lonely three people

A long time ago, I thought that I had obtained real happiness, that I had found the result, but I found that I would become more and more confused, exhausted but still unable to let go...

How long is it!How long has it been since I saw Mu Shan, and I still talk on the phone every day, but I only hear too many apologies. He still encourages me to live happily in the future, but how can I live in the future if I can’t live through the present!

I will tell myself that only by giving up can I be free, and I will convince myself that no one is right or wrong in love, and if you can’t find the result here, you should look elsewhere, but I can’t lie to myself, I can’t make excuses for a seed in my heart, maybe it’s me Empathy and goodbye, maybe I can't bear to wait in silence for an indefinite period, the departure of the heart is far more terrifying than the derailment of the body.

I love Mushan, but I prefer to believe that there is someone who is his continuation. He is too far away, so far away that I can't catch it.

(Accompany me for a walk?) Recipient: Cheng Yang.

Mushan doesn't like me drinking coke or eating fast food, but he doesn't care about me anymore!

Walking on the pedestrian street with Cheng Yang, each holding a glass of Coke, this is the second cup of each other, no one restricts me, and there are still people who are willing to accompany me.

Ketchup is squeezed on the lid of the Coke cup, and we eat a few bags of French fries wantonly, eat wantonly...

Sitting on the fence of the river embankment, holding my shoulders and watching the cruise ship pass slowly, when there was no Mushan to put on my coat, I suddenly thought of putting my coat on Cheng Yang beside me.

"How about going on a colorful boat?"

"No." That would remind me of the river cruise with Mushan on a colorful boat.

"You smoke a cigarette, I like to see you smoking." Cheng Yang originally pouted, but in an instant he could change into a happy expression.

"Aren't you afraid of the smell of smoke?"

"Sometimes the light tobacco smell is better"

It's good when you like it, but it's bad if you don't like it. Maybe I'm just Cheng Yang's temporary interest. Such a simple little thing knows what love is, and do I understand it!

"Thinking of him?" Cheng Yang stared at me, his eyes were super big with double eyelids.

"No"

"Is he pretty?"

"Don't ask questions"

"Oh"

I haven’t seen Lin Niang for a few days, Mu Shan said that he sold Lin Niang’s house, the old lady is really not used to living in the city, she is not really happy in the city, the countryside is more suitable.

Is this city no longer bound by Mushan, is there no longer any concern for him, and Lin Niang is gone, will he come back, will I come back just to see me? Just look at me!What about our home, does he still live, can he still be with me!

"Send it to you, don't be in a daze, marry me!" When I was in a daze, Cheng Yang bought a rose from the flower girl passing by behind him, and presented it to me with his tongue out.

"This... marry..." Laughed, said everything, the little flower seller laughed straight away, he thought we were joking, and I only thought that Cheng Yang was just trying to make me happy.

"Take it, it's my first time sending flowers, it's quite expensive." She gently shook the roses in front of my eyes.

"Don't shake it, the petals will fall if you shake it again." Is it true that everyone puts flowers under their noses and smells them, that's what I do.

Cheng Yang was very happy, and leaned over with his mouth pursed. I covered my face with my hands, so he only kissed the back of my hand.

The little flower seller who was watching left quickly, and the scene she saw was enough for her to digest for a while.

It’s the first time for me and Cheng Yang to go to the video game hall to play, like two big idiots, a lot of game coins are often squandered before they figure out how to play, the amazing thing is that they can still enjoy themselves ,sweating a lot.

I want to send Cheng Yang back to school before the last bus, so I can't search for black cars all over the streets in the middle of the night.

On the back seat of the bus, Cheng Yang fell asleep while talking, holding my arm and pillowing my shoulder.

The phone screen lights up (Mushan misses me) A few conspicuous words hang on the screen, he hesitates again and again, he hates me not answering the phone the most.

"Hey"

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"Oh"

"What's wrong, you don't seem happy"

"No, it's good"

"Think I didn't?"

"Fortunately, you have eaten!"

"Xiangxiang, is there something wrong, tell me, I can hear the difference from the first word you opened your mouth, we are so familiar, so familiar that I understand every breath and every tone of yours"

"I just stayed up late, my head hurts a bit, I'm not energetic, just rest and rest." It turned out that the perfunctory words sounded so perfunctory...

"Direction, where are you?"

"At home" "The Academy of Social Sciences is here, passengers who get off the bus please move to the door ahead of time..."

I pressed the phone to my face very hard, thinking that I could cover up the sound of the bus stop announcement.

I haven't heard Mu Shan's words, and found that the phone call has been hung up. I don't know if I accidentally touched the button or Mu Shan hung up the phone.

"He..." Cheng Yang woke up.

"Yes"

"The voice is very gentle"

"He's always been like this"

It's tiring to tell lies, but fortunately God exposed me the first time I lied, and God would tell Mu Shan everything he knew.

"Cheng Yang, do you like me?"

Cheng Yang nodded decisively.

"I have him and a boyfriend, and you... like it too." He shook the phone in his hand.

Cheng Yang still nodded.

"Do you also understand what it means?"

"I don't understand, and I don't care so much. I like you and want to be with you, even if I can only get someone from you now." Cheng Yang's words were not loud on the bus, but I heard every word clearly.

"What will happen if you are not in the dormitory when you check the bed at night?"

"If I stay in the dormitory, I will miss more important things, so you want to...?"

"make love"

If we want to separate, if we can't go back to the past, I will be the one who is wrong, because I will betray my promise first, and my free and easy betrayal will make it easier for both of us.

Lin Mushan——I love you, I want to pay homage to our dying love with the sweat on others.

Zou Chengyang——I'm sorry, I want to vent my heart with you to forget the one above him, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry...

Unhappy, waiting too long, the new life is just a solution to the boredom of healing.

The stupidity of love before, always want to revenge the truth of the next person.

Selfishness is the instinct of love. In order to measure the balance of broken love in my heart, I seriously hurt another innocent person with the indifference that I hate.

The person who kept saying that he loved was actually the one who was actually hurt by himself...

(uncomfortable)