embrace the memory of youth

It was already noon when I returned to the town, and the way back was the same as when I went there. He hummed a little song while driving, and raised his eyebrows at me from time to time. I pretended to ignore his existence and let him blink there for a long time. No, he was also bored, so he stopped his childish actions.

When we arrived in the town, I first parked the car with Liu back to Uncle Si’s company. It was off-duty time, and everyone went back to take a nap. I had dinner with him at a nearby restaurant. After dinner, he returned to the company, and I went to Grandma's home.

When I came to my grandma's house, my grandma was chatting and laughing with her children. I could see that she was in a good state of mind, and I felt at ease.

"Yuzi is back" grandma said happily when she saw me.

"Bingbing and I just came back from City D together, have you eaten yet, I bought a wheelchair yesterday and came back, let's go out for a stroll together later"

"Well, I'm almost suffocated lying in bed all day long." Grandma was obviously very excited.

"Don't die, grandma wants to live a long life, I still want to serve you all the time"

"You see, I didn't love him for nothing, right?" She glanced at my dad and the others, then held my hand and said, "Yuzi, grandma still wants to watch you get married and hug your child, then I will die." also rest in peace"

"I don't want to start a family yet. I have no money and no career. What can I do to support my family? I want to wait until I have achieved something."

"According to what you said, if you have been unsuccessful in your career, you will never get married, so why should I give birth to you?" My dad said sharply from the side.

"Then what do you mean I am a tool for the reception of the family?" I asked him back.

"This boy just wants to continue the incense. Let me tell you, don't fool us with a career. Don't you think you can't have a career if you get married?" My dad lashed out at me mercilessly.

"Yuzi, your father is right. We all support you in whatever you want to do when you get married. You see, your parents are still young, and they can help you with children when you have children," the grandmother said.

"Grandma, look, if I become a family, I have to think about everything. If I want to use money to do business, I have to think that I will fail. I will lose everything. The money for the child's milk powder and the money for diapers are not all in vain. Then I don’t dare to take the risk of doing business again. I want to work with others, and the salary is only one or two thousand a month. Even my wife has the same salary, and the salary is only three or four thousand a month. Apart from the usual expenses, I still have to tie my belt tighter to live, and I am not willing to live like this if others are willing to live like me.” I said a lot of excuses for not getting married now.

"Could it be that after a few years, you will become more capable and able to fly into the sky? Haven't you heard that there is a woman behind every successful person? Do you think that you only need education but no education, and skills but no skills, so you just want to be a white wolf with empty hands?" , It's simply wishful thinking." My uncle's voice was harsh.

I took a look at my uncle, and could only scold him in my heart, I dare not make mistakes in front of him.

"It's still the third brother who has seen a lot of the world, and everything he says makes sense," the aunt covered her mouth and said with a smile.

"Yuzi, don't be stubborn. We are all people who have experienced more than you. When you get married in the future, you can do what you want to do with confidence. If you have a child, let your parents take care of it. Your parents They are all here, and I will help you decide this matter," grandma said majesticly.

"Mom, don't tell me, who hasn't raised a son and a grandson these days?" the aunt said with a smile.

"When Guihong changed the rules, why don't I know?" Grandma asked deliberately.

"Mom, you don't know yet. It's changed in their generation. What they advocate for my youth is my decision. Everyone says to develop independently. As a result, stealing chickens is not enough to eat, and youth is wasted. , the eldest is married, and even the money for the baby’s milk powder is enough for them. As grandparents, how can they bear the grievances of their own grandchildren, so they have to raise a grandson again.” The aunt talked endlessly, but what she said made me feel very sad. disgusted.

"Little sister, it seems that you are quite researched." The uncle chuckled lightly.

"Of course," my aunt said confidently.

Coming out of my grandma's house, I was dizzy from being bombarded by their words. I stepped on the bridge home and looked at the crystal clear river. My inner exhaustion was clearly displayed in the river.

I am firm in my principles. This is because Xiong Hua has given me great guidance. He said that he does not want to live with someone he doesn’t like, but wants to have an affair with someone he likes. So I decided that when necessary, I will choose to be with my family. People showdown.

I went to Yilie County, found a disco, and let myself indulge wildly under the amplified music. Sweat and tears invaded my body together. The lights were dark and no one noticed my embarrassment. I was tired, so I left This noisy place.

