father - home

Ernst picked me up at the train station on my return from Berlin.

Along the way, none of us spoke.

After arriving at the garage in the camp, before getting out of the car, Ernst finally couldn't help asking, "What happened?"

"It's okay." It's like saying nothing.

Ernst looked at me without pressing the question. "Don't worry, he's fine."

I nodded.

"You look tired."

I'm really tired and these days, I hardly sleep at all.It's not that I don't have time, it's that I can't sleep.

Ernst pulled my bag from the trunk and handed it to me. "Go back to the dormitory and sleep for a while. I'll call you for dinner."

When I woke up, it was already late at night.There was dinner on the table, and Ernst must have been reluctant to wake me up.

I took a shower, ate something, and headed to the lab.

Outside the hospital gate, I deliberately looked up.In the entire hospital, except for the duty room and corridors on the first floor, not a single window was lit.It seems that Zhao has fallen asleep.I hesitated, but went upstairs anyway.

The hospital was very quiet, the patients were asleep, and the nurses on duty were also dozing off.

The leather boots stepped on the wooden floor, making a harsh "creaking" sound.The higher I went, the more careful I was, trying not to make any noise.

Afraid of waking Zhao up, I tiptoed through the dark corridor.

how?On the ground ahead there was a pale gray light pouring from an open door.Look closer, it's moonlight.Although the moon is not full tonight, the weather is clear and the moon is like a hook.That room was Akira's ward.

"Coming?" In the darkness, came the voice I was expecting.

"Why aren't you asleep?" I turned on the light.Zhao leaned against the head of the bed, the quilt on the bed was well folded.It seemed that he was not going to sleep, but stayed in the dark with his clothes on.

"Ernst said you looked tired."

"He's [-] again." As I said that, I took off my military cap and overcoat, and threw them on the chair beside the bed.

"I asked him." Zhao turned over.We sat side by side on the edge of the bed.

"So you waited?"

"Ok!"

"What if I don't come tonight? You won't sleep?"

"You will come."

"You don't have to wait for me. If there is something, I will tell you."

"I can not sleep."

"Why? You are so tired from training, you usually sleep well."

"do not know."

"Worried about the outcome?"

"A bit."

I habitually groped around on my body, but if there was nothing, I grabbed the coat again. After searching, there was indeed a bag. I took it out and saw that there was only the last one left.I crumpled up the empty cigarette pack and threw it on the chair, holding the cigarette and lighter in my hand, without lighting it, just staring at it intently. "The professor agreed to my request, and your experiment will be postponed for two weeks. And before that, no other experiments will be done."

"Great." Zhao happily patted my thigh, and finally heaved a sigh of relief.

"The professor has set a date, which is March 3th, Monday night. When the time comes, he will come in person." Saying this, I almost exhausted all my strength.

Zhao did not answer, but took the cigarette and lighter from my hand.He put the cigarette in the corner of his mouth, lit it twice, squinted his eyes when lighting the cigarette, and then passed the lit cigarette to my mouth.I took two breaths numbly.He took the cigarette over, took two puffs, and then gave it back to me.Zhao raised his head and spit out a blue smoke ring into the air, followed by another, and the last smoke ring was very light in color.The smoke ring gradually expanded and drifted away as it rose slowly. The second smoke ring passed through the middle of the first smoke ring, and the third passed through the first two... I stared blankly.

"Hey, burning hands!"

I was startled and my hands shook.Only then did he realize that the cigarette butt he was holding between his fingers was already very short, with long ash hanging from the top and bent down, all of which fell on his body.I lifted my foot and stubbed out a cigarette on the sole of my boot.

This is one of the main purposes of my trip to Berlin.Seeing that the originally planned test date is approaching.Zhao's body has not yet returned to its ideal state, not only me, but Walter also thinks so.So I decided to postpone the trial for two weeks.Walter insisted on experimenting with other prisoners before doing so.Of course I don't agree, but Walter's attitude was tough at this time, and he moved out Professor Straghold to suppress me.The reason why the professor sent him is to remind me at a critical moment that the only important thing is to complete the experiment on schedule, and tell me not to forget my responsibilities.

