Be good, bad boy

At night, after washing the dishes all night, I shook my sore arms and sat in front of the door.Holding up the head that hasn't been washed for several days, I don't want to look at the starry sky at night.

Picking up An Ran's mobile phone lying in my pocket, I suddenly remembered his words: "If you don't want to look for it, come back." I can still remember his eyes, his tone, and the moment that made me feel distressed.I now find that he's not that much for me to hate either, and also, kind of cute too.Touching the phone he gave me, thinking about it.

Because there was no place to live in the hotel, I promised the boss that I would deduct half a month’s salary as a reason for my stay. Finally, I was allowed to live in a place that used to deal with waste water and waste. There was a space inside, and the door was used as a bed. I randomly found something and stuffed it with something and used it as a bed. At first I didn’t dare to go in because I couldn’t stand the sour smell of the room, but later I had to. I didn’t care about it after staying for a few days.Also get used to it.

I went back to my so-called room, put my mobile phone on the bed, and took the quilt that Sister Yanzi gave me. Sister Yanzi is the person who manages everything about us. I am an introverted person. I haven’t dared to talk to others these days. I just bury my head in my work. When I am free, they always let me do other things. Sister Yaner always helps me like a good old lady.

Tired, I slowly lay on the bed, counting the money my boss was going to give me. After 3 months of work, I could only get 3000 quick cash wages, which was pitifully small.I know the boss thinks I'm a bully because I'm younger, but I don't care, I just need the travel expenses.They didn't quarrel with him.

Want to ask me what's on my mind?I'm thinking about everything that's happening right now, the drama that's happening makes me reflect, makes me calm.

The morning always passes quickly, and I have already opened my eyes when the sun shines into my bed.This is already the 5th day here, I am used to it, and it is all casual.Is it early anyway?The days of suffering are still ahead, and I habitually fumble with my mobile phone to check the time.

"Hey! Where's the phone?"

Gulu turned over and quickly looked for the phone.But I couldn't hold the phone in my hand like yesterday,

I rummaged through the bed, searched the whole room, but I didn’t know where the phone seemed to have grown legs. I was very anxious to find it, ran out of the room and went to the kitchen, living room, and bathroom like crazy??? That phone was me In the end, when I thought about it, I didn't even dare to sell it, let alone lost it.

"Tong Yan! Didn't you wash the pot last night? What are you doing wandering in the corridor?" The boss's voice came from the corridor.

"Oh, I'll go right away." After I finished speaking, I hurried to the kitchen, because the boss once told me that if there was anything that didn't satisfy him, he would tell me to leave immediately.

Where the hell is it?I remember it was still on my bed last night, and there is no one in this hotel, only me and the boss are in the hotel, is it him?No, the boss does not lack that stuff.Uneasy, I picked up the oil and put it in the pot, because the oil is in a small bucket like detergent, I slowly poured it into the pot, brushed it up with a brush and thought while brushing, forgetting that the pot was still on the fire After a while, I smelled a smell of oily smoke.I just reacted and quickly put the pot down.It doesn't matter if I let it go, because the big iron pot is too heavy, the oil is splashed on my body????

"Oh!"

Hot oil splashed on me.I can still vaguely hear the oily red sound of "squeak, squeak,,".

Fortunately, someone passed by at that time, and the oil didn't burn badly, but a few bubbles were burned on my hands, and there were many yellow pustules on the back of my red hands, which were painful.

"Just you? You still want to do it with me, why are you so stupid, get out! You will cause trouble early in the morning." The boss heard the sound and rushed to see the kitchen cauldron fell to the ground, and the oil drum also fell to the ground and dripped yellow water. The oil and firearms were also burnt black.

As soon as I heard this, I became nervous and ran to him, "I'm sorry! Boss, you deducted my salary, don't drive me away, please."

"Yesterday I brought someone the wrong drink, and today you?????, get out!" He gave me a vicious look, turned and left.

I still follow behind him relentlessly, begging for mercy from my master like a dog.

"Little brat, if you're bothering me, I'll call the police." He picked up the phone.

I hurriedly held down his hand, "Slap!" He slapped me on the face without any hesitation, the same slap but this slap was so strange and merciless.

"Dare to touch my hand?" After speaking, he took out the toilet paper in the box and wiped the back of his hands pretendingly.Underneath the seemingly gentle face, it was so sinister.

"Then my salary?" I said hopelessly, the voice was so small that only I could hear it in my heart.

