father - home

I sat on the stool that still had his body temperature, and silently watched his figure dangling in front of my eyes.During this time, Zhao recovered quickly, and his complexion improved a lot. He was no longer always pale, and often had a healthy blush, but his figure was still thin.

Whenever I asked him to eat more, Zhao would always say, "You must be feeding pigs."

And I always laughed at him: "You are so thin, you don't look like a soldier at all, you are a mountain soldier, you always fight in the ice and snow. Look at the polar bear, how strong and fat, that's how it can stand It's freezing."

"Ha! It turns out that you raised me like a bear!" Zhao said, "Do you think being fat is effective? My training results are top-notch in the team."

Whenever I showed a disapproving expression, Zhao would always say: "Don't believe me, if you have a chance to see it, you will know."

Of course I do.Unexpectedly, these jokes are now about to become reality.

White smoke came out from the edge of the pot lid again, and the water was about to boil.Zhao filled a glass of cold water, opened the lid with one hand, and poured the cold water into the pot with the other. Immediately, the bubbling white foam subsided, the mist cleared, and the water in the pot was tumbling, bringing up swollen bellies, white and tender. dumplings.

Zhao added a little cold water to the pot, and the water didn't roll over for a moment, and it could be clearly seen that all the dumplings floated to the surface of the water. "Look, that's how it's cooked." Zhao said, turning off the electric stove, and took out the dumplings.

I cleared the lab bench and set the tableware.Since Zhao Ke went to the ground, most of us ate on the workbench.

Zhaoduan came with steaming dumplings.

"Hi! Don't be angry!"

"Angry?" Through the mist, Zhao's cheeks were hazy and glowing red, his eyes were a little confused, filled with water vapor, and extremely gentle. "Angry?" I murmured, stunned.

"Hi! You are not mad, are you?"

"How dare I be angry with you." I came back to my senses and teased.

"It's good not to be angry, eat quickly, it's not good if it's cold."

Zhao poured me a glass of red wine, glanced at me when he handed it to me, and then poured himself a glass. "Just one cup." Zhao smiled slightly, a little shy, but also determined.

This is the first time.After Zhao woke up, I kept prohibiting him from drinking, even a little bit.He wanted a drink today, I didn't stop him, and he knew I wouldn't stop him.

Zhao raised his wine glass, "Happy New Year!"

"Happy New Year!"

We ate dumplings and drank wine in silence, and no one spoke for a while.The atmosphere in the room was a bit dull, the happiness just now was like a sensible child, hiding away obediently, leaving only the adults to discuss serious matters.The affairs of the adults are not only serious but also cruel, so that no one dares to speak first.

Finally, Zhao calmly said, "How much time is left?"

"what?"

"How much time does the professor give you?"

"Zhao!"

"I have to do what you said, eat more, and gain more fat." It was that shy, worried smile again.

"Zhao," I said firmly on the table, holding his hand. "Don't worry, I won't do it."

"What not to do?"

"I would never use you as an experiment."

"How can I do that?" Zhao was still calm, not excited at all.His calmness almost stabbed me.

I squeezed his hand hard, as if to remind him that I was talking to him, it was me!Marty! "Zhao, I've already made up my mind. We have at least three weeks. During this time, you need to increase your physical strength, and I will find a way to help you get a new set of identity documents."

"New?" Zhao expressed doubts.

"Okay! Even if it's a fake ID. Anyway, I'll try to get you out of here. I will never use you for experiments."

"how about you?"

"I'll go with you."

"And Ernst, 'teaching' them."

"Everything started because of me, I ordered them."

"Who do you think would believe it? You ordered Ernst? Even if you ordered, 'Professor' and Martin they might get away with it? And your parents, your family, and Joseph, we can take you Joseph is still in the army. Don’t forget, if you leave, you are a deserter and a crime of treason. All those implicated will go to prison and concentration camp..." Zhao looked at me, quietly Said.His hand didn't move, but mine slowly loosened.

Zhao slowly shook his head, "No, you can't do this, I won't allow it!"

"But..." My lips trembled, "I won't allow it!" Zhao had never spoken to me in such a harsh tone, and I was scared.

"This is exactly the best result, and everyone is satisfied."

I widened my eyes and asked loudly, fear rising from the bottom of my heart. "Everyone?"

"Professor Hubertus Straghold, devoted to science, cruelty can become sublime because of a noble purpose. Captain Alec Piolkowski, conscientious, Dachau but The model of all concentration camps, he certainly does not want scandals in the camp. Second Lieutenant Will Schenk got his wish and finally got his revenge, and finally he can watch the jokes of Lieutenant Matthias von Meissenbach." Zhao Xiao Is it contempt, disdain, or helplessness?

"how about you?"

"If, as the professor said, I am a perfect and rare experimental sample, then I should be worth ten or even more common samples. I can save so many people, what else am I not satisfied with? What's more, in this way, everything has a reasonable explanation, and no one will pursue it anymore, and no one will be hurt again."

"And me?" I couldn't stop shaking the hand that was holding the edge of the workbench, so that my voice was trembling like suppressed sobs.Fortunately, the workbench is made of concrete and connected to the wall and floor, otherwise, I think even it would tremble.

"You..." Zhao looked at me hesitantly, with deep pain in his eyes.

"Tell me, and me. You have analyzed everything thoroughly, and you must have analyzed me too. Tell me, what satisfaction do I get?"

I stare at him.With dodge eyes, Zhao stood up and wanted to leave.

I grabbed him, gritted my teeth, and said word by word: "I tried my best to revive you, just to get a perfect test sample so that I can complete my own experiment? As long as you do the experiment, all the gossip will go away." Self-destruction? Everyone has been preserved? Mathias is still loyal and decent, and has not insulted his noble surname and this military uniform? Do you think this is what I want?"

I spoke faster and faster, louder and louder, and finally almost roared.I was angry, and tears crawled into my eyes in anger.So is Zhao.It's just that there is no anger in his tears, only sadness.

Suddenly Zhao's eyes were losing their energy, and his body began to shake, I immediately hugged him by the waist. "I'm sorry! Zhao!" I called repeatedly. "I'm sorry! This is not what I want to say." I forgot, you are still a patient; I forgot, your heart is more bitter than mine.

I held Zhao in my arms and held his head.

Zhaowei closed her eyes, her voice was weak but clear. "If you're really nice to me, Marty, don't make me carry such a heavy cross again."

The image in front of me blurred, and my heart ached.That's what he wanted, and he was really tired.I thought my love could protect him, but it was just the opposite.

One thing that I have been anxious about for a long time, unexpectedly got the answer at this moment.Should I be happy, or should I be sad?I've never been sure if Zhao knew my feelings for him.Now I know, Zhao is very clear.I also told him that I have known that I like gays since I was 14 years old.So far, Zhao has neither refused nor accepted.This shows that he does not despise me for it.He didn't alienate me, but did he like me too?Zhao has never done anything beyond the friendship of friends, does this mean: he does not want to develop this relationship, why?Is it just because you are afraid of hurting me, or is there some other reason?

I helped Zhao back to the ward and told him to lie down and rest.When I packed everything up and sat down beside his bed, Zhao said to me: "Go back, go back to the dormitory and sleep."

"Are you driving me away?"

"Look at you! Don't you feel uncomfortable with such a small bed? That sofa can't sleep at all. Didn't the captain say today that he has given an order, and now I am the 'most precious test sample'" , no one will dare to touch me again. You should go back to the dormitory and sleep."

"Okay then." I nodded in agreement. "Starting from tomorrow. Isn't today to watch the year? Let me stay with you!"