Shadow Stream Road

"Student, long time no see."

Qi Jingyu had spent countless sleepless nights dreaming about reuniting with Shen Yu.

He still wanted to hear the other party say to him with a smile: "Student brother, long time no see."

But I didn't expect that the other party had completely forgotten about me when we met again.

That year, Qi Jingyu had just graduated from university, and had a break-up meal with a group of classmates from the police academy.

A person who has always been a teetotaler, holds the bottle and pours it directly into his mouth without saying a word. The scene is really scary.

All the people present drank a lot, they couldn't see anything else, they ridiculed Qi Jingyu, saying that he has been very indifferent to others for four years, he thought he was a lonely lone ranger, but unexpectedly he was also a loving master.

Qi Jingyu didn't refute, and told the squad leader, put down the wine bottle and went out, taking advantage of his time to go to the toilet, picked up his things and left the restaurant without looking back.

For some things, he needs alcohol to numb himself before he can muster up the courage to do it.

He has news about Shen Yu.

Just a few days ago, Shen Yu's former high school classmate told him that he had seen Shen Yu from a distance and was still in Yucheng, but it was far away, so he was not sure if it was him.

When Qi Jingyu got the news, he didn't dare to ask for confirmation immediately, fearing that it would be empty joy.

Over the years, he had looked for Shen Yu quite a few times, but all of them were in vain.

His mother didn't understand why Qi Jingyu would work hard on someone who he only met a few times.

After all, even Qi Jingyu himself couldn't explain why.

He can only bring up that illogical reason again-he still owes me a photo.

The excuse of being defeated in one blow could not convince Qi's mother, nor could he convince his heart.

At this moment, the stamina of the wine came up, and Qi Jingyu, who was dizzy, desperately wanted to see Shen Yu.

I want to recognize him, like a pair of ordinary friends reunited after a long absence, sitting side by side in the open-air playground, silently saying hello, and then plainly asking each other how they are doing.

Ask him how he is doing, where he has been all these years, and what plans he has for the future.

And why you left in the first place.

Thinking of this, Qi Jingyu couldn't help laughing at himself, why should he ask about Shen Yu's life and choices.

After Shen Yu left, he once read a sentence in a book.

"You didn't intend to draft the wind, but you chose to lead the mountain torrents alone."

For him, the boy in the memory who smiled and told him stories in the infirmary was the unintentional draft, the light he couldn't touch, and his sunny day and rainy day.

Sometimes, there are only bits and pieces that have nothing to do with him in front of my eyes, but my mind is full of fragments that are related to him.

Taking chances, Qi Jingyu wandered around Shen Yu's house alone.

He thought, if he could take a look at him from a distance and see that he was well, he would be satisfied.

Getting off the taxi, Qi Jingyu saw a person standing in the middle of the road from a distance.

This person was wearing an out-of-season knitted sweater in the dog days of June, with a pair of ragged jeans underneath, and only one house slippers on his feet, and the other one was lost somewhere.With a hunched back, messy hair, and a mentally disturbed look.The red lights were all on, but the man still didn't intend to move. Several cars passed by him, all cursing him as a lunatic, and don't drag others down if you want to die.

Probably frightened by the fast-moving car, the man fell to the ground all of a sudden, with his head thrown back, revealing a face as pale as death.

With just one glance, Qi Jingyu's pupils constricted, and he instantly recognized that it was the boy who haunted him so much.

The eyesight is limited at night, and no one would have thought that a person would die lying in the middle of the road, and the car still roared by with the green light on.Seeing that a truck was about to come, Qi Jingyu ran through the red light without thinking, and ran towards the road where Shen Yu was while dodging passing vehicles.

That was the first time in Qi Jingyu's life that he violated traffic rules.

Fortunately, the truck driver found out in time and slammed on the brakes, so that no tragedy would happen.

Qi Jingyu panicked, then heaved a sigh of relief. After apologizing, he dragged and dragged Shen Yu, who was in a trance, to a safe place.

Shen Yu opened his eyes in a daze, thinking he was finally liberated, but saw that he was still in the human world, instead of thanking him, he pushed away Qi Jingyu who pulled him from the gate of hell, and shouted angrily: "Who wants you more?" Mind your own business!" Struggling and wanting to die again.

How could Shen Yu's thin body be Qi Jingyu's opponent? Qi Jingyu ignored his insults and beatings, and restrained him in his arms like a little beast out of control, unable to get rid of it.

Passers-by thought they were drunken and riotous graduates, fearing to cause trouble, they took a look at them from a distance and hurried away.

Qi Jingyu carefully comforted Shen Yu's emotions, and gently patted him on the back: "It's all right...it's all right..."

After a long time, Shen Yu, who was making jokes in his arms, finally calmed down a little, relieved his strength, and pressed against Qi Jingyu's chest.

Qi Jingyu felt that the person in his arms was no longer struggling, so he let go of his hand slowly, took half a step back, and looked at Shen Yu silently.

Shen Yu looked up at him, then lowered his face expressionlessly, "I'm sorry." There was not much emotion in his eyes, as if he was looking at a stranger.

Shen Yu didn't recognize him anymore.He had prepared a belly full of greetings, which became worthless at this moment.

Qi Jingyu froze in place, but didn't know what to say.

He looked at Shen Yu who was so different from what he remembered, and his throat felt astringent.

