Salted Toffee

The street lights are dim, and they are blocked by the corner of the wall to divide the boundary between light and dark.

Zhu Yu was a little flustered, his eyes switched back and forth between the cardboard boxes on the trash can and Fu Cizhou, and finally turned around to leave, but Zhu Qin's car didn't come.

"Bless the little fish!"

Fu Cizhou suppressed his voice, walked out of the darkness on a single crutch in an unskilled manner: "Stop."

Zhu Yu just stood there, as if he couldn't lift his feet up.

"Zhu Xiaoyu," Fu Cizhou walked to Zhu Yu's side and grabbed his finger without any explanation, "You didn't promise them, did you? You're just pretending, aren't you?"

Zhu Yu gritted his teeth, trying to pull his fingers away.

But Fu Cizhou held on too tightly, and he struggled a few times without success.

"My dad never hit me before, but you beat me before you came to me. They let you wait for an afternoon, and then my mother cried in front of you," Fu Cizhou held Zhu Yu tightly, forcing Looking at the other party to look at themselves, "They see that you are sensible and soft-hearted! They know that you will definitely give up! We can't follow their plan, we have to..."

"Enough..." Zhu Yu interrupted Fu Cizhou.

He took a deep breath, trying to suppress his inner emotions.

"Originally, I was going to ask Lao Chen to give it to you." Zhu Yu took out a red envelope from his pocket and handed it to Fu Cizhou. "Since you are here, give it directly."

Fu Cizhou lowered his eyes to see that it was the red envelope given to Zhu Yu by his grandmother more than a month ago.

"I don't want it," Fu Cizhou didn't pick it up, "this is what grandma gave you."

"I shouldn't have it." Zhu Yu wanted to stuff the red envelope into Fu Cizhou's pocket.

Fu Cizhou raised his arm and vigorously brushed away Zhu Yu's hand.

With a "click", the crutch under his arm fell to the ground.

The red envelopes were also scattered, and the red banknotes inside were scattered all over the place.

Among them was a bank card, which was given to Zhu Yu by Zhong Yan just now.

Zhu Qin's car drove by behind him, but he didn't open the window to remind him.

Zhu Yu squatted down to pick up the scattered banknotes, Zhu Qin sighed softly, drove the car out of the intersection, turned the corner and stopped at a temporary parking spot not far away.

"I won't take it if you don't want it," Zhu Yu stuffed the money and bank card into the red envelope, then lifted the crutches and returned them to Fu Cizhou, "Let's forget it."

He paused, but insisted on saying the whole thing.

"Forget it? What do you mean forget it?!" Fu Cizhou grabbed Zhu Yu's wrist and pulled it in front of him, "What did I tell you?! I asked you to persevere a little bit, and they let me out , but you told me this!"

"They let you out at this time to let you listen to me telling you this," Zhu Yu put the red envelope into Fu Cizhou's arms, and let go of it regardless of whether the other party answered it, "Fu Cizhou, Don't be stupid, it's useless to persist. I want to tell you, you tell your dad, we are finished, if you don't listen to me, that's the only way to go. "

He spoke too harshly, so smoothly that it was unbelievable.

Fu Cizhou was taken aback when he heard that, and the red envelope just fell at his feet.

Zhu Yu's eyes were still red, and sour tears began to appear in his heart.

"Can you sever ties with your parents for me? Can you give up everything they provide you for me? Are you and me the only ones who live for me? Can you?"

Zhu Yu touched his wrist and held his trembling left hand tightly.

"Fu Cizhou, your parents don't accept me, you always have to choose one of the two. Your parents only have you as a son, will you choose me?"

Fu Cizhou looked at Zhu Yu, his eyes turned red instantly.

"You can't," Zhu Yu closed his eyes, and took off the sandalwood bracelet from his wrist with his right hand. "It's nothing more than a choice. You choose your parents. There is nothing wrong with it."

He also stuck the bracelet on Fu Cizhou's chest, and then let it fall freely, making a clear and deep sound.The sound of landing.

