father - home

Although I made up my mind not to tell Zhao, Joseph or anyone in the family about it until the last moment, that is, before I gave the silver sword away, even if I did send the silver sword away, I would still be able to It's possible to keep it from the truth, it's best not to know it all the time, and it's possible and should be possible to just walk and leave easily like this, but my mind always keeps appearing uncontrollably and repeatedly. The situation after the sword was sent away.

Chitu has never been separated from Yinjian for more than half a day, and it will soon understand that Yinjian is gone, and it is the only one left. Fortunately, it is already very dependent on Zhao, but Zhao is also going to leave.When Zhao Ye is gone, what will Chitu do?

Whether I want to or not, I have to personally arrange for Zhao to get married and then leave. I will personally send him into the bridal chamber and send him away.What am I going to do when I'm done with all this and go back to my empty life?

If the war is really over, Joseph can leave the army, but he doesn't want to come back, where can he go?What should he do?

If the war continues, as Zhao said, it has just begun, and Joseph returns to the battlefield with a broken heart... If the war continues, many people will die, so what will happen to those who survive in the end?We have no right to choose between life and death, everything is fate.

Soon, Joseph's vacation was over.On the day I left, I asked for leave to see him off.Because of the car accident and honeymoon, I had a backlog of work, so I took Zhao and sent him to Munich Swabia Hospital for further consultation.

At the gate of the hospital ward building, Joseph and Zhaodu got out of the car.

"I won't take you to the station, Joseph, let's say goodbye here."

They shook hands tightly, then hugged.Joseph hugged Zhao like he hugged me, and I don't think he will hug a third person in the same way again.Looking at them, I feel a little sour in my heart, not the sourness of vinegar, but the sourness of heartache.

"Take care of yourself, don't get tired, there is still some finishing work for the warming house, let Weidec do it."

"Don't worry? Will you be satisfied?"

"That……"

"I'll keep it, that's your business." Zhao patted Joseph on the shoulder.

Joseph didn't say anything, and Akira didn't continue.They just looked at each other, no matter their eyes or smiles, they were all heavy and weighty.Even if they don't fully agree with each other's decisions, they can understand each other.

These days, Joseph never gave me a chance to be alone with him. He was more with Zhao, and there must be other people present when he met me.I know this is not to avoid suspicion, he is not willing to forgive me.I promised Zhao that I would talk to him, and now is the last chance.

On the way to Munich, Joseph tried to refuse me to take him to the train station. In the end, it was two to one, and he had to compromise.

Joseph's train hasn't arrived yet.We were in the station bar and each ordered a cold beer.We haven't spoken since we left the hospital, and I thought it would be silent until the end.Just as I was trying to figure out how to get the topic out of the way, he spoke.

"Akira really matches you well."

"Oh?"

"That night, you cooperated with Canon and cooperated so tacitly. It was great. No one believed that you had never practiced with Canon once."

It was the midsummer night that people had been looking forward to for a whole year. After the grapes were harvested, it finally arrived with a strong fragrance and happiness... Eat barbecue, drink fine wine, sing and dance, and use the "Amati" The violin played "Canon in D" (Canon in D), and I accompanied him on the cello, with two other violins, our neighbors, the Clichman brothers. (Note: Canon is a musical genre. Here it refers to Canon and Jigue in D Major for Three Violins and Continuing Bass, created by musician Johann Pachelbel (1653~1706). The first part of Canon in Opus No. 337 is referred to as Canon in D major. The musician Pachelbel was the most famous organ player before the appearance of J. S. Bach in Germany at that time. He had a large number of organ works. He and J?S? Bach's father has a very good personal relationship, he is the godfather of Bach's sister, and he is the teacher of Bach's brother, and Bach's music enlightenment comes from his brother, so Pachelbel can also be regarded as the "father of music"J ? S? Bach's master.)

"That's because Zhao La is good, and his cooperation with the Clutchman brothers is also very tacit."

"Show and them have made peace with each other, but you haven't."

My efforts backfired, and I should have been frustrated, but I couldn't help but smile at the memory of how sweet, uplifting, and refreshing I felt that night.Joseph was looking at me, but I couldn't hide my smile, so I raised the beer and covered my face with the huge glass.

"I've been thinking, I watched you be born and grow up, but most of the time, I don't understand you. But Zhao... I should have congratulated you... Will he really go?"

The smile was stiff, but the muscles were twitching. Fortunately, there was a wine glass in the way.

"Zhao is leaving."

"He loves you!" Zhao said, "He loves you!" I took a big sip of beer, put the glass on the table, and stared at it.

"Anyway, he will marry Yu and return home. That is [-] kilometers away, on the other side of the earth, there is also a war there, more tragic than here, and more people died...Joseph, I say goodbye to him, Not five years, but forever."

"Is this what he said to you, or you..." Joseph narrowed his eyes.

Yes, Joseph knew me who wouldn't say such a thing.Under the guise of arrogance, I was showing weakness, begging, and hoping for his mercy.Joseph loves me and will not leave me alone, so Joseph will come back.This is Zhao's wishful thinking.As Zhao said: Love is not the whole of life.In times of war, survival is the most important thing.However, Zhao thinks this way and does this because of love, isn't it?Sweet and painful love, even if we are separated forever, I will never fall in love with others again, because the taste of this love is too strong and heavy.

"It's true...you know I've been sober."

"It's also very cold."

"Yes, very cold." I took out the enamel cigarette case Joseph gave me, opened it, took one myself, and handed it to Joseph.I have been using it since my birthday and carry it with me every day.

Joseph didn't answer, so I put away the cigarette case.Because cigarettes are expensive, when he was in the manor, Joseph bought shredded tobacco and rolled it himself.I learned to smoke while rolling his cigarettes.

Unexpectedly, what Joseph took out together with the shredded tobacco was not a small piece of paper, but a very familiar camel-colored briar wood pipe.

"This is……"

"Zhao gave it to me. He is really smart and does everything well. Yu joked that there is probably nothing that Zhao can't do except having children."

Joseph laughed, but I didn't.

"He sent you...why..."

"He says he's going to bribe me, but there's nothing else but this."

"Bribe you?"

Joseph did not answer me. He lit his pipe and smoked it intoxicated.Looking at the twinkling sparks, I clenched my fists.The pipe Zhao gave me is still lying in the drawer, and I haven't filled it with tobacco or smoked it yet.And Joseph's one has obviously been used for a while.I don't know what state of mind I'm in right now, I'm feeling emotional and kind of out of control.I carry the enamel cigarette case with me, but my beloved pipe is lying in the drawer.I begged Joseph to come back, so I couldn't put my pipe to my mouth and feel that kiss on my lips in his presence.Is Zhao just worried about me, or do you want me to forget him forever?I've been doing what he says, but now I feel cheated, I'm angry, it's not Akira's fault, so whose?Whose fault is it?

In the end, Joseph didn't promise me to come back, because he said: Even if Zhao leaves, you won't love me anymore.Yeah, Joseph needs no mercy either.But he said again: When you need me, I will come back.

I should be satisfied.Will Zhao be satisfied?Will he be relieved?How much difference is there between love and compassion? People's feelings can be vastly different.Love moves people, pity makes people angry; love means respect, pity means humiliation.Is it really?Are we feeling right?Is it necessary to haggle like this?Joseph said that he was not as strong and open-minded as Zhao.Neither do I, very few people have.