father - home

Spring, why is it so hot and anxious.The leaves and flowers on the trees grew at the same time, but they were quickly charred and fell all over the ground.

At night, I work in an empty laboratory.I didn't allow myself to think about Zhao.Sometimes, I can do it too.But not long after, I suddenly pushed aside the materials in front of me, bent down, put my head on my arms, and closed my eyes. The pain that had been strictly controlled for a while surged up like a sea wave and occupied my whole body. , So I began to miss Zhao crazily, miss him by my side, miss his body temperature, miss his firm and pure eyes, miss his gentle and shy smile.Then, the severe pain in my heart subsided, and the tide ebbed, leaving only faint sorrows like needle pricks.At this point, I can't work anymore... I get up, push my chair back, and open the window wide, trying to let in all the air I can breathe, but those nights are such a stuffy, humid, turbid draft Not even a semblance of comfort and lucidity left me sweaty and sticky.I was barefoot, pacing back and forth between the four walls.All the doors were open, and a strong gust of wind blew in, rattling the materials on the table until they were all blown to the ground, together with the delicate blue box on top.The box was opened and the shiny Iron Cross flung out.I picked it up and held it in my hand, Zhao... I rushed into Zhao's ward, threw myself on the small bed, and hugged the pillow tightly in my arms, just like I used to hug Zhao's body, wrapping myself chest against his back...

The night passed, and the day came.I went back to work, but I couldn't contain the fear, the longing for warmth, and the desperate need for love.

I called my mother as usual.

For more than ten days, I called my mother on time twice a day to inquire about Zhao's situation.Fortunately, the situation has been stable.

Today, my mother seemed a little hesitant to speak.

"What? Something happened to Zhao?"

"No... I can't say... But, Marty, I think you'd better come back, the sooner the better!"

It was already evening when I finished my work and rushed home.It was just in time for dinner, and I was anxious to know how Zhao was doing.

There was only my mother in the dining room, and her dinner was largely untouched. "I'm not sure, Marty. Originally, I would visit Zhao's every day, but Yu didn't let me see him last night."

"Don't let you see him?" I frowned.There must be a reason for this. Could it be that there is some unhappiness between the mother and Yu?But I don't quite believe that Yu is the kind of girl with a small belly.Could it be that the mother is overwhelmed?But my mother wouldn't call me back for a little thing.

"Yes, Yu said Zhao was asleep."

"Maybe it's true."

"Yes, that's what I thought at the time. But this morning, Yu said that Zhao was still awake, and she still refused to let me see. Not only me, but since yesterday, Paul and Annie have also been blocked by Yu when they deliver food and clothes. outside, and Yu herself almost never came out."

"Is Yu still in Zhao's room?"

Mother nodded, grabbed my arm, and said with concern and anxiety: "Marty, do you see if..."

"I think I know what's going on, mother, leave it to me." I gently shook my mother's hand to comfort her.

Maybe she used to care about me like she cared about Zhao, but I didn't know.

I ran upstairs two steps at a time, but stopped in the corridor, near the bedroom.I am afraid to knock on that door, I am afraid that Zhao Buyuan will see me, and I am afraid of seeing his current appearance.It's all my fault, I knew this day would come, but I left you alone to bear it and let Yu replace me.Can jade replace me?If she can't, then I'm so sorry, Zhao.But if she can, gosh!Should I still go in?

Just when I was hesitating, the door that I thought was locked opened by itself.

"Yu!" Not only was the door suddenly opened, but also the jade in front of me surprised me a little.

Maybe it was in the evening, the light was dim, Yu's complexion was not very good, there was a circle of shadows under her eyes, she looked very tired, haggard, and she was quite old.

Yu looked at me, shook her head, her eye circles immediately turned red, and tears gathered in her big eyes. "I'm sorry! Marty... sorry! Lieutenant! Oh! . . . sir!"

I was very angry and very anxious, but Yu's incoherent speech and undisguised pain made my heart soften. I asked Yu gently, "What's the matter, Yu?" It wasn't Yu who was angry. Not someone else, but myself.

I entered the house, Yu followed by me, muttering to myself: "I'm sorry, I didn't expect this to happen, Zhao said, he can do it."

"Zhao said? You forgot, I told you, you can't stop taking morphine easily." I looked around, but I didn't see Zhao. "Where is he?"

"bathroom."

"Bathroom?" Realizing that my guess might become a reality, I was anxious and my tone became severe. "what happened?"

"He was always locking himself in and not letting me see him."

"Always like this?"

"No... not... After stopping the medicine yesterday, in the afternoon, he started to vomit. He vomited whatever he ate, and then he vomited even without eating. When he vomited, he would go to the bathroom and stay in it for longer and longer..."

"How long has it been?"

"More than three hours."

"Three hours! Why didn't you tell me earlier?" I completely forgot to control my emotions, grabbed Yu's shoulders, and shouted with wide eyes.

I don't know if it was hurt by me, or because I was worried about Zhao and blamed myself, Yu's tears welled up all of a sudden, and she cried: "I'm sorry, I didn't expect it, I thought... Later I felt something was wrong, so I called you Come on, they say you're back."

No wonder Yu opened the door for me just now, she was waiting for me.I regretted being so impulsive and wanted to apologize, but when I thought of her taking Zhao's medication on her own, I couldn't forgive her.

"I see that you are also very tired, go and have a rest." My voice was very cold, it was not caring, it was complaining, it was driving her away.

Yu is so smart, of course he understands.She lowered her head and whispered, "He didn't eat anything today." She walked out and closed the door.