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Zhao Xiangyu proposed marriage!

Why?Zhao, why so fast?What made you suddenly make up your mind?Why didn't you let me know beforehand?

I haven't been back in weeks and you're mad that we've tacitly ended our relationship?Or Joseph is back and you can't stand it?Sorry, I overlooked it.You never talk about Joseph with me, and when I do, you just listen.Just because you don't say it doesn't mean you don't care.You care.How can you not care?The pride, nobility and innocence in your bones, your true love for me, you just don't talk about it.You are too kind, too sensible, and it hurts my heart too much.Joseph is back, you know I will be very embarrassed, so you took the initiative to solve it for me.Is it this way?Zhao, but you know what?It's useless, there's no way Joseph and I can go back in time!Why don't you tell me first, so I can prepare myself a little bit?That's how you decide?Just give up?No!Will not!Zhao will not!Zhao will never give up our love so easily!He must have had unspeakable difficulties.Is it the secret police?Is it mother?Did they threaten him?Threat him with what?Could it be...

In fact, these are not important, what is important is that Zhao has proposed, and Zhao has already made a decision.Then listen to you, Zhao, you know that I will definitely listen to you, I will cooperate with you, and I will fulfill my promise.

I know this day will come and I have been preparing for it.I didn't go home for three weeks, stayed alone in Zhao's ward every night, and endured the pain and suffering alone. I was preparing myself to get used to it and be strong enough when I finally faced it.Now I'm not ready.Maybe never will be ready.It's like being unable to prepare yourself to lose a loved one no matter how long he's been sick.I wasn't ready, my chest constricted and tingled, the sky swirled overhead and the ground felt soft beneath my feet.Fortunately, Yudu and I squatted on the ground, and I supported the ground with my left hand. I knew I couldn't stand up now.

"Sir? Sir?"

Indistinct voice, Yu should have called several times.I should say something, I am the master, I am a gentleman, I must say something, but what can I say?

"That's great. Congratulations!" That's all I could think of, and yes, I should have said that.I said that.I was worried that my voice was too small, that the tone would be too sad.I tried my best to shout and put on a smile, maybe it was too hot and dry, my lips were stuck together, and I couldn't grin.This is not congratulations, it's like mourning.

"Congratulations? So you know?"

"Yeah, that's really nice. When are you going to get married? Just at the manor..." Someone said, was it my own voice?Why can't I hear you clearly? "I'm going to discuss it with my mother. My mother will be very happy. She will arrange everything... It's just Zhao's body... You won't get married right away, right? In two days, just a few days... Wait until the grapes are harvested Now, make new wine..."

Why are there more and more vegetable seedlings in front of me, and more hands.Yu has two hands, and I have two hands, should it be four hands?But now there are more than four hands, so whose are the other hands?

"gentlemen?"

The girl's eyes are so big.too big!Too big is not beautiful!

I closed my eyes and stood up slowly.I don't want to look at those vegetable seedlings, those hands, those eyes, it's too hot, the sun dazzles my eyes, and my head is so dizzy.There was an oak tree there with a deep shade, and I wanted to cool off under it.I turned around, wait, I didn't hear the wedding date, Yu seemed to say it, I must have missed it.I turned around again. "What? . . . What day are you set on? I'll go and tell my mother, and let her..."

"Don't worry, Baron, there will be no wedding."

The girl's volume is not very loud, but the audio frequency is very high. It is completely different from the distant and indistinct voices in front of me, like a thunderbolt ringing in my ears.But maybe it's too loud, and it's too loud to hear clearly. "What did you say, Jade?"

Yuzhi got up, went to the bucket next to him to wash his hands, poured the dirty water into the drain, dried his hands on his trouser legs, and then went to pack his things.Oh, the job is done.The girl worked in a leisurely manner, and I waited helplessly.If she doesn't say it, I dare not ask again.I hope I heard it wrong just now, I hope Yu didn't mean that.

