father - home

Mass had already ended, the chapel was empty, and the surroundings were quiet, and the slightest sound of candles burning in front of the altar could be heard.I made the sign of the cross, replaced a dying candle, and retreated to the front seat, lost in thought.

In fact, I thought nothing of it, it was a moment of intoxicating bliss.Flowers, Our Lady, blessings, kisses... Every time I sit here, the scene at that time will be reproduced in front of my eyes.

For a month, whenever I went back to the manor, I would come to the monastery, because Jade was here.

Mr. Zhen got Yu a new passport, and Yu got a new name, Lin Yi'an.The owner of the Moonfall Bar really has a solution. Of course, the visa is fake, but it is very realistic, at least I can’t tell it apart. Besides, no one looked carefully. Even, on the train from Berlin back to Munich, a conductor Respectfully call Jade Mrs. Lieutenant.

Originally, I wanted to arrange Yu in the manor, but Yu resolutely disagreed and refused to explain the reason.I seem to feel something, but subconsciously I don't want to believe it.

"Then go to the monastery, Katie (the mother's nickname for Dean Catherine) will definitely take good care of Yu." So Yu only had dinner at the manor and took a rest, and I sent her to Isle of Women overnight .

Every time I come, I have to sit in the chapel and experience this kind of happiness and pain again.

"You can kiss the bride now."

The bride is not me, and it is not me who kisses.Attending one's lover's wedding and seeing one's lover kiss others is undoubtedly the most painful thing in the world.No!that is not!That is happiness!That's a bliss in comparison!To be able to see him with open eyes, touch him, hear him, and feel him is happiness.Every time you are haunted by dreams, every time you feel lost, and your heart hurts, you will know how happy you are at that time.

The monastery is old, and the heavy wooden doors creaked hard when they opened.I looked towards the door, and in the bright summer sun, a figure came straight to me.

"They told me you were here, and they were right."

I hold the hand that was extended.

"Sorry to keep you waiting."

"No……"

"Are you all right, Marty."

"I'm very good."

"Really?"

"real."

"Then let's go."

When I got outside the house, I suddenly woke up. It wasn’t Zhao who entered the door just now, and it wasn’t Zhao who was walking beside me now. It was Dean Catherine.Although it is an illusion, there is still a trace of sweetness in my heart, and it is better than nothing.

Although I am a frequent visitor here, I am an outsider and a man after all, and I must be accompanied when I walk around in the monastery. What's more, for the sake of confidentiality, Yu wears the same dress as the sisters here, and works and rests together. I really can't recognize it.In the past, Lisa was with me every time, but this time it was Dean Catherine. Something must be wrong with her.

"Marty, have you thought about what to do next?"

"after?"

"After Yu gave birth, do you want to send them away or..."

"No!" I immediately interrupted the dean's words almost reflexively. I never considered sending Yu away, because that was out of consideration. "I will not send Yu away, never!"

"That……"

"Yu is dead, the nun here is called Lin Yi'an. Of course, you can give her a German name, Angela or something else, that would be better... Anyway, I will not send her away." I said firmly , there is absolutely no room for discussion.

When I thought of Yu leaving, I felt an inexplicable fear.I personally sent Zhao away, and deliberately chose a neutral American cruise ship, but unexpectedly something happened, and his life and death are still uncertain.Times are more tense now than they were a year ago.Germany has already gone to war with Russia. (On June 1941, 6, Germany started the "Barbarossa" plan to invade the Soviet Union.) The frontlines are full of good news, the German army is in full swing, and the Mediterranean and Atlantic Ocean have almost become Germany's inland sea. The status of Yu breaks through the siege, and the possibility of returning to the motherland is very slim, let alone with a child.No!I can't take that risk, it's scary even thinking about it.I have no Zhao, and I can no longer live without Yu and his children.I don’t know when, Yu is not only his wife that Zhao entrusts me to take care of, but also my life sustenance.As long as there is Yu and his children, Zhao will come back, and one day he will come back.

Dean Catherine glanced sideways at me. "I know you don't want to send her away, it's too dangerous, but it may not be safe here, this is not a paradise where you can stay away from disaster."

"If you find it difficult, I can take Yu back to Caesar Manor."

"No, you misunderstood me." The dean stopped, put his hands in his gown, his face was calm, but under the lenient gown, his chest heaved slightly. "Marty, Yu is Xiang's daughter, just like my daughter. I love her no less than you, but..." The dean's thin and curved eyebrows were frowned in the middle, and there was tenderness and tenderness in the beautiful eyes. struggle. "Lisa said that the old gardener asked about Guoyu's situation. He has been working here for more than ten years and has always been serious and loyal. Not only him, but also people in the village asked, even the nuns in the monastery. Marty, this is Germany, we They're all Germans, if they knew what Jade was involved with... Marty, there's no fire in paper."

