father - home

Ever since meeting Joseph at the hunter's lodge, Akira and I have avoided being alone, avoiding talking alone.This is different than before.In the past, I didn't dare to face it squarely, I was cautious, I was walking on thin ice, I didn't know the intention of the other party, I guessed blindly, and I didn't know what to do.But now, we no longer need to talk, we only need one look and one expression to understand and communicate with each other. We will cooperate with each other, take care of others, support each other in silence and wordlessness, and move forward with difficulty.

I will go to Munich to meet Anders Schulz as soon as possible. Before that, I need to confirm one thing, that is Yu and Zhao's marriage. Will Yu finally agree?Approximate date of the wedding?If Yu is still hesitating, Zhao should try to persuade her and propose again if necessary.I anxiously waited for Zhao's news, but I didn't expect that the person talking to Yu turned out to be me.Oh, God!Why did this difficult, tormenting business befall me again?

During the few days we were away, Joseph and Wedec found a few young men in the village to pry the cement roads in the manor, pave small stones, and restore the roads to their original appearance.The greenhouse hadn't started yet, and Joseph said that some details needed to be discussed with Zhao, so after dinner, they went to inspect the site.I wanted to follow, but I felt bad. I couldn’t make any suggestions on the construction. Is it just joining in the fun, or is it a narrow mind?As I was hesitating, I heard Yu calling me.

"Oh, Yu, are you looking for Zhao? He and Joseph went to check the location of the greenhouse."

"No, sir, I just want to go out for a walk, what a beautiful sunset, can you accompany me?"

"Of course, of course."

That night, I went crazy with alcohol in front of Yu. Since then, we haven't talked alone, the atmosphere is a bit awkward, and I don't know how to continue.I am a man, so I should be more courageous, but it was Yu who broke the deadlock first.

Yu put his hand on my arm, his movements were natural and his expression was relaxed. "Sir, may I call you Marty again?"

"That's what I've been looking forward to."

"That's good, Marty, let's go." Yu took my arm and walked leisurely towards the lake. "I like summer in Germany the most. The sun is shining and the climate is pleasant. Especially at this time of the day, the sunset glows everything is dyed fiery red. The sky, lakes, mountains and forests are all fiery red, full and gorgeous , touched. This can almost be called a long evening, it is simply a luxury, a gift, people can rest without rush, do what they want to do without rush, take a long walk, and chat for a long time ..."

You can make love for a long time, cuddle for a long time, talk about love for a long time...

Already far away from the fountain, the surrounding area is empty, and there is no one.Yu stopped, put his hands on my arms, and looked up at me. "I'm sorry, Marty."

"Do not……"

"I'm sorry. I've always wanted to tell you. Please forgive me. I don't understand. It's not because I'm narrow-minded or extreme, but because there are some things I don't understand. So, if I hurt you, please forgive me."

"No, jade..." Apology, gratitude, praise, admiration, so many emotions, I don't know how to express, just staring at the beautiful girl and shaking my head blindly.

Yu seemed to see what I was thinking, and smiled shyly, her face becoming more delicate and moving under the reflection of the sunset. "You know? When I encouraged Zhao to find you, I was selfish. I like him and love him. If he proposes to me again, I will never have the courage to refuse again, but he doesn't love me. I am not reconciled I was in such an embarrassing position, so I asked him to find you, hoping that you would get a chance and give me a chance." Yu looked up at the sky, at the fiery red sunset. "If that's the case, everyone will be fulfilled and relieved, and I will be relieved. But it seems that things are not that simple."

Jade is too smart.At dinner just now, my mother mentioned Anders Schulz's visit, "I already know." I interrupted my mother bluntly, and then glanced at Zhao.All this, jade sees in the eye.

"Marty, are you waiting for my answer?"

I nod.Picked a branch of tuberose from the side of the road, smelled it, and handed it to Yu.

"Thank you." Yu took the flower and smelled it too. "It smells so good." Maybe we wanted to make the conversation easier, so we continued to move forward. "Marty, there's something I still don't understand, can you tell me the truth?"

