embrace the memory of youth

"I'm an introvert, I don't know much about talking, and it would be very boring to be with me." His eyes showed sincerity, without any impurities.

I like his serious look, very charming, maybe I like him, every move of the other party will make me feel and comfortable.

"Boredom is the normal state of life. No matter what you do with the person you like, you will feel fulfilled." This is the most true thought in my heart. Because I like it, I don't want to hide it.

After hearing this, he smirked a few times and kept staring at me.

"Why do you keep looking at me?" Being stared at by others for a long time, I think people with thick skins will feel embarrassed, but they are still very happy.

"I'm just staring at you because you look good! Is this also against the law?"

"Having fainted! How can you describe a man as good-looking?"

"If you want to faint, just fall into my arms." He opened his hands, looking like waiting, and still had a charming smile on his face.

"Rogue" I gritted my teeth angrily and said, but I was laughing in my heart.

As soon as I finished speaking, I felt that I was imprisoned by some object, and then there was a faint fragrance, which smelled very good.

This time I am not insisting on myself, and the road ahead is not getting lost. I am lying on his body, and I am happy at this moment. The drifting away over the past few months has finally come to an end.

It was late at night, and it was raining heavily outside the window, and even the sound of the rain falling on the ground became extraordinarily pleasant. The ground illuminated by lightning covered the lights on the road. I thanked and prayed in my heart.

When I met him, I was 21 years old, and everyone called me Ayu. For various reasons, I entered the society prematurely to find a job without going to school.

When I was 17 years old, I worked as a general worker in a shoe factory in Guangzhou for 10 months. I worked for more than 12 hours a day.

Confused, hated, crying, I couldn’t get back the chance to study, I learned some skills halfway, and finally I was not suitable for that kind of job and gave up pursuing my dream for several years. Someone asked me if I regretted it, and I would say that my dictionary has no regrets Two words, because of self-confidence, let me forget what kind of level I am. There is always a price to pay for being young, and life always has to take some detours, and it is impossible to be smooth sailing.

The Internet broadens people's horizons and leads them astray.

That summer, I met him online. He was the first gay friend I added. I was nervous and excited because he quickly agreed to my addition.

I didn't know how to communicate, so I just stared at the computer screen, waiting, and finally his profile picture started beating, and I obviously felt my heart beating faster and my hands shaking.

It was a picture of a smile, and I replied with the same picture, and then looked at his profile picture in a daze.

It was he who took the initiative to say hello and broke the embarrassing deadlock. After we chatted for a long time, my previous guard was relieved, and the questions in my heart were also enlightened. I also understood that we are not afraid of us. With a different vision, he warned me that if you want others to think highly of you, you must take yourself seriously. If we don’t kill people or break the law, we can also be contributors to society.

In the end I was sleepy, so I reluctantly went offline to sleep.

After the first communication, I felt that he was the person I was looking for. He spoke generously and decently, and had his own unique views on feelings, society, and life.

A few days later, we made an appointment to meet near his rented house. Before going out, I looked in the mirror for a long time, looking at the clothes, pants, shoes, and hairstyle. Only when I was satisfied did I cheer myself up with a smile and set off to the place we agreed on.

After half an hour's bus journey, I arrived at the place he mentioned. I called him and said that I would arrive in a few minutes, but I waited a little again.In the crowd, watching people's emotions, whether laughing, angry, happy, or sad, but I am very nervous.

"Are you Ayu?"

The other person is about the same size as me, a fat man, but he is fat and decent, his stomach is not that kind of beer belly, his hair is trimmed very short, his eyes are very clear, his voice is very thick, of course it sounds nice, and his clothes are also very suitable for him.

"Ah, oh, yes" I felt my face flush very red.

"Hi, I'm Xiong Hua, nice to meet you today"

"Hello, hello" I didn't dare to look at him and said, keeping my head down.

"Let's go to the supermarket to buy vegetables now, and cook at home. You can keep saying on the Internet that you want to eat my cooking."

As he said that, he took my hand and walked towards the supermarket. Halfway through I was embarrassed and broke away from that fat and white hand, but he just smirked.

He has a nice smile and is easily contagious.

Although I also learned how to cook very early, I always thought it was done by women, so I never cook by myself when I go out.

From shopping, cooking, washing, and cooking, he was sweating profusely throughout the whole process, and his every move made my heart warm. Life is long, but happiness is short, so cherish the moment when you have it, Don't miss even a second of happiness.

He also cleaned the dishes and chopsticks alone after the meal, and I completely became the enjoyer. After we chatted for a while, it was obvious that he started to feel sleepy, and in the end he simply fell asleep.

I didn't blame him, and I didn't bother him. I felt his hard work just now from my heart.

In this way, I kept staring at him stupidly. He slept peacefully and snored from time to time.

"Aren't you tired of staring at me like this?"

"Ah, oh, didn't I look at you?" I quickly shifted my eyes to other directions, and tried my best not to be nervous or blush.

"Haha, you are really a rare extinct man who can blush," he said mischievously.

"No way, it's not because the weather is too stuffy and hot." Trees need bark, people need face, and even if you are killed, you have to earn face back, although this poor excuse is weak and weak.

"Come and turn your head away, let me appreciate it"

I made a face at him, then quickly looked elsewhere.

"Little devil, you are so beautiful"

I was a little dizzy!This is the first time for me to be praised face-to-face like this. I never feel that I am at the level of a handsome guy. Although sometimes when I go shopping, the businessman will say some false words, but I never take it seriously.

"Call me kid, you're the brat"

"My butt is not small, if you don't believe me touch it," he turned over and turned his butt towards me.

"Rogue" I yelled.

"Haha" he laughed loudly and without image, suddenly he quickly blocked my mouth with his mouth.

The sudden action made me feel at a loss, tense and panicked. I tried to push him away, but he hugged me very tightly, and his hands were also imprisoned by him.

The last level was also turned away by his strength and domineering. Finally, I stopped resisting and started to cater. The sound of fans and the sound of car horns gradually disappeared in my ears.

The breeze blows our bodies, blue sky and white clouds, green mountains and green waters, I cuddle close to him, two teals are playing on the water surface, ripples appear on the calm water surface.

For a long time, after a long time, we felt that our breathing was not smooth, so we let go of each other, and then took a big breath.

"It's so sweet." He licked his lips and said happily.

I didn't have too many words, I smiled happily, and kept staring at him without blinking my eyelids, but looked at him embarrassedly.

I chuckled.

"It costs money to watch too much." He was dissatisfied.

"Okay! I won't read the post later, so I won't go back and have nightmares."

"You..." He stammered angrily, twisted my waist fiercely, and blocked my mouth again.

When I kissed my mouth again, I was drunk, the source of happiness was exchanged with each other, I was no longer lost, and I was firm in my purest affirmation. If he is willing, I want to walk with him for the rest of my life. It seems that after decades of us, we are still sticking together happily, after all, it proves that the idea of ​​the original generation is just wishful thinking.

As night falls, so will parting.

We walk on the street without saying too much, just because the people walking next to us will not continue to go the same way, and sadness surrounds us.

Suddenly the wind was strong, pedestrians quickened their pace, vendors on the street hurriedly packed their goods, and even small stray animals were looking for shelter from the rain.

We still slowed down and walked towards the bus platform. The stronger the typhoon, the more difficult the road ahead. He put my hand on his chest, held it tightly, and continued to move towards our destination.