The dean is right, but I never want to think about it.Yu used to get married here, and many people on the island have seen it, and now she comes back to live with her body about to give birth. Although no one except the dean knows the real situation, this in itself is very suspicious.Germans have been educated since childhood to be good citizens, respond to the call of the country, and abide by the laws of the country.Just like Babel knew that Zhao did not go to the gay party that day, but because she identified Zhao as gay, she still had the obligation to report as a good citizen.

"Maybe, it's better to go back to Caesar Manor, at least there are no outsiders there." I thought to myself, but it was too late.

"Marty!" Jade was sitting around the table with a few nuns making things, and when she saw me, she came out cheerfully.The nun's gown made Yu more beautiful and otherworldly, and partially concealed her high belly, but Yu was 36 weeks pregnant and moved slowly and awkwardly, almost tripping over a chair.

I hurried over to help her. "Slow down...are you okay?"

"It's okay." Yu raised her head and smiled sweetly, her pale cheeks flushed slightly.I know what she didn't say: here you come.

After returning from Berlin this time, our relationship has become much closer, and that layer of estrangement has disappeared.Zhao is no longer an obstacle that divides us, but a bond that binds us tightly.During this period of time, I lived a fulfilling and meaningful life, because more often, I thought about Yu and the child in her womb. For the coming day, I worked hard on obstetrics in the library, and even asked Qiu to open the back door Go to the Swabian hospital to observe obstetric surgery.

Although Yu's life in the monastery was poor, she was peaceful and comfortable. With the company and care of her sisters, she became more and more cheerful and loved to laugh, and she made no secret of missing me.When we are together, we are doing the same thing all the time: communicating each other's nostalgia for Zhao through hearing, sight and touch.

"Come on, come on, I'll show you something." Yu pulled me, excited and naughty.

"Slow down...you slow down..." My nagging elicited low laughter.

"Look!" Yu turned around suddenly, and spread a small white velvet jacket with slanted breasts on her chest.

"This is..." I know what this is.Mother is also doing it, it seems to be a little bigger.Even though I knew it, I still couldn't help being excited when I saw it laying flat on Yu's chest, and said, "You made this? Is it too small?"

"Too small?" Yu looked down at the small clothes in her hand, and then looked back at the nuns with a dazed expression.

"It's not young. The baron has never had a child. What does he know?" It was an older nun who spoke.

"Yeah, Jade, just leave him alone, Marty's going to mess around."

It seems that I have committed public outrage.No, a group of nuns at the table, including Lisa, were busy doing needlework.Little jackets, quilts, socks, shoes, hats, and a big stack of diapers.

Yu picked up another pair of small shoes. "Look, Marty, how cute."

I took the little shoes and compared them on the palm of my hand. "Should a child be born in a shoe size?"

"Where is it? You won't be able to wear it until you're half a year old." It's still the older nun, and she should be in charge of today's sewing session.

"Then how do you know how big his feet were at that time, maybe the shoes were too small?"

"The clothes may be too small!" The nun seemed a little impatient.

Lisa was happy, chiming in with a giggle. "So, we've made several sets, big and small, and don't worry, Marty, there will always be something suitable. Never let the little one freeze."

Yu was also very happy, but obviously tired, she returned to her original seat and sat down.

I looked around the room, and the nuns were sitting on long benches. There were no chairs or cushions. Yu must be very uncomfortable.

Just as I was about to call Yu, Lisa said again: "Yu, why are you still here? Didn't Marty want to check you up? Hurry up."

"Then...then I go first?"

"Go quickly, it doesn't matter if you are here or not, your task is to give birth to the child safely." The older nun laughed after she finished speaking, it turned out that she was not impatient.

I helped Yu back to her own bedroom.She was in high spirits and flushed, but walked slowly.

"Tired?"

Yu smiled and shook her head. "It's really useless now. It won't work if you stand for a while, and your back will hurt if you sit for a long time."

"That's natural. Your body is burdened now, and you shouldn't be too tired."

"But it's tiring to lie down all the time." Yu said coquettishly.

I tightened my hand on her waist. "Thank you for your hard work. Hold on for a few more days, and it will be fine after the birth."

At first, Yu's acting like a baby was unconscious, because she mistook me for Zhao.No matter who it is, every time I will respond to her and encourage her, because it will make her feel better.I can do it too.

The dean was very thoughtful and arranged for Lisa to live in a room with Yu so that Yu could help her when she needed it.

It was a little hot in the room, so I took off my coat.Yu saw the bandage under the shirt and reached out to feel it through the shirt. "Does it still hurt?"

"It doesn't hurt, it's good morning."

"Is it still in bandages?"

"Just in case."

"We have an old saying that it takes a hundred days to hurt your muscles and bones. You have only been a little over a month."

"It depends on the location. There is no force here, so it will heal quickly."

"You are always right. Zhao said before that you are always right."

I smiled and took out stethoscope, sphygmomanometer and other equipment to check Yu.