love on the other side

Riding on the bicycle, we walked west along the straight road. After an hour, we will see a large green grass field, completely wild and wild. In some places, the grass can submerge our bodies, and in some places, the grass just reaches our knees. .There is yellow soil hidden in the grass, and some tiny creatures create their own world in this hidden place.

Fu Hong and I came here with drawing boards on our backs, climbed to a high mound, unfolded our easels, leaned against the blue sky, stepped on the green land, and began to draw seriously. The clean wind blows in our ears, and we can’t wait to look at it. Our picture sheet.There are very few people here, and if there are, they don't care who we are, what we do, what relationship we have.So, here, we feel completely free, like flowing water and clear wind, with nothing but love and happiness for each other.

In the depths of the sky, a pair of wild geese flew by, and Fu Hong and I kissed each other, just on the traces of their flight.

At dusk, when the grass grows, we can take off all our clothes and take a bath in the clear pond. The wilderness scene allows us to express our primitive emotions to the fullest.After the chase, we gasp for each other, feel each other's heartbeat and pulse, the rate is so consistent.We soaked in the water and embraced each other, like bathing in a river of love, inseparable.Fu Hong looked at me, and I looked at him too. His wet hair was sticking to his forehead in strands, dripping with water. Between the lips.His affectionate eyes made me dare not look directly at him.

"I want to be with you forever. One day, I will marry you and tell the world that I love you!" Fu Hong said.

"Okay, it's a deal!" Who wouldn't be moved to hear such words?How many people are looking for in the crowd, not just to find a person, tell him, be together forever.But I knew in my heart that I was truly moved. As for whether that "one day" will come in the future, no one can predict.

Fu Hong really loves me, and I can't leave Fu Hong anymore.I often compare Fu Hong with Fu Linbo, and ask myself thousands of times, who do I love more.I admire Fu Linbo, and I am full of respect in my heart. At the same time, I hope to break this respect and be on an equal footing with him.I am willing to be controlled by him, and at the same time, controlling him also gives me an inexplicable pleasure, just like crushing ethics under my feet.I have a faint feeling that this kind of love and manipulation is a bit deformed, not because of gender or age, but because I have gone astray psychologically.As for Fu Hong's love, I feel sunny, healthy, positive and happy, which is the purest love.Moreover, when we were together with Fu Linbo, what we did most was making love, so that I couldn't tell what love was. Could it be just making love?Being with Fu Hong is different, we enjoy freedom, nature, and mutual love.We love each other more than we love ourselves. We are not together to satisfy ourselves, but to hope for each other's happiness.

Fu Hong put his arms around me, we were naked to each other, our skin was pressed against our skin, and the heat from our bodies was transferred to each other.When it was getting dark, we went ashore to put away our drawing boards and rode our bicycles back.

In that piece of lush grass, there is an object with a shiny metallic luster, abandoned in the soil. It is a watch, a birthday present from Fu Linbo.Today, his time has nothing to do with me.

As soon as I got downstairs, I found Meizi standing on the zenith and looking at me and Fu Hong. Fu Hong locked the bicycle and put his arms around me to go upstairs.For some reason, I subconsciously broke away from Fu Hong's arm, and ran into the corridor by myself. Fu Hong stood there feeling baffled.When we got back to Zenith, the plums were gone.I didn't see her all the way upstairs, she must still be on the top of the building.I searched around but couldn't find her.

"What are you doing, so neurotic!" Fu Hong yelled.

"...Oh, no, it's nothing." I looked around again, the empty roof, the short fence, a few white shirts hanging to dry, and no plums.So, Fu Hong and I entered the house.

At night, I felt a commotion, woke up in a haze, and found that Fu Hong beside me was not on the bed.Rubbing my sleepy eyes, I walked to the door subconsciously. Suddenly, I quickly turned back and hid in the room. Through the window glass, I quietly looked at Fu Hong. He was sitting on the railing of the roof with Meizi in his arms.

"Why? Why can't you love me?" Meizi asked, a little crying.

Fu Hong took a deep breath, looked up at the sky, and did not answer.

