true love never sleeps

The woman quietly put the phone back in the distance, without saying anything, just buried herself in the bed silently.

After the man took a shower, he got on the bed gently, and held the woman in his arms.The pillow was soaked with tears. After a year and a half of marriage, the woman had a sleepless night for the first time.

The next day, the man went home early, his frowning slightly, his cautious words and deeds were all expected by the woman.The woman suppressed the turmoil in her heart and tried her best to keep calm.

During the meal, the man finally lost his composure and expressed his doubts.

"Don't you have anything to ask me?"

"no"

……

"Yesterday's phone call..."

"It must have been your colleague who called yesterday! I'm sorry, I was too tired last night and fell asleep shortly after I was young. I forgot to tell you. Didn't it cause you any trouble?!"

"Actually, actually, that phone call, that phone call..."

"Is that call important? I really didn't mean not to tell you. If you delay your work, you forgive me! I really didn't hide it on purpose! For the sake of my hard work preparing dinner, don't tell me I care about it! I promise I won't do it next time! You see, the food is going to be cold, let's eat quickly!"

Looking at the woman's pleading eyes, the man's slightly frown deepened a little.The man didn't speak any more, but just looked at the woman with complicated eyes for a moment.The two of them had their own concerns, one after another, each mechanically filled their mouths with food that they had no idea what it tasted like.

That night, the two of them turned back to each other and slept without hugging each other for the first time.

No one of them mentioned what happened that day again, but the communication between the two of them became less and less, and they treated each other more and more strangely.

The man's brows furrowed deeper and deeper, he sighed more and more, and the corners of his mouth, which had begun to turn up slightly, became tighter and tighter.

Since that day, the woman has not had a good night's sleep, and is often awakened by nightmares shortly after falling asleep. Every time she wakes up, her face is covered with tears.

Men often look at women with guilt and worry in their eyes. Women know that some switches have been turned on, the gears of fate have started to turn, and there is no going back between them.

Therefore, when the man brought up the matter again a week later, the woman did not escape.

The man told her that he was gay and that the man on the phone was called An An, who was the love of his life.

The days with An An are the happiest things in a man's life.However, one day after graduating from university, An An suddenly disappeared.

During that time, the man frantically searched for An An day and night, but he found no news after searching for a long time.At that time, the man was just a college student who had just graduated, and no matter how superior his family was and how capable he was, there were limits to what he could do without real power.

The world is so big that it is easy for a person to hide.Coupled with his father's obstruction, the cruel reality really made the man disheartened.

The man knew that An An's disappearance was related to his father. He could understand what his father had done, but he couldn't forgive him.The man hated his father, but he hated An An's evasion and withdrawal even more.

Men began to indulge themselves, indulging in a life of feasting and sensuality every day, and even became obsessed with taking drugs.All he wanted was to numb his aching heart.However, after the indulgence and depravity, what remains is only more obvious pain and emptiness.

The man didn't know what to do to stop the pain in his exhausted heart. He thought, if he died, his heart wouldn't hurt anymore. If he died, An An wouldn't come back to see him for the last time, would he regret it? .

So, the man locked himself in the house, without eating, drinking or sleeping every day, just quietly recalling the little things he had with An'an by himself.When his father found him, he had tortured himself until he was skinny and dying.

Hovering on the verge of death, the man woke up from a coma and looked at his father's haggard and exhausted face, suddenly realizing that he was so selfish.After only seeing each other for a few days, his father suddenly aged by dozens of years, so the man hesitated.

In fact, men understand, and have always understood.

Living alone in the world, life does not only belong to oneself. His parents have worked hard to bring him up. They gave him a lot of love and care, which he can never afford in his life. He should treat the people he loves Be responsible with those who love you.

Maybe the father's approach was a bit excessive, but to put it bluntly, he just didn't want his son to bear the blame of the world, and wanted to give his son a better future.

It's just that a man has been unwilling to face it. If he doesn't find a place to vent out the sadness, pain, and resentment in his heart, he won't be able to bear it.

