Masahiro Akita

"Brother, don't worry, I'm not tired."

Standing in the corn field, I waved the hoe in my hand, exposed to the sun naked, it was very hot, and the sweat was running down my cheeks.The weather is so hot, but it can't dry out my excitement and enthusiasm at this time. It can be said that it corresponds to the ancient poem "At noon on the day of hoeing, the sweat drips down to the soil!" Most of them will look at me, but I really enjoy the process of sweating profusely.

"If we're tired, let's rest for a while, don't worry!"

The fat man was still worried about my body, and he kept telling me, but his voice of genuine concern also sprayed me with a stream of coolness in the hot summer.

"Oh, got it."

I yelled, and raised my pitch deliberately, proving my excitement at the moment.

Although I am in good shape, compared to the fat man, I am slow enough.Even though the fat man has great strength, the flesh all over his body is not for nothing!

"Tian'er, give me some water, I'm dying of thirst!"

Fatty's voice came from the other side of the corn field again, and there was a strangeness in the thick.

"Oh~"

I responded, took the water bottle, and walked over.

The fat man was wearing a black vest and dark trousers that were pulled high. His face was rosy and he was looking at me profusely with sweat. His squinted eyes made his newly cut hairstyle even more lovely. The one with short hair is about to become a monk, and the already round head becomes even rounder. If the ears are removed, it will definitely be a watermelon.

Sweat drenched his clothes and wrapped his fleshy body, making the strong and thick outline more sexy. The round belly protruded tightly, and two red beans were eager to try in the vest, which seemed to be Want to break free and get some air outside.Every inch of his skin, every movement, every expression, every word disturbs my heartstrings, stimulates every cell of me, affects every nerve of mine, and controls every second of my thinking.At this time, the fat man was so handsome and charming. I looked at him obsessively. Although I used to feel this way before, today it was so strong.

"Brother, give it."

I passed the water over, the fat man didn't speak, and didn't take the water in my hand, he went over the water bottle and grabbed my hand tightly.I was taken aback and exerted a little force, but he didn't show any intention of letting go.A warm current came from the back of my hand, along my arm, and directly into my brain.I wanted to break free, but some kind of wonder in my heart made me unable to move, as if I had been enchanted, and I couldn't use any strength. I looked up at the fat man, and he was looking at me affectionately, with that rare seriousness. , From his eyes, I saw tenderness, I saw expectation, and I saw endless hope.

I didn't speak, and neither did he. A burst of rapid breathing came, and the fat man's other hand wrapped around my waist and pulled me into his arms.His head slowly approached me, his smell became clearer and clearer, and my heart beat faster and faster.

With a sound of "啪~", the water bottle fell to the ground, who cares.For us at this moment, there is no situation that can disturb the gradual approach of two hearts that are just around the corner.

Already steady breathing, uncontrollable tension, never felt before, I slowly closed my eyes.

In this sunny afternoon, in this passionate summer, in the five-foot-high cornfield, through the fruitful, a ray of sunlight hit our face, two dry lips finally stuck to each other Together, nourishing and releasing.

The brain was hot, and the desire in my heart was instantly ignited by the fat man. That picture seemed to be what I had been looking forward to, and it really became a reality at this moment. It was frozen there for a long time, so happy, so beautiful

I opened my eyes in a haze, and there were snowflakes floating outside the window. Where is this? Isn’t this at home? Could it be that what just happened was just a dream? This made me feel a little lost. Why am I lost? What's up with the dream? I kissed a fat man? How could I have such a weird dream? And I enjoyed it so much! Deep down, what is a fat man to me ? Is it just a simple brother? What is another feeling besides that?

I don't want to admit it, but I have to admit it, I'm in love with Fatty! This kind of thought shocked me! I'm in love with my brother? In love with a boy? But only in this way can I make sense of this Everything, explain the subtleties in my heart, he is inexplicably sour when talking and laughing with Xiaolu, and the fat man is suddenly sweet when he cares about me, every word and expression of him will affect my mood, strange Reflections, feelings of doubt, all of these things, nothing else, it turns out that it is love.

I suddenly felt that my underwear was wet! Oops! It’s a race! I looked at the fat man, it’s okay, I haven’t woken up yet, I got up from the kang, secretly found a pair of clean shorts, and changed them carefully, for fear Woke up the fat man.

"Tian'er, why don't you go to bed so early in the morning?"

Fatty's lazy voice came over, very sexy, but at this moment I didn't want to hear it.

"Ah! Oh! Nothing to do, it's still early, you can sleep a little longer!"

His sudden opening made me turn pale with fright! I faltered and answered nervously.

"Hey! Why did you take off your underwear! Could it be that you are masturbating?"

As he said that, the fat man got up from the kang and looked at me curiously.

