The actor is sick, I have no medicine

Hearing the familiar footsteps outside the door, Lu Wenfei supported the bed with both hands, nimbly moved into the wheelchair from the front of the bed, shook the wheels on both sides of the wheelchair, and moved from the bedroom to the living room.

"elder brother!"

Seeing the person standing at the entrance, Lu Wenfei's eyes showed surprise: "Brother, I thought you were going to be on duty again, so you won't be coming back..."

"Why did you get up so early today?"

Lu Danggui changed into her slippers, put down the plastic bag in her hand, and pushed her sister to the dining table: "Eat breakfast first, before it gets cold."

Looking at the plastic bag on the table, Lu Wenfei scratched the tip of her nose in embarrassment.

Inside the bag were her favorite custard stuffed buns and soy milk, still steaming outside.This early shop is usually overcrowded, and my brother may have to queue early in the morning.

Lu Wenfei took the custard bag that her brother handed over in a tissue, took another big mouthful of hot soy milk, and was about to start eating when she suddenly felt that her brother seemed a little different from usual.

My brother didn't wait for her to eat with a smile as usual, but instead put his hands flat on the table, looking at her with hesitant eyes.

"Uh-brother, what's the matter?"

Swallowing most of the bun in one gulp, Lu Wenfei puffed her cheeks and asked.

Lu Danggui lowered his eyes, stared at the back of his hand and pondered for a long time, and finally asked hesitantly, "Wenfei, I'm asking you. Is there any news about that Xing Huan recently?"

Hearing her brother suddenly ask about Xuan Xuan, Lu Wenfei's heart skipped a beat.She put down the bun in her hand, and said hesitantly: "Brother, hasn't he quit the circle? I haven't followed his news for a long time..."

Lu Danggui knew that her sister was lying.

Last month, my aunt was invited to clean the house, and the aunt found several Xing Xuan's photos and magazine covers from the bed and the bottom of the cabinet.Wenfei's legs and feet are inconvenient, and she doesn't know how she secretly hides her surroundings without telling her.

Because he was worried about being noticed by Wenfei, he asked his aunt to put the surrounding area back intact.

Later, Wenfei's old mobile phone got water in the shower. He took Wenfei's icloud account to the store to restore the data, and found that his sister had secretly registered several Weibo accounts, all of which were related to Xing Xuan.

Having lived with Lu Wenfei for so many years, how could he, as an older brother, not know about his younger sister's little thoughts.

Seeing that her brother hadn't spoken for a long time, Lu Wenfei felt more and more flustered, and hurriedly added: "Brother, I'm really not chasing stars anymore, if you don't believe me, go ask Ah Yue!"

She knew that her brother hated Xing Xuan very much and was a big black fan of Xing Xuan.In their family, the word "Xing Xuan" is a forbidden word, and no one is allowed to mention it on weekdays.

"Brother didn't mean anything else, I just remembered it suddenly."

Seeing that Wen Fei was in a hurry, Lu Danggui was also afraid of making her sister unhappy, so she patted the top of her head and slowly changed the topic: "Didn't Yueyue ask you out to watch a movie today? It was too late on duty last night, so I'll go back first." Sleep in the bedroom for a while, eat breakfast first, and brother will send you there after eating."

Back in the bedroom, Lu Danggui was so sleepy that his eyelids were battling. He lay on the bed for a long time, but couldn't fall asleep.

In fact, on the way home, he searched the Internet for Xing Xuan's current situation, including those black fan accounts he followed before.

It is indeed a blank, nothing can be found.

Two months ago, Xing Xuan, who had just ascended to the throne of actor, suddenly announced his retirement from acting, which shocked the entire entertainment circle.The paparazzi of all walks of life tried desperately to find out the reason why Xing Xing quit the circle, and they stayed at Xing Xing's residence and the door of the brokerage company for a long time, but they all returned in vain.

The last time Xing Xuan appeared in the public eye was at the press conference held the day after he announced his withdrawal from the circle.Standing at the gate of the brokerage company, he bowed deeply to the hundreds of media who had heard the news.

After bowing, Xing Xuan raised his head, waved to the camera in front of him with a smile, and said goodbye to the fans and audience outside the screen.