"What did you say?" He took off his glasses and stared at me with those evil eyes.

I was silent and walked away with heavy feet.Resigned to my fate, I have only now discovered what it means to be "powerless", what it means to have power, and what it means to be humble.

In the end, I didn't know who took my phone, I only knew that Sister Yan was gone.Even the boss doesn't know where she went?

Since I haven't worked yet, I start wandering around all day.Lived the days of drifting.

One day, when I was sitting on a long bench with my head raised to look at the passing traffic, a man sat in front of me and subconsciously moved away. He looked at me for a while and then left. Leave a magazine.Bored, I picked it up and turned it left and right. Either the celebrity cheated, or the director was called out by his name on the street by his son. The dense text made me, who already had a headache, even more uncomfortable.

Looking around to a trash can, there are 3 unfinished stinky tofu in a plastic belt on the top of the bucket, maybe it was thrown here casually.I looked at the steaming stinky tofu, and a burst of saliva came up in my mouth, and I swallowed it again, my stomach gurgling.

Touching her already flat stomach, she smiled wryly: who can I blame for my choice?In the past, I didn't even want to watch the food cooked by the chef of a five-star hotel, but now I am in a predicament.Hehe, who would believe it?

The hunger prompted me to put down the magazine, fumbled for it, and slowly squatted down to pick the plastic bag with my hands.As soon as the eyes were closed, the heart quickly picked it up, and quickly ate it into the mouth. At that time, the heartbeat was very fast.The saliva secreted in the mouth is quickly absorbed and swallowed quickly. The meal that seems to be familiar and can no longer be familiar to me is precious to me today. Chewing hard, with the stirring of the tongue, it seemed like swallowing a jujube whole.The seemingly impossible scene just unfolded in my life.

One day

When I turned to the trash can again.

A well-packaged snack appeared in front of him.The squatting steps slowly got up, and with the plastic bag, I saw a man standing in front of me. I knew that man, and it was the man who put the magazine on the chair yesterday.

Messy hair blocked the view, I didn't think too much, my stomach was very uncomfortable, I grabbed the snacks.The messy and fluffy hair, the dark face and the exquisitely packaged snacks are in stark contrast.

"Eat slowly, there is more here." He looked at me with a smile on his face.

Only then did I seriously see him.

A well-dressed middle-aged man stood in front of me, with short and long hair, and eyes so small that I could barely see them. The crow's feet at the corners of his eyes were wrinkled and looked at me kindly.

"What's the matter, not enough?" He saw me staring at him all the time, so he asked me curiously.

I shook my head vigorously, took my things and left quickly.

"Hey! Your snack."

At this point I turned my head and watched him pass the rest of the snacks.Instead of taking it, she blushed and ran away quickly????

That's right, you read that right, this is the me who used to have no worries about food and clothing, the me who used to be dismissive of delicacies from mountains and seas.

After wandering like this for a week, because I couldn't find a job and I was sloppy, I started to live like this.

I never thought that I would be like this, that I would live under a dirty overpass, that I would live a dirty and difficult life with the bottom of the society, and that I would not know each other for a better place. I didn't expect that I would start to quarrel loudly, and when I encountered people who made things difficult for me, I would rush up and fight to the death, becoming more barbaric than before.

In short, everything I didn't expect happened to me like a dream.Sometimes I really think this is a dream, a dream that I will never wake up from.

No mobile phone, no hope, even I have the urge to go home, but I can't go back, I miss him so much, I really miss him.Maybe only in the middle of the night will I reveal my true side.Lift up the messy hair, look at the sky, look at the calm water, start talking to yourself:

"Tong Yan, is this what you look like now?" A voice in my heart said to me

"I thought life was nothing more than this, nothing more than daily necessities. But I was wrong. I forgot that there is a kind of fear called powerlessness. I forgot this complicated social circle, forgot to see the existence of rights, and forgot everything. It has always been I thought that was all."

That voice appeared around me, powerless, really, really powerless now.Now I have no hope, I have no strength, and I don’t know what to do now?It's been almost a week, but for me, I have experienced something unheard of in this week.

☆、Chapter [-] Grief, such heartache

"Here!" A thick voice came to my ears at close range.When I picked up the remnants of the plastic bags in the ground, the well-packaged snacks were placed in front of my eyes again.Slowly looking up, he was still the same person from yesterday.He slowly squatted down and looked at me level, "Swipe!" I blushed all of a sudden.Subconsciously alienate him.