I had no choice but to go to Berlin in person, hoping that the professor would agree to my request.I wasn't really sure of success because I didn't have any plausible reasons other than my attitude.At that time, I thought that even if the professor did not agree, at least Walter could not conduct any experiments while I was away.

The other two purposes of this trip to Berlin: one is to go to the embassy of the Republic of China in Germany and tell them about Zhao’s current situation; What to do to remedy.I have not heard back from the petition letter I sent.

"What else?" Zhao said, patting the cigarette ash that fell on the bed sheet.

"I went to the embassy..."

Zhao waited for a while, seeing that I did not continue, he knew there would be no good news.He said lightly, "What? Didn't find anyone?"

I shook my head, not knowing what to say, saying that no one cares about me?Say no one knows him?No one cares about him?No one cares about him?I can't say it!Those people are his countrymen, his relatives, and he pins his hopes on them.I lied: "I didn't meet the cultural counselor, he was on a business trip."

"Oh." Zhao nodded and looked up out of the window.

"I haven't seen von Mirrenhof either. Because she has been on vacation in France and hasn't come back, she hasn't seen our letter yet. But I saw the headmaster von Mirrenhof. The headmaster was shocked and also Angry. He is very sorry and promises to rush back and fix this as soon as possible."

"Very good!" Zhao stood up, turned off the light, walked to the window, and gently pushed the window open.

The night wind blew in, bringing in a chill.

I stood up, grabbed the coat on the chair, hesitated, and put it down again.I walked to Zhao's side and looked out following his gaze: facing this window was the chimney of the crematorium, and above the black and ferocious monster was the crescent moon and the dark blue night sky In it, there are still stars twinkling.

I put my hand on Zhao's shoulder and begged in his ear, "Zhao, let me take you away!"

Zhao didn't make a sound, but took my hand, pulled it from his shoulder, held it with both hands, and wrapped it around his chest.

My heart beat faster and I held my breath.This, I have waited for so long, but at this moment...

Zhao leaned against me, looked up at the night sky, and said calmly: "Chang'e lives in the moon, and there are jade rabbits. They are immortal, but they are very lonely... Marty, you know me best, not only here, you The only person in my 21-year-old life who understands me, you know what I want."

"But, Zhao." I couldn't control myself anymore, I hugged him from behind and hugged him tightly, as if if I let go, he would slip away. "I can't, I can't do it. Zhao, when the professor comes in person, there is no room for maneuver. I can't fool him. According to the design of the experiment, the body temperature must drop below 30°C. But, that... that ...I will never be able to save you again. I can't...I can't do this...to save you and send you to death..." I couldn't go on, lying on Zhao's shoulder, biting my lip tightly , Don't let yourself cry out loud.

Zhao turned around, hugged me in his arms, and gently pressed my head to his own neck. "Marty, don't worry, trust in God. If this is my destiny, I am willing to die in your arms." Zhao hugged me tightly, "You know very well that just because of my appearance, in public As soon as I show up, I will be recognized. Once I escape, I have to hide my name and hide in Tibet. If I can’t return to the motherland, and I can’t avenge and kill the enemy, what is the meaning of life. What’s more, we can’t implicate so many people because of ourselves.” Zhao He stroked my hair, "Look, isn't there still hope? I believe in the principal, he is a man of integrity."

"But... I'm afraid it's too late." I was still sobbing in his arms.

Zhao picked up my face and kissed away the tears one by one with his lips. "I think there should be hope. One day, I will be able to walk out of the gate openly. I will work hard. If you don't give up, I won't give up either. Let's work together. I believe that miracles will happen."

In the night, his eyes shone like morning stars.