dear dreamer

Luo Hengqiu left the company on this day, feeling that he still had time, so he stopped by to pack a few dishes and took them to Deng Tingge's house to eat together.

Although Deng Tingge's cooking skills are still being practiced, the progress is too small.Luo Hengqiu never gave him face, good is good, bad is bad, regardless of whether it will hurt Deng Tingge's self-confidence.Deng Tingge was stunned by what he said and had no room to refute, so he could only mutter that you have changed, brother, you were not like this before.

Back at the gate of the complex, the car owner and the property security in front were talking, and Luo Hengqiu waited for a while.He looked up and looked around, and saw a strange person next to the security room of the property.

Although this area is not a rich place, there are not many passers-by, and it is usually very quiet.More importantly, people and vehicles are separated in the community. This is the entrance for vehicles. There are no shops nearby. Generally speaking, few people stay here.

Maybe he was looking for security.Luo Hengqiu glanced at that person, but didn't pay much attention.

The man was thin, with round eyes and greasy curls.Luo Hengqiu thought about it, he usually came and went in Deng Tingge's community, and had never seen such a person.He was about to start the car to move forward when he suddenly saw the man take a few steps forward and smiled at himself in the car.

Luo Hengqiu was taken aback for a moment.After the man smiled, he immediately turned around and left without stopping.

"You can pass." The security guard greeted him.Luo Hengqiu entered the community, thinking of that person, he felt a weird feeling.But he didn't take it to heart, nor did he mention it to Deng Tingge.It was probably just a strange person who had never met him before, not to mention that smile disappeared quickly, and he was not sure if it was really coming towards him.

Before going to bed, he rolled himself up under the quilt, and unexpectedly thought of that skinny man again.It's not normal to be that thin, like being sick.He was wearing thick clothes, his limbs were tightly sealed, and only his face and neck exposed by the collar could be seen with an extremely unhealthy complexion.

"What are you thinking about?" Deng Tingge smiled and yelled at him under the quilt, "Missing me?"

Luo Hengqiu thought about it, but still didn't say anything about it.

Not long after New Year's Day, the Magnolia Awards ceremony will be held.

Deng Tingge has been in a state of tension and panic that is hard to explain to others all day long.Zhong Xing's assistant has been with Zhong Xing for several years, and he has seen many awards ceremonies, big and small. At this moment, he feels that this surprisingly handsome man is simply a country bumpkin: "Why are you nervous? You are just a soy saucer. People will pay attention to you."

Deng Tinge: "You and my manager said exactly the same thing."

Assistant: "Because that's the truth."

But even if he recognized his identity as soy sauce, Deng Tingge could not calm down.Luo Hengqiu flew to another place on a business trip, and he was still on the plane. He couldn't contact him, so he could only turn to talk to Zhong Xing to relieve his nervousness.

He heard from Luo Hengqiu that Zhong Xing's life has been a bit smooth recently because he met a pretty good person.The two are in the process of running in, and no one has broken the boundary as thin as glutinous rice paper.He was very proactive in the part between Zhong Xing and Fang Zhongyi, and maybe all the courage to take the initiative was exhausted, and he refused to say anything this time; and the "friend" he knew was Mensao—Neixiu type Zhong Xing didn't say anything, and he didn't say anything. The two had known each other for more than a month. They met every week and went out to climb mountains and visit museums together. Zhong Xing also found it very interesting.

Now that he has had fun, what else can others say?Deng Tinge pulled him and asked himself how handsome he was today, which annoyed Zhong Xing half to death.

"Handsome, handsome, so handsome." Zhong Xing said, "Let's go, leave my office."

Deng Tingge sat down comfortably on the sofa in his office: "What travel guide are you looking at? I'll give you a staff officer."

"How many places have you been to?" Zhong Xing snorted, "Don't bother me, this is a very important trip, I have to prepare well."

Deng Tingge thought I didn't want to ask, so you brought it up yourself.

"What's your friend's occupation?" he asked.

Zhong Xing did not shy away from saying: "Doctor, neurosurgeon."

Deng Tinge: "Oh, it's very profitable."

Zhong Xing: "Yes, very rich."

The two looked at each other, both giggling.

Deng Tinge said you earned it.Zhong Xing seemed to be in a good mood. Seeing that Deng Tingge's nervousness had eased a little, he grabbed a handful of materials from the drawer and threw them to him: "Look at these materials, you know yourself and your enemy."

