After I died, I became the white moonlight of scumbag A's ex-husband

Gu Zhijin's tone was very calm, facing Zong Ying's scorching gaze, he didn't dodge in the slightest.

"Zongying, you said I was Hang Jing, take a good look at me, how am I like Hang Jing?"

Hang Jing is Gu Zhijin, from appearance to personality, the two have nothing in common.

"It's not like, you are Hang Jing!"

The pheromone in Zongying's body was disordered, he suppressed it with all his strength, and growled, "Even if you don't admit it, you can't lie to me."

"Xiaojing..."

Zong exhaled forcefully, facing Gu Zhijin's indifference, forced a smile that was uglier than crying, "Xiaojing, have you lost your memory?"

"Movies are played like this. If you are seriously injured and have amnesia, you may not even know it..."

"It's okay, Xiaojing, it's okay, you will remember when you go home with me."

Zong Ying stared at Gu Zhijin, trying to see a moment of emotion on the other's face, but there was nothing.

"Xiaojing, go home, I can't lose you again..."

At first, I thought that Hang Jing's death was Zong Ying's heaviest pain in his life, but now that Hang Jing is back, after experiencing the ecstasy of losing and getting it again, Zong Ying doesn't know if he can bear it.

"Xiaojing, please, come back to me, I love you... How can I prove that I love you? Xiaojing, what should I do to make you believe me? You say, you tell me, you want me I can do anything...as long as you give me a chance..."

Gu Zhijin looked at Zong Ying, who seemed to be insane, and felt somewhat overwhelmed.

It's not that he is soft-hearted towards Zong Ying, it's just that he feels that fate is too tormenting.

Did God send him back just to let him see that his and Zongying's positions have been reversed now, and let him see how difficult Zongying's life is?

But this is not what he wants.

Now that they have started again, why can't they live a good life separately and insist on involving them again?

"Zongying, I don't have amnesia, my memory is complete."

Gu Zhijin's attitude softened a little, and his deep voice became a little softer.

"You don't need to do anything. As I said, Hang Jing didn't hate you. He loves you more than anyone else in the world."

Hearing these words, Zong Ying seemed to have seen a glimmer of hope, and his heart that was on the verge of bursting calmed down a little, "Xiaojing, I..."

The next sentence shattered all Zongying's expectations──

"However, these have nothing to do with Gu Zhijin."

Gu Zhijin smiled at Zongying for the first time, but the words that came out of her mouth were icy cold, "Zongying, the so-called love is nothing more than two things - first, do everything possible to prove that I love you.

Second, try your best to prove that you love me.The first one, Hang Jing has achieved the ultimate, as for the second..."

He looked at Zong Ying, who was emotionally broken, and said slowly, "Hang Jing didn't succeed until his death. Now you say you are in love with Hang Jing and want him to verify your promise, but what should I do? Hang Jing has already died."

"A dead person, no matter how much you say and do, what's the use of pouring out your heart? You won't care about anything if you have a handful of ashes."

Gu Zhijin finally took the initiative to take a step forward, and reached out to caress Zong Ying's ring-wearing finger.

He stroked the ring carefully, and the nostalgia in his eyes fell into Zong Ying's eyes, which made his heart feel like a knife.

This person is Hang Jing, but he refuses to admit it.

"Zongying, no matter how many misunderstandings happened before, the result can't be changed. Hang Jing is dead. No matter how much you do, this is an established fact, and no one can do anything about it. So, don't love Hang Jing, a dead person is not I will give you a response, no matter how much you pay, there will be no return."

"It's too painful to love, don't experience that feeling, Hang Jing, he doesn't want to see you like this."

Zong Ying couldn't stop crying at all, he would rather Gu Zhijin speak harshly at him and frown coldly than hear him say these Ling Chi words in such a gentle tone.

An extremely sour emotion clogged his chest, every word Gu Zhijin said was like injecting a burst of poison into his heart, and finally the poison stagnated in his heart, eroding him, making him in unbearable pain, and making him despair.

It hurts so much, so bitter.

This is what you can't love.

The mistakes he made were too heavy, so he was required to experience such desperate feelings.

"It's too late Xiaojing, it's too late, I can't stop loving you."

Zong Ying grabbed Gu Zhijin's hand with his backhand and held it firmly, "I have loved you for many years, I don't know it, and you don't know it either, I have always loved you."

"The aurora in Bis Park that year, I fell in love with the person who drew the aurora on the graffiti wall. I always thought it was Lin Yushu, until I walked into your studio and saw the aurora you left on the wall. Only when I saw the exact same aurora, did I realize how wrong I was."

"I don't know style skills, and I don't know how to judge the difference between painters from the brushwork. I only know that the aurora that night is really beautiful. The person who can reproduce such a beautiful aurora and capture me must be better than the aurora. Even more beautiful."

"It's my fault. I'm blind. I've discovered that Lin Yushu is different from the person I imagined, but I didn't care. I didn't find out the whole thing. That's why you suffered so much."

"But I can't stop loving you. This feeling has really existed in my heart for almost ten years, and it can't be erased or cut off."

Gu Zhijin was surprised.

Of course he remembered the aurora at Bees Park.

The splendor of the sky was so shocking that he was so moved that he left an impromptu creation on the graffiti wall. At the same time, he was inspired and designed the first work in his life.

It turned out that Zong Ying was there at that time.

Unexpectedly, at that time, he and Zong Ying had already formed a bond.

All these years of entanglement turned out to be because Zong Ying was the first to recognize the wrong person.

But what a contradiction.

Zong Ying never cared about Hang Jing's daily life and work. If Hang Jing didn't die, Zong Ying would never walk into his studio.