"Who's jerking off! I'll change my shorts!"

This fat man! I don't know what he's got in his head!

"He said no! What is this?"

The fat man snatched my shorts, pointed to something on them and said, with an expression on his face ready to see my joke.

"I had a horse race last night! Come on!"

I was a little ashamed, and said it abruptly. There was no other way, the evidence was in his hands, so I could only tell the truth!

"Haha, boy, which little girl did you dream about last night?"

The fat man is not forgiving, he keeps making fun of me about this, it’s so embarrassing, at this moment, I just want to jump out of the window, and run as far as I can! But then I think, if I’m really like this If I ran out, wouldn't I be running naked!

"Fuck you, you love dreams so much, go dream yourself!"

I quickly put on my shorts and said something angrily.

I thought: It’s not because of you! I’m so embarrassed! You’re so good, watch my jokes over there!

Although I thought so in my heart, I didn't dare to say it out loud. If the fat man knew that I dreamed about him, what would he think?

"My mother also said that if anyone dares to fight with me for this Olympic fire and raises her hand, she will take him away."

The finale sketch "Torchbearer" of this year's Spring Festival Gala is playing on TV.

My mother and I were making dumplings in the living room, and the funny TV programs added a lot of festive atmosphere to this festival.

The fat man is wandering around like a monkey in the house, looking at one place, moving another, and making ghostly noises from time to time, just seeing a tuft of meat dangling around in the room, which makes me mad Both my mother and I were bored to death.

"Fatty! Go away! Block the TV!"

I said annoyed.

"Oh~"

The fat man ran away obediently.

"If you don't know how to make dumplings, just sit down and watch the show honestly, don't run around in the house!"

Mother really can't stand it anymore.

"Oh"

The fat man replied again, now he was honest and obediently watched TV, but it didn't take long for the fat man to go crazy again.Hey, I really have no memory.I just don't understand why he's so excited!

The lively atmosphere inside the house, and the sound of firecrackers outside the house rang the entire night sky.

The villagers here are going to set off firecrackers to welcome the God of Wealth on New Year’s Eve. Seeing that the time is almost up, I put down the dumpling wrappers in my hand and set off firecrackers outside with the fat man. We bought less, and the firecrackers are in our hands very quickly. It was over, and most of the time was spent watching the firecrackers set off by other houses.

"Dapeng! Oda! Do me a favor!"

It's Uncle Li, who moved a lot of fireworks from Xiaolu's grandfather's house, big and small, all kinds of fireworks, which shocked me and the fat man! I bought so many! How much did it cost! It seems that Uncle Li's fish pond business has made a lot of money this year! And this pile of whips like a hill, there should be no one in the whole village can compare!

"Uncle, where's Xiaolu?"

We ran over excitedly. The fat man looked around but didn't see Xiaolu, so he asked suspiciously.

"She is on the phone at home, you two help me put it, I will ask Xiaolu to come out and watch."

With that said, Uncle Li went back to the house.

Tonight's fireworks dyed the sky red, and the sound of 'dong dang' around me made it difficult for me to hear what the fat man said.

"Brother, isn't it pretty?"

The fat man yelled in my ears, the warm wind tickled my ears.

"It looks good~"

I whispered back close to his fleshy ear.

The temperature outside was a bit cold, I secretly pulled up the hem of his clothes, and couldn't help leaning closer to the fat man.

The fireworks blooming in the sky are beautiful, but they are not as good-looking as the fat man's chubby face. Under the background of the fireworks, it turns red for a while, and turns blue for a while. At some point, Xiaolu ran out, wearing a white down jacket and blue jeans.We looked up at the sky together and covered our ears with our hands until the last loud bang ended in the smoky night sky.

"Five, four, three, two, one, zero!"

Xiaolu stared at the watch on her arm, counting down the last few seconds of this year, and the surroundings were full of joy, but to me, this was just the bits and pieces accumulated in half a year. Just getting started.

"Akita, Fatty, Happy New Year."

"Tian'er, Xiaolu, happy new year."

"Brother, Xiaolu, happy new year."

The three of us congratulated each other, everyone's faces were filled with festive smiles, and we were in a particularly good mood at this time. This was my younger brother's first New Year's Eve in my memory.It turned out that the New Year's atmosphere is so pleasant.

Each of us has made our own wish. My wish is that I can find my lost memory this year, and I want to be with Fatty forever.

After praying, I opened my eyes and turned my head to one side, the fat man still closed his eyes tightly.What wish will he make? Will there be me in his wish?

Some people say that if the sky is dripping with rain, it is looking for a corner. A lonely heart, with a tragic fate, was accidentally seen by God, moved, and shed sad tears for him, and the tears flowed down the sky , it turned into rain and dripped into the world.So if people see it raining in the sky, they know that in a certain part of the world, someone has moved God, and the harder it rains, the more sad God is crying.