Deng Tingge flipped it in his hand, it was all related to Qiu Yang.

"What use do I see in this?" he asked.

"Don't you want to be the second Qiu Yang?" Zhong Xing immersed himself in researching the travel guide without even looking up, "He's going to present you that award tonight. You have a chance to meet him face to face."

Deng Tingge was refreshed, and suddenly felt that staying with Zhong Xing in this small office would be boring, so he walked out with a pile of documents.When closing the door, he said very seriously: "Be careful to wear a condom, safety is the top priority."

Zhong Xing: "..."

The awards ceremony was very lively.Deng Tingge, who was walking the red carpet for the first time, found himself the most nervous person in the whole crew.He pulled Hu Mu to ask him how to be as calm as him. Hu Mu's eyes were a little blank, as if he couldn't focus on the focus: "I don't know others, anyway, I don't wear invisibility. I'm short-sighted, and I can see without glasses." It’s not very clear, if you can’t see clearly, you won’t be nervous.”

He smiled and straightened his clothes.Today he was dressed very vigorously. The wine red dress set off his fair face, making his whole person look more youthful and rosy.Deng Tingge knew that he had asked the wrong person, but he was about to start walking the red carpet, so he could only bite the bullet.

The host is very interested in Deng Tingge.He is a newcomer, "Gu Dao Warm Heart" can be said to be his first film and television work to be broadcast publicly, and it has attracted attention as soon as it appeared, so it is natural to ask some questions that can enliven the atmosphere.

It wasn't until Deng Tingge stepped off the stage that he came back to his senses suddenly, and pulled Hu Mu again: "What did she ask? What did I say?"

"Don't worry, it's very decent." Hu Mu said, "I have walked the red carpet so many times, and I have not had many interview opportunities, but I think you performed very well. Although you can tell that you are nervous at first glance, but the real tension is real. .You are not so smooth, and the audience likes it more because you are a newcomer."

Deng Tingge looked at him.

Hu Mu: "?"

Deng Tingge: "You, where did you hear this? It makes sense."

Hu Mu was at a loss: "This is my experience. Don't you believe it?"

"Letter." Deng Tingge walked forward side by side with him, found his seat and sat down.Behind each seat is a white note with the name of the owner of the seat.The whole venue is like a cemetery full of purple tombstones.Deng Tingge thought endlessly, and then thought of Hu Mu, thinking that he should not be regarded as a fool. This person has been in the circle much longer than himself.Hu Mu was sitting next to him, turning his head to chat with others.Deng Tingge thought this person was very interesting, at one moment he thought he was immature, and at another moment he felt that he was actually quite transparent.

Thinking that he might be like this in a few years, he felt a little embarrassed.

The awards ceremony went smoothly. "Gu Dao Warm Heart" lost the best director award, but won two awards for best screenplay and best cinematography.The smile on the director's face was unnatural, but he appeared on stage for both awards. "Gu Dao Warm Heart" is also well-deserved, and everyone's applause was polite.

Deng Tingge saw seniors and celebrities that he could only see on TV and theaters one after another. He almost forgot his real mission here until Hu Mu elbowed him.He looked away from the back of someone's head in the first row, and when he looked up, he saw a few big words popping out from the big screen on the stage: Best Actor Nomination.

The thick male voice began to introduce the nominees, and the nominated TV drama clips were played on the screen, and there were several small screens below, dedicated to the nominees.Deng Tingge quickly adjusted his expression, waiting for his own image to appear.

Soon, a big face with two icy snots was displayed on the screen.

Deng Tingge: "..."

Hu Mu: "Puff ha ha ha ha ha..."

Deng Tingge was going crazy.There are so many handsome shots!After Silly Qiang entered the city, all kinds of people looked like people!The scene where he marries his own wife is one of the most handsome scenes in the whole show—but why use this scene? !

The whole crew was laughing, and even the people in front, back, left, and left started laughing too.Deng Tingge was also laughing, lamenting in his heart that people's hearts are not old.

After the nominees had finished broadcasting, the thick male voice solemnly introduced the guests who presented the trophy for the best actor.

Hu Mu: "Hey, so handsome."

Silly wife: "Yes, so handsome."

Qiu Yang stood on the stage like a tree that people couldn't take their eyes off.