"I understand you," Zhu Yu said hoarsely, "because if I had a pair of parents who love me, I wouldn't choose you."

"It didn't take long for us, and the opening point will pass soon."

After Zhu Yu finished speaking, he turned and left.

He took big steps, trying to escape quickly without showing any panic.

But Fu Cizhou staggered to catch up and grabbed Zhu Yu's wrist: "Little fish..."

His fingers seemed to have no strength. Fu Cizhou wanted to grab Zhu Yu, but he always felt that he couldn't grasp it firmly. The other party seemed to be able to break free at any time.

"We finally got together, we only got together in December, within a few months," his voice trembled, his breath was so short that he couldn't speak incoherently, "We talked well, and said don't leave me alone. You can't just So, you don't want me so suddenly, what do you want me to do like this?"

"Why do you listen to them so much? They treat you so much, they calculated every step, and they did it on purpose. Why do you still have to be led by the nose? Between me and my parents, why don't you choose I?"

Zhu Yu's masseter muscles tensed, and he vigorously broke free from Fu Cizhou's shackles.

"Little fish!" Fu Cizhou's words were choked up, and his pronunciation became blurred, "Can't you do this, I know you just want me to give up. Let's discuss it and face it together. There is always a way…”

Zhu Yu's fingers touched the back of Fu Cizhou's hand, and the skin-to-skin contact was the rare warmth in the cold night wind.

I will never meet him again.

Zhu Yu cruelly tore that hand away, and was about to walk out of the street.

"Zhu Yu!" Fu Cizhou didn't care about the injury on his leg, and followed a few steps forward, almost arched up before grabbing the corner of Zhu Yu's clothes, "I beg you!"

He stood behind Zhu Yu, resting his forehead on his shoulder.

The voice was also low, almost begging humblely: "I beg you, don't go."

Fu Cizhou always felt that if Zhu Yu left like this, he really left.

He couldn't see it anymore, his little fish, he couldn't bear to let go of it no matter what.

"I like you, Zhu Xiaoyu," Fu Cizhou wrapped his arms around Zhu Yu's shoulders and clasped them firmly, "I like you, don't go."

Zhu Yu stood where he was, his breathing gradually became chaotic.

His heart ached as if a piece had been dug out, and the meat scraps and blood froth were dripping down.

Fu Cizhou's voice, Fu Cizhou's breathing, Fu Cizhou's hug, and his liking.

Zhu Yu still remembers that when Fu Cizhou first came to Nanhuai No. [-] Middle School when he was in high school, he didn't know anyone, so he just sat in the back row of the classroom and didn't speak.

Who is Fu Cizhou, the young master who is so stinky.

He always walks with his chest up, and he lifts his chin when he talks.

In the boy's bones is engraved with innate pride, which is unique to Fu Cizhou, which no one can imitate.

But now, this person can actually keep the pleading in such a humble manner.

The feeling that he was ashamed to express because of his pride at the beginning is now like a mission prop, which he blurted out over and over again.

I like you so don't go.

Because I like you, please don't go.

How could Fu Cizhou do this?

Why did Fu Cizhou become like this?

What about the excellent and proud Fu Cizhou?

Where have you been?

Zhu Yu raised his hand and grabbed the clothes on his left chest.

His legs were so weak that he couldn't stand at all.

Fu Cizhou noticed Zhu Yu's abnormality and immediately released him.

Zhu Yu just covered his chest and knelt down slowly.

"Heart attack..." Fu Cizhou murmured, "Go, go to the hospital."

He squatted down suddenly, and there was a crisp sound between the knee joints.

Regardless of picking him up, Fu Cizhou almost unleashed all his potential and ran out of the street.

And Zhu Qin happened to see all this in the rearview mirror, and got out of the car to help.

From nowhere, two tall men in suits rushed out to catch Zhu Yu before Zhu Qin.

And the other supported Fu Cizhou who was about to pass out from pain.

