Instinctive reaction

Now Lin Leyang's memory is messed up, but it's not that he can't remember, he's about to lose his mind, and he can't say it... Anyway, the next chapter is Xiao Ke's special session, and I really like the last sentence, than Xinxin!

Zhao Ruixiao received a call from an unfamiliar number.

As soon as the phone was connected, the person on the other side immediately asked, "Where are you now?"

Zhao Ruixiao was stunned for a moment, "Li Chuan?"

"Where are you now, can you rush to Wenxia immediately?" Li Chuan said quickly without waiting for him to ask.

Zhao Ruixiao frowned, "What's wrong? I'm not in the city right now, it might take an hour to go..."

He didn't know why Li Chuan suddenly mentioned this place, which was the common residence of Lin Leyang and Ji Wanke.

The residence before amnesia.

Before he finished speaking, Li Chuan interrupted directly: "Lele remembered, he told me that he remembered, and he hung up the phone and he couldn't get through again."

Zhao Ruixiao instantly stood up from his seat, "What are you talking about? I'm going to..."

"No need, I've already rushed over, I'll go pick him up." Li Chuan said, his voice was still hurried, he was even panting hard, trembling could be heard.

His original intention was that if Zhao Ruixiao was in the city, he would find Lin Leyang closer and faster than him.

But that's obviously not possible now.

Zhao Ruixiao realized that the person on the other side of the phone was also panicking, "...do I need to inform Ruoliu?"

Li Chuan was still in a trance, he had been sitting in the taxi in the same posture, and now the soreness was quickly climbing up his spine, without going to the brain, the humming sound hit his ears, and the painful itchiness emerged from the bones. Even those man-made scratches on the body are clamoring for pain.

"Do you think she can take it?"

Zhao Ruixiao was silent for a few seconds, "You will find him, right?"

"I'll go find him, and I'll take care of him." Li Chuan's voice was hoarse, not like making a promise to the other party, but more like comforting himself with words, "He will be fine, I will take good care of him, it should always be me ...He said he was going back, back to ten years ago, I don't know what he was going to do..."

He couldn't continue, and after hanging up the phone, he took a big breath, like a fish stranded on the shore, but the fish's eyes can't store tears, and the teardrops piled up on the tip of his nose would fall down with a slight flick.

At this moment, I really cried like a boy under 20 years old.

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It didn't rain today.

Lin Leyang took a shower, dried his hair seriously, sat on the bed, and stared at the trash can with the white trash bag.

That's right.

This is his home, and he knows everything about it by heart.

Lin Leyang lowered his eyelashes, and the eye sockets were obviously red and swollen. He cried heartbreakingly once, and now he just feels tired.Lifting his feet slightly, he looked at his bare insteps, which were very white, with pale blue veins faintly visible. He stepped on the floor and then curled up his toes. Water droplets still fell from his half-wet hair, falling on his own insteps.

It was the same that day.

He bid farewell to Zhao Ruixiao and the others. When they said goodbye, they were fine. When they got home and took a shower, they found that the rain had stopped. Only the drops of water hanging from the windows were telling that it was indeed a heavy rain. The rain drowned out emotions and paralyzed the five senses.

He hates the night.

So he refused to sleep, and stayed up all night waiting for the dawn to come.

But why hate it?

He forgot again.

In the afternoon, the blinding hot white light fell on his back in a white t-shirt, and his closet was mostly empty. It should have been taken away by Lin Ruoliu during the time he was hospitalized to decorate his former home.

In fact, there is no need.

Because even now, he remembers part and forgets part, and his memory is always vague, urging him to go back to ten years ago.

As long as he can go back, everything will be resolved.

So he simply didn't want to.

I don't want to forget what important things and who I have forgotten.

It doesn't matter, as long as he goes back.

His vision became blurred again, his fingers slid lightly on the scabbed part of his wrist, it was a little itchy and painful, his nails sank unconsciously into the flesh, leaving a red mark.

