embrace the memory of youth

At night, Fourth Uncle and Uncle Li prepared a table of hot pot ingredients. The dishes on the table were all my favorites, but I had no appetite. I didn’t know what was on my mind. what.

I left the bowl and chopsticks and stood alone at the door, letting the cold wind sting my skin. It was pitch black outside, but a happy melody came from a small singing bar not far away. I was surprised that I thought of Guo Xiong, yes Ah, my sudden leaving without saying goodbye, will it make him come to me like crazy? I once asked myself if I aroused my love for him, but every time I found all kinds of excuses to escape, I was afraid of having the after A sense of loss, very painful.

"What are you thinking, just eat a little bit of rice" came Uncle Li's voice from behind, I didn't turn around and said, "Listen, this song is very good, it tastes like happiness"

After the melody stopped, Uncle Li said "it's really nice", I said lightly "I know I don't belong here, but I'm really tired outside, I want to find the warmth of home here, after all my childhood It’s all here”

Uncle Li responded with a smile, "I think your heart knot has not been untied. It has been so many years, and how many people still remember those things. Don't get too immersed in the past, as long as you are happy, it has nothing to do with those so-called guarantees."

"You taught me not to keep my promise. I will still leave. This time I come back to apologize to those family members who cared about me. Not because I was wrong, but because they were right."

The fourth uncle threw a sentence from behind, "What are your uncles and nephews whispering?" From this sentence, it can be seen that they really do not distinguish between each other. I envy and respect their love, and maybe I desire it more subconsciously.

The next day, I slept until noon for the first time. The weather was very pleasant, and the soft sunlight was very comfortable on my body. There was a delicious meal prepared by my fourth uncle on the dining table. When my fourth uncle saw me getting up, he smiled and said, "Your boy finally I'm willing to get up"

I went to the table, grabbed a vegetable and put it in my mouth. Seeing this, my fourth uncle exclaimed, "Why do you hate cleaning so much, wash your hands quickly, or you will have nothing to eat." I smiled stupidly at my fourth uncle smiled.

After the meal, I said goodbye to my uncle and went to my brother's supermarket. At first my brother was happy to see me, but then he changed his face, thinking that I couldn't survive outside, so he asked him to borrow money.

My father and mother went back to live in the village after I left. At that time, the troubles about me were known all over the city. People who don’t know me may have forgotten it long ago. People in the village are not so easy to forget. I’ll wait for God Hei dared to go back to the village.

My mother knew that I came back and hugged me and cried for a long time, but my father didn't want to see me on the face, but he was still happy in his heart. The three of us chatted all night, and my mother even pulled me by hand all night. Said that I was afraid that I would run away as soon as I let go. I have too much guilt for this unceasing family relationship, even if I am sorry, it will look pale and powerless.

In the morning, I comforted my mother to sleep, but my father refused to fall asleep for a long time. We haven't seen each other for a few years, and we have become strangers. My father sent me to say, "Go to bed when you are sleepy."

It turned out that I was still very easy to be touched when I was about to run to three. I choked up and said, "Dad, I'm sorry for these years." My dad comforted me and said, "It's all over, don't say anything. Take it easy and get some sleep."

I shook my head hard, and I also forgot the meaning of shaking my head at the beginning. It may be that I deserve to suffer all these years, or it may be because of my dad's words of concern.

Woke up at night, the lights at home were dim, I walked out of the house, it was dark outside, maybe I could only walk around at night in the village, I looked at Liu Bing’s house, it was also dark inside, it was impossible to sleep at this point, I encouraged I had the courage to walk in the direction of his house, but my dad stopped me after a few steps, "Where are you going?"

I am afraid of the dark, so the sudden voice really startled me, I turned around and said in a panic, "I didn't go anywhere, I just wandered around."

"I didn't dare to wake you up when I saw that you were sleeping soundly. The food is still hot, come back and eat."

I paused and asked at the risk of his anger, "Why is Bingbing's family not at home?" To my surprise, my dad didn't get angry but said lightly, "Their family moved to the county two years ago. I haven't seen them coming back"

I let out a sigh of relief and went back to the house with him. Since I slept all day and tossed and turned all night without falling asleep, I hurried to grandma's grave just after dawn.

The weeds on the grave were cleaned up very cleanly. I didn’t cry this time. I was alone with my grandma and said a lot to myself. I knew she couldn’t hear it at all. I don't even know the way to go in the future.

Before I left, I remembered that Xiaohong’s grave was not far from here. I felt guilty about her, and I should have gone to pay my respects to her. An old man on the way stopped me, “You are Liu Yu, right?”

I carefully looked at the face of the other party, and I knew him somewhat, so I asked, "Old man, do you know me?"

"What do you say, you, Mr. Wang, am I so old?" I suddenly remembered Mr. Wang Jun, my class teacher in the sixth grade of elementary school. They all blamed my parents for not giving birth to me well, I have severe myopia, so I didn’t even recognize the young and handsome teacher Wang, please don’t blame me.”

He laughed and said, "Your mouth looks like it has been smeared with honey, but I like to listen to it. Come and have a chat with our teachers and students." He motioned for me to sit next to him, and he handed me a bottle of wine. I also heard about Mr. Wang's deeds when I was in junior high school. I don't know why, but he was suddenly dismissed by the school.

"How have you been these few years? I haven't seen you visiting me since I came back"

I humbly said, "I just came back yesterday. I planned to visit you after paying homage to my grandma. I never thought I would meet you here, which means that I have a destiny with the teacher."

"Come on, you lose your temper when you tell a lie. I saw you and your fourth uncle in the town two days ago. I wanted to go up to say hello, but think about it."

"I really plan to visit you at your house as soon as I get off the mountain," I said hastily.

"Okay, with so many students, you are the most ungrateful, it's okay."