lonely three people

Not long after the Spring Festival in 2015, Diss took the key I gave him to visit my old house, which was the house where Cheng Yang and I lived. I would pay the landlord every six months, but I haven't been there in over a year and the house has been vacant.

The tables and chairs there, the posters on the wall, the leaky balcony, the old furniture and home appliances, I don't think there will be any changes except that they are full of dust.I don’t know why I keep that house, whether it’s nostalgia or hope, I don’t know, just treat it as a storage room, storing bits and pieces of Cheng Yang and me from the past.

When Diss came back, he gave me [-] yuan, saying it was the refund of the water and electricity deposit and the money for selling scraps. He said that the things in the house were all antiques, and it was useless to keep them...everything. Home is now only converted into a mere few hundred yuan.Since I let Diss deal with it, it means that I don't miss it anymore.

Diss seemed to have thought of something suddenly, and took out a one-inch photo from his pocket. Cheng Yang's one-inch photo, "The workers found it when they were moving the bookcase. It's unlucky to throw away photos, so I'll leave it to you to deal with."

I was very moved. Diss became reasonable because he cared about me. He was very generous. I would take Cheng Yang's photo to the company and put it in the office drawer, not at my home with Diss.Two people living together need a little more understanding and tolerance.

In March, the tattoo parlor of lesbian girl Qianqian opened. As a superficial boyfriend but actually a good friend, I became the first batch of guinea pigs for the experiment.

Anyway, now that my thinking has improved, getting a tattoo is not a big deal, not to mention that a naughty bun like me is covered in scars all over my body.The company will not intervene, the chairman of our group has an Olympic ring tattooed on his back!

After much deliberation, I also wanted a special, distinctive tattoo.

I decided to get an entire Sanskrit song tattooed on my back because I like it and he will too, who is he!The person who can understand the lyrics, one of the lyrics is: life is short, youth is gone.

Don’t ask me if the tattoo hurts, you’ll know if you try it, the friend lying on the bed next to me screamed like a pig, I really want to say, buddy, you have no courage, no concentration, no patience, you pretend What kind of underworld, what kind of tattoo...

I couldn't see Qianqian's operation on my back, but I could only hear the sound of a sewing machine. It was really painful, and cold sweat broke out on my forehead due to the pain.

Some people say that tattoos can be addictive. I didn’t understand it before, but when it was my turn, I finally understood. The sound of the sharp needle point piercing the skin continuously, as if piercing the bone... The most direct pain of the flesh will make people I feel that I am still a person who can feel pain, no matter how long it takes, the pain will not be numb until the end.I am very familiar with the pain, the pain reminds me of the most painful person, the most painful thing, I just want to say a few words from the bottom of my heart, it hurts so much, so damn good.

Almost three years now!Zou Chengyang, how can you still make me suffer so much? Why can't I let go of your departure? Are you my regret?

I didn't withdraw from my own world until Qianqian called me, "Fiancé, all right, let's take a look." Qianqian told me to look in front of the mirror.

It’s very beautiful with words that I can’t understand. Qianqian took a photo and said that she can promote her. She wants to post it on Space and Moments and ask me to forward it.

Lying on the bed and playing with the phone, Dees sat on my ass and applied ointment to the tattoo on my back.Now technology is really developed, and the functions of mobile phones are also more. I, who still go downstairs to get newspapers every day, are obviously a bit out of date. Call me the post-80s uncle.

I downloaded a mobile app for gays to make friends, but I didn't put any photos, and it also marked with the word bf.

The phone beeped, and there was a new reminder. When I opened it, it was a message in Space. Now there is someone else playing Space besides me?

(Husband, why are you so stupid, doesn’t it hurt to get that on your body? I thought I would secretly browse your space every day, as long as I could bear it all the time, I saw you and your current him go to many places, every time You are smiling so happily in this photo, I thought I was secretly looking at your happiness like this... I thought that after we separated, I was the only one who was alive and not a ghost or a ghost. It turns out that you are also scarred and scarred. I really miss you , Every day, every year, I know that those words on your back are for me, you must know that I can understand it, so you do it, but I really can’t watch you hurt yourself anymore.)

