bear shadow

The bus passed by the junior high school I had studied in, and I seemed to miss it a bit, and before I knew it, I had already rang the bell.When the bell rang, I realized that I had pressed the wrong station.

I got out of the car in embarrassment under the eyes of everyone asking "Why didn't I get off the car after I rang the bell".

Looking at the school gate that once followed you in and out, you can still see the classroom at that time in the distance.At that time, I always liked the wind blowing on the fence outside the classroom.

You always reach out with both hands and hug me from my armpits.I'm always frightened by your behavior, and then I want to beat you up.

But you still laughed and said to me, "That's right, very informative." Then you turned your head and ran away, so angry at your childish behavior that you didn't want to be angry.

Until one day, I found that I seemed to be obsessed with such slapstick.

I didn't want to continue thinking about it, so I had to walk home.I miss this street view, I know I will pass by your home.Hope to see you, but afraid to be seen by you.

When I passed by, I looked inside, and the iron gates at the door were all down, so I thought I should go out.Shrugging my shoulders with a helpless expression, I walked on the way home.

When I got home, I turned on the computer, played music and read novels, and suddenly instant messaging popped out of the chat window.It turned out to be him, but why did he keep me secret?

"Are you going to play ball? We have a date."

"Looking for sports idiots to play ball, thank you for thinking of it."

"Ha, I forgot."

"Do you all play at night?"

"The course is cooler at night."

"By the way, I just passed by your house and saw your iron gate was lowered. I thought I was going out."

"No, the iron gate broke down a few days ago and hasn't been repaired yet, so it's been put down forever!"

"So that's the case, let's stop talking and I'm going to take a shower first."

"Well, goodbye."

"Break by."

However, it has been so many years.Although the heart will no longer hurt, but the feeling of the past is missing.We have never been in love, but I secretly love him deeply.

I didn't have the courage to say "I like you" to him. I was even more afraid to see him show that disappointed and disgusted look to me.

When we are not sure about each other, I choose to keep that ambiguous relationship.Sometimes people don't want to possess this person, they are just obsessed with this feeling.

We will be jealous, he is kind to others, but also happy because he is kind to himself.When such feelings become memories, perhaps the bottom of my heart will be even sweeter.

Turn off the computer and go to sleep, hoping that tomorrow will be another sunny day.Today is the last day of the game, I think they should come back to the north at night!

Maybe I will meet Fat Boy on campus tomorrow, thinking of this, I am excited and hope that tomorrow will come soon.Someone once said, "Think about it by day, dream at night." I think this is the case!

In the dream, I saw a big tree and a prairie full of flowers. Under the tree, the fat boy pointed his hand at me. I ran towards him, but found that I hadn't moved forward at all.

It turned out that my hands were dragging the corners of my clothes. I looked in the direction of my face, and when I looked carefully, I saw "his face." I didn't understand why he stopped me like this.

I only know that in the end I fell into a very deep hole together with "him", and the darkness continued to erode around me. I was like a drowning person in the sea, desperately looking for the drifting wood.

After waking up from the dream, my head still seemed to be in a mess, which made me unable to calm down.

The body still vaguely felt the sense of fear at that time, and trembled slightly.

I have often dreamed of this darkness without understanding what it meant to me.

I just wish I could see you soon, Fatty.