Shen Yu lost weight, his face lost the baby fat of his youth, his skin was unhealthy and sickly white, his eyes were sunken, his eyes were blue, he looked malnourished, his oversized sweater exposed his bony chest, his body was thin and Straight, so thin that it seems that a gust of wind can blow people away.

This made him wonder what the young man had suffered all these years to lower his proud head, put away the dazzling light, and live like a homeless vagabond.

Shen Yu knelt on the ground, his eyes were red, and his body was trembling slightly, as if he was suppressing some emotions. After a long time, he heard his weak voice faintly say: "Am I not?" Should I live in this world?...Why didn't you let me die?...Why didn't I die..."

Shen Yu's lost look made Qi Jingyu's heart ache.

The proud young man in his dream shouldn't look so downcast.Qi Jingyu gently covered Shen Yu's tearful eyes, put his chin against his forehead, and seriously denied: "No."

Shen Yu stared blankly at Qi Jingyu's chest, his eyes were astringent, a little out of breath, and said sullenly, "Then why are my parents gone?"

"........."

Qi Jingyu was startled, and pressed his lips hard, holding back the choking feeling in his throat, "Don't be afraid... I'm..."

There were probably too many things and emotions buried in Shen Yu's heart, and he hadn't been able to find a way to relieve them all these years. This time, he howled at Qi Jingyu like a flood, bursting a dike.

Qi Jingyu couldn't remember how long Shen Yu had been crying, nor could he remember what he said, but only remembered the sentence he kept repeating: "I'm only alone..."

Shen Yu didn't recognize him anymore, and Qi Jingyu didn't reveal his identity.As a stranger, he sent him back home. After everything was settled, he, who never smoked, smoked in the living room all night before slowly leaving.

In the next few days, fearing that Shen Yu still couldn't think about it, Qi Jingyu stayed in a hotel near his home, and asked Shen Yu's neighbor to take care of Shen Yu and contact him if something was wrong.

When the neighbor asked who he was, Qi Jingyu didn't know how to answer, so he casually named a distant cousin.

Only then did Qi Jingyu learn about Shen Yu's recent situation from his neighbors.It turned out that after his parents passed away, Shen Yu returned to his hometown with his ashes, and he only came back in the last few days.And this is not the first time that he can't think about it. Luckily, he bumped into them and rescued them.

Qi Jingyu asked his neighbors to deliver meals to Shen Yu every day, and after a month of silent observation, he finally got him out.

Shen Yu changed into normal clothes and cut off the excessively long hair. He stood neatly at the door of the neighbor's house, bowed deeply, and thanked the neighbor for his help in the past month.

At that time, Qi Jingyu was hiding behind the door.

Probably finally figured it out, when the neighbor asked about his future plans, Shen Yu said that he wanted to find a job.

Shen Yu has no work experience. Under the introduction of a neighbor, he works part-time in a snack bar on the pedestrian street, and gradually integrates into the society.

Qi Jingyu was sitting in the coffee shop opposite the snack bar, watching him busy up and down, busy taking orders for customers, busy cleaning tables and waiting in the hall, busy in the back kitchen helping to cook things, often sitting for a whole day, not caring about work superior.

Qi Jingyu didn't want to show up, and asked someone to buy something from the store. To be honest, it didn't taste good, so it's no wonder there was no business.

Fearing that Shen Yu would lose the job he had found so hard, Qi Jingyu arranged for someone to take care of the business, and all expenses would be charged to his account.

Looking at Shen Yu's gradually rising smile, Qi Jingyu felt that the vacant part had finally been filled in.

One day, Jingyu Qi went a step late, and learned from the clerk that Shen Yu had left with a man.

He was a little bitter, but felt it was inevitable.

After all, it is impossible for Shen Yu not to fall in love for the rest of his life.

When he learned that the person who took him away was a scout, not a boyfriend, Qi Jingyu breathed a sigh of relief, and secretly rejoiced that he could guard Shen Yu for a while longer.

Qi Jingyu never extravagantly expects Shen Yu to be with him, he only hopes that the other party will live well.

Qi Jingyu doesn't know much about the entertainment industry, but he respects Shen Yu's every choice.

Shen Yu, who has an advantage in appearance, soon appeared in the public eye, and changed his name to Suningyi. Although there was no splash, Qi Jingyu witnessed Shen Yu's life gradually getting on the right track step by step. In front of the camera, he saw He looked very happy, and his mental state improved a lot. The news also reported that he had private dates with several female stars.

Qi Jingyu thinks this is also very good.Shen Yu didn't belong to him from the beginning to the end, and he should almost let it go.

So he forced himself to stop paying attention to Shen Yu's news, forcibly pulled Shen Yu out of his life, and devoted himself to his work wholeheartedly.

But it's not that easy...

On Shen Yu's 30th birthday, Qi Jingyu still couldn't hold back, and secretly followed him into the bar.

The bar was full of people, but Qi Jingyu could only hear Shen Yu's subdued cries.

It turned out that he was not doing well.

When Shen Yu stumbled and strayed into his arms again, Qi Jingyu had a selfish thought for the first time: he wanted to stay by Shen Yu's side for the rest of his life, and he didn't feel at ease handing it over to anyone.

So he told Shen Yu: You will regret it...

The cups and dendrobiums were intertwined, Shen Yu squinted his eyes, no one could recognize him, and said with a dazed smile: "Junior brother, long time no see..."

The author says:

?The memory of my junior is here~