Deng Tingge stared blankly.It's really hard to be that kind of person.He stayed there for a while, and faintly heard a loud voice buzzing his name.

He turned to look at Hu Mu.Hu Mu looked at him.The daughter-in-law and other crew members behind Hu Mu also looked at him.

"Stupid you!" Hu Mu pushed him, "It's you, go to the stage!"

On the big screen of the stage, a man in the mountains who suffers from bitterness and hatred is frozen.With a little girl on his back, he trekked hard in the wind and snow.

Deng Tingge stood up amidst the applause and screams. While he was dazed, he realized the ridicule mixed in the voices around him.Qiu Yang stood on the stage with a smile and called his name again.Deng Tingge suddenly woke up, turned around suddenly before raising his legs to leave, hugged Hu Mu heavily, and hugged the director by the way.

The interview area was chaotic and crowded, and everyone holding trophies was surrounded by reporters.The winner is like an NPC, and the reporter is a brave man. After receiving the task here, I go to the next one, and then the next one. It's a joy.

Standing huddled together with the director and screenwriter, Deng Tingge was asked back and forth and told those feelings upside down.

"Thank you, I didn't expect it, I really didn't expect it." He still had a sense of unsteadiness in his heart, as if he was not talking about himself but his second personality. A special role, he has a very important meaning to me..."

He was already talking a little dry, but the microphones were handed to him one after another, and there was no room for retreat.

Deng Tingge still remembered Chang Huan's advice, with a smile on his face all the time, turning his head around, not to miss a single person.

Suddenly, a face he had some impression of flashed across the crowd.It was a man with short hair, wearing a press card, who also squeezed in front of the questioning crowd.Deng Tingge thought his face was familiar at first glance, but when he saw it again, he suddenly remembered who this person was: it was the person who trickily asked him "will he resonate with Zhu Baihua" during the promotional activity of "Long Yuan".

The man didn't ask any questions, but just pushed the microphone forward desperately.

Back in the rest area, Deng Tingge felt like he was sweating all over.

"Reporters are terrible," he said. "Some questions... how to answer them."

Someone asked him who, besides you, do you think is the most likely to win the title of Shidi among the other five nominees tonight.Deng Tingge couldn't answer at all, so he could only play Tai Chi with the screenwriter.He remembered the applause that filled the venue at that time, and the ridicule in the applause.

Except for him, the other five nominees are all seniors with senior experience. Some of them have accompanied them for four or five times, and they have been nominated every year, but they have never won an award; The TV series aired -- in short, no matter how you look at it, Deng Tingge is the one who is least likely to win the award.

The screenwriter and director asked him to sit in the lounge for a while, and the two went to find food elsewhere.Deng Tingge sat on the sofa for a while, his feverish mind gradually calmed down.

The first thing he realized was whether this award was bought back.

He took out his mobile phone and wanted to call Luo Hengqiu, but thought that Luo Hengqiu should be in a meeting, so he dismissed the idea.He told himself that he should trust Luo Hengqiu, he had told Luo Hengqiu many times, please don't overly interfere with his work and career.He knew that his senior brother respected him.But who will buy him a prize?Zhong Xing?

While thinking wildly, the phone rang suddenly, it was Chang Huan's call.

Chang Huan told Deng Tingge succinctly that he should not accept interviews for the time being, and if it is unavoidable, he should not directly answer all questions from the media.

"How could it be you...you're just an escort." Chang Huan's words were full of doubts, "I'm here with Zhong Xing now. Come over as soon as you leave for a while. Calm down, there may be something tricky behind this award .But since it was given to you, we will keep it for you no matter what.”

Deng Tingge finally calmed down completely at this time, he said yes, and slowly hung up the phone.There were a lot of congratulatory text messages on his phone. He flipped through them, but didn't click on them, and finally saw a text message from Chen Yu.Chen Yu posted it before the awards ceremony, and the content was very simple: [Can you lend me some money? 】Deng Tingge didn't see it before, and now he saw it and didn't want to reply.

The rest area is quite large, and people came in one after another.Deng Tingge didn't want to talk to anyone, he got up and walked to the bathroom.On the way to the bathroom, he saw the guest lounge.

The door of the lounge was not closed, Qiu Yang and his assistant were talking with others in the lounge.Deng Tingge suddenly wanted to say a few words to Qiu Yang, he stood at the door hesitantly and knocked on the door.