"Send him to the hospital..." Fu Cizhou firmly grasped the man's collar, pointing at Zhu Yu, "He has...he has a heart attack..."

"Put it down!" Zhu Qin ran to Zhu Yu's side, took out a medicine bottle from his pocket, and poured out a few pills for him to take.

Zhu Yu was panting heavily, cold sweat dripping down his chin, soaking through the broken hair on his temples.

"Xiaoyu..." Fu Cizhou struggled and knelt beside Zhu Yu, and grabbed his hand, "Xiaoyu..."

He seemed to be crying, and the warmth quickly wet the back of Zhu Yu's hand.

Zhu Yu's breathing slowed down, and with some strength, he turned his face away from Fu Cizhou's direction.

The convulsed fingers gradually relaxed, he loosened his clothes, and tried to pull the other hand out of Fu Cizhou's.

But Fu Cizhou couldn't hold it loose, so he couldn't help it.

Zhu Yu became anxious for a moment, and his breathing became heavy again.

I really want to die like this.

Being caught by Fu Cizhou, he simply died like this.

What is he living for?

What's the point of him living in the future?

Xu Ping wanted him to die, and wished Qin would have a cured and healthy new son.

His heart disease couldn't be cured, and he shouldn't have lived in the first place.

I really want to die, let me die.

"I let go, I let go..." Fu Cizhou seemed to be frightened, and hurriedly let go of Zhu Yu's hand, "Don't get excited, pay attention to your body."

In the face of death, everything else is not so important.

Zhu Yu closed his eyes and curled up the fingers that Fu Cizhou had just grabbed.

Fu Cizhou propped his hands on the ground, knowing that his efforts to stay were all in vain.

"I wish Xiaoyu, you have to live well," he choked up, "You live well... I beg you, okay?"

Zhu Qin let out a long sigh, picked up Zhu Yu, turned and left.

"Live," Fu Cizhou scratched the concrete pavement with his fingers, and finally lowered his head, "Please...you."

He lived for more than ten years, and he bowed his head in two places.

One was when he was kissing Zhu Yu, and the other was begging him to live.

Perhaps considering Zhu Yu's dislike for his hometown, Zhu Qin did not go back to his hometown according to his original idea.

After finding a circle of friends, he barely managed to rent a house in the next urban area, and hurried to contact the school.

As soon as the name "one model saves two" was mentioned, the first school Zhu Qin contacted didn't ask about the specific situation, so he rushed to pick him up.

The new environment is fairly friendly.

Zhu Yu still sat in the last row, and had a new deskmate.

He didn't speak when others greeted him, and he just lowered his head to write the topic all day long, and was secretly talked about by the class, so he was a complete nerd.

But he is handsome enough and tall, and girls will peek at him from time to time, and then try to get his contact information.

But all failed.

Zhu Yu didn't have a cell phone at all.

His mobile phone was kept in the house, and it had never been turned on since he left Nanhuai.

It is also because of this that Wang Ying and Yuan Yixia lost their old noses and followed Lao Chen to find Zhu Yu. They ran thousands of miles to his school, risked being caught and punished for climbing over the wall, and finally found Zhu Yu.

"My Yu!" With tears in his eyes, Wang Ying rushed into the classroom after class, passed the other party's deskmate, and hugged Zhu Yu in his arms.

Yuan Yixia was quite sensible, and followed closely behind and dragged both of them out of the classroom.

"Why did you change schools suddenly? Didn't you tell us? Old Fu is gone, and neither of you got through on the phone! Damn, what's going on? Are you buddies? You don't say anything!"

Wang Ying acted like a trumpet, before Zhu Yu could speak, he asked questions directly.

Yuan Yixia frowned, and said, "Did something happen to you and old Fu?"

The three of them stood in the corridor, and everyone in the class stretched their necks to watch.

Zhu Yu lowered his eyes, stood there in a daze for a long time, and finally nodded.

"Damn it...it doesn't look like a small matter." Wang Ying didn't continue to ask.

