a virgin story

Graduation is about to happen, and there are more things to do, such as household registration issues, file issues, graduation defense..., busy people are dizzy.Finally, everything was coming to an end. After receiving the graduation certificate and taking the graduation photos of the class, our dormitory decided to have a reunion the next night.

We came to the Juxian Building where we had our first meeting again, and we waited for the person in the private room to leave before we entered.We ordered two large cases of beer.Everyone is still elated.In the past four years, we have eaten a lot here, and the boss also knows us. I heard that it was the last dinner in our dormitory before graduation. The boss specially gave us a plate of oily prawns.

Everyone raised their glasses: "If you don't get drunk, you don't return!"

In familiar places, people will always lament the passage of time.Now Li Kang started talking about how I was force-fed by them for not drinking when I was a freshman.

I looked at him with a smile: "Master, my drinking capacity is stronger than yours now, should I accompany you today?"

Li Kang raised his eyebrows: "You have been waiting for four years, and you are seeking revenge on me?"

"Hey! You're right, that's it!"

Then Li Kang started to tease Tang Lin: "See? I am the first and you are the second. Why don't we both fuck you up now!"

Tang Lin immediately joined forces with Li Kang: "I think it will work!"

Two-on-one is two-on-one, let's fight wine with these two guys!

Jiang Yiming didn't drink much all the time, and today he also let go of drinking, toasting to everyone.I looked at this kid with drunken eyes, he was stronger and more mature than before, and he still had a faint dimple on his face when he smiled.

Everyone drank cup after cup, chatting about the past and the future.

Li Kang was drunk and kept lying on my lap and couldn't get up.Tang Lin was originally drinking with me. I don’t know when he started to toast with Li Kang. Tang Lin was still pulling Li Kang’s arm: "Get up, get up, do...drink!" Jiang Yiming was completely drunk, lying on the dinner table On the bed, his arms were soaked in wine.Only Liu Bin and Wu Bao were still chatting, and they said from time to time: "Cheers, buddies." I looked at the buddies in front of me, and thought that time is really a fucking butcher's knife, thinking back when we came to school They are still young people, and now they feel that they have nothing to do with the word "small".The "Graduation Song" sounded in my ears again: the stamens that bloom in spring are brighter in summer, the fallen leaves in autumn, the snow in winter...

After tossing until midnight, everyone didn't have a good time, but Jiang Yiming and Li Kang were unconscious, so we had to go back to the dormitory to rest.Wu Bao has always been a good drinker, and now he is sober. He supports Li Kang.Both Liu Bin and Tang Lin were drunk and supported each other.I put my arms around Jiang Yiming, put Jiang Yiming's arm on my shoulder with one hand, and put my arm around his waist with the other.I am also taller and dangling, but my heart is as clear as a mirror.Jiang Yiming's body is close to mine, and I can clearly feel his body temperature, which makes me feel happy.Jiang Yiming shook his head and leaned tightly on my shoulder. I really hope that this road will continue like this.This is the first time we have had such close contact, and this time is enough to make me feel happy.

We walked back to the dormitory gently without waking up the dormitory administrator.After helping Jiang Yiming back, I realized that this guy was really heavy, and I was so tired that I was sweating all over.The dormitory had already turned off the lights, so I hugged Jiang Yiming to the bed in the dark, let him lie flat, then touched his forehead, and couldn't help but kiss him lightly.

I think that's enough.

The next night was the graduation reception, with the same smell of wine, the same drunken talk, and the same sad farewell.Some people said sorry, some said thank you, some laughed, some cried, some hugged, some held hands, some buried their heads and whispered.But I calmly watched what was happening in front of me, as if we were in two worlds with me, the voice in my ear became more and more blurred, and my consciousness became more and more blurred.If someone cheers me, I drink it, if no one cheers me, I drink it myself, and then I lie on the table and can't get up.

