West Wind Love: Bear Monkey Diary

Everyone said that he must be a "playboy", in fact, I also thought so at first.In fact, after getting in touch with him slowly, I found that those were just superficial phenomena, and he was really a person who was super fancy to the person I loved.Just wanting to really walk into his heart is not an easy task.We have been together for more than five months, until he left Xi'an, I couldn't do it either.

A few days ago, Ah Bang rushed to Xi’an to see me, held my hand, and told me that he was really a super slow person, and he didn’t realize how much he loved me until he felt like he was about to lose it. Listen I'm so happy I'm speechless.Perhaps this is God's arrangement. If two people want to be together, they must go through some hardships and tests.

Tomorrow morning Ah Bao will set off for Guangdong and officially start his own business.What I want to say is, no matter what happens, don’t worry, calm down and think about it, and don’t feel that you are not capable enough. After all, everyone needs to have a process of contact and familiarization at the beginning. You are not born with everything.So don't put too much pressure on yourself, be yourself, and other things can't come by force.Anyway, whether it’s good or bad, you don’t have to continue to live a good life, it doesn’t make any difference.

Looking at Abo now, it's really different from the Abo I just met. When I first met, he came up with "fuck you", and I was so angry that I almost deleted him.Maybe this is fate, if it is deleted, there will be no current relationship.When I saw Ah Bang for the first time, I also felt that I was just a playboy, and that's really how I felt.But after getting to know and get in touch slowly, it is really different from what I saw on the surface. Now, what I discuss with Ah Bang is not about what car or clothes, but about work and how to make it better Go to work and get along better with the people in the company.Ah Boom has really matured a lot, I like this kind of Ah Boom very much.

Having said so much, I don’t know if he is happy or not after reading it. He must think that my writing is not good, haha, it’s okay.This is just the first article about Ah Boo, and there will be a second, third, fourth, fifth, and sixth article in the future.

Finally, let's say some wishes, I wish Ah Bao a smooth job, we are sweet, hehe!

Chapter 86

When I got up in the morning, I subconsciously sent a text message to Ah Baofeng to see if he was leaving for Guangdong.The answer I got was that the other people who were still waiting to go together would not be able to leave until a while later.I just continued to close my eyes and sleep my sleep.Recently, I always feel very tired, because I basically spend my time drinking porridge.The doctor seriously warned not to eat indiscriminately and to protect the stomach, but for such a big person, it is indeed not enough to drink only two bowls of porridge a day, and the rest is to drink a large bottle of glucose.

About an hour later, Ah Bang called, saying that he was going to leave soon, and asked me why I hadn't gotten up yet, and I asked him what he could do when he got up.Ah Bang said in all seriousness that he asked me to write "West Wind Love", hehe, then get up.

My mother went out to buy groceries, and the rest of the family didn't know why. I turned on the TV and pressed the remote control aimlessly. I didn't know what I wanted to watch, and there seemed to be nothing to watch.I suddenly found out that "Love is Deep and Rainy" was being replayed, which happened to be the time when Shuhuan and Yiping's relationship was in crisis, and I was very touched when I watched it.Looking back on my high school life, every night after evening self-study, I would rush home immediately, watch it with my mother in front of the TV, and my mother would help me cover up, so that my father would not tell me, say Read the book after reading.

Maybe it's because I was too deeply poisoned by Qiong Yao's drama. Everyone said that the men and women in Qiong Yao's drama are non-human, and they just talk about love all day long.So I also seem to hope that I can have this kind of love, and the only thing that can be desperate is love.It may be that I have been well protected by my parents since I was a child. I don’t have to worry about food and clothing, I don’t do any housework, and I basically don’t encounter any major setbacks. Under the protection of my parents, I work in a limited small circle, and basically have little contact with society. Although I know that society is realistic and cruel, I have never experienced it myself, and I still cannot deeply understand it.