"You seem to be afraid of me." He continued to smile

"Don't pick up something to eat, come with me, I'll give you something to eat." He stood up smiling and held out his hand.

Hearing this sentence, he immediately became vigilant, turned around and prepared to leave.

"Live like this all the time, okay?"

His dull voice came from behind. I was very curious when I heard such words, and turned my head to look at him.

He walked towards me slowly, I didn't continue to back up but stood still and waited for him to come.

"Did you encounter any difficulties?"

I didn't speak but kept staring at him, like a beggar, silent because of grief.

"Tell me a little bit about how I can help you?"

Saying this sentence, I don’t know why my heart is filled with hope, it’s a kind of exciting hope.Someone willing to help me out?

Eyes wide open, forgetting doubts, forgetting vigilance.Instead, she looked at him hopefully.

"Tell me!" He had already stood in front of me.

"Can you help me?" Through the messy hair, I could vaguely see his appearance.After 1 day, I finally said a word to him.

"You finally spoke, talk about it!" He was a little excited when he saw me speak.

I was about to speak but he stopped me, "It's inconvenient to say it here, let's go to another place!"

He followed him dubiously to a clean coffee shop, a bit embarrassed to come to such a place all of a sudden.Just about to go out in a hurry, he was grabbed by him.put me in a seat by the door

He ordered a cup of hot coffee and handed it to me. Looking at the steaming coffee, I even wondered if I was dreaming. Looking at the surrounding places and the more high-end people coming and going, I was even more ashamed.

"Tell me, what's the matter?" He leaned on the purple soft sleeper chair and folded his arms.

I shrunk my head tightly and tried not to let others or him see me. I put my hands in my dirty pockets and rubbed my feet back and forth on the ground, which was extremely unnatural.

"what's wrong?" he asked

"No... nothing." I seemed to have a stutter.

"You don't look like a beggar, how did you end up like this?"

"I..." The words seemed to come to my lips and swallowed in my heart. I have never met him before, and I really don't believe that he will help me?

"Don't believe me?" He seemed to understand me.

Seeing that I didn't speak for a long time, he went to the front desk and brought another cup of coffee and handed it to me, and I held it like a demon.

"Try it!"

At that time, I forgot to be vigilant and forgot everything. The moment my mouth touched the cup, I put it down again.His eyes seemed to be lost, and he glanced to the ground for an instant.

"Can you help me?" My words were still so soft, but the difference was that only he could hear them.

"Tell me!" He didn't want to be as gentle as before, it was more casual.

"Can you lend me some money?" I finally said, my face turned redder than before and I quickly lowered my head.

"Ha? Ha?" He laughed unexpectedly, and I felt a kind of solidity in the hearty laughter.

"What am I supposed to do? OK!"

When he said this, I wanted to jump up at that time, and I was so happy that I didn't know what to do?Open mouth and smile.Finally, I can stop going on like this, I have met a nobleman.A stranger would do this for me. I really wanted to say: "Thank you." But these three words seemed to be stuck in my heart and I couldn't say it. I could only be grateful in my heart.

"What? A little happy?" He saw the smile I hadn't shown for a long time and said.

At that time, I didn't know how to nod my head sincerely.

"For the sake of your gratitude, let's have a cup." He said and looked towards my coffee.I didn't want to pick up the cup and swallow it in one gulp, and the bitterness in my mouth could hardly cover the sweetness in my heart.

"Then come and sit at home for a while, and clean up for you by the way." He said while drinking coffee.

"No, as long as you can help me. I am very grateful." I was so excited that I forgot to be nervous.

"At least take a shower, change clothes and so on." He put down the cup and said, looking at my dark clothes.

My face turned red for a while, and I didn't know why I had to agree. When I walked out of the coffee shop, he took me to the barber shop and asked the master to trim my messy hair. I also reluctantly let him manipulate me.

I can't remember that store until now, but I know it's small and the walls are gray.

"Brush!" The man turned on the water pipe.

The moment I was washed by the shampoo, I felt like I was stunned. My head was not as clear as before, but a kind of dizziness, and my eyes seemed to be sleepy. The brain is "buzzing", and the consciousness is slowly losing?????

I don’t know how long it took, the confused consciousness made me feel like I was being taken to a place, I was thrown heavily on the bed, I didn’t resist, because I was unconscious, suddenly felt a bit of cold, felt light all over my body .I didn't think about anything.