In the blur, it seemed that Yang Yang came over and sat down beside me. She stroked my hair and gently lay on my back.I think this must be a dream, this dream is too unrealistic, too beautiful.I think if I am not gay, I will live happily with Yang Yang, just like Jiang Yiming and his girlfriend.And there are friends like Liu Bin by my side. A good life is nothing more than that, with family affection, love, and friendship.The life I want is so simple, yet so far away.

I don't know how I got back to the dormitory. It seems that the only memory is that I keep throwing up and want to throw up.

When I woke up in the morning, I had a severe headache, and even turning over and moving my head hurt like it wanted to split.Then I confidently ordered Liu Bin to buy me breakfast and eat it in bed.I remembered that there seemed to be Yang Yang in my memory last night.When I asked Liu Bin, he said with a grin: "You hugged Yang Yang last night and didn't let go, so I broke it apart with all my strength." Then Liu Bin sighed again: "She still seems to love you very much, and she cried while holding you yesterday. It's been a long time. I said, why did you break up with him?" I looked at the ceiling of the roof without saying a word, picked up the short sleeves I wore last night, and I didn't know if there were tears or wine stains on my back.I sighed, feeling so heavy that it was even difficult to breathe.

At noon, Brother Long came to say goodbye with his suitcase. He stood under the bed and looked up at me and smiled, then solemnly extended his hand: "Dude, I'm leaving!" I smiled and shook hands with him.Compared with a sad farewell, a smile may be the most beautiful business card left in the memory of others.

In the next few days, more and more people left, and I didn't send anyone off, because I didn't want to see the speeding train on the platform and the tears of parting.

The brothers in the dormitory were leaving too. First, Jiang Yiming cleaned up the closet, then Tang Lin, then Wu Bao, and then Liu Bin.It was six o'clock in the morning when I left, and Li Kang was still sleeping.After packing up my things, I patted his quilt and rubbed my eyes.

I said, "I'm leaving."

He looked like he didn't wake up: "Yeah."

Then I turned around and closed the door gently. Behind the door was my most brilliant youth and bright college life.

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The story ends here.During the Chinese New Year this year, I received an invitation card from Jiang Yiming. He got married on the sixth day of the first lunar month and invited the buddies in our dormitory.

When we got together again, we hadn't seen each other for a long time.Wu Bao is fat, Li Kang is mature, I dare not recognize this guy.Tang Lin remained the same, and Liu Bin was stronger than before.Jiang Yiming was still handsome in his wedding suit. He stood in the warm winter sun and received guests, his smiling face brimming with happiness.I looked at him calmly.

What you look for deliberately is often not found. Everything in the world has its time and place when it comes and goes.What is yours is yours, what is not yours is not yours.Some people say that secret love is the most humble feeling in this world, and those who say this must have never had a secret love.I looked at Jiang Yiming who was happy now, and thought to myself: In fact, sometimes, secret love is also a beautiful thing.

College life is the most unforgettable memory in my life. There are my youth, my buddies, my first crush and my first love Yang Yang in my memory.In fact, sometimes I think, maybe what I miss is not only those people, things and that place in my memory, but also the splendid youth, the pure joys, sorrows and joys that I can never go back, as well as the past There are bitter days and sweet days.

Now I always dream at night, and the things in my dreams all happened in college.In the dream, there are Li Kang, Liu Bin, and sometimes Jiang Yiming and Yang Yang.I never consider myself a nostalgic person, because I believe that tomorrow is more worth looking forward to.But when I dream at night, I still wake up laughing.After waking up, looking at the dimly lit room and the alarm clock beside the bed, listening to the cars speeding by outside the window, the joy in the dream disappeared without a trace.And I couldn't sleep anymore.

The reason why people are sad is that we can't keep the years; what's more, what we can't face is that one day, youth will just disappear like this.I got up and got out of bed, turned on the lamp on the table, turned on the computer, and began to recall my university and my stories.

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