This is not right.

It should hurt a little more.

The blood poured out from the wrists and stained the floor, the bed sheets were stained, the air was sticky and humid, the breathing was short and congested, and the moment you fell on the floor, you had to read someone's name...

who's that person?

He doesn't remember.

"Woo..." A sob came out of his throat, Lin Leyang woke up at this moment, his entire palm had already changed color from pinching him.He let go of his hand hastily, only to find that the scar that had grown new flesh was scratched open by himself, and the bright red stimulated his retina, so the pain seemed secondary.

"Dong dong!" Someone knocked on the door, and Lin Leyang's heart beat a little faster in fright.

Who can find here?

Before he had time to think about it, the voice outside the door had already given him the answer.

"Lin Leyang! Open the door!" It was Li Chuan's voice, a little fierce and trembling, the two mixed together so unreal, "Brother... open the door!"

Lin Leyang stood up, still barefoot, with a dazed expression, like a newborn child who has not experienced suffering in this world.

He knows nothing, knows nothing.

It's just that there is a voice in his mind urging him to go back to the past quickly.

Li Chuan slammed the door twice with clenched fists, as if he had reacted to his rudeness, he tried to calm down his breathing, swallowed the anxiety, and tried to swallow it into his stomach, but his emotions still weighed heavily on him.

"Brother, why did you lock the door?"

Lin Leyang couldn't answer.

"Brother Le Yang, I know you're inside, can you open the door?" Is there really oxygen in the air? Li Chuan felt that he couldn't breathe, "Are you right inside? Answer me if you are, please." ...I, did I scare you just now? I'm sorry, I was wrong, brother, I was wrong, don't keep talking and ignore me, please."

"I'm here." Lin Leyang said immediately, took a step forward and put his finger on the door, "I'm here, don't cry."

I will be sad if you cry.

Li Chuan lost all his strength the moment he heard the answer, and almost knelt down.

His whole body was covered in sweat, and his forehead was even more wet. No one knew how long he had run to hail a taxi, and how long he had run after getting off the car. His heart and lungs were about to explode, and every breath was painful.

But he was afraid that the people inside the door would be in more pain than him.

"Brother, can you open the door? I want to see you." Li Chuan's voice was filled with tears, and his heart was still beating wildly.

Lin Leyang pressed one hand on the doorknob, but his expression was a little hesitant. The thought in his heart kept pulling him crazily, "But, I need to go back..."

"Brother, my chest hurts so much..." Before Li Chuan finished speaking, the door lock opened with a "click". He quickly opened the door and grabbed Lin Leyang's arm.

Lin Leyang didn't have time to react, and was pushed back two steps, only to realize after a while: "You lied to me..."

"I'm not lying to you. It really hurts. I'm going to die of pain if I don't see you. My brother can't bear my pain."

Li Chuan pressed his hand on his wound, and the corner where the flesh and blood were exposed seemed to be soaked in salt, Lin Leyang trembled in pain.

Li Chuan noticed his slightly painful expression, and quickly staggered his fingers, and the bright red stained his fingertips.

He felt like he was going crazy, with disbelief in his eyes, "What are you doing?!"

Lin Leyang shook his head quickly, "I didn't mean that, I just...I have to go back."

He wants to go back.

How could he live in this world ten years later with peace of mind.

His happiness at this moment is based on a great tragedy, and when he thinks about it, he can't stay for a moment.

Li Chuan couldn't think at all, and blurted out: "Then what about me, don't you even want me?"

Tears welled up in Lin Leyang's eyes, "But they're dead, they're dead! I don't know anything, and I stay here stupidly, how can I, they... oh, how can they die, I have to go back save them..."

After he finished speaking, he subconsciously shook his head again, as if he was talking to Li Chuan or himself: "I didn't want you, we will meet again, I will go back, and I will meet you again in ten years..."

