The actor is sick, I have no medicine

"Which family's son, you drive so fast on the elevated road in broad daylight!"

"This man is too courageous—"

The owner of the luxury car slammed on the brakes at the corner, the tires rubbed against the ground and turned around, creating a gust of wind at the intersection.

The drivers queuing at the toll gate pressed their windows one after another, but they could only watch helplessly as the black supercar drove out of the ETC, swung its tail halfway through the turn, and rushed up the viaduct without looking back.

The Bugatti sped along the viaduct, leaving the out-of-town traffic far behind.

The winding river flows around the city, dividing this metropolis with a population of tens of millions into two halves.The sports car crossed the bridge across the river and descended into the highway in the suburbs, and the speed gradually became faster and faster.

There was a whistling wind in his ears, and Xing Xuan's hand holding the steering wheel became tighter and tighter.

not enough.

It's not enough.

Staring fixedly at the swinging needle in front of the dashboard, he breathed out a hot and humid breath, and stepped on the accelerator pedal to the bottom.

Sweat rolled down the neck and wet the tight shoulder line.Xing Xuan's eyes were horribly bloodshot, stained as red as a drop of blood.

The beast called "Mood" was tearing at his chest with its bloody claws, trying to rush out to be free.But there is always something blocking the front, preventing it from having a chance to escape for a moment.

Schizophrenia, accompanied by moderate to severe alexithymia symptoms.

The cold words on the diagnosis report summed up everything about him so simply.

It is difficult for any emotion to be transmitted to the brain, and all emotional reactions will be forcibly transformed into physical discomfort.

Just the joy and happiness that ordinary people can experience is enough to give him an unbearable headache.

And love is really too painful.

【Baby, I love you. 】

He had said this to the man last night.

Hearing his own words, the person on the bed breathed disorderly for a moment, but enduring the trembling and pain all over his body, he slowly raised his eyelids that were powerlessly drooping, and looked at him with a pair of hazy eyes.

This is not the first time he has mentioned the word love.In those film and television dramas shot in the past, he has spoken to different co-actors countless times.

The eyes staring at the camera are full of affection, and many viewers are addicted to the tenderness in his eyes.

But he knew very well in his heart that he couldn't fall in love with anyone.

Because he has a different brain circuit from normal people, he cannot produce the emotional mechanisms and emotional responses that accompany "loving someone".

If ordinary people fall in love with another person, they will be at a loss, full of joy, extremely excited, and wish to give the other person the whole world.

However, his heart was empty, leaving only endless speechlessness and silence.

It was obviously the words that blurted out when the eyes met, and the heart that had been silent for a long time was desperately longing to jump out of his chest, but he didn't feel any emotion.

He was moved by Lu Danggui, but he couldn't be emotional.

Therefore, before dawn, he drove the newly replaced sports car and rushed up the viaduct for the second time.

The car accident a year ago almost took his life, but it was also the most direct way for him to wake up his emotions and face his heart.

He also wanted to experience the joys and sorrows of ordinary people.

He also wants to understand what it feels like when a person likes another person and loves another person.

But this time he failed.

Speeding round and round at high speed around the city, he was unable to break the shackles in his body again.

From the rising sun to the horizon, only the sun is left, and the fuel of the sports car is finally exhausted.

Slowly driving the Bugatti onto the seaside boulevard at sunset, Xing Xuan turned his head sideways in front of the car window, staring blankly at the sparkling vast sea.Seagulls stand on the palm trees and sing, like the last dirge before night falls.

With the bloody smell of rust in his mouth, he raised his head and once again strangled his neck with his hands.

There was still neither sadness nor joy on her face, only the shallow mole at the corner of her eye was soaked by tears, drip by drop, staining the skirt of her clothes.

The dull sob that came out of his throat was the voice of the little man deep in his heart mourning.

He fell in love with Lu Angelica, but there was no way to offer him roses.

--

Hearing that Lu Wenfei had gone through the formalities of suspending her studies and was going abroad to recuperate for a while, taking advantage of the absence of class the day before, Chen Queyue rushed to S University, wanting to say goodbye to her best friend.

Chen Queyue came to Lu Wenfei this time because of another matter.

There are too many surroundings in the dormitory, and Lu Wenfei didn't dare to move these surroundings back home without her brother's permission.So I could only call Chen Queyue over and ask her to keep it for me temporarily.

Counting the thick pile of limited-edition goods in the dormitory, Yueyue was so excited that she hugged her best friend and gave them a few slaps.

The two were laughing and playing, when Lu Wenfei's cell phone on the desk suddenly rang.