So I imagined everything beautifully, and now I understand that it is precisely because I have never worried about life that I feel that only love is the most important thing.Many people are right, love may not be worth a piece of bread in the end, maybe this is the cruelty of society and reality.But no matter what, at least I still yearn for the purest love in my heart.

Sometimes, I also ask myself, why do I love Aboom so much, it’s just that every day we were together before, Aboom was a real existence.In the past month or so, he was not by my side, and I suddenly found that I was completely empty, and my mind was full of A Bang running around in it. I tried my best to control myself not to think about it.But whenever I tell myself not to think about it, my heart will pull unconsciously, as if reminding me that I have to think about it.Why do I love you so much, in fact, I also want to know.A lot of things have really happened recently, and I often lie in bed alone, doing nothing, just to figure it out.

In fact, loving you does not need any reason. If there is a reason for love, it is not love.If love has a purpose, it is not love.If love is reasonable, it is not love, because love has no logic, maybe this is the logic of love.I have always been hoping to find the so-called love model, hoping to guard our love carefully.But being together for so long, I have to admit that I was wrong, love has no pattern, different people do the same thing for you, but you will feel a world of difference.Because I know what you care about is not what people do, but the people who do it.During the few days of Chinese New Year, I felt it even more strongly. Every time I called you, you were just cold, and I really only had a feeling of despair.

Regarding the matter between us, I always describe you as a girl, because this is also a very helpless way.Everyone knows that I am in love, and they are very curious, because I am so old, and everyone knows that this is the first time I have heard that I am in love. Of course, what everyone says to me is also different. Everyone has their own goals. Bar.I don't care what other people think of our feelings, no matter what kind of purpose others say I have, or how ugly they say.But I know clearly in my heart that I love you, it's just as simple as I love you.Other people and other things don't really matter to me, after all I live my life on my own and no one can help me.

I love you because I love you so much; because loving you is the responsibility of my happiness; because I miss you every minute and every second; because everything about you is beautiful in my eyes; because I don't want to lose you .

Because I can't live without you; because my heart has already been stolen by you; because I have a kind of dependence on you; because I am used to having you; because I want to sleep with you by my side every night ;Because your mood affects everything about me.

Because I try my best to calm myself, but I can't stop the emotion of loving you; because only you can make my blood pressure rise and my heart beat faster; because as long as you are happy, you will break up all my unhappiness; because on my mobile phone It's all your text messages; because it's the first time that my mobile phone has a different ringtone specially for one person.

Because I always think about you, but it's hard not to miss you; because I don't think about you every day, but you are by my side every day; When you say "you get dizzy when you squat down", I can't stop; because I like your singing "riding a white horse".

Because I like the feeling of waiting for you; because no one will love you more than me; because I know you need someone who can really care about you; because I like to see you laugh; because I like that you are happy every day; because I I like to wake you up every day, whether it is morning or noon; because I want to tell you that no matter what time, I will definitely be by your side.

Because I look at you every day, I still never get tired of watching it, and the more I look at it, the more I like it; because many times, it is because of you that my heart is full of happiness; When you are in a bad mood, you will think of me; because I like you to call me "Christmas tree", it will always be your Christmas tree alone.

Because the days with you always pass quickly; because we always share each other’s childhood secrets together; because I hope that every year in the future, your birthday will be by your side; because I hope that every year on my birthday, I will not It was a dull life again; because I had the courage to watch horror movies, although I was still a little scared; because I hated the feeling of going to the cinema alone.

Because no one can tell me to be completely honest, except you; because I can not sleep, just to miss you; because for the first time in this life, I said so many things that even I feel nasty, just for you; because I I want to spend my whole life loving you well and telling you how much I love you.

Having said so many reasons to love you, I didn't count how many there are.Originally, I wanted to make a lucky number for good luck, but think about it, as long as you understand my heart, it doesn’t matter how many, the important thing is to let you know how much I love you and why I love you so much.