"What if we don't meet?" Li Chuan was afraid that Lin Leyang would hurt him again, so he tightly grabbed his wrist, but did not touch the wound.

Even so, Lin Leyang was still in pain, and Li Chuan's strength seemed to crush his bones.

He cried and said: "I will meet you, no matter what method I use, I will find you."

Li Chuan still shook his head in disbelief, and hugged him into his arms, "I don't want you to go back, other than that, you can ask me to do anything."

"But those are my parents. They love me the most. I will definitely change everything when I go back. I have written down the time. It was the day I graduated. I will remember it firmly..." Lin Leyang felt that he was being torn apart The oxygen he breathes stuck in his throat like shattered glass. "I can't stay here anymore, I can go back to avoid these things from happening..."

"So you're going to hurt yourself? Have you ever thought about what to do if you don't wake up, what will I do?! Lin Leyang, you can't be so cruel, I know it's wrong, it's my fault, I came too late, Don't punish me like this, I can't take it..."

Li Chuan's hug was so tight, he felt difficult to breathe and at the same time felt inexplicably relieved.

Lin Leyang didn't struggle, but the lacrimal gland seemed to be broken, and heat gushed out non-stop.

It took him a while before he said, "I always remember something and then forget something, I think about how... how I hurt myself that day, and I want to do the same thing as that day, and I think that can go back , I'm not sure if it's right to do this, but, I just can't help it... But it scares you, doesn't it?"

He seemed to have calmed down, but felt that he was still suspended in mid-air.

Exactly what to do is right and what to do is wrong, he doesn't know anymore.

Li Chuan just hugged him and didn't let him move, his sobs and sobs were all buried in his shoulders.

Lin Leyang raised his hand with difficulty to touch his hair, it was so wet and soaked in sweat.

What kind of mood did he run all the way to find himself?

At this moment, Lin Leyang felt extremely guilty. He obviously liked Li Chuan so much, how could he make him feel so sad.

So he made promises and made concessions, "...I will stay here and not go anywhere."

After a long while, Li Chuan raised his head, looking at him with wet pupils as dark as animal cubs.

"I'm here too, I'm not going anywhere."

Lin Leyang smelled of light bath liquid.

Li Chuan hugged him all the time, and the two could only walk into the room like conjoined twins.

He didn't let go of him for a moment.

"Have you taken a shower?" The boy spoke in a nasal voice, as if he had been wronged—and indeed he was wronged.

Lin Leyang nodded, not knowing how to explain this behavior.

It can't be said that he remembered that he took a shower before cutting his wrist last time, and sat on the bed for a while, so he did it.

After hearing this, Li Chuan might drag him out immediately instead of staying here any longer.

Both of them fell on the bed, their hands clasped tightly together.

Lin Leyang was instantly overwhelmed by a huge sense of exhaustion. He cried for too long, and his emotions fluctuated too much. He finally calmed down. Drowsiness is nothing more than normal.

But he forced himself not to sleep, he hated dreams, hated that there was no one he loved in the dream.

He looked at the boy's face opposite him, obviously he had just cried miserably, but now he started staring at him again.

Li Chuan looked at him and said, "Sorry."

"Why are you apologizing?"

Li Chuan leaned over and kissed his lips, "Because I kept you selfishly."

"You just don't want me to die, you're right, if I never wake up again, I can't go back to ten years ago, and I won't come back ten years later... He still doesn't know how much I love you, I can’t just die like this.” Lin Leyang clasped Li Chuan’s hand, and closed his eyelids a little bit, he was so tired, his consciousness was pulling him into a dream, and his voice became smaller and smaller, “It’s so strange, how could I I will like you so much... When I find out, I already love you very much."

Lin Leyang fell asleep.

The boy's fingers moved over cautiously to detect his breathing, which was long and even.

He raised Lin Leyang's hand, and put a very light kiss on the scar, trying to swallow the pain of his lover.

"It's not surprising at all." Ji Wanke responded, "When I met you, we had been in love for many years."