father - home

I lay on the ground and kept smiling because my face was numb, my muscles were numb, my nerves were numb, and my heart was numb.I laughed and laughed and shed tears.

There were footsteps outside the door, and someone stepped up the steps.I jumped up.The sky outside the window already had a ray of gray light.God, how long have I been lying on the ground?How long did you lay there with your eyes open, smiling and crying?

I wonder if Mrs. Reininger or Mr. Reininger got up early?No matter who it is, I don't want to see it.The instant the door opened, I ran from the kitchen into the dining room, ran up the stairs through the dining room, got my coat, cap, belt and pistol from the bedroom, and sprinted downstairs.Since Ernst's death, I have always carried a gun with me.I ran to the foot of the stairs, and my mother's bedroom door opened, and I heard, "It's Marty? Why are you up so early?"

I had to stop. "I have to go to work early today, I have something to do."

"In such a rush? Have breakfast before leaving. Anne (Mrs. Reininger) should be up already."

"No, no need, it's too early to eat." I turned around, ran to my mother, and kissed her quickly on the cheek. "I'll go first, goodbye, mother."

I didn't look at my mother's expression, I didn't dare to look.When I ran out the door, I caught a glimpse of my mother still standing on the second-floor staircase.

I drove the Mercedes off-road vehicle and left the manor at escape speed.

The manor is very quiet, only the occasional birdsong and a few chicken crows.The stillness frightened me, as if I were on a big stage, and Caesars was that stage.All the people are spectators, standing in the audience holding their breath.I couldn't see them, they were shrouded in the gray-black sky, only I, alone, stood in the middle of the empty stage, cramped, terrified, and completely exposed.I can feel the droning sound of breathing like running water and grass, and occasionally, there will be a thrilling and piercing accusation like a chicken crowing.More and more cocks crowing, more and more accusations and accusations, I am afraid of the daylight, afraid of seeing those who accuse, and afraid that what was originally obscured will become clear and real.I want to escape before they wake up, I can't face those eyes, those hearts, those lives I have ruined.

The sound of the motor of the off-road vehicle overwhelmed everything, and the manor quickly disappeared, and I was much more relaxed.It was not yet fully bright, and there were almost no one on the road. I kept stepping on the gas pedal, a little nervous, and the speed of the car was getting faster and faster.The sound of the motor, the sound of the wind, these sounds make me excited and nervous.There is only the roar of cars in my ears, and only the center line of the road in front of my eyes.The ecstasy of escape and the joy of speed made me a little giddy.When I encountered a turn, I had to step on the brakes. However, I didn't want to reduce the speed to a very low level. The centrifugal force during the turn gave me the illusion of spreading my wings and pre-flying. Experience the satisfaction of being in control.I have good control of the car at high speeds, I need to take risks, I need to get out of control, and there are almost no people on the road now.

When I saw it, when I realized it, when I turned the corner, bumped into a carriage head-on on the mountain road, and slammed the steering wheel to the right, the off-road vehicle made a sharp scream, rushed out of the road, and rushed down the hillside.

It was a gentle slope, fortunately there were tree stumps, fences, piles, stones and small agricultural tools blocking the impact of the car.Instinctively, I gripped the steering wheel and slammed on the brakes.But it was obvious that the brakes had failed, and instead of stopping, the car was getting faster and faster as the downward slope increased.Ten meters ahead is a stone wall, connected to the farmhouse, and there are several towering trees.I swerved again, trying to avoid the house, and jumped out the instant the car hit the stone wall, rolling onto the grass.

Maybe I hit my head when I jumped out of the car, and I was dizzy and couldn't get up for a while.From behind the stone wall came the bark of a dog, then the shrill bark of a woman, and a man's voice.I didn't know what they were calling, I struggled to stand up unsteadily, leaning on the tree trunk and the stone wall, and went to the SUV to check.The off-road vehicle must have been destroyed, with the engine case embedded in the stone wall.This section of the stone wall collapsed, stones were thrown everywhere, the windshield of the car was shattered, the hood was dented and deformed, and the driver's seat was also covered with stones.The sound of people behind the stone wall seemed to be far away. I looked towards the gap, and there should be a farmyard behind it. They had to go through the gate to come over.

I supported the car with both hands to pant, my legs were weak and my body was weak.Something flowed from the forehead into the eye, I touched it with my hand, it was blood.

Finally, they spared them, and the woman's loud, high-pitched voice stopped abruptly.I turned around, dizzy so that I couldn't open my eyes, I only saw two vague figures, and a smaller shadow, which was a dog.

