love on the other side

Fu Linbo asked me where I lived and whether I rented a house by myself, and said he wanted to take a look, but it was already late at night. In order not to let him see the sloppiness of my residence, I said evasively: "Another day!" So he sent When I went downstairs, I went out to live in a hotel by myself.

The next day, Fu Linbo said that he was going to buy some things and asked me if I wanted to go together. I had nothing to do, so I readily agreed, and I was more or less excited about the "date".I wore a lavender plaid shirt, off-white fur vest and silver trousers very carefully. I felt ridiculous about my inexplicable excitement, but I laughed frequently at myself in the mirror.

Still, Fu Linbo walked ahead without paying attention to me at all, as if he knew that I would obediently follow him.When he entered the clothing store, he put his hands in his pockets, looked while walking, stopped from time to time, fiddled with the clothes, and then asked my opinion.As long as he values ​​my opinion, I have a sense of happiness.It stands to reason that he knows the styles and fabrics of clothes better than I do, and I only know how to judge the quality of clothes according to my own aesthetic standards.Still, I'm pretty good at playing the expert.

"Nice shirt! What do you think?

"The collar is very detailed, and the cuffs are designed with four buttons, which can show the taste. But the color is a little darker, why not find something brighter?"

"Well, that's right. What color do you think looks good?"

"See if you like it!"

"What color do you think suits me?"

"Blue, sky blue."

Later, Fu Linbo really bought a sky blue shirt, which I think is a very personal choice.When he wears it, he must be very gentlemanly, bright and handsome.In the end, he didn't forget to ask me: "Do you want to buy you some clothes too?" I said: "No, I'll buy it myself some other day."

We had dinner together and then went home separately.

These days, Fu Linbo always takes the initiative to call and ask me out for dinner or for a walk.He was about to start work, and said he was working as the vice president of a foreign company, but he didn't say what he did.He talked about the current development and planning of the city with great interest, and he analyzed the lives of people from all walks of life in a logical manner.He often talked and brought the topic back to his time in the army, saying how their officers were powerful, how they tortured them, and how they enjoyed hegemony.Finally, he ended his happy mood with the sentence "the society is too chaotic".

"Why don't you come and live with me?" Once, he said to me.

I hesitated and said, "No, it's not good..."

"I rented a suite with three bedrooms and two living rooms. It's very luxurious. Living alone is too wasteful. If you come here, you don't have to rent another house yourself!"

"Actually, why don't you go back to the villa?"

Fu Linbo shrugged and said, "It's too far from where I work!"

I said "oh" and lowered my head without answering. He must have noticed that I was thinking about whether it is suitable to live together. He must have guessed that I was a little scared in my heart. .

"It doesn't matter, it depends on what you want, come here if you like, or you like to live alone."

In fact, readers know what I think.How could I not want to live with Fu Linbo, but I was afraid that I would be unable to extricate myself.I have clearly felt that my heart is beating faster and faster for Fu Linbo. Many times, I look at Fu Linbo who is eloquent and eloquent. Seeing the neck, looking at the skin on the collar of his shirt, made my lower body react violently.I am ashamed to show my desire, always pretending to be calm.But the more I suppress it, the more my feelings are strengthened.I think, I really like this man!However I don't want to accept the fact that I should be in a relationship with a girl.This kind of thinking allows me to always restrain my desire.If we live together, I think I will break the bank.

When I got home and lay in bed, I tossed and turned.The brain nerves are like disturbed earthworms, swaying and jumping frantically.Can my relationship start? Perhaps Fu Linbo is my sustenance in this life.I advise myself to accept the facts, since I really like men, and I have encountered an opportunity that allows me to experience this feeling, why not take it?If Fu Linbo really likes me and is willing to give me this feeling, but I reject him because of that meaningless moral evaluation, can I still be happy in this life?But after thinking about it, if Fu Linbo only has son-like feelings for me and has no other thoughts, wouldn't I be ridiculous?To make matters worse, he was rejected by Fu Linbo.oh!I couldn't think about it any longer, and the more I thought about it, the more lonely and terrible I felt of losing Fu Linbo's love.I gradually felt that my body was no longer controlled by myself, but obeyed a voice—as long as Fu Linbo asked me to do it, I would obey obediently.

Then move over, since he wants me to move over.

My worries about embarrassment were cut in half when I arrived at Flinberg's.This suite is really big, and the three bedrooms are relatively independent, two are adjacent to each other, and the other is separated from the living room, which is the master bedroom and has an independent bathroom. Fu Linbo naturally lives in this one.He opened the doors of two adjacent rooms and said to me: "You see which room you like, and the remaining one can be used as a guest room." He said.I picked a room with a small bathroom for better privacy.

"Can you?" I asked.

"Okay." The submissive tone of his answer was so gratifying!

In this way, we lived together.

If we each live separate lives in our own little worlds, we can maintain a very normal, if not very normal, relationship.The normal thing is that the things I feared before will not happen. The abnormal thing is that he used to be my father. It would be too strange to ignore him!But we didn't lead such an ambiguous life. Fu Linbo and I seem to prefer to sit in the living room, be with each other, and say goodbye reluctantly when we have to go back to bed. A farewell is a bit of an inexplicable sense of loss.

"Oh, it's already 12:30!" he was often surprised.

"Really..." My next sentence was "It's time to go to bed", but I was reluctant to say it.

He turned his head to the side, with a helpless expression on his face, then sighed lightly, and said, "Then... go back to your room and sleep." He said so, but he didn't act.Every time I obediently agree: "Yeah, it's late, go to sleep, you have to go to work tomorrow!" In fact, I was pretending to be chic, and then stood up from the sofa and turned to enter the room. go.

"Hey", before entering the room, Fu Linbo stopped me, "Remember to bring me some garlic peanuts tomorrow, let's drink two cups!"

"Got it!" I obediently agreed.

Fu Linbo goes to work every day now, but I have nothing to do.Sometimes when I sit down, I feel very owed, I feel that I am too worthless, and I should find something to do outside.After Fu Linbo knew my thoughts, he said:

"You are still so young, why don't you rush to work! Didn't you write fairy tales before? Write hard while you are free!"

"Well, okay." Gradually, I really got used to Mr. Fu's arrangement, as long as it was what he said, I just wanted to obey and enjoy the ambiguity in it.So, during this time, I started to write some happy fairy tales again, but I didn't publish them, I just wrote them in my diary.