Jade handed me the bucket with the tools in it. "I said don't bother, there won't be a wedding, Baron."

"why?"

"I refused."

"You turned him down?" My God!I feel dizzy again.I know Zhao too well.I know how hard it is for him to make this decision, without even telling me first, that he wants to do it alone.He didn't want to involve Yu in the first place, but now Yu refused, what should he do?He will never speak again, so how to solve his problem?

"How could you? Jade! You know what you did?" I grabbed the girl's arm and yelled.

I was scared by myself, and I thought Jade was scared too, but no.The girl was very calm. She proudly raised her delicate chin, narrowed her eyes, and shielded herself from the glare of the sun with her long and thick eyelashes. Under those eyelashes, two sad and cold eyes shot straight over, with a hint of disdain at the corners of her mouth. Smile.

"You are very strange, Baron. I thought you would be pleased."

"Happy?"

"I thought you loved him as much as I did. It seems I was wrong."

"Me?" I didn't know how to answer, I froze there.I don't know what Zhao thought, how he decided, I can't go against his will, I have to talk to him first.But the girl in front of me became aggressive, and she didn't want to let me go.

"To be honest, Baron, I don't quite understand the relationship between you. But it doesn't matter. The important thing is that I love him and I want him to be happy. I don't know what happened between you, I only know that he loves you , he needs you, he relies on you. But you, when he was forced by the secret police and your mother to make a decision against his will, instead of supporting him, you asked me why I refused. You are too It's chilling, Baron."

The beautiful big eyes were ignited with anger, and tears of grief and indignation gradually climbed to the eye sockets.I feel ashamed.

"God knows how much I love him! God knows how I long for this day! But when your beloved stands before you, begging you to marry him, you don't see happiness in his eyes, There is no longing in his voice, on the contrary, you can really feel his pain. When he expresses his love to you rigidly and indifferently, his soul is dying, and his love is dying. Exhaustion, do you think I can accept it? This is not what I want! It is not what I want! It is an insult. One cannot give up dignity at any time, even for love."

Even though I was scolded so badly, I suddenly had a strange feeling for the girl in front of me, a very kind and familiar feeling, not because she rejected Zhao, but because we fell in love with the same person painfully.The problems between us cannot be solved by ourselves. No matter how selfless we are and how great our love is, we cannot bring complete happiness to our lover.We are fellow sufferers who share the same disease, and relatives who are closely related.

"I'm sorry!" I don't know how to explain, I can only say: "I'm sorry!"

"You love him, don't you?"

I nodded quickly.I'm afraid that if I nod my head slowly, it will cause the girl's sadness again.

"Go and ask why, he won't tell me, only you can help him."

Tears finally poured out of the already red eyes, accompanied by sweat and dirt, turning that beautiful face into a clown.

Is this the righteous, tenacious, proud girl just now?Is this a girl who just got a marriage proposal?What have we all done!

I don't know women, I don't give my love to any of them, and I don't want to hurt them, but I... Sophie, Verma, Mrs. Reininger, Mother, Marie, and now Jade, they all Good women, they all love us, and what have we all done!God!Why is it not enough for me to be cursed alone, but also for Shoya...

The girl raised her hand.

"Don't! If your hands are not clean, you will damage your eyes. Come on, wipe them with my sleeve." I stretched out my arms.I have only been working for a while, and the shirt is basically clean, unlike Yu, who has been wrinkled, sweaty and muddy since I worked in the morning.Yu hesitated for a moment, then raised her teary eyes to look at me.How sad she is.I nodded slightly.The girl took my arm and pressed it to her eyes.Through the sleeves, the skin of my arm felt the softness of the girl's eyes and the hot tears; under the straw hat, the girl's shoulders trembled slightly.I waited quietly.I suddenly had an urge, very strange, I suddenly wanted to hug her, to hold her in my arms.How delicate and fragile she is now.How can we place on such weak shoulders a burden that we ourselves cannot bear?She deserves to be loved, cared for, and pampered.