Poor parents all over the world, the man finally compromised and forgave his father.

The man began to numb himself with heavy work, but when the night was quiet, his heart still felt unbearable pain.Therefore, whenever he felt that he couldn't hold on, he would use alcohol to anesthetize his perception until he met a woman after drinking that day.

Women are very special, not only their detached and indifferent temperament, their unaffected frankness, but also their shining eyes.

Originally, he thought that he would always live a normal life with women like this, but God's will tricks people, just when his heart calmed down, An An appeared.

That time, the man just attended a party temporarily, but unexpectedly met An An unexpectedly.From the moment he saw An An, the man never took his eyes off him.

The man found that the moment he saw An An, his heart that he thought had died was beating fast.

Seven years, seven years of separation, he found that with the passage of time, his longing for An An has not been diluted, on the contrary, it has become more and more intense.He knew that he had been poisoned too deeply. He had been poisoned by a kind of poison called An'an, and he couldn't get rid of it in his life.

So, before the banquet was over, the man took An An away and imprisoned him.That time the man called and said that he was actually cheating on the woman on a business trip. In those few days, he was with An An all the time.

Originally, the man thought that he would punish An An severely and return to him double the suffering he had suffered in these years.But he was wrong. When he really met and caught her, all he did was hold An'an tightly in his arms, crying endlessly.

The man didn't blame An An for backing down. To him, as long as An An can return to him, everything else is not important.He didn't mind if An An left without saying goodbye, or he didn't have to ask why An An left.It's just that he can't bear An An's leaving again, he will go crazy, and he really can't bear it.

During the few days he spent with An An day and night, the man discovered that An An was actually having a hard time, not at all.Under the coaxing and coercion of the man, An An told him that he never missed him for a moment, missed him very much, and sometimes wanted to die.

Later, when he was sure that An An would not disappear again, he set An An free.

The man paused, looked into the woman's eyes, and his thoughts drifted to an unknown distance.

"Your eyes are very beautiful!"

In fact, the man really wanted to tell her that a large part of the reason why he chose her was that his father had been urging him to find a woman to marry during that time. He couldn't bear to disobey his father, he didn't want to regret it in the future.

Anyway, my favorite has already left me, so it doesn't matter who the other party is!He just wanted to fulfill his father's wish.But it's strange, he knew he was gay, but when he saw a woman for the first time, he had an inexplicable affection for her.

She was the first woman that a man had a crush on, and he realized later, because a woman's eyes are very similar to An An's.

Men often wonder if they can find someone who has the same characteristics as An An to accompany them, and their empty heart can be redeemed.But he was wrong, even if he forced himself to transfer all his feelings to the woman, his heart was still empty, and no one could fill that kind of loneliness.Whenever he looked into the woman's eyes, his heart ached so hard that he couldn't breathe.

Later, when he found An An, the feeling of finding it again made him want to be with An An every moment, every minute, every second, but his reason told him that he couldn't, because there was a woman who loved him deeply waiting for him at home. look at yourself.

The man didn't say this to the woman. It's not that the man wanted to hide something, but it was too cruel to the woman.He is not a fool, he is very clear about women's feelings for him.

He has always been confused, he doesn't want to hurt anyone, especially women, but it is even more impossible for him to give up An An.

The man doesn't know that the loneliness in his eyes has never escaped a woman's eyes, and the emptiness in a man's heart has long been experienced by women.It's just that women have fallen in love too deeply, so deep that they can't extricate themselves and cannot escape. Women's love for men is a hundred times deeper than men know.She just didn't want to admit it, let alone guess the reason for her loneliness and emptiness.

The woman asked the man what she and the name An'an meant to him.

The man thinks for a moment.

"You are my responsibility, he is my soul, I want to protect my soul, but I don't want to lose my responsibility."

A woman's heart hurts very much, Ling Chi in ancient times, probably just like this!However, the woman just listened quietly all the time, without making any noise, not even shedding a tear.