He wouldn't have had the chance to spot the aurora map reproduced on the wall and know that he loved the wrong person.

The premise of uncovering this truth is that Hang Jing is dead.

Unsolvable paradox.

Hang Jing and Zong Ying, one of them is destined to live in pain.

Gu Zhijin was silent, he could feel Zongying's tears falling drop by drop on his palm, it was scalding, the high temperature spreading from his palm burned all the way to his heart.

"Zongying, you shouldn't have said that."

Gu Zhijin's voice finally became a little erratic, his heart was not as calm as it appeared on the surface.

"Feelings are unreasonable. Hang Jing loves you. No matter how much he pays for you, he is willing. If you don't love him, he doesn't blame you. But if you fell in love with him so long ago, how many times did Hang Jing What is a year?"

"What on earth did he suffer for? You want to say that you and Hang Jing are in love, but how could two people who love each other come to such an end?"

The late truth wanted to tear open the scabbed wound again, and the thorn in the flesh began to stalk again, and it was about to drip with blood. Gu Zhijin subconsciously wanted to withdraw his hand, but Zong Ying held it tightly. put.

"Zongying, what else do you want? What else can Hang Jing give you?"

Zong Ying choked with sobs, "I know some things can't be turned back, but Xiaojing, I beg you, give me a chance, let's start over."

"Don't you don't love me, don't pretend you don't know me, don't deny the relationship between us. You come home with me, I will treat you very well, as long as I have one breath left, I won't let you Be a little bit aggrieved."

"Xiao Jing, you said, you love me so much, you feel sorry for me... No, no, you pity me, I really can't live anymore..."

Gu Zhijin thought about it seriously for a long time, "Zong Ying, you said I am Hang Jing, do you know what kind of life Hang Jing lived?"

Zong Ying was stunned and didn't answer.

"Hang Jing and you have been married for three years, and you hardly go home except for special periods. He misses you every night and thinks of angina, and can't sleep without taking medicine, but when you come back, except for humiliation, ridicule, and those bad hobbies, Let him live on painkillers for the next few days."

"Do you know what kind of torment an omega with genital dysplasia lacks alpha pheromones to comfort during pregnancy? You know that every bone and muscle in the whole body is throbbing and hurting, the pain is so painful that it hurts all night long. I don’t even have the energy to cry, but I still have to protect my stomach and dare not move around, what’s it like?”

"Zongying, do you know how scared people are at the moment of death?"

Gu Zhijin and Zongying looked at each other, "You said I am Hang Jing, if I am really Hang Jing, I will have to face the past. I will always be trapped in the endless painful memories and the fear of death Live the rest of your life."

"no no!"

Zong Ying tremblingly said: "I will not let you live like that again, I swear!"

"Not in the future, but in the past."

Gu Zhijin said calmly, "What happened happened, it happened. Those pasts are Hang Jing's personal experience, and denial cannot erase the facts. You think I am Hang Jing, I can be Hang Jing, and I can continue to love you, but I You must also accept the fragmented past and be tortured by memories every day. If you insist on persisting, then I can try it too, and you can see how long I can persist."

"Zongying, think about who I am. The decision is up to you. Whether I am Hang Jing or Gu Zhijin, you have the final say."

how should he choose

"You are... Gu Zhijin."

Zong Ying said the answer in a crying voice.

This choice is too painful. He really misses Hang Jing and wants to get Hang Jing back, but he is not willing to let his Xiaojing suffer any more.

He can't bear to...

"You are Gu Zhijin, I'm sorry, you are Gu Zhijin, you have never experienced those bad things, no..."

For those who are tortured, he alone is enough.

Gu Zhijin paused: "Zong Ying, think about it clearly, Gu Zhijin doesn't love you."

Zongying's eyes were blurred, he bit his lip, blood dripped from the wound, "I know, Gu Zhijin doesn't love me, but Gu Zhijin won't hurt, I can't let you hurt anymore, Xiaojing can't hurt me anymore It hurts..."

"You are Gu Zhijin, you don't love me."

"Then—"

Gu Zhijin moved the hand held by Zong Ying, and said softly, "Zong Ying, let go."

Zong Ying clenched his fingers and struggled violently in his heart. After a while, he trembled, cried, and let go.

Gu Zhijin took one last look at Zong Ying, turned around and left.

Zong Ying watched Gu Zhijin's leaving back, his abdomen twisted, a mouthful of blood finally spewed out, his blurred vision suddenly went black, and he fell down. I prepared a knife, Zong Ying, do you want to stab your wife or stab her? yourself?Don’t say I’m not good to you, I’ll let you choose one more sentence, please don’t assume that the author of Aurora is someone else, Zong Ying loves this meaningless assumption, or think that Zong Ying’s love is just Draw the author instead of Hang Jing.The aurora map is painted by Hang Jing, the work belongs to the author alone, and the two are inseparable. The novel has a writing style, and the painting has a painting style. This style is a sign of the author himself. If I create it, then I am the only one.You are moved by my work, and then fall in love with me behind the work. Why should this feeling be questioned?

Comparing to love at first sight when you see sex, or love over time due to habit, being addicted to talent is not inferior to others.

During the few years when Zong Ying mistook Lin Yushu, he did not have to marry Lin to death, because the heartbeat was just a heartbeat, not a deep love. Zongying used to treat Hang Jing badly, and the root cause was their own misunderstandings. , not just because he didn’t know that Hang Jing was the author of the aurora map.The picture of Aurora + Lin Yushu is just Zong Ying's heartbeat for a while, and he will fade away after a long time. The picture of Aurora + Hangjing is the love that makes Zong Ying deeply in love.