On the contrary, I don't think so, God's tears should be snow.White and pure, when snowflakes fall, they are melted by temperature, turned into water, and turned into rain.In winter, the temperature has no ability to melt it. Snowflakes slide down God's cheeks, fall to the ground, fall to passers-by, fall to the roof, and fall to the roof to see the snowman's face. Those are the most real tears of God. .And the God at this moment, are his tears shed for me?

Time has not stopped the rushing pace, the days go by day by day, and I am deeply trapped in the hope and struggle of the fat man every day, I like him, but I can't tell him, this feeling is so hard, so tortured People, but if I really said it, how disappointed would the fat man look at me? I don't know, and I don't dare to think.

Xiaolu still chats with me every day, which seems to have become a habit, and I look forward to Xiaolu's visit every day, because from her stories, I can learn a lot about the world outside this village, a completely different world full of world of temptation.

Xiaolu told me that there are tall buildings, tempting food, bustling street scenes, and colorful moods there.There is no soil on the roads there, they are all hard. The people there don’t live in tile-roofed houses, and they all live in buildings tens of meters high. No one farms the land there, and they all go to the supermarket to buy. It is very busy during the day and night. But it is more lively. There are big shopping malls, movie theaters, parks, and amusement parks.I am full of fantasies, expectations and longings for the city. One day, will I be able to go there to see the bustling city, the feasting, the lights of thousands of houses, and the busy traffic there? .

Xiaolu majored in fine arts, so sometimes, I would go to learn art from her with paper and pen, Xiaolu is very good, what she draws looks like, and every time I praise her, she will modestly say that she draws It’s not good enough, saying that the students in his department are better than him in painting, especially when it comes to her senior, who seems to be called Junjie, what he said is amazing!Sometimes Xiaolu would suddenly say something irrelevant to the topic, such as "What do you think of me?" Wonderful, maybe Xiaolu really cares about my good friend.

Spring melts God's tears and nourishes the wild flowers that are about to bloom, and winter just leaves quietly, brewing for the arrival of next year. Colleges and universities all over the world have begun to call its students, and of course Xiaolu is the same.

"Xiaolu, I'll return this mp3 to you."

The river water, sealed by the cold winter, has thawed out, and the water flows along the meandering way and hits the stones on the river surface, making a "squeaky" sound.Xiaolu is going back to school tomorrow, and although she likes this thing very much, she still decides to give it back to her.

"I'd better give it to you as a souvenir. I'm leaving. If there is no one to chat with you, use this to relieve boredom."

Xiaolu’s eyes are no longer as bright as before, and her calm words reveal a touch of sadness. Maybe she doesn’t want to leave, and I am the same. Chatting with the cheerful Xiaolu can always make me temporarily forget my troubles. She will go back tomorrow, which inevitably makes me feel a little bit sad.

"This~"

I hesitated, should I accept Xiaolu's kindness?

"Take it, it's not for nothing, I have conditions."

Perhaps Xiaolu saw my thoughts and added another sentence.

"What conditions?"

I hastily asked a question.

"I just want to learn all the songs in the mp3, when I am on summer vacation, I will come back to check, you have to sing it to me!"

Xiaolu turned her head, looked at me, pursed her lips, and smiled.

"Well, that's fine, thank you."

I smiled happily and agreed to her request.

"Here, this is for you."

I looked all over, but I couldn't find anything to give away, only this.I took off the jade pendant hanging around my neck and handed it to her.

"I can't have such an important thing."

Xiaolu didn't take it, but pushed it back into my hand.

"What's important? For a person who has no memory and has forgotten all the memories about this jade pendant, what's the point of wearing it? Why don't I give it to you and rewrite the name on it?" Memory, starting from this second, makes this thing meaningful."

I said it sincerely, and hung it around Xiaolu's neck. I seemed to see a touch of emotion in Xiaolu's eyes.

"That's not OK!"

Xiaolu's thinking seemed to pause for five seconds, and after five seconds, she returned to normal and blurted out.

"As a gift exchange, it can be regarded as a souvenir for you. Thank you for spending so many days with me to pass the boring time. If you don't accept it, then I don't want this mp3 either!"

I held down Xiaolu's hand that was about to take off the jade pendant, and at the instant of the touch, she stopped moving.

"Okay then, I'll take it, thank you."

She lowered her head so that I couldn't see her expression.

"Hehe, we are all good friends, why are you so polite!"

A swallow flew over me and stopped on a willow tree. There was a bird's nest in the tree, and there were a few cubs in the nest. They closed their eyes tightly and opened their mouths wide, expecting the mother swallow to come. Put worms in your own mouth.