Seeing the sender's name, Lu Wenfei smiled and pushed her girlfriend's hand away, picked up the phone and began to reply the message seriously.

Seeing Lu Wenfei answering the text message with her back turned to her, looking like she was hiding herself, Chen Queyue couldn't help but leaned over and joked: "Who are you messaging with? It's so mysterious?"

Lu Wenfei blushed and covered the phone screen to prevent Chen Queyue from seeing it: "I won't tell you."

"Hey, is it possible that we Feifei are in love?"

"Don't talk nonsense!"

After replying to the message, Lu Wenfei saw that Chen Queyue was still curious, so she simply handed her the phone over to her: "This is my new friend, a big sister."

Lu Wenfei's note to this contact was "big sister". The two had a lot of chat records. Chen Queyue casually flipped through a few pages and found that the topics of the two people's chats were almost all about Brother Xiaolu.

For example, this person once asked Lu Wenfei what kind of sports Brother Xiaolu likes, what color he likes most, and what kind of snacks he likes to eat.Lu Wenfei sells her brother very quickly, as long as the other party asks, she will reveal all the details.

Seeing that Chen Queyue was still confused, Lu Wenfei continued to explain to her.

It turned out that this woman was a friend who went to see Lu Wenfei's performance with Brother Xiaolu last time.On the night of the performance, because they had a chat while sending photos, they added each other's contact information.As the two chatted more and more frequently, the woman told Lu Wenfei her true intentions.

She told Lu Wenfei that she had been secretly in love with Xiao Lu for a long time, and wanted to try to pursue him, but was worried that she didn't know enough about Xiao Lu.So I want to start with Lu Wenfei first, and ask her what her brother likes.

Although I feel that this big sister who has never met before speaks a little coldly, but it feels very patient and gentle.The two chatted back and forth for a while, and gradually became good friends.

The eldest sister said that she didn't want Xiao Lu to know her feelings in the short term, so she kept preventing Lu Wenfei from telling her brother about their acquaintance.

Lu Wenfei's mouth was quite strict, and she never mentioned the existence of her big sister to her brother.

Lu Wenfei also said that the eldest sister is not only kind-hearted, but also patiently listens to Lu Wenfei talking about her pursuit of stars.

Lu Wenfei once specifically told this elder sister that her brother hated her favorite idol Xunxuan very much, and told her to avoid this topic if she asked her brother out in the future.

That time, the eldest sister replied with a long ellipsis, and didn't send another message for several days.

"Then when are you going to tell this sister that your brother is going to take you out of S City?"

After going through all the chat records of the two, Chen Queyue asked Lu Wenfei.

Lu Wenfei touched the tip of her nose, with an unnatural expression on her face: "There's no rush...let's talk about it before we leave."

She didn't tell Chen Queyue that her eldest sister was looking forward to a closer relationship with her brother every day, and she kept procrastinating because she was worried about hurting her sister's sincerity.

In fact, if her brother hadn't gone abroad to study for a Ph. D., she would have liked to have such a sympathetic sister-in-law.

The two were chatting casually when they suddenly heard someone knocking on the door of the dormitory.

Chen Queyue stepped forward and opened the door, only to find that it was Brother Xiaolu who had returned from school leaving procedures.

I haven't seen him for a few months, Brother Xiaolu looks more mature and stable than before.It's the indifferent eyes that look at people, which always makes people feel that he seems to have something on his mind.

"Wen Fei, have you cleared everything in the dormitory?"

Picking up the two large suitcases at the door, Lu Danggui greeted the two girls to go out: "When you're done packing, say goodbye to Auntie, the dorm manager, and get ready to go."

After sending the siblings to the taxi at the school gate, Chen Queyue bent down and hugged Lu Wenfei tightly, glanced at Brother Lu who was packing the suitcase, and whispered in her best friend's ear: "Wenfei , there is something about Xuanxuan, I wanted to wait for confirmation and then tell you, but you are going to go abroad soon—”

"What's up with him?"

Lu Wenfei hurriedly asked.

Chen Queyue said mysteriously: "Do you know Wang Ran, the ace manager of Anji Films?"

"Her assistant contacted our support club suddenly last week and asked us to transfer the authority of the official blog account to Angie. I don't know what happened."

Lu Wenfei opened her eyes wide, and was about to ask again, when her brother behind her stopped her: "Wenfei, are you leaving?"

Without a chance to ask this matter clearly, Lu Wenfei could only wave goodbye to Chen Queyue, and got into the taxi with her brother.

