Peek into God

Chapter 13

For a whole day, Gu Nian only had that spoonful of porridge in his mouth, and the few dishes carefully prepared by Xu Huan changed from steaming hot to cold, and they didn't get the slightest favor.

He sat next to Gu Nian, carefully looking at the familiar eyebrows, why did the people who walked through the streets and alleys with him a few days ago suddenly leave an empty shell?

He couldn't utter words of comfort, and he knew that Gu Nian wouldn't listen to him. He took Gu Nian's long, fair fingers and rubbed them slowly in his palm, and murmured, "Xiao Nian, don't be afraid if I'm with you. Okay, Xu Mu died a long time ago, he can't hurt you anymore, please get well soon..."

Gu Nian was still preoccupied with his own thoughts, his eyes were unfocused in the distance, and after a while, he grabbed his sleeves tightly and muttered to himself, Xu Huanchang sighed, he He understood that Gu Nian was stuck in the old past and could not escape. The pressure from the abuse and oppression in the past was so great that he still felt unbelievable after he broke free, forcing himself to relive the past day after day. Suffering, imprisoned in a prison of his own making.

"Please...don't lock me on the ground." Gu Nian screamed suddenly, his body was shaking like sifting chaff, he shrank back in panic, and suddenly rolled out of bed, like a wounded person. Crouching like a small animal, he hid himself in the corner as much as possible. Xu Huan was startled by his sudden movement, and quickly pressed the beeper on the bedside, without any hesitation that people struggling indiscriminately would be hurt. He pulled him into his arms and comforted him softly.

The doctor who hurried over looked at Gu Nian's condition, took a sedative and stuck it in. Seeing that the person slowly calmed down in his arms, Xu Huan carried Gu Nian onto the hospital bed, and carefully covered him with the quilt.Only then did he walk out with the attending doctor.

"Mr. Gu's condition is not very optimistic now. He not only has serious suicidal tendencies, but also has strong hallucinations, and the anorexia has lasted for a long time. We suggest that we still follow the conventional treatment methods, using restraint belts and Nutritional injections, supplemented by a period of drug treatment, otherwise the disease will not be well controlled if it develops according to this situation." The doctor carefully considered the words before explaining the disease. When he mentioned this treatment method several times , will cause Xu Huan's great reaction, but according to the patient's condition, this is already the best choice.

"Is there no other way? I really don't want him to suffer this." Xu Huan asked. After receiving a negative answer, he was silent for a long time, and finally nodded in agreement.

He saw the medical staff enter the ward for treatment, squatted in the corridor and smoked half a pack of cigarettes, and when he entered again, Gu Nian was still soundly asleep, but there were a few more restraint belts on his limbs, which firmly fixed him on the hospital bed, Nutrients are being injected into his body through veins.

Xu Huan stared at it for a while, only to feel that the air became more and more oppressive, and the two of them were trapped in the cramped space, leaving hope even more elusive.

When Gu Nian woke up again, it was late at night, and Xu Huanfu had just fallen asleep beside the bed.

It was rare for him to be conscious, and when he looked at his situation, he showed a self-deprecating smile. He still remembered that he had the same situation a few years ago. Xu Mu was afraid that he would commit suicide, so he tied him to the bed directly. It's not the kind of rope with a soft lining, but the kind with a rough texture. The skin of the limbs has been worn red and swollen for a long time, and the slightest movement is painful.

The imprisoned body was slightly numb, and he moved slightly. Xu Huan, who was in a light sleep, immediately opened his eyes and looked at him with concern, "Is it uncomfortable? Let me untie it for you. "

Xu Huan got busy with his hands and feet quickly, and began to massage and knead Gu Nian again, "I'm sorry, Xiao Nian, this thing makes you uncomfortable..."

Following Xu Huan's movements, a fine layer of sweat overflowed on his forehead, Gu Nian lowered his eyes, why should such a man be entangled with him, who has rotted to the root?With a cold and distant voice, he said, "Don't pinch it."

"It's okay, Xiao Nian, or the blood won't be circulating." Xu Huan didn't hear Gu Nian's impatience, and continued to massage hard.

"You should know everything about me and Xu Mu. I have been with him for more than six years, and I have been played by your brother countless times! I can't give you what you want. Dirty things, even I look down on myself! What are you still pestering me for?" Gu Nian watched Xu Mu's face slowly turn pale, and looked at him in disbelief, feeling as if his heart was being held in the palm of someone's hand Slowly tightening, he gritted his teeth hard, and said hurtful words, "I have endured enough these days, seeing your self-righteous concern every day, I don't care at all!"

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