For the first time, I was afraid of going home, and I suddenly didn’t dare to face it. I found a restaurant to fill my stomach, waited until the last bus back to the town at night, and then walked back home.

The road was pitch black, and I didn’t have any fear at all. There have been many car accidents on this road since I was a child, and I have also witnessed bloody dead people with my own eyes. When I was a child, I used to have lingering fear when walking alone during the day. Now my mind is completely thinking about How to deal with family members, there is no more space to think about what is there and what is not.

When the house was brightly lit, my mother walked back and forth anxiously at the door of the house. She was relieved when she saw me and said, "When Yuzi is back, go take a shower and go to bed early."

Under the illumination of the light, I can see that wrinkles are unceremoniously leaving traces in front of this woman's eyes, and there are a few silver threads in her black hair, which is beating so dazzlingly insolently.

I suddenly felt that my mother was a lot older, but she never forced me like my father did. She let me make my own decisions about my marriage. I understand her mentality. She is making up for what she did to me when I was young. Caring, but it doesn't mean that she can indulge me to find a man for the rest of my life, even if she is a very kind mother.

"Mom, you should also go to bed early. I just came back from my classmate's house. I'm fine, don't worry." I told a white lie, because I was also shaking my persistence in my heart.

"It's fine, uh..." She paused, and then said, "Then you should be busy and go to bed early."

"Mom, if you have something to say, just say it, how uncomfortable it is to hold back"

"Your uncle's cousin has a daughter who has been working away from home for more than a year. I heard that she will come back tomorrow. Your aunt said to let you meet. If it is suitable, I will give this marriage. You can figure it out, you It’s fine if you don’t want to meet, mother will be happy only if you are happy,” my mother said seriously.

"Mom, go back to sleep first, you're tired after the day." I didn't answer the question directly, but I didn't want to make her sad.

After taking a shower and returning to the room, as soon as I turned on the light, I saw Liu Bing lying on the bed and looking at me with a smirk.

"Bingbing when did you come?" I asked him.

"It's been a few minutes. Brother Liu Yu, where have you been? I went around the town and didn't see you. I couldn't get through to you. If I have nothing to do, I will come back and wait for you." A serious look.

"I went to the county town to play, and I even forgot the time when I was playing. I didn't know what time it was until I got home. I forgot to charge my phone and it ran out of battery," I said dully.

"Don't take me with you to the county seat, hum..." He turned his back to me, looking angry on purpose.

I half-lyed beside him, ignoring him, and finally he turned around again and hugged me tightly, the heat from his body wrapped me warmly.

"Brother Liu Yu, you have something on your mind," he said.

"En" I simply answered with one word.

"I heard the conversation between you and your aunt in it, and heard them say that they want to introduce you to someone. Logically, I should be happy, but I just can't be happy"

"why"

"Because I can see from your expression that you are unhappy, so I will not be happy, and after you get married, you will sleep with your wife, so you can't be with me," he said dejectedly.

When I woke up the next morning, he was gone, and I inhaled his residual smell. The faint fragrance stimulated my body cells, and my blood vessels expanded.

Pushing open the door of the house, dark clouds covered the face of the sun, and I looked at the sky covered with dark clouds, indicating that the next round of carnival rainstorms was coming.

When I came to my grandma's house, a tall figure, long hair and shawl, dressed in a foreign style appeared in front of my eyes. I was about to back out, but my auntie had sharp eyes. She ran over and grabbed me and said, "Why is Yuzi going to leave just now? Grandma has been thinking of you since morning"

"Suddenly thought about something to be done, and I will come back to see grandma when things are done." I blurted out a bad excuse.

"You don't go to work all day long, what can happen, did the girl see, my cousin, the head of the water is so lingling, I'm afraid that the fat water will flow into the field of outsiders, so it will be cheaper for you, boy, please fight for me." She leaned close to my ear and pointed to the back.

I followed her in helplessly, and she yelled loudly, "Mom, Yuzi from our family is here to see you."

The figure turned around, and a very delicate face appeared in front of me. The standard oval face, high nose bridge, thick eyebrows and big eyes, cut a curtain-style bangs, and her eyebrows were flat, but she made me seem to have seen each other before. , a strange familiarity.

"Does Liu Yu remember me?" the woman asked me.

"I seem to have seen it somewhere" I replied truthfully.