Since then, the man has disappeared.

The car accident news in the early hours of yesterday was hastily removed from the platform shortly after it was released.Click on the news software to search keywords one by one, and it is difficult to find any news at the time of the incident.

Reminiscent of the group of helicopters that appeared in the night sky last night, and the temporary blockade of the bridge across the river in Xicheng District...

The mole of tears soaked in blood gradually appeared in Lu Danggui's mind.

Xing Xuan also has such a small mole in the lower left corner of his eye, which is his signature feature.

Turning over in the bed, Lu Danggui thought in a daze: ... it couldn't really be him, could it?

An annoying entertainment star, how can he have such great ability?

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A month later.

S University Affiliated Hospital.

"Mr. Xing, psychotherapy needs to follow the principle of confidentiality, can you ask your bodyguard to avoid it for a while?"

The vice president politely asked the man in the wheelchair.

The man looked to be in his twenties, with exquisite and beautiful features, revealing a faint beauty, but his complexion was almost sickly pale.Even though he was sitting in a wheelchair with bandages on his arms and forehead, his dignified aura remained undiminished.

"Xing Shi, will your master allow you to go?"

Xing Xuan turned his head and asked the man in black behind him.

"The chairman asked us to obey the young master's orders in everything." Xing Shi leaned over.

"Okay, the person who brought you, get lost." Xing Xuan said.

With an understatement, all the accompanying bodyguards were kicked out.

"......Yes."

Leaving the dean's office, Xing Shi didn't dare to go far without authorization, and took his younger brothers to guard the elevator entrance silently.

More than a dozen pairs of eyes were fixed on the office door at the end of the corridor, afraid that the young master would make trouble again.

A month ago, it was because of their ineffectiveness that they lost the young master, which caused the young master to have a car accident.

Visibility was extremely low on a rainy day, and the bodyguards were desperate to find him. They searched the whole city but found no one. In the end, Xing Dong sent a helicopter to find the trace of the young master at the viaduct exiting the city.

This wasn't the first time the young master had an illness, but it was the first time, so crazy that even the bodyguards didn't recognize him.

If it weren't for the pre-set roadblocks to act as a buffer, I'm afraid the young master could drive the car directly into the river.

After all the bodyguards left the office, Xing Xuan sat up straight in front of the wheelchair and looked at the middle-aged man in front of him: "Then shall we start?"

The person who received Xing Xuan was the vice president of the Affiliated Hospital of S University, who is also a prestigious associate academician in the field of psychiatry in China.He and Mr. Xing are close friends, and he has already heard about the situation of the eldest son of the Xing family.

Xing Dong deliberately explained that his kid is very dangerous, so he asked his old friend to be mentally prepared in advance.

Seeing the lack of interest on the face of the junior in front of him, Dean Qiu didn't say any unnecessary polite words, and said directly:

"Mr. Xing, according to the analysis and observation report of the medical team, we think you have empathized with Xu Jian."

"You want to be Xu Jian, but you can't become him, or even replace him. This may be the source of your anxiety."

Hearing Dean Qiu's opening remarks, Xing Xuan's eyes turned a little cold, but the smile on his face was still undiminished.

They were right, the old fellow had two brushes.

"...the doctors before," Xing Yu said lightly after a lengthy silence, "They all said that Xu Jian is my dual personality."

"No." Dean Qiu vetoed it very simply, "The characters in the movie are all fake, how could it be your dual personality."

Dean Qiu doesn't understand the entertainment industry, nor does he pay attention to the domestic film and television industry.After accepting Xing Dong's request, he bought a Blu-ray disc and watched "Vicious Dog" starring Xing Xuan several times.

"Evil Dog" was a dark horse that broke out in domestic films last year. With its explosive reputation and the superb acting skills of the leading actor, it won many international film festival awards in one fell swoop. The idol star Xing Xuan who played the leading role also won the top film with this film. Golden Peak Award winner.

The protagonist of the movie is Xu Jian, a normal person locked up in a mental hospital.During the eight years spent in the mental hospital, Xu Jian gained precious friendship and romantic love.