I ate lunch today, took a shower, and then took out the pants that Ah Bao gave me. It really has a special meaning to me.I remember that the first snow of the year fell in Xi’an that day. Ah Bang was very excited and told me that I finally saw the snow, and then pretended to eat like a normal person, but kept asking me if there was a "Jack Jones" size that I could wear?I don't know what it means, and I didn't care about it, because the days were really difficult in those few days, almost to the point where I couldn't even eat, and I didn't think much about it.

After eating, we sat in front of the computer fighting landlords together, and helped me get No.1.Then Ah Bang unhurriedly took out a stack of RMB from his pocket, and I was dumbfounded, because it was not yet the day when the salary was paid, and besides, the salary was not so much money.I was surprised and asked what was going on. I even foolishly thought it was borrowed, and I was going to blame him.

But Ah Bang happily told me that it was a bonus, a year-end bonus.I can feel the happiness in my heart. After all, no matter how much or how little money, it is a kind of affirmation and a sense of satisfaction for the work in the past few months.No amount of money can buy that kind of satisfaction.Ah Bang happily urged me to change into pajamas quickly and go shopping together.

There was no one on the street, maybe it was because of the snow, Abo took me straight into the store and told me to buy me a dress or pants no matter what, otherwise I was not allowed to go out.Then I asked the salesperson to take them one by one for me, and told me to pick them one by one.The feeling of happiness is really beyond words.I was really touched. Originally, I wanted to say that as long as I have this heart, there is no need to waste this money.

After all, there are still a lot of messy entertainments after Ah Bang returns home, everyone is his own, as long as he has the heart.Regarding other people's face, of course, I have to be full, so I didn't want to buy it after choosing for a long time.But Ah Bao looked unhappy and told me that I must buy one no matter what, even if it is a gift for me.In fact, we've been together for so long, and I haven't given anything to Ah Bang.In the end, I chose this pair of trousers, because they are the type we all like, they have a shiny feeling, and they fit well after trying them on, so I finally bought them.

When I got out of the specialty store, I just lowered my head and walked straight ahead. Ah Bao seemed to see that I was in a bad mood, so he came up and patted my shoulder, telling me that this was a replacement birthday present and told me to wear it the next day.But I really can't bear it, really can't bear it, that feeling is really strong.I originally planned to wear them during the Chinese New Year, but Ah Bang was not by my side at that time, and I could feel that the two of them were very close when I put on these pants.Then I plan to buy a good dress and a pair of shoes to match it.Unfortunately, it's just the pants now.Until now, I haven't decided whether to wear these pants, because this is the only gift, and I'm afraid that if I wear them out, no one will give me any more.No matter what, let’s try it first, I wore it and looked at it in front of the mirror, except for tears, it was still tears.The only disadvantage is that the waist is a bit loose, and I have lost a lot of weight recently. The effect of the original big belly is the most obvious. It was just fine without a belt, but now I have to wear a belt.It doesn't matter if you wear it or not, anyway, I celebrate the New Year by myself, and no one goes to see it, right?It's all good!

A few days ago, when Ah Bao came to Xi’an to visit me, he asked me why I didn’t wear the pants he gave me. I said I was afraid they would be worn out.He hugged me tightly and said: "Little fool, how can you wear it out? You have to wear it to look good. Besides, my husband will buy you many, many more in the future." Put on new pants, hehe.

Ah Bang is still driving to Guangdong now, Ah Bang has worked hard!For the next period of time, I know you will be very busy, and I need you to worry about my affairs, come on!

I don’t know what’s wrong today, Qiong Yao is possessed, and she said so many things that I couldn’t say even if I was killed before, hehe, let’s just say it, anyway, it’s all from my heart, and I said it in front of Ah Bao If you can't come out, just say it here.

Well, stop writing and continue watching TV, hehe.

Chapter 87 Our Future (20110212)

Yesterday afternoon, my best friend Jingjing invited me to buy a Valentine's Day gift for her boyfriend.It’s not a weekend, and there are still too many people in the clock tower. We wandered aimlessly for a long time, and didn’t know what to buy. In the end, we simply sat in the DQ and thought about it while eating.Finally decided to buy a dress, plus a ZIPPO.

