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After Lin Xiufeng left, Yan Jiasheng looked at me, "Let's go to the room to see your wife first..." After he finished speaking, he called Min Bin and Min Xing over for dinner. In fact, he didn't eat anything himself, he was just feeding Min Xing.

"Xianshu...can I come in?" This is the second time I knocked on the door outside the room today, I don't know how to say this, I know how to say it but I can't say it clearly, what should I do?Should I confess or find another excuse to cover up the fact that there is no excuse to cover up?This is something that I have tried my best to hide in the ten years of marriage, and in the past two years, I have wanted to confess to Xianshu countless times.Forget it, in fact, Lin Xiufeng's sudden disturbance can be regarded as driving me to a corner and giving me the opening remarks!

"Xianshu..." I knocked on the door again...

The door opened, Xianshu wiped her tears with the palm of her hand, "I'm sorry, I'm so disrespectful..."

I thought for a long time and didn't know how to say "Xianshu...I'm sorry..."

"No...no...yes..." Before finishing these two words, tears came again...

"Actually, things are not what you think..." When I said this myself, I don't think I was lying, because nothing really happened between me and Yan Jiasheng. That time he heard my confession in the company. He slapped me, and said he never thought of me as a brother.

"What else can I think, thinking that my husband has always loved me?" With a "slap", she slapped herself across the face.

I held her hand in shock, "Xianshu, don't be like this, it was my fault... it was my fault... you have to hit me... you hit me..." I knelt down in front of her and pulled her hand Hitting my face with her hand, the first time she didn't react and scratched my face heavily, the second time she resisted so it was only light, at this time she still loves me, I'm really not human, I'm an asshole , I hurt such a good woman, I also cried, blood oozed from the corner of my mouth from that slap.

Xianshu touched my face, "You are right, it was me who was wrong, I loved you too much, when you and your mother came to Guangzhou, when my mother asked me if I would marry you by looking at her face, and I I quickly agreed, not because my mother said that she had liver cancer and no one would take care of you when she left, but because I decided that I would only marry you in my life since I was in high school..."

"I know... I knew it when I dropped out of school. I was selfish. I shouldn't look for you again when I go back to Guangzhou. I knew I was such a person to marry you in order to make my mother happy. I... I..." I said again not go down.

"Do you know? I have lived happily for ten years. Every day I tell myself that I have a very capable husband and two lovely sons. You seldom accompany me, and I never dare to blame you , I know you are a responsible person, you work very hard for this family, I am afraid that you are too tired from work, so I want to give you the most comfortable home so that you can come back after work comfortably. I actually doubted you There are other women outside, but I secretly checked your mobile phone countless times, and even went to the telecommunications business hall to check your call bill, but no matter how hard I looked, I couldn’t find half of the woman’s phone number. Until the morning, you slammed the door and went downstairs to find Yan Jiasheng, I'm not following you, but I'm worried that you won't find Yan Jiasheng, so I went downstairs to help. Because the elevator stopped on the first floor for too long and didn't come up, I took the stairs. When I went down to the first floor, I saw you hugging you with red eyes The moment I saw Yan Jiasheng, I thought I knew something I shouldn't know. After I came back, I kept comforting myself that it was not true, and I kept making excuses for you, you know? But God just refused to let me go I continued to pretend to be happy, but Yan Jiasheng's wife appeared and told me again that what I saw was not fake... Do you know? It turns out that my husband likes a man... Ah..." Xian Shu reluctantly finished speaking and tried her best to break away from me Holding her head in her hands and crying bitterly, she completely collapsed.

I tried to hug her so that she would not feel so uncomfortable, but she was very resistant, she didn't want me to approach at all, and said "Please...don't touch me...please don't touch me..." I didn't force it anymore, maybe she What is needed is calmness. At this moment, I understood Lin Xiufeng's pain. If she really wanted Yan Jiasheng to go home as she said, then she must have been so heartbroken after she knew that Yan Jiasheng was gay. I hated myself so much. It's all caused by myself, how can I clean up this mess?

Memory is always the source of pain, this is very reasonable, if you want to make everything that happened no longer torment anyone, unless everyone has amnesia like Yan Jiasheng, but that is impossible, you can only wait for Xian Shu calmed down and then how to deal with it.

I wiped my tears and the blood from the corners of my mouth, "Xianshu, don't put too much pressure on yourself, you calm down first, when you calm down, think about what I can do to make you feel better, then tell me, I'll go outside Go smoke a cigarette." After I finished speaking, I left the room and went to the bathroom to wash my face. The slap was not light, and the corners of my mouth were slightly bruised. Looking at myself in the mirror, I couldn't help but "You bastard, you hurt me!" everyone..."

I went back to the living room, and Yan Jiasheng came out of the child's room in a wheelchair and looked at me, "What's wrong with your mouth?"

"Both rascals have taken a nap?"

"Well" After a while, I lit a cigarette and handed it to Yan Jiasheng. He hadn't smoked for a long time, and he didn't refuse. After I lit it for him, "I'm sorry..." Yan Jiasheng said to me suddenly.

"I'm sorry for saying something to me for no reason..."

"Xiufeng... don't blame her, blame me, or I'll explain it to Xianshu"

"It's none of your business...let Xianshu calm down, it's wrong to say anything to her now"

"Actually, I was the one who was wrong, I caused everything, Miao, I sincerely say sorry to you, please accept..." His tone was very heavy, he had never been so heavy before, we didn't speak...

Xianshu didn't come out for dinner, actually, only the two children ate some, Yan Jiasheng and I were not in the mood to eat, and when we were helping Min Xing take a bath, he suddenly asked, "Dad, did you quarrel with Mom?

"Silly boy, Mom and Dad didn't quarrel." Help him get dressed and I squat in front of him

"I heard my mother crying at noon. Daddy, don't scold mom. Little Xingxing and brother will be very good in the future and won't be naughty anymore." I watched him burst into tears, and the little guy wiped my tears with his little hands , He said this probably because he heard Lin Xiufeng and Yan Jiasheng both mentioned them at noon, so he thought that he was naughty to make the adults quarrel.

"Daddy doesn't cry..."

"Little Xingxing, mom is not feeling well, it's none of your business, dad didn't cry, sand got into his eyes" I really hate myself for crying, Yan Jiasheng actually looked at our father and son at the door, I don't know how to describe his sad expression , Immediately cleared up his expression, "Little Xingxing is good, go to Uncle's place, accompany brother to watch TV with Uncle, Dad go to see your mother!"

"it is good!"

Suddenly I feel very tired, really tired, what should I do?