"Is there any buddy who can help?" Yuan Yixia patted Zhu Yu's shoulder, "I have a phone number, and I am always on call."

Zhu Yu gave a soft "hmm": "Yes."

Yuan Yixia hurriedly asked, "What's the matter?"

Zhu Yu pushed Yuan Yixia's arm away from his shoulder, turned and went back to the classroom, "Don't come looking for me."

Yuan Yixia was slightly stunned, and stretched out his hand to hold Zhu Yu's arm: "What's wrong with you?"

"It's okay," Zhu Yu said calmly, "I'm in class."

He walked back to his seat and sat down, continuing to calculate with a pen.

Wang Ying and Yuan Yixia looked at each other in the corridor, neither understanding what was going on.

"Is this Zhu Yu?" Wang Ying was dumbfounded, "Isn't this Zhu Yu?"

"It's so annoying," Yuan Yixia pushed back Wang Ying, "You're the only one who talks too much fucking shit."

He frowned and took out an envelope from his schoolbag.

"What is this?" Wang Ying leaned his head over and asked.

Yuan Yixia threw the schoolbag into Wang Ying's arms: "Wait here."

It was an unsigned envelope, and even the seal was just folded.

Yuan Yixia put the envelope on Zhu Yu's draft paper: "Old Fu will be on the plane at [-] o'clock tomorrow afternoon, and his father sent him abroad."

Zhu Yu didn't open the envelope.

Of course, he didn't plan to go to the airport to say goodbye to Fu Cizhou.

After school that day, he stopped by the trash can.

The letter was held at his fingertips and hung above the trash can for a long time.

Just throw it away.

I don't want to talk, and I don't want to think.

Non-stop study leads to fatigue, and I can fall asleep as soon as I hit the pillow when I go home.

He missed Fu Cizhou, thinking that whenever he was free, he would miss him.

Sometimes I think so hard that I toss and turn in bed and cannot fall asleep.

Like today.

I want to hug the little shark and touch the sandalwood bracelet.

But there is nothing around Zhu Yu.

Like quitting addiction, you will slowly learn how to escape after extreme pain.

Staying away, hiding, avoiding talking, being overly busy.

He threw everything about Fu Cizhou in Nanhuai and brought nothing with him.

But the object stays there, but people can come to him.

Wang Ying and Yuan Yixia were like the introductions that made him relapse, he went through a painful reincarnation, and started all over again.

Zhu Yu thinks of Fu Cizhou, and his heart aches when he thinks about it.

In the afternoon of the next day, he spent nearly two hours on the comprehensive test paper and made five wrong questions.

This paper should be useless.

Zhu Yu looked up at the blue sky outside the window.

The weather is fine today for flying.

His hopeful future crashed at this moment.

There is nothing left to idle.

The months before the college entrance examination always pass quickly, and June 30th is No.[-] four days after Fu Cizhou's birthday.

Zhu Yuren is a borrower, and his student status is still in Nanhuai No. [-] Middle School. He has to go back to take the college entrance examination, and the examination room happens to be in this school.

He didn't go to see the examination room, but slept soundly in his original home.

He slept with Fu Cizhou in this bed.

There was still the familiar smell of laundry detergent on the bed, as if nothing had changed.

I don't know if it was the consolation before the college entrance examination, Zhu Yu dreamed of Fu Cizhou tonight.

"Could it be made public?" Fu Cizhou was still smearing cream on his left face, hugged him and kissed him.

Zhu Yu smiled, picked up a lump of cream with his index finger, and drew another line on his right cheek: "I'm not eighteen yet!"

"Then when will you be eighteen?" Fu Cizhou bit Zhu Yu's finger and ate the leftover cream into his mouth.

"Wait...we can make it public," Zhu Yu suddenly withdrew his smile, "I'm eighteen."

Woke up from the dream, it was No.30 five days of Fu Cizhou's birthday.