Although my boyfriend and I were much different in size, Jingjing was still used as a clothes rack.I tried one after another, and when I was about to vomit, Jingjing finally fell in love with a dress, and finally bought it, I let out a long sigh of relief.I was optimistic about the lighter before, so I bought it soon.I thought that today's outing activities would be over, but Jingjing said that she wanted to buy a bag.Well, keep shopping, women are like this.

It was getting dark, I looked at my watch and it was past six o'clock, I quickly called Ah Bao to see if he had arrived in Guangdong, but when I called, the answer was that there was a big traffic jam, at least until evening I can't get there until ten o'clock.I was a little depressed, so I quickly asked if there was food or drink in the car, and Ah Bao said there was bread or something.It's just that Ah Bang was driving all the way, and I was a little worried about his waist. Ah Bang said it was okay, so I felt relieved a lot.

Finally, Jingjing saw the bag she liked, and after buying it, Jingjing said she wanted to eat Korean bibimbap, so we rushed to a Korean restaurant and ate it.

Jingjing said very seriously that she wanted to talk to me. She probably knew about the situation between me and Abo. The only thing she didn’t know was that Abo was a man. She always thought that Abo was a woman.Although our friendship has lasted for more than 20 years and we have known each other since birth, I cannot guarantee how she will react when I tell her the fact that I am gay.Although many people can accept these things now, not everyone can do it.I'm afraid that in the end I won't even have friends, so that's why I haven't dared to talk about it.

Jingjing first expressed her thoughts, she said that she knows that I still love Ah Boo very much, but she must think more for herself, and she must be more cautious when choosing now.Then she said that her current perception of life is that she takes everything lightly, and her family urges her to get married quickly, then get married, as long as she looks a little bit suitable, get married.Jingjing and her boyfriend's five-year long-distance love race, in the end, could not withstand the cruelty of reality.

She told me that she didn't know what kind of person Aboom was, she made me love him to death, but what she knew was that no matter how bad Aboom was, there must be something worthy of my love.She understands me and understands how I feel.Regarding my going to Guangdong, what Jingjing said the most was not to tell me not to go, because she knew what kind of person I was, and she would definitely go all the way to the dark.The most talked about is that you are far away from home, and your family and friends are not around, so you must take good care of yourself and treat yourself better.No matter what happens to me, she will definitely support me firmly.

Maybe this is the meaning of the existence of good friends. They don't need to give you any real help, but spiritual things are far more useful than these.

I looked at my watch and it was almost ten o'clock, so I sent a text message to Ah Bang to ask if it was there. Although I knew that Ah Bang would call me as soon as he arrived, but I was really anxious.Within a few minutes, Ah Bao sent back a text message, saying that he would be there soon.I finally felt more relieved, and told him that he was here, so I went to eat as soon as possible.

Jingjing said that it was almost Valentine's Day, and asked me what my plan was.I thought about it, and it seems that this festival has nothing to do with me when I grow up so big. What to expect.

Jingjing said that she lived with me and gave me a box of Dove, haha, have dinner together, watch a movie or something.In fact, when the two of us usually go out, we give everyone the illusion that we are a couple.And the conversation between us is also not OPEN, meeting is dear, baby or something.Jingjing also jokingly said, we have to get rid of this bad habit, and if we all take our lover to dinner together in the future, a word of dear will probably ruin it all, hehe, think about it too.

Jingjing's text message came, and it was her mother who introduced her to a blind date again. Jingjing was so annoyed that she threw the phone to me and asked me to text and chat with her.I said helplessly that if the other party knew that it was a man chatting with him, he would probably cry to death, but Jingjing seemed fine, saying that I was her special assistant and could represent her with full authority.Let's just chat, that person is not a gentleman, it's just that he is asking questions and I am answering them.Finally, I couldn't help but ask, isn't there anything I want to ask him?I asked Jingjing what to say, and Jingjing almost blurted out a sentence without thinking—no.After finishing speaking, we all laughed, what a helpless smile.