"Of course, what's the matter?" I answered simply, but my heart was extremely disturbed.I know Zhao didn't tell Yu everything, should I tell?That was shameful, insulting, perverted, and despicable.

"Zhao told me that only by getting married can he get rid of the crime of homosexuality, and he can gain complete freedom before he can go home. And I went to the concentration camp as his fiancée, that was recorded in the record, until now, It cannot be changed, so he must marry me. Is that so?"

"Yes."

"Fake marriage is not a big deal. What's more, we are in Germany. Everything that happened here can be completely hidden from my family and friends. What I don't understand is that Zhao didn't tell me: When I get free, We can dissolve the engagement. What he said is: within the validity period of the marriage, I will not do anything to apologize to you. Why is this? I don’t understand. Since it is a fake marriage, why is there so much pressure on Zhao? Divorce doesn't seem to have occurred to me at all when I'm free. I know he doesn't want to hurt me, so wouldn't the longer a nominal marriage last, the more hurtful it will be?"

"Because this marriage is not fake."

"What?" Yu stopped, turned around and looked at me suspiciously.

I couldn't face her brave and beautiful eyes under her frowning eyebrows. I moved my eyes to the lake surface filled with red mist not far away. Another fiery sunset was reflected on the calm lake surface. "Because this marriage is real, Zhao will not divorce easily. He doesn't want you to be hurt in the slightest."

"Really married?"

"Really married."

"I don't know."

Facing such a pure and kind girl, it is too difficult to tell the truth, I feel ashamed and hard to tell, let alone Zhao.Well, let me do it, whether as Zhao's lover, Zhao's guarantor, or as a German, I am duty-bound.I make a swallowing motion to calm myself. "Yu, Zhao didn't tell you the whole situation, because he didn't want to hurt you. You know, it's hard to say this kind of thing, it's just an insult. Actually, the regulations don't require marriage, but only require sex with the opposite sex relationship, and the process will be monitored and documented.”

"What did you say?" Yu Xiang was frightened, her voice was very soft, and her face turned pale.

I intentionally ignored her expression, and continued: "In Zhao's case file, you are his fiancée, and you are all Chinese. According to Chinese customs, the higher-ups agreed in a very humane way that you can formally get married, and then the secret police Spend the first night of the wedding in the arranged hotel, when you have sex, someone will monitor and record it, and use this as a basis to judge whether Zhao is gay or not."

"It's ridiculous, it's shameless."

I nodded slightly.Not bad at all.I said it in my heart, but I didn't have the energy to say it again.

"Who would that be? Anders Schultz?"

I nodded again, still speechless.

"Oh my God." Jade murmured in a low voice, covering her eyes with her hands.I thought she was going to cry, but I couldn't comfort her, I couldn't speak, I couldn't touch her, I couldn't even look at her.

After a while, Yu put down her hands and raised her head. She didn't cry, but her face became paler.

"I'm sorry..." It took me a lot of effort to say this sentence.

Yu grabbed my hand and shook it gently. "It's not his fault to fall in love with him. Just like he loves you, it's not your fault. The difference is that you love each other."

"No, he loves you too."

"I know."

"He is absolutely unwilling to hurt you. Although he can't give you love, he will give you a real marriage. You have to trust him, Yu, he will not do anything to apologize to you."

"how about you?"

I?

"what about you?"

we?

"Didn't you ever think about letting him stay?"

I shook my head with a wry smile.I've thought about it, I've always wanted to, but I can't.

Yu didn't ask, but just looked at me deeply, looking into my heart.Then she smiled suddenly, a little forced, but still beautiful. "Marty, you know, I don't know much about this, can you tell me what I need to pay attention to, or how to cooperate, at least to succeed once."

"Yu!" This shocked me so much.Her face was pale, and her smile did not have the shyness of a girl, but was miserable and helpless, with a little comfort. She should be afraid and ashamed, but she accepted all this calmly. I am in awe of her courage and heart. Respectfully. "You don't have to do anything, don't look him in the eye, don't talk, don't be afraid..."