Looking at the sky from the head of the stage, I saw the sun on the way home. It was getting late, and it was time to go home for dinner. I guess the fat man would be home soon.

"Xiaolu, I should go back, or mother should be in a hurry."

As I said that, I got up and prepared to go back, maybe I sat there for too long, and standing up quickly made me a little dizzy.

"Akita~"

Xiaolu suddenly stopped me from behind.

"Huh? What's the matter?"

I stopped and looked back at her.

"No, it's nothing, go back soon"

Xiaolu's quizzical answer was somewhat inexplicable.

"Oh~"

I responded and strode home.

"Brother! Come back!"

Pushing open the door of the back room, the fat man was lying lonely on the kang, which really shocked me!His eyes have been staring at the roof, there is no movement in the room, the atmosphere is a bit depressing! It is probably the reason why Xiaolu will go to school tomorrow.

"Hehe, it's Tian'er! Where did you go to play?"

My voice disturbed the fat man's contemplation. When he saw me coming back, he turned around and changed his expression, obviously he didn't want me to see his sadness.

"I went to chat with Xiaolu."

"I'm going back to school tomorrow!"

I added one more sentence.

"Oh~"

The fat man responded and said nothing

"Brother, Xiaolu gave me an mp3, just for boredom."

Let's tell Fatty, anyway, Xiaolu and I are very good friends, and he probably won't mind if he gives me a present before leaving!

"Oh~"

The fat man replied absent-mindedly again.

"Aren't you jealous? Haha~"

I joked, trying to ease the dull atmosphere around me.

"Brat, you're making fun of your brother again! Your skin is itchy again, isn't it?"

With an angry tone, the fat man got up and wanted to beat me up!

"Haha, it's just itchy skin, but it's a pity no one scratches it for me!"

I laughed and ran out of the house, hoping that my well-intentioned provocation would bring some joy to the fat man.

It's just a joke, if it's really caught by the fat man, it won't be as easy as a tickle!

"You son of a bitch! Don't run!"

Put on the shoes, the fat man chased him out

"If you don't have enough money, tell Dad, we can buy whatever you want to eat, and if you don't have enough money, Dad will remit it to you. Pay attention to your bags when you get on the train, don't talk to strangers, and call Dad when you get there. , don't think about playing every day, read more books and learn more knowledge"

While driving, Uncle Li chattered. There was no idle time on the road, and when he arrived at the train station, he did not forget to give a few more instructions.

"It's done! It's done! I get it!"

It is estimated that Xiaolu couldn't take it anymore, and her tone was obviously a little impatient.

"Xiao Lu, take care all the way!"

The fat man hugged Xiaolu, and patted her back with his fleshy palm. Although I couldn't see the fat man's expression, I could feel that the fat man was very sad and reluctant, and I was the same , although I know that Xiaolu and I both like Fatty, but we are not so much rivals in love as best friends.And without this person who talks to me, am I feeling lonely again?

"Ah, fat man, can't you take it easy?"

It seems that Fatty was too excited and hurt Xiaolu from patting him.After embracing each other, she turned around and Xiaolu faced me.

"Study hard, come back and teach me how to draw."

I said lightly, although it is not a blessing, it can be regarded as an agreement.

I didn't give Xiaolu a parting hug, because I think that's what couples do.Besides, if I really do it, Fatty will not punish me when I go back! And Xiaolu will be very embarrassed.

"Hehe, good, don't forget to learn the song, I will listen to you singing when I get back!"

A smile appeared on Xiaolu's face, and the dullness just now disappeared.

"Haha, no problem."

"Woo~ woo~"

The sound of the train whistle woke up the still sleepy early morning, we waved goodbye to Xiaolu in the window, the train started and drifted away.

Suddenly the screen flashed, as if it took me to the past.I saw that little fat man again, his red eyes were looking into the distance, his face was wet with unstoppable tears, I followed his line of sight and looked over.A car was about to start, and there was a little boy in the car, he was also tearful, looking at the little fat man sadly, his eyes were persistent, as if he was afraid of missing every moment of the little fat man.The driver started the car, farther and farther away, smaller and smaller.None of them moved, they just looked at each other reluctantly, without words, only tears, until the car completely disappeared.

Why is that picture again, why did it suddenly appear at this time? Who is that boy in the car? Are they all my memories? And when will I be able to remember them again?

"Tian'er! Tian'er? What's wrong with you? Don't scare me!"

The fat man's hand dangled in front of my eyes, and the other hand shook my shoulder, pulling me out of the image just now. The train had long since disappeared, leaving only the nervous expression of the fat man.

I recover.Perhaps, this scene of parting happened to me a long time ago...