After dinner, I sent Jingjing to a taxi and went home by myself.As soon as he got home, Ah Bao called and said that he had arrived and was going to eat, so let me know first.After hanging up the phone, I went directly to take a shower. I figured that after I finished washing, Ah Bao had almost finished eating, and the call came.

Sure enough, after a while, Ah Bang's call came.It is said that when he went to Guangdong some time ago, the temporary living place was also taken up by employees, and now he has nowhere to sleep.I plan to stay in a hotel for one night before talking about it, and I may be too tired, saying that I have a headache and my blood pressure is a bit high.I was very worried, so I told him to find a hotel to sleep quickly.Ah Bang said that the manager over there wanted to take him to see where Ah Bang would live in the future. There are two beds, Ah Bang joked that they are specially reserved for us.Ah Bang was also worried that I would feel that the environment was not good and would not want to live there.

Ah Bang really thinks too much. It must have been a bit of a hardship at the beginning. Besides, as long as I have Ah Bang by my side, I am very happy, and the rest is really not important.After saying this, Ah Bang seemed to feel a little relieved. I knew what Ah Bang was thinking. He hoped that since he brought me out, he would give me the best life possible. I understand.But the happiness of two people suffering together is what people yearn for the most.Everyone can live a good life, but not everyone can live a hard life, right?

I told Ah Bao to go to the hotel to sleep quickly, and Ah Bao said to open the room first, take a shower and go to sleep before calling me.

I don’t know why I’m hungry again, maybe I ate too much white porridge a few days ago, and now I’m so hungry, I just want to eat some meat and something oily.My mother made me a plate of beef, the leftover bacon in the afternoon, and some steamed buns. Within 5 minutes, I ate it voraciously. Ha ha, my mother kept saying, "Call Slow down, no one will grab me, ha ha.

After brushing his teeth, he went to bed and fell asleep, waiting for Ah Bang's call.About half an hour later, Ah Bang's phone call came.It is said that the head is still very dizzy, probably because I am too tired, so my blood pressure is a bit high.I hurriedly asked Ah Bao to hang up the phone and go to sleep, but Ah Bao became unhappy, saying that he hadn't talked to me much for a day, and I didn't want to talk to me, but I didn't want to.I'm really wronged, don't I want to talk to Ah Bao?I was going crazy, I was just afraid that because of talking to me, I would sacrifice Ah Bang's rest time and break down my body, so it wouldn't be worth it.

Ah Bang said that the house was not bad after just looking at it, and he also planned for me how to tidy up the house. It has one bedroom and one living room, with a kitchen, toilet and balcony, basically everything that should be there.It’s just that the two beds are relatively small, haha, both are 1.2-meter beds, so you can sleep close to each other now, haha, Ah Boom will probably complain about my snoring again, hehe.

Then, when it comes to my job, everything has been arranged, that is, I will work in the planning department that Ah Bo is in charge of. The master has also found me a job, and he will teach me well.I can tell you that you must believe me, and I will do my best.I'm really not self-motivated, and I'm easily satisfied with the status quo.But it’s different now, I’m helping Ah Bang, so I’m more motivated to do it, because only if I do well, can I really help Ah Bang and help Ah Bang solve some practical problems.

Ah Bang jokingly said, now we will be together 24 hours a day, working and living together.Now I don't have to worry, I don't have time to look for other bears.I know Ah Bang is joking, after all we have experienced so much together, I absolutely believe this.Ah Bao said that he doesn't want to think about anything now, he just wants to earn money well and let me live a good life, that's fine, the rest is not important.I am really touched, to meet such a person, besides loving him well, what else can I say, what else can I do.Ah Bang is really someone worthy of my love for the rest of my life.