Later, Xu Jian's lover died in the ward, and everyone suspected that Xu Jian was the murderer.After all, the more normal people look, the deeper the evil may be hidden in their hearts.

Losing his beloved, and becoming a murderer targeted by everyone, Xu Jian was finally driven crazy.

At the end of the film, under the pursuit of the villain, the protagonist Xu Jian has a mental illness, drives a pickup truck out of the mental hospital, steps on the accelerator, and jumps over the bridge across the river.

The director specially gave Xu Jian a close-up shot.Outside the car window, there was heavy wind and rain, lightning and thunder.Xu Jian was covered in blood, and turned his head to stare at the camera intently.

It's like looking across the screen and looking at the audience outside the screen.

The lens in the picture kept zooming in, and finally stopped at Xu Jian's left eye.The mole at the corner of the eye is like a drop of blood-stained tear.

The first time he saw Xing Xing, Dean Qiu finally understood why Xing Xing's acting skills were praised by fans.

Mental illness plays mental illness, can it be different?

Through some secret observations of Xing Xuan, he had to admit that this actor's title is really well-deserved.

The eldest son of the Xing family is a person who is very good at acting in front of people.

When Xing Xun smiled, the tails of his eyes would be drawn upwards slightly, and there would be a gleam in his pupils, making him appear to be in high spirits.Especially the tear mole at the corner of the eye, which will move with the changes of facial features.As if it was just God's random touch, a living soul with flesh and blood was outlined in the world.

But his smile never reaches the bottom of his eyes, it belongs to the superficial smile of a very high rank.

Dean Qiu turned the ipad on the table in a different direction, and motioned Xing Xing to watch the surveillance video on the screen:

"Mr. Xing, in that accident a month ago, since when did you realize that you were not Xu Jian?"

The last scene of "Vicious Dog" was shot on the viaduct in Xicheng District, S City.What is played on the ipad is the picture taken by the Bugatti driving recorder at the same location.

After comparative analysis, he found that the path that Xing Xuan drove all the way to the outside of the city was roughly the same as the road that Xu Jian drove to his death in the movie.

In the movie, Xu Jian finally drove his car directly into the river, but at the last moment of falling into the river, Xing Xuan slammed the steering wheel to death and slammed into the slab wall of the viaduct.

"I don't remember." The expression on Xing Yu's face was a little lost, "When will I wake up, is this very important?"

"It's very important," Dean Qiu said, "This is the self-defense mechanism in your mind, and it saved your life at a critical moment."

Xing Xing didn't speak.

That rainy night, the moment he drove the Bugatti into the viaduct, he suddenly felt an unprecedented sobriety.

This is the world he lives in, not some kind of hell.

He is Xing Xuan, not Xu Jian.

Everything is Xu Jian's, not his Xing Xuan's.

Xu Jian had already died in the chase at the end of the movie, and he, Xing Huan, was still living in torment, day after day, without end.

"Mr. Xing, you don't have the idea of ​​suicide at all, and you don't have a dual personality. You think of yourself as Xu Jian because Xu Jian has something that you don't have."

"Xu Jian is a tragic character with a strong emotional color. He dares to love and hate, and his emotions often go up and down. He can fully empathize with the outside world, and because of this, he feels endless beauty and pain."

"You want to use him to find an emotional connection with the outside world and fill up the gap in your own emotions. Am I right?"

Dean Qiu knew how to keep a sense of proportion in communicating with patients, so he stopped talking here.

The rest of the time is left to Xing Xuan himself.Only when he thinks clearly, can the treatment proceed.

There was a brief silence in the office.

Soon, Xing Xuan put his uninjured right arm on the wheelchair, and said frankly: "That's right."

Although Dean Qiu had basically described his situation correctly, Xing Xuan was not surprised.

This is why he was pressured by the Xing family to come to the hospital for treatment.

He doesn't care what the doctor says.

There is a lot of gossip in the entertainment industry, and rumors and negative news about him are flying all over the Internet.Whether it is the slander and abuse of black fans, or the fanatical love of fans, he also doesn't care.

Or to put it another way, it's not that he doesn't care, he can't tell the difference, and he can't experience and respond to other people's emotions.

He is a patient with severe alexithymia.