"Sorry!" I said with difficulty. "If you know Caesar Manor..."

"We know each other."

It was the man who said it.

I nod. "You tell them, their butler will take care of it."

"This," I pointed to the car and the smashed stone wall. "They will take care of it, and there will be no problem with compensation."

"how about you?"

This time it was a woman who spoke.

"Thank you! I still have something to do."

I supported the car and turned half a circle. When I reached the rear of the car, I patted the spare tire hanging on the back of the car. As if I had made a decision, I raised my head, took a deep breath, faced the sun, Go to the road.I didn't hear the two men speak again, they must not have recovered from the shock.It doesn't matter, Mr. Reininger and Joseph will take care of it.Without a car, I can't go back to the concentration camp, ha... I feel relieved again.

After walking two kilometers along a narrow road, I came to a junction and saw the road I was expecting appear in front of me. I turned to the left first, and then followed the undulations of the terrain to the road covered in the northwest of the small hill. A shrubby forest.

I zigzag and squeeze my way through bushes with thick shiny leaves.The plants underfoot exude a moist and fragrant aroma.

I was dizzy all the time.I have been walking.My mind was blank, I didn't think about anything, I was just walking, and something was driving me to go.

There was a dark mass ahead, appearing and disappearing among the oak bushes with sparse leaves, approaching, "buzz", a cloud of flies flew up.It was the carcass of some animal, perhaps a goat.

My stomach began to churn, and I was eager to get the discomfort out of my body, from above and below.I can't control it, the body makes the choice automatically.I knelt on the ground and vomited.Feel thirsty after throwing up.The body can't lose that much water all at once.

There were small puddles formed by the footprints of animals, but the water was not drinkable.

Suppressing my thirst, I walked on, into a valley that was not visible from the road.There is a green stream at the bottom of the valley, and green aquatic plants are distributed on the water surface, densely woven into a green carpet, shaking the carpet, and the dark brown water below.I touched my dry lips and crossed the river by stepping on the stones sunken in the carpet.

Passing through a chestnut grove, we are close to the top of the mountain. The sun that emerges from the clouds embraces everything with its brilliance, making my heart flutter when I walk into this sunshine.How inspiring it would be to walk in the sunset every day, to work hard every day, to live simply and authentically every day.

Near noon, I made a long zig-zag ascent up a longer slope.The slope went far to the west, and finally reached another gorge and a small river with singing water.Seeing the sparkling water made my thirst even more unbearable.I accelerated the speed of alternating hands and feet, and quickly approached the river.

I lost my footing, the bush I was holding was uprooted, and I slid down the slope.On the way, I tried to climb the cracks in the rocks and grab the branches, but they were unsuccessful. I fell to the bottom of the valley, rolled a few times, and lay down by the small river. Before I passed out, I drank the cool water from the river.

I drank enough water before I opened my eyes. I was still lying by the river, but the sky was getting dark.I raised my wrist, looked at my watch for a long time, and finally figured out that it was past five o'clock in the afternoon.Only then did I feel hungry. I hadn’t eaten all day, but drank a lot of river water.I stood up, shaking all over, and my hair was still dripping and red.I don't know if the old wound in the morning is bleeding again, or there is a new wound.I don't feel it at all, I don't feel pain, I don't feel tired.I looked up, and there was a row of poplar trees on the opposite side of the creek.The treetops trembled in the last rays of sunlight, gorgeous and brilliant.I climb up.

Twilight grew thicker.I felt like there was something wrong that made this place so special.As I walked, I turned my head and looked around in a trance.What kind of place is this, very familiar, but I have never been here.have i been here?Why have no impression at all?

bee!I was shocked, and I was in a cold sweat.bee!I saw little Sophie's face, swollen and deformed after being stung by a bee, red and purple.Sophie's little hands were bandaged and swollen, too.Sophie got stung by a bee, maybe it was just a bee stung her at first.At the time of death, the bee releases a chemical substance, and all the bees that receive this signal come, sting the same place, and die there.This is a national conscription!Sophie was powerless to resist at such a young age. She was scared, screamed, and was chased by swarms of bees, running in the forest.I saw Sophie struggling to open her eyes. Her face was so swollen that she couldn't open her eyes, and it was very difficult for her to speak.All she said was, "Tell me."

This is God's punishment for me!I stopped, threw away the pistol, took off my shirt, raised my head, and closed my eyes...