Just when I was very confused, a thick mouth pried open my teeth and sucked my tongue. I turned back in confusion, but was stopped by him meaninglessly.Immediately felt hot, a rough hand touched from the chest to the bottom, and then ?????.

In consciousness, I was slowly turned over by someone, and the whole person lay on the bed,

After a while??? Immediately afterwards, there was a feeling of swelling and pain,

Until the bottom of my heart????????.

I don't remember how often I woke up.When I got up, I didn't remember anything else, I only clearly remembered that the pain in the back still hadn't disappeared, and there were still bursts of pain.I don't even know what happened?

What surprised me even more was that I was completely naked, lying on a strange bed, stood up like crazy, rummaged through things just to find clothes, ran out of the living room barefoot, and unconsciously rummaged through any No matter how the people upstairs look at me in astonishment, they just want to find clothes. Now my brain is very messed up, but it’s more like being robbed by someone. It didn’t bring me anything. , only horrified memories and lingering feelings.

I used to wonder whether the word "homosexuality" ever existed.

The fact that I have never seen it since I was a child happened to me so bizarrely, and I really dare not imagine that the "homosexual" who has nothing to do with me wants to be engraved in my heart today.

This is the first time I know "homosexuality", and in this way, I don't want to say anything else, I want to die now, my panic has replaced my tears, who else can I trust?

Who else can I trust? ——

The hall was quiet, there was no one, and there was no middle-aged man who was kindly willing to help me. Instead, there was cold air and naked me.

Angrily, I picked up something and threw it at the TV, screaming angrily.He overturned the coffee table with his hands, picked up the remote control and slapped the window, and even bit the leather sofa with his teeth.

In the end, I squatted down slowly, slowly shed tears, and cried loudly????????????

That was the first time I cried, I didn't even cry when he hit me, I don't know what's wrong?This time it was like stimulating my heart, I felt that I was insulted, a kind of heartache insult.Painful, sour.

After that, I started to destroy like crazy in the bedroom and kitchen, spread the scattered clothes in the bedroom all over the floor, and ran to the bathroom like a madman, turned on the water flow, and let the cold water splash on the dirty body , and I am so calm.

I walked out of the room in a daze, wearing messy clothes like a walking dead, and the anti-theft door was just opened, as if to welcome me to leave.

Walking on the street like this, among strange crowds, I even forgot my name and everything. This sudden fact beat me to pieces and I couldn't hold a trace of stability.I went back to the bottom of the flyover again, shrunk and sat in the position of the beggar who had quarreled with me for a long time. Although I was awake, I was still unconscious, watching people coming and going in a dazed way?????

??

Nightmare, what is it?That is a fact that cannot be forgotten.

Never forget, until the bottom of my heart!

"Tongyan? Tongyan?"

"Tong Yan!"

Where am I?Already dead?

Still alive in a daze.

Under the oppression of the voice, I slowly opened my eyes, and slowly looked at the world that I had abandoned.

Frowning, bright eyes, and a dark beard that covered the area around his chin.this?It feels so familiar, I can't wait to open my eyes, and try my best to pry my sight away, trying to see clearly.

"Tong Yan, Tong Yan," a trembling voice, calling out a familiar name, with a familiar face at first sight.

"You Shao?"

I made a weak sound and opened my eyes.

You Shao was so excited that he held my hand tightly like a child seeing a gift. He forgot other words in excitement and just called out monotonously: my name.

I was slowly lifted up by him, and I saw him smiling as if I saw a kind of intimacy, and I haven't smiled for a long time.It's been a long time since I smiled so easily.Only now do I realize how safe I am.

After seeing my expression like this, he also laughed with my smile, but his smile was mixed with this indescribable feeling.

"Where am I?" He said weakly.I didn't even notice where I was now.

"Hospital, when I found you, you were still asleep."

"I fell asleep?"

"Yes, after I left that day, I thought you were just talking casually. You didn't come back until 10 o'clock in the evening, so I knew that you really went. Then I have been looking for you for a month, big and small I have been to restaurants, service stores, and movie theaters. I happened to see many people gathered around to watch the fun while passing by the overpass. I went down slowly with a lucky mood. Unexpectedly, I saw you lying on the ground in disheveled clothes , pale lips, messy hair???

correct?what happened? "You Shao said very calmly.