleeting love, I understand that I can no longer take it lightly!

"Being a monk? Can you become a monk?" Old Han's eyes widened, startled and angry.

"You don't believe it? If you don't believe it, I'll show it to you!"

I don't believe it anymore, as long as you really break up with me, I will become a monk and show you!I know that I am an ordinary person, and I have no ideals or ambitions in my life. I just want to spend my life with my lover in an ordinary way until I grow old.Since I want to spend the rest of my life with you with all my heart, but you are here to betray me today, then why should I live!I might as well go to an ancient temple, under the lingering green smoke and the crisp sound of wooden fish, slowly forget the pain that wants to eat me inch by inch.I want to resolve the sins of the past and present life, and then pray to the Buddha to give me the fate of the next life. Even after ten thousand kalpas, I will meet you again at a certain intersection, even if I am no longer a body of flesh and blood, even if I turn into a tree , I also want to be full of flowers carefully, standing on the side of the road you must pass every day, just so that you can see me every day!

Seeing me reach out to open the door, Lao Han hugged me: "Xiaohui, don't do this, let brother think again, think again!"

I sneered, "You think, what else are you thinking? Do you know what I fell in love with you at the beginning?"

Old Han heard me say this abruptly, and couldn't help but widen his small eyes again, and looked at me in surprise with his neck stuck.

"Since I have been with you, I think you are a dignified, bloody, and courageous person! I think you are a real man! I know that the road of comrades is not easy, and I want to find someone who can be together for the rest of my life. No This kind of personality is absolutely impossible to go to the end. I have been worried, worried that you will flash me halfway. I have been frightened more than once. I was afraid of tigers and wolves, afraid that you would make mistakes, and afraid that we would not be able to go. In the end. In just a few months, you slowly made me feel at ease, I almost believed my sixth sense, and I almost believed that I would live my life happily. But today, you Let me see you clearly, you are a coward, and you are not worthy of me treating you as a real man! Count me as Hong Xiaojun for being blind!"

I pushed him hard, reached out and continued to pull the car door.

Old Han couldn't hold back any longer, and cried: "Xiaohui, you really wronged brother, do you think brother is willing to abandon you? Do you think brother is happy? You are a heartless thief! Brother is not thinking of uncle, for your own good?"

I don't know where the strength came from, but when I heard him say this, I pushed him away, pointed at his nose and growled: "Where did you have the courage to send back to my house? You were at my door What did you say to my second sister-in-law? Huh, I know too, you are just making excuses! I understand that I have an accident this time, and you despise me for being ugly, embarrassing you, and causing you trouble. You can also be regarded as an upright man, just say it clearly, no matter how stupid I am, I have self-knowledge, I don’t need to pester you anymore. There are many people who are younger than me and look better than me in the world, I will clear the way for you, so as not to waste time Disgusting!"

I must have looked like a red-eyed rooster. The grief and disappointment in my heart rushed out of my heart, and my tears came out again.I gasped for breath, my hands trembling: "You are for me? I think you want me to die! You are for my dad? Well, everyone has a different understanding of happiness. Take my dad for example, he gave birth to me , he expects me to grow up. That's right, I have grown up, but the happiness I want is different from what he imagined. In my father's eyes, he thinks that I will be happy if I marry a wife and have a son. .Maybe, he still wants to see my son marry another wife. His wish is endless. But, that is not the happiness I want, but my pain! If you really love me, then If I go to find a woman to marry, it will delay the happiness of at least three people, or even more people! Besides, I can’t marry a woman, let alone live with this woman for the rest of my life! You are someone who has experienced that before. Life is worse than death, and now you just crawled out, and you want to push me into the fire pit again? Is this your love? Let me die!"

I was incoherent, I didn't know what I said.All I saw was Old Han standing there in a daze, with his mouth wide open and silent for a long time.

"Are you dumb? Just give me a reason to let me accept it. Even throwing an old dress, at least there must be a reason, right? Since you want to abandon me, you don't have to worry about face, I won't pester you , to trouble you. If you are a man, just tell the truth!"

I must be crazy, I must have red eyes, I lost my mind like a shrew, pointed at Old Han and started cursing.

In Lao Han's experience, no one would scold him so boldly.After saying this, I also stared. I waited for him to react and then beat me up and drove me out of the car.If this is the case, then my love affair will come to an end completely.

Later, Lao Han told me about my situation at that time. Lao Han said that my eyes were red at that time, and I looked fierce, as if he had dug my ancestral grave.

However, Lao Han didn't do anything.He didn't.

He stopped looking at me, put his head in his hands, thumped his own head twice, and laughed loudly.

What's so funny?Am I looking ridiculous?I froze.

Lao Han's laughter was hearty at first, and his voice changed from a low voice to a high voice, and then he lingered low again, laughing and laughing, but slowly turned into a whimper.At first I couldn't tell whether he was laughing or crying. When I saw his tears, he reached out and hugged me again.

This time, it was my turn to be dumbfounded.Is Lao Han crazy?

God, don't you scare me, if you only punish one person, punish me!

I went to break Lao Han's head, but he had more strength than me, and his tears rubbed my face and neck.

His body trembled violently, and the sound of crying changed from whimpering to howling.

When Lao Han cried, my heart softened: "Brother, don't cry, if you are really embarrassed, let's talk about it, don't cry, what do you want me to do when you cry."

Speaking of this, my heart is like a knife.

God, just let me go to hell, but don't make things difficult for my brother!

"Brother, let's talk about it and break up. I promise you to break up. You have to take care of yourself in the future. If you can't, find a young man who doesn't have a family to drag you down and live well. You must promise me!"

Lao Han suddenly bit my neck, and I couldn't say anything because of the pain. I sat there straight and didn't dare to move anymore.

Lao Han raised his head and scolded with tears all over his face: "You fart! Who are you as a brother? When did my brother despise you? Remember to me, except for you, there is no other brother in this world who digs his heart like this." The man who took out his lungs!"

Do you know what happiness is?

Happiness is when the ice and snow melt, peaches and plums bloom all over in an instant, happiness is the vulgar curse that Lao Han said to me!Happiness is when my lover puts me in my heart all the time. Happiness, happiness, I never tire of looking at each other, and my lover is by my side!

Lao Han was like me, with tears on his face, but a smile on his face.

"Didn't you say to break up? Why did you change your mind again?" I asked knowingly.

"What you said just now made my brother understand a truth: forced love will not bring happiness, and marriage arranged by parents may also cause tragedy. We are not Liang Shanbo and Zhu Yingtai, at least we can fight for it. It has been so long Oh, I just realized that sometimes your stubborn temper makes sense. You are right, if we fulfill Uncle’s wish, we will be happy on the surface, but in fact, at least it will hurt you, brother, and That 'her' may have harmed more people."

Lao Han suddenly held my face in his hands, and gently kissed the scar on my left cheek.

I closed my eyes, I knew that I had waited too long for Lao Han's caress.

When his mustache touched my cheek, that kind of soul-stirring intoxication, bit by bit, stinging like a ignited fuse, slowly penetrated into the depths of my heart I couldn't help but shudder.

In my heart, the fragment of "Broken Bridge" sang again in my heart:

Longing for the beautiful scenery of the West Lake

Spring is rippling in my heart

Meeting an official is really a coincidence...

Suddenly, I heard Lao Han whispering: "But, how can I explain to uncle?"