father - home

In front of Zhao's ward door, I stopped in my tracks.After all, I couldn't bear to come back.I miss him so much.Want to see him, but dare not face him.I know he won't blame me, and won't be like my father, who refuses to look at me until he dies.I was afraid to face his eyes, his sadness and self-blame.

There was no movement in the house, hoping he was asleep.All I have to do is sneak a glance at him.Maybe I could sit still, sit quietly by his bed for a while.Looking at his face under the moonlight: the shadows cast by the eyelashes on the cheeks; the corners of the mouth slightly upturned in sleep; the breath floating in the air.I hold on to the door frame, God, give me some strength!

Caught off guard, the door opened silently.A slender figure surrounded by orange brilliance.The cheeks are flushed, and the eyes are rippling. "Why don't you come in? I've been waiting for you for a long time."

The hand was held and pulled to the chest.Involuntarily, into a dream.The house is full of bright lights, and the ground is full of stars. "Zhao, this is..."

"These are left by Ellen, they were not used up last Christmas Eve."

"How did you know I was coming?"

"I wait every night."

"Light the candles..."

When the candlelight was blocked, it was a shallow smile; when the words were blocked, it was soft lips; when I widened my eyes in amazement, what I met were burning eyes...

Withdrawing his hand, he held Zhao's head, fearing that he would leave...

"The candle was just lit. That's all there is, and it'll be gone in a minute..."

Peck, slightly parted, plump lips.

"I know you're outside the door..."

Put it on again, don't dare to move it, for fear that it will be lost...

How many times have I covered and kissed these lips, I know how fragrant and sweet they are, but I never dare to taste them, dare not expect extravagantly, dare not offend them.

"Zhao!?" Now, this dream kiss is in my hands, in front of my eyes, but I feel dizzy and can't distinguish the situation.

The scorching breath sprayed on the face, the trembling lips pressed against each other tightly, and the spiritual tongue lingered between the white teeth, probing, confiding, calling...

"Oh my love, here I come!"

Reach out, meet it, hug it.Grind, frolic, and accompany each other in the love nest.

Lips separated, tongue entangled, unwilling to separate, even for a moment.

Kiss again, kiss away the flow of love overflowing from the corner of the mouth, kiss into the rippling feelings in the chest...

"Don't! Don't go!"

"I didn't leave!"

"Where are you? I can't touch you."

"I'm right in front of you. Come in, come in a little more."

"Ah! I got it, I caught you."

"You can't catch it."

"I'm entangled with you."

"I hooked you."

……

"Come on! Come with me."

"That depends on how capable you are."

"Okay! Just wait and see!"

"what!"

"how?"

"You bit me."

"No harm?

"No."

"sorry!"

"I said, no."

……

"I am coming."

"I thought……"

"not welcome?"

"No! No!"

"That is?"

"Great!"

"That's good!"

……

I reluctantly left the love nest, stroking Zhao's chin with both hands. "All right? Are you all right?"

Zhao took my hand, put it to his mouth and kissed it. "Hmm! Alright!"

With heavy breathing and pounding hearts, we trembled and unbuttoned each other's clothes.Zhao's clothes slipped from his shoulders, I held his head in one hand and his back in the other, like a rare treasure, and gently laid him down on the bed.Under the candlelight, the delicately carved body was crystal clear, shining with golden light.

I straightened up, and Akira wanted to follow me even more.I put my hand on his bare chest and pressed it gently.

I took off my shirt by myself, and my eyes were always glued to Zhao.I saw that pair of eyes shining like stars, bright as the sun and the moon, full of affection and longing.I feel relieved.

What am I worried about?

Zhao turned around.The graceful and smooth lines, the strong and beautiful back make people feel excited.I felt a tightness in my throat and a little uneasiness.He bent down, kissed the smooth golden skin, and said softly: "I dare not even say..."

"What?" Zhao's arm covered his downward facing face, and his voice could not be heard clearly.

I tugged on Zhao's shoulder lightly, causing him to turn his head. "You are so beautiful, so beautiful."

"That's it?"

"uh-huh!"

"What's this?"

"I'm afraid to offend you. You wouldn't like someone to say that."

"I like it when you say it that way."

"Really?"

"real!"

"Great!" I said, and I kissed the moist red lips again. "Turn around." I just said without exerting any force on my hands.

Zhao shook his head, smiled, and buried his face between his arms again.

With that smile, in the throbbing, confused eyes, I saw the hidden pain. "Zhao, I won't ask you to do anything you don't want to do."

Zhao nodded.

I kissed his hair, his earlobe, his back.

"I do, I've been waiting a long time. It's just..."

Zhao didn't go on, but I understood that this was exactly what I was worried about.Those terrible past events, just yesterday, will not be forgotten so soon.Although Zhao never mentioned it, how could he not care about such a serious injury?

I suppressed the burning flame in my stomach and lay down beside him.Zhao's body was a little cold, and he shivered slightly.When I stretched one hand under his neck and put the other around his chest, as before, I put my chest on his back and held him in my arms, his body slowly Relax and arch your back habitually, seeking warmth and tranquility.His heart was pounding, but his body was no longer trembling.

"Zhao, if you really want to, just turn around and let me see your eyes."

Zhao hugged my arms tightly around his chest, staring at the flame of a candle by the bed in a daze. "In this way, isn't it also possible?"

Zhao's trembling voice was extremely soft and low, but it beat my heart so painfully.I hugged him even tighter and whispered in his ear: "No, Zhao, we can't. You know how much I love you, I would do anything for you, if you are not ready, I can do it again wait."

"However, if you wait any longer, I'm afraid you won't have another chance."

I don't know whether to be ecstatic or sad.Zhao knew that he might be leaving soon, but at this moment when he was about to be free, he was thinking of me.He was willing to suffer for my pleasure.

Zhao's words continued to beat my heart. "You know I love you too, and I'd do anything for you. I know you want me, I know you've endured a lot, and I want you to be happy, even just once, and it's good."

"No, Zhao, this is not what I want." With a sad voice, my heart is about to break!

"What do you want? Tell me, if I can give it to you."

"I want you to be happy! I want you to enjoy love!" Xiang Zhao turned around, but with trembling hands, I couldn't exert any strength.I could only put my face on his back and sob silently.

Silent, waiting... Finally, Zhao turned around and faced me.

I leaned over to kiss him.Just when I was about to touch vermilion lips, I heard: "But I can't do it."