lonely three people

Until noon, I was woken up by the smell of cooking fumes, half-opened my eyes, found my slippers, put them on, sat on the bed in a daze, "Cheng Yang, Cheng Yang" rubbed my eyes to wake myself up.

Cheng Yang is not in the bathroom, it must be in the kitchen, I smell fried onions.

Through the glass window of the kitchen, I found that there was no one there. I still couldn't believe my eyes, so I pushed open the kitchen door and went in to confirm.The pungent smell of cooking fumes makes people sick, but it's not the smell of cooking in his own kitchen, it's clearly the smell of the aging fume pipes of the whole building coming out of the range hood, there is no shadow of Cheng Yang.

"Cheng Yang, Cheng Yang" went to the balcony to see nothing, where did it go?

Cheng Yang's clothes and pants were gone, and his sneakers were not at the door either.I calmly sat on the edge of the bed and lit a cigarette. Wait, I must have gone out to buy groceries. It was the same way before. When I wake up, I have something to eat or Cheng Yang is cooking. He may Went downstairs to buy food.

Smoking full of bitterness in the morning, disheveled but not going to wash up, I gradually became worried like a prisoner waiting for trial.

One cigarette burned all my calmness, I couldn't sit still anymore, I couldn't sit still, where did he go?Did you go back to school to revise your thesis?I didn't want to wake me up, so I went back alone!

He dug out his cell phone under the pillow and found several short messages, he just ignored it if he had the heart to read the messages, and he couldn’t find Cheng Yang’s phone number after searching for a long time, what’s the matter?I searched the address book twice and couldn't find it. Why did I lose his number?

Houzi had Cheng Yang's cell phone number, so I immediately called Houzi.

"Tell me Cheng Yang's phone number," I said eagerly.

"Oh, don't hang up, I'll check." There was a key-press sound from the phone, and it was the monkey looking through his address book. "You can write it down 13...how come you don't have Cheng Yang..." Before the monkey chatted with me about other things At that time, I decisively hung up the phone.

"The user you called has turned off" Cheng Yang's cell phone is turned off!Could it be that there is no signal!

"The user you called has switched off" is it because Cheng Yang's cell phone is out of battery?

I played the same notification sound several times in a row. I was stupid and a little hard to believe. I tried my best to dispel the unwanted associations and assumptions in my mind. , he'll be back soon, soon.

Finally remembered the few unread short messages in the phone, and quickly checked that it might be related to Cheng Yang's location.

Several messages were sent from the same unfamiliar number.

Husband, thank you for your care in the past few years. I really hope that we can be sweet forever. It's a good time to be your wife.I really hope that I can have your hug when I wake up in the morning, but I don’t have the heart to wake you up seeing you sleeping so soundly, and I’m also afraid that I’ll cry.Who doesn't want to grow old with the one they love, and who doesn't want to have a hug every morning. In fact, I have never disliked the shabby home. I also believe that you are the best husband. I love our family and I love you. Thank you husband , but what happiness needs is two people holding hands, we are still not holding hands firmly, the road is still not smooth... I still shed tears, it should be the last time I cry, I will cry again in the future and you will not be by my side, no one will coax me I can't cry.

After reading this, my broken mobile phone slowly switched to the next message. I cursed "fool" and felt very tight in my chest. There was an emotion suppressed in my chest and I couldn't express it.

In the past, I had no skills and could not help my husband to share the pressure of life. In the past few months, I have translated this book and made some money. I just want to come back and treat you to drink delicious coffee and treat you to eat the best food. I have nothing , but I want to give you the best, just like you have always been, what you can give me is not much, but you are all, I can hear, see, and feel, I know you have always loved me before It's just that you don't like to talk about it. Sometimes you are cute when you are stubborn. I just like to make you angry on purpose, but you are always really angry with me.

The phone received a call at an inopportune time. It was a call from a monkey. He must have been worried about what would happen to Cheng Yang and me. I hung up and continued to read the message Cheng Yang left for me.

In fact, I am still very satisfied. I really thought that if I love you, I don’t need to care about what you say, but when you say "I love you" to me, my husband, I am still so excited that I can’t speak. Go on, but it would be great if I could hear it before. If I tell you these words are a bit late, will you be angry!You never asked about my family affairs. My parents divorced when I was a teenager. My uncle was not happy when I went to my grandma’s house. My uncle was not welcome when I went to my grandma’s house. At that time, other classmates were happy during the winter and summer vacations, but I didn’t know what I should go back to. What... I don't want to disturb my parents' respective lives. I cook for myself and urge myself to study. Even Wen Bo, who grew up with me, failed to give me stability and a sense of security.One day I have a home, you gave me a home and gave me everything, but another day, you let me leave home, I begged you in fear, your indifference made me unforgettable all my life, I stood nostalgic in the snow and hoped You look at me from the balcony and tell me to go home, and finally wandered to the train station, sitting alone at the window, watching the scenery fly away, the feeling of crying is very painful, the feeling of being abandoned by the person I love the most I never want in this life I can't bear it again, I'm really afraid of being alone again, I hate Christmas and even H City, a city where people's hearts are colder than the temperature.

I wiped my eyes with my hands indiscriminately, because tears had blurred my vision, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, my wife is sorry, Cheng Yang is sorry, I love you and I'm sorry" I kept chanting a few words, feeling that I was cruel I deeply hurt Cheng Yang's heart, and I definitely can't forgive myself.

Husband, our one-day tour was so fun. I walked the road we walked together again. I am satisfied with looking back at the previous scenery. Your performance is also very good. I will reward you with a big red flower... I am very happy these two days , feeling your thoughtfulness and tolerance, listening to your smothered sweet words, eating something you made by yourself, watching you fall asleep and trying to remember your appearance, although now I don’t have your temperature on my hand, but with I also deliberately remember the feeling of you holding hands, your hands are thick and a little cold.I spent two days happily, I hope time will slow down, and I hope I can stay by your side longer, but I am afraid that I will not be able to leave you again.Husband, thank you for being with me. The beauty of these two days is enough to recall a lifetime. A complete two days is better than twenty years of mediocrity and loneliness. Myheartforyou.

I don't understand the last English, but it doesn't stop me from crying into tears, and it doesn't stop me from understanding Cheng Yang's heart.Why?I still don't want to accept some problems, such as Cheng Yang is going to leave me, so I hurriedly flip through the last message.

I can't let go of what happened on Christmas night, I need to relax, some things need to be cleared up, I don't know how long or even what to think about, anyway, maybe one day I will come back after I figure it out, if at that time my husband you Also willing and convenient to accept me.Chen Xiang, please remember: Zou Chengyang loves you forever, you are my favorite husband, no matter how long it takes, no matter where I go in the future, no one can replace you.I will come back in May to get my graduation certificate. Don’t let me see your dark circles again. I will come back anytime to see if you are doing well and living well.

"The user you dialed has been turned off." Cheng Yang's number was still turned off, and he gave it to me without even a chance to keep it.

Come back in May!As long as there is a deadline, I am afraid that it will be indefinitely.