He checked the examination equipment, and when he got out of the bedroom, he found that Zhu Qin had prepared a hearty breakfast.

"One deep-fried dough stick, two eggs." Zhu Qin put the plate in front of Zhu Yu.

Zhu Yu really wanted to complain. Now that the test papers have started at [-], Zhu Qin doesn't know who he is cursing.

But that's all.

He seemed to have lost his strength and interest in speaking, he just took the tea egg and broke the shell.

Come on for the college entrance examination.

I have to say that the college entrance examination is really the biggest exam in China. Zhu Yu went out with the exam bag, feeling that the whole world was giving way to him.

While waiting to enter the arena, Yuan Yixia patted Zhu Yu on the shoulder, and the two were probably assigned to the same test center.

Fu Cizhou is not there.

Don't you have a test point with yourself?

Or maybe he doesn't have to take the college entrance examination at all.

Zhu Yu still didn't speak, but turned his head to look at Yuan Yixia, and then turned back to look ahead.

"You don't want friends anymore?" Yuan Yixia breathed a sigh of relief.

Zhu Yu acted as if he didn't hear it, and didn't respond at all.

"Forget it, I don't care about it with you," Yuan Yixia rolled his eyes, "The next time you ask me for help, at least treat me to ten catties of crayfish."

Zhu Yu lowered his eyes.

The door opened and he walked in.

The college entrance examination paper is not difficult, I wish Yu Changchang finish it in advance, and hand in the paper if you can.

After handing in the papers, he wandered around the school, sat by the horizontal bars on the playground, and walked on the paths among the bamboo forests.

During the college entrance examination period, it was very quiet, and no one came to disturb him.

Zhu Yu indulged his longing, as if he felt that the breath of Fu Cizhou was still in the air.

"Fu Cizhou." Facing a bamboo forest, he whispered, "I miss you so much."

After finishing the last exam on June [-]th, it was still bright after five o'clock.

Zhu Yu didn't go home directly, but went for a walk in the park where he and Fu Cizhou had watched the fireworks together.

Because tickets are required, and the college entrance examination is just around the corner, there are no people in the park.

Business was sluggish, and many roadside shops were closed. Zhu Yu wandered around for a long time, but he couldn't find the fireworks where he and Fu Cizhou stood watching.

Maybe he will never find it.

It was already dark when I returned home, Zhu Yu looked up at the familiar street lights, thinking about the ridiculous misunderstanding between himself and Fu Cizhou.

They both obviously like each other, but they have been awkward for a long time.

Teenagers like to be young and awkward.

Thoughtful like Zhu Yu, bold and arrogant like Fu Cizhou, she will also feel timid in front of the person she likes.

Slowly and repeatedly, the sorrow and joy are magnified tens of thousands of times.

The other person's eyes and smile are like the wings of a butterfly, and they are transmitted to my heart through my chest, and they become a strong hurricane.

It was so blowing that people couldn't find the north.

I really miss Fu Cizhou, I really miss Fu Cizhou.

Zhu Yu looked at the shadow on the ground and weighed his feet as he walked.

Taller than him is the shadow of Fu Cizhou.

Passing by the narrow and long alleyway at the door, there was a sudden sound of shoe soles rubbing against the ground in the darkness.

Someone is there.

Zhu Yu immediately raised the alert of 12 points. Could it be that Xu Ping went to their house to throw garbage again?

He stopped, and suddenly strode into the alley.

A figure appeared in the blurry darkness, Zhu Yu threw the test bag on the ground, clenched his fist and smashed it.

The man reacted faster than him, and raised his hand to grab Zhu Yu's wrist.

The black peaked cap was raised slightly, and the other party took half a step forward, half of his body stepped out of the darkness.

It's Fu Cizhou.

Zhu Yu's heart stopped suddenly and he froze in place at that moment.

Then, he was suddenly pulled forward and fell into a long-lost embrace.

"I'll go with you." Fu Cizhou folded his arms and said in a trembling voice, "Xiaoyu, I miss you so much."