The topic got farther and farther away. Ah Bo said that he had already planned about my future. He originally planned to buy a sports car first when he had money, but now the plan has been adjusted. If he has money, give it to me first. Buy a house and give me a place to live.I was a little unhappy, so I told him that wherever he was, I would be there, why would I want a house.Ah Bao laughed and said, write the name of the house as mine, he came to live in it, and asked if I would like it.I was really angry and happy, so I just said, I don’t want to.Ah Bang said that I was "crossing the river and tearing down the bridge", haha!This is not all a joke.

Later, he said, Ah Boo hopes that I can have my own children. I really haven't thought about it.Ah Bang said that I am still young now, and when I am in my 30s, my thinking should be a little different.At that time, everything will be stable, and I must find someone to be a surrogate to give me a child. Ah Bao will raise it like his own child, and take care of it.In fact, I really don't have any idea about these things, I just want to be together with Abo, I know that Abo will definitely get married in the next few years, but it doesn't matter, I know that Abo is under a lot of pressure, I just I hope that I can help Ah Bang share some pressure, and nothing else is fine.I also said that when he has a child, I will be a godfather.

Before he knew it, it was already two o'clock in the morning. Ah Bao said he didn't want to hang up the phone because he missed me and wanted to talk to me, but he was afraid that I would urge him to sleep.Why don't I want to chat with him.Haha, but let’s go to bed early, I’ve dealt with the affairs in Xi’an, and it’s over, but Valentine’s Day must not be celebrated together, haha, it’s okay, there will be plenty of time in the future, as long as there is love, every day is Valentine’s Day !

Chapter 88 Chaos (20110213)

Yesterday morning I woke up feeling so cold, got up and looked out the window, it was actually snowing.I didn't expect that it would be snowing in spring already, and it would be so heavy.Send a text message to A Burst and tell him that I'm up.At first I thought he was still sleeping, but Ah Bao immediately replied to the text message, saying that he was already up and busy.Hey, I still want to tell Ah Bang to sleep a little longer.I was tired from driving the day before yesterday, and I didn't expect that I couldn't even sleep soundly. It was really hard.

I continued to sleep in my sleep, it was too cold, I really didn't want to get up.Ah Bang called at around ten o'clock, saying that he had already found someone to clean up the house he had looked forward to yesterday, and he could live in it at night after it was done.It's good, I finally have a place to stay, and that's enough.

After eating at noon, Dad also came back on a rare occasion. He said he wanted to talk about me, so let’s talk about it. Anyway, sooner or later, it will be clear.Dad first asked what caused the "food poisoning" by eating, and those people must be held accountable.I prevaricated and said that I ate a lot of things, and I didn't know what I ate.Dad just said a few more words to me and had to give up.It's a good thing my dad didn't go to the bottom of it, otherwise things wouldn't be so simple. When I think about leaving, I guess it will only be difficult.

Later, the topic naturally changed to my future plans, which is not a new topic.Since I chose to resign last time, my father has hardly talked to me. I can understand his feelings. Everyone hopes that their children will be good and have a stable job, so that they can rest assured.

Dad heard that I planned to go to Guangdong, and he was even more unwilling.People in my family know that I have a girlfriend, and Abo is my girlfriend's brother.A few days ago, Ah Bao also came to our house specially, and talked with my brother about my work and future, and my mother also knew about it.It's just that my dad thinks it's a little unreliable. What my dad said most is, what if I can't get married in the future, and after working for a few years, people quit me, what should I do?

In fact, where can we get married? Perhaps this is the biggest tragedy of gays.But Ah Boo said that telling me to live a good life is his biggest responsibility in the future.Of course, I also know that some things are easy to say, but not so simple to do.In fact, it really doesn't matter whether you are living well or not, as long as two people can be together with heart, it is more important than anything else.

Dad saw that I seemed to have made up my mind to go, so he took out his trump card.He said that since I want to go to work in the mountains, he can understand, so it is true that no one can treat me, and I will not be forced now, just do whatever I want in Xi'an, and he still has the money to support me for the rest of my life. Yes, although my family can't compare with Ah Bao's family, it's still pretty good.