This must be Cheng Yang, only Cheng Yang can say such words, only he understands the meaning of (Life is short, Fanghua dies), I have not heard from him for nearly three years, is he finally willing to appear, I immediately replied (how is it possible, I never I haven't seen you in Space Visitors, and your network number icon hasn't been lit up in the past few years)

Immediately a reply was sent to me (You are still so thick and stupid, silly husband, you can delete your browsing traces by signing up for a membership for ten yuan, how can I let you know if I hide sincerely, big fool.)

avoid me!I don't know how to understand these two words, but I know how unhappy these two words have made my life these few years (you are very selfish, you didn't leave me anything, only a bunch of cruel things Unfortunately, this is not fair, why you can secretly pay attention to me, but I am like a blind man, I can't find you, I can't see you, I even thought I would regret it all my life, I can only rely on silly guesses Your position, your emotions, your everything.)

Diss patted me on the back and said, "You just installed a dating app and someone chatted with you?"

I still lay on the bed and looked down at the phone, "It's a message in the space, do you want to read it?" I raised my hand and shook the phone.

"Not interested." Diss rolled over and got out of bed, not knowing whether to go to the kitchen or the toilet.Anyway, this is Diss. He never asked about similar things. He didn’t even touch my mobile phone or computer for two years. He thinks this kind of thing is boring. Trust, there are some things you can’t say, some things you can’t do, hurt feelings, don’t doubt the other party, doubt is a flattering thing inside and out, if you don’t find anything, you’ll hurt your peace, if you find something, you’ll be sad, and toss The two people who come and go can't be separated, so what's the fuss about, can't you live a good life.I think Diss is smart. Only smart people can keep their love, and only people who can manage can keep their love. This is the difference between mature people and immature people, which is called rare confusion.

For about two hours after that, I was in front of the computer in the study room chatting with Cheng Yang via video, only Cheng Yang’s voice could be heard, and his picture was always reflected on the (Starbucks) coffee cup.

He is fine, he said he is much fatter than before.Usually he is very busy at work, doing sales during the day and interpreting at night. The pace of Shanghai is fast and realistic. He is a little tired, but hard work will pay off. It has only been three years since we separated and he now has a car and a house there.

Whether this is the life Cheng Yang wants, I think only he himself knows, as long as I know that he is living a good and fulfilling life, I will be satisfied. He is an adult, a man, and mature.

Diss never came into the room to disturb me. He might be watching TV in the bedroom, or he might be lying on the sofa in the living room playing with a tablet computer. I know he can hear me chatting with Cheng Yang, but he chose not to hear it.

……

There was such a boring day, lying on the sofa in the office, playing with the mobile phone, and browsing casually on gay dating software, not to mention that I am very horny, if I can’t eat pork, I can’t watch the pig run.

I refreshed it, and my eyes widened. Among the nearby people, why is the nearest person so close to me? The distance is only 0.03km, 30 meters! ... My place is a swamp that stretches as far as the eye can see, and within three kilometers there is not even a single person except my camp.

It's a pity that there is no photo on the information of the person closest to me, so I hesitated, whether to continue the research, probably this person is my colleague in this building.

Curiosity won, I couldn't help but clicked in, checked the detailed information, born on August x, 1987, 8 height, 173 kg, still a bear, O blood type, Leo.

Counting me, there are only a dozen people working here...

In the file room, I pressed a stack of employee information files on my elbow, and I was on the phone with my chin resting on my hand.

"Star, where is it?"

"Didn't you let me patrol the neighborhood in the morning!"

"Oh, I forgot...I didn't expect you to be a Leo too."

"Leader, it's always difficult to drive on the broken roads around us. You call me to talk about constellations!"

"Go ahead, drive slowly...I just think this world is so interesting...full of fun."

"Did I do something wrong? If you have something to say, tell me directly. Why do I feel so fuzzy when you do this?"

"It's okay, it's okay, you're very good, I like you very much, haha" I was really happy, and I immediately dialed the monkey's phone again to share with the monkey.