Qiu Yang and the other person looked up at the door at the same time.Qiu Yang's complexion was not very good, and the other person standing opposite him was very familiar.Deng Tingge thought to himself why did he meet familiar people today?

Qiu Yang signaled Deng Tingge to wait a moment, then turned around and said to the person in front of him, "I'll warn you again, Qin Guan. Don't attack the people around me, don't you have enough prey yourself? Be careful to eat too much and spoil yourself." .”

The man in front of him smiled, with a good look: "People who don't mess with you, are they messing with you? I'm sorry, you are old, and I am not interested in you. I like boys who are eighteen or nineteen years old the most. .”

Qiu Yang: "..."

Assistant: "qaq"

Deng Tingge: "..."

He remembered who this man was.

Qiu Yang was a bit fierce, very different from his usual gentle impression.Angrily, he took his assistant out of the guest lounge, and walked to the platform with Deng Tingge.

"Congratulations." Qiu Yang smiled at him, "Sorry, I lost my composure just now."

"It's okay, it's okay." Deng Tinge paused for a while, and decided to ask him boldly, "Do you think I deserve my name?"

Qiu Yang looked at him and smiled very clearly.

"When I won an award at an international film festival for the first time, almost no one in China knew about me. At that time, some media said that my award was bought back. After all, the film had never been screened in China, and it was a relatively unpopular film festival. They don't believe it."

Deng Tinge thought about it, those materials did not include gossip, so he didn't know about it.

"It's normal for you not to know." Qiu Yang leaned against the railing, the night wind blowing his hair, leaving a blurred shadow on his handsome face, "No one knows now, I've convinced everyone that I deserve it."

He turned his head and said to Deng Tingge: "Is it important to deserve your name now? Newly promoted Shidi, after you use your own strength to change other people's opinions, you will find that you care about whether you deserve your name." The only person you know is yourself. Public opinion will only remember other people's jokes, and rarely talk about the past that you have misunderstood."

Deng Tingge remained motionless, he was seriously chewing Deng Tingge's words.

"So you were kept in the dark?" Qiu Yang patted him on the shoulder, "It doesn't matter, just make it through. This business is very solid, and persistence is victory. It is very pleasant to be praised by others, but that person can push you Holding it to a high place can also push you into the mud."

Deng Tingge couldn't help asking: "What do you know?"

Qiu Yang frowned and thought for a while, as if he realized that he and Deng Tingge were not very familiar after all, so he didn't get to the bottom of his words: "I have seen your performance of "Long Yuan", you can do it."

Deng Tingge suddenly changed from a panicked mouse to a little fan looking at his idol.

"You...you have seen my movie, I didn't expect it." Deng Tinge stammered, "There are too many things I didn't expect today..."

Qiu Yang chatted with him enthusiastically, turned around and saw his assistant was standing at the entrance of the platform, and no one would come in, so he just pulled Deng Tingge to sit on the ground and talked.

"Actually, I saw it by chance when I went to Chen Yiping to ask him questions. It's a rough cut. But you acted very well. The other actors with you are also very good, but you are special. There is a A kind of depression that fits the sense of the times." He said, "I don't know much about that era, and I asked Director Chen a lot of things that day. Before I left, I watched a few rough cuts, which showed that Zhu Baihua and Jiu Yuan committed suicide respectively. there. Geez, you guys are amazing."

Speaking of these, Qiu Yang's mood was completely different from before.

"Director Chen's shots are great. He can find you young people who can act, and he can gather so many people to make this movie well. It's amazing." He laughed sincerely this time, "Whether you or Yan Fei are hard-working actors. I heard that Yan Fei studied German and philosophy in order to act in this play? You, you worked in the fields and herded cattle, and practiced half a year month, right?"

The two chatted happily, and Deng Tingge almost forgot about the "tomorrow" that made him anxious.

"Have you cooperated with Director Chen?" Deng Tingge said, "He also admires you very much. If you cooperate, you will definitely produce good works."

"No, no, no, it's not cooperation." Qiu Yang waved his hand, "I'm asking him for advice."

He lowered his voice and pretended to look around, as if he wanted to share a big secret with Deng Tingge.

Deng Tingge also moved closer, and handed over his ears cooperatively.

"Don't you think directing is a very interesting job?" Qiu Yang whispered, "I want to give it a try."