"A man can be so devoted to another man," Mei Zi continued, "A woman can't get the man she wants. Why did you save me and let me jump off, so I won't suffer such shame."

Fu Hong stroked Meizi's hair, kissed her, and said, "Don't think so, you are a good girl. Find a good man to love you!"

"I just want you, I really don't mind the relationship between you and him, we can still be together."

"Why do you always wrong yourself and help others? You deserve better!"

"Fu Hong, let me ask you, would you love me without him? You would love me, right?"

"……Maybe."

The moon is big and round, above the heads of the couple.In the huge sky and the vast universe, they are close to each other. On this tall building, the situation and scene are beautiful, just like the prince and princess in a fairy tale.

My eyes were moist, and I curled up by the door feebly.How much gratitude do I need to express my gratitude to God? How can I get Fu Hong's love?Why hurt a couple who were originally made in heaven?Does the world allow me to do this?Am I allowing myself to do this?

The next day, Fu Hong and I both went to work as usual, pretending that what happened last night had never happened.

I received a call from Meizi at the bookstore, asking me to meet at night outside.

At 06:30 in the afternoon, the sky frowned, and the dark clouds quickly gathered and pressed over the small town.I took my umbrella and went to meet Meizi at the agreed place.

In the open-air lakeside park, there are still a few children chasing and playing. The adults call them from a distance, saying that it will rain soon, so hurry home!Meizi was waiting for me at the entrance. She bought two cups of hot coffee, and as soon as she saw me, she handed one of them over.

"It's going to rain, where are we going?" I asked.

"Just take a walk along the lake, it won't take long." Meizi said, with a murderous look on her brows, and I felt that this was the same Meizi who shouted in the bookstore that she didn't mind anything.

The sky began to darken, and the street lamps were turned on. They were reflected in the lake water, shining like stars.

We walked half a circle along the lake, Meizi finally spoke:

"You leave Fu Hong!"

Her words were so crisp, like an irresistible order.I was stunned and stopped, waiting for her further explanation.She just turned her head and looked into my eyes. I was terrified and asked, "Why?"

Meizi smiled, showing a vicious expression, as if mocking a humble person.She looked at the lights in the lake, then turned her head and said:

"Don't you feel ashamed? You are a man, you like men, this is deformed, how ridiculous! The whole world will laugh at you and look down on you. And it will also laugh at Fu Hong! You don't mind, but Fu Hong has a great future, but you ruined it like this, do you know? Why did he study abroad? It was nothing more than to live a prominent life. He originally finished his studies abroad, and he could find a good job when he came back. He would talk to women. Falling in love, getting married and having children, and building a happy family. But because of you, because of your existence, now he has broken with his father and wandered in another country, so he can only hide his name and live in hiding, isn’t it like this, you are very happy?” Meizi spoke fiercely, The general meaning is that not only can I not make Fu Hong happy, but I ruined his future and happiness!

I was pissed off by her, she didn't understand our difficulties, she didn't understand love at all.I suppressed my excitement, and said solemnly: "What are we ashamed of? This is our right to choose. You who laugh at us are the most shameful, depriving others of the right to love, and judging right and wrong with great fanfare..."

A cup of coffee splashed on my face, and I stopped talking.

Meizi laughed loudly and said, "Don't be ashamed? Now you know how to be ashamed, right? This is just one cup of coffee, and there are more coffees waiting for you!"

There was a muffled rumbling sound in the sky, and the rain fell down, just in time to slowly wash the coffee off my face.However, Meizi and I stood in the rain and didn't know how to hide.I didn't say a word, and Meizi didn't say a word, we walked forward as if nothing had happened, both hoarding our own sorrows.The rain was getting heavier and heavier, and the entire lake was like broken glass, and the glass slag was jumping restlessly.There is a canopy in front, but there is no one there, and the dim streetlights make the atmosphere extremely quiet.Meizi went in, found a bench and sat down, quietly and numbly, not sure if she was crying.I sat down with her, feeling so heavy that I couldn't breathe.The rain was kept out and my head started to clear up a bit.

Suddenly, Meizi burst into tears with a "wow". She put her arms around my waist, leaned on my shoulder, and cried.