Dad said these words, I really don't know whether to be happy or sad.I'm such an old man, can I really just stay at home like this for the rest of my life?Even if it is really possible, I don't want to.Dad is afraid that I will go out to suffer, so stay with him. No matter what, at least he can take care of me. In a popular saying, "I can't make a big fortune, and I can't cause a big disaster."

But my dad still misunderstood me. These are really not what I want. First of all, I am so old, it is impossible to rely on my family for everything.I admit that I have been well protected by my family since I was a child. No matter what happens, my parents will take care of it for me, so I don't have to worry about it.I am even far behind my brother in these aspects. He is six years younger than me, but he is much more mature than me.Mom and Dad can tell him to go out without worry, but they just don't worry about me.

Maybe it has something to do with my personality. My dad always thinks that I am very honest, and I will be bullied when I go out.I don't know why I give everyone this feeling.Ah Bao also called me and told me that I will work in the same company with him in the future and promise that no one will bully me.I am a little helpless, as long as I don't provoke others, talk less and do more.If someone still bullies me, he is really out of his mind.

Dad thought that I always wanted this kind of life in the past, and now he has promised me that he will just stay in Xi'an and not go anywhere.So he is very confident that I will stay, but it is really not what my father thinks, these are really not what I want, I can't hide under the protection of my parents all my life, and I have to go out by myself broke.

Besides, I’m not the only one, there’s Abo.Dad was a little disappointed to see that I still hadn't changed my mind.It is said that people who do business are very smart, but I am so stupid, I must think more about what I do, or I will suffer a loss before the time.

Hehe, I don't think Abo will do anything to me, right?Ah burst!I don't have any good pictures called Ah Bang, this is the truth.It's just that I can't tell my dad about these things. If I really say it, I guess I will never go anywhere.

My mother talked, and she said that no matter what, she will support me in whatever choice I make, but she just wants me to take good care of myself. When I am far away from home, she just wants to take care of me, but she can’t take care of me anymore. I feel a little uncomfortable talking .I can understand my mother's heart. My mother simply hopes that I will be happy and have a good life. No matter how self-willed I am, she never said a word to me.

My younger brother also said, tell me to pay more attention when I am alone outside. I don’t think too much about what I do. When I do things in the future, I have to think more and think more for myself.

Because of my resignation, none of my relatives at home knew about it.My mother said that many people outside now know about it, and it will spread to their ears sooner or later.So it is better for me to tell others than to tell others.It just so happens that now is a good opportunity to tell everyone that I am going to work in Guangdong.It doesn't matter what the family thinks.I just do what I have to do.

The conversation was about to end, and my mother insisted on taking me to the street to buy clothes. She said that she had checked the weather forecast in Guangdong today, and it was almost [-] degrees, which was already very hot.I'm going to bring some light clothes.Hey, I don't know what else I can say, really, I can't hold back my tears.

Suddenly, I really thought that after everything had settled down, I felt a sense of emptiness in my heart.I can't tell what it feels like, being happy is naturally being happy, after all, being able to be with Ah Bang is more important than anything else.But what else is there besides these?I thought about it for a long time, maybe because I have grown up so much, I can finally be my own master for the first time, and I can go out for the first time. The first step is the most important.

Call and tell Ah Bang that Ah Bang is tidying up the house. He sounds very upset, saying that there are a lot of messy things, and he doesn't know where to start.I had already guessed that it would be like this, and I told him, as long as the bed is made first, he can take a bath and sleep, and leave the rest alone.I just don't have the patience and time.Just let me go and pack it up.Ah Bang asked me over and over again when I would be able to go there, but there are still some things to be done in Xi'an.At least it will take at least a week or so, Ah Bang is extremely helpless, in fact I am also very helpless, there is no way, anyway, we will meet soon.

Tomorrow is Valentine's Day, and I can't spend it with Ah Bao,