"What am I doing? I'm sorry, I didn't mean it, I didn't look down on you, I was jealous of you!" Meizi became more and more excited as she spoke, her voice trembling, and her sobbing apology became intermittent, "You...you They are all good people, only me...not worthy of being loved, not worthy of being loved! My ex-boyfriend gave up our love for money, and now, the man I like, hi... likes another man, and doesn't want my love. I... I'm so pitiful... Every time, I have given my heart, but why don't they love me, why is the world so cruel to me? Why..." She couldn't help but bury her head in my arms.

I hugged her tightly and wept.I really don't want to hurt others. Meizi is right. Fu Hong could have lived a bright and happy life, but I ruined him. Now he has to hide himself in the gymnasium, always worrying about the contemptuous eyes of others.Looking back on my unfortunate childhood, the Fu Linbo family was the greatest gift to me. They made me no longer homeless and had a home to return to.But what have I done to them?I ruined Fu Linbai's married life, ruined the father-son relationship between him and Fu Hong, I hurt Fu Zhen, stained Fu Ni, what little angel?I am nothing short of a devil!I don't know how to cherish the gift of God, but commit heinous crimes to those around me.

"So you are here!" Fu Hong suddenly ran out holding an umbrella.When I saw him, I panicked for a while, and quickly let go of the plum in my arms.

"What happened?" Fu Hong asked.

I hesitated to speak, my heart was full of guilt and guilt, I ignored Fu Hong and Mei Zi, I rushed into the rain and ran away.

Seeing this, Fu Hong threw the umbrella to Meizi, took off his coat, and covered Meizi.He repeatedly asked Meizi what happened, but Meizi just trembled and cried, unable to say a word.

Seeing me running farther and farther, Fu Hong resolutely rushed into the rain and chased me.

On the sky, it was still raining, and I stood on the railing, letting the rain hit me.As far as the eye can see, there are jagged buildings with flickering lights.In this world, people are very small, let alone an orphan like me?Abandoned by parents, betrayed by loved ones, and now loved again, but the road ahead is as long and dark as this rainy night.Along the way, I have forgotten my original intention of leaving the shampoo shop. I want a better life and become a better person. However, recalling the life and things I did with Fu Linbo, I realized that I Instead of being happy and happy, it was dirty, nasty, and ugly!If I leave, the sense of powerlessness in my heart can end, and they can return to their normal life track. What's the point of my staying?Thinking of this, I looked down at the street under my feet, the lights, rain, vehicles, pedestrians, all silent.Just as I was about to jump down, Fu Hong stopped me.

Fu Hong quickly rushed to me, hugged my legs, and pulled me off the railing.He kissed me with rain-washed lips, and then hugged me tightly, for fear that I would disappear in this world.I yelled:

"Let me go, I will only bring you sorrow if I stay, I am gone, you can be with her, and you can live a normal life! There will be no more unnecessary pain and shame!"

"No, I don't allow you to leave! Where are you going, take me with you, I want you to stay with me all the time! There is only one you in this world!"

"I'm dirty, I'm dirty, I'm ugly, even I despise myself!"

"No, you are clean, you are pure, you are the most beautiful, you are my favorite! If you leave, my world will be dark!"

"No, your future is bright!"

"You are my light!"

"But... what can we do? One day, we will be separated. "

"Stop talking!" Fu Hong covered my mouth, picked me up, and ran into the house.

After changing clothes, a cup of hot tea was placed on the coffee table.

"Drink it, or you will be sick tomorrow." Fu Hong said.

"I'm sorry." I picked up the tea and took a sip, warming my head to my heels.

Fu Hong sat down beside me, took me into his arms, and said:

"Don't worry, don't talk about plums, no one can separate us, we will stay together until we can't walk anymore. Maybe we can't get married here, but we can go abroad, there will be a law Protect us. We can hold hands and kiss in the park, and others will look enviously. You have to be here on such a beautiful day, you know?"

He looked at me, and I looked at him, and there was hope in his eyes, as if he had seen that day come.

Yeah, what a day it was!I hugged Fu Hong tightly, bringing his heartbeat closer to mine.