The brother and sister's plane was a red-eye flight in the early morning of the next day, and they could only sleep at home for a few more hours before leaving for the airport.

Tossing and turning on the bed for a long time, Lu Wenfei didn't fall asleep thinking about what Chen Queyue said.She got up in the wheelchair and went to the bathroom, only to find that her brother was sitting in front of the sofa in the living room, not asleep.

"Brother...why aren't you sleeping?"

she asked in a low voice.

Turning off the screen of the mobile phone, Lu Danggui got up from the sofa, walked over and patted his sister's head: "You can sleep a little longer, I will sleep after I get on the plane."

Before turning around and returning to the bedroom, Lu Wenfei noticed that the screen of her brother's phone on the sofa was on.

There is a mobile phone number listed on the numeric keypad, but it has not been dialed.

At three o'clock in the morning, the small house that had lived in for several years was emptied, and the siblings took a taxi to the airport together.

Leaning against the car window, watching the thick night outside, Lu Wenfei finally made up her mind and sent a text message to her eldest sister:

[Sister, there is something I didn't have time to tell you before. 】

[My brother is taking me to leave S City to go abroad, and it's today's flight.I haven't told you all the time because I was afraid that you would be sad.I will not use this phone card again after I go abroad, thank you for chatting with me during this time. 】

[In the future, if I have a chance, I hope to meet my sister in person. 】

After completing the check-in formalities in the departure hall, the brothers and sisters met with Professor Ouyang and his group who had set off together, and boarded the plane.

In consideration of Lu Wenfei's inconvenient legs and feet, Professor Ouyang booked first-class air tickets for the two brothers and sisters.

As soon as she fastened her seat belt with the help of the flight attendant, Lu Wenfei's cell phone vibrated violently.

Big Sister: 【Tell me your home address. 】

Before Lu Wenfei could reply, the phone received another message:

【flight number. 】

Ten seconds later, there was a direct phone call over there.

Hearing the ringing of the mobile phone, the stewardess came over to remind the passengers to mute the mobile phone.After hesitating for a while, Lu Wenfei still hung up the phone and switched the phone to airplane mode.

Sorry, sister.

Lu Wenfei thought in her heart.

Didn't mean not to answer your call.If you answer your call now and be overheard by your brother, then everything you have done before will be in vain.

Seeing his sister fiddling with the phone screen for a long time, Lu Danggui thought for a while and took out his own phone from his trouser pocket.

After staring at the page of the blacklist in the address book for a while, he put down the phone and also pressed the power off button.

The plane began to speed up on the runway, and Lu Wenfei put her entire upper body in front of the porthole, and quickly forgot what happened just now.

When she was young, she and her elder brother grew up under the fence, and almost never went out for travel. After she went to college, because she was in a wheelchair, she didn't go to other places to play.

This is the real sense of her life, the first time to fly.

After a certain distance of taxiing, the plane took off and flew to the sky thousands of miles high. In Lu Wenfei's eyes, City S became smaller and smaller, until it gradually became a small dot.

The light in the cabin gradually dimmed. Leaning on the spacious first-class seat, Lu Wenfei soon became sleepy and fell asleep leaning on her brother's shoulder.

Sitting in the dark, Lu Danggui never closed his eyes.

After signing the letter of commitment to participate in scientific research projects, the day I returned to the clinic from the dean's office.The little nurse at the front desk told him that an unknown gentleman had brought him a bouquet of roses.

The roses should have just been picked from the flower field, and the petals were still stained with the morning dew.

From that day on, one bunch every day, one day never falls.

--

After nine hours of flight, the plane began to descend, aligned with the runway, and landed slowly on a foreign land.There are vertical and horizontal canyons, majestic mountains, far away from the hustle and bustle of the crowd.

Lu Wenfei rubbed her eyes and slowly woke up from her sleep.

After getting off the plane, she followed the scientific research team and lined up in front of the baggage carousel. Sitting in a wheelchair, she yawned sleepily:

"Brother, I was sitting on the plane just now, and I seemed to have a very strange dream."

Taking off the suitcase, Lu Danggui pushed his younger sister's wheelchair and walked out slowly with the crowd who had just arrived: "What dream?"

"I dreamed..."

Frowning and remembering in her mind, Lu Wenfei said, "...I dreamed of a sea of ​​flames."

"There are fires all around, very hot and noisy. I was very scared and kept trying to find where my brother was, but I couldn't find it no matter what."

"I always feel like I've had this dream before, but I don't remember when—"

Just in the middle of speaking, she suddenly found that her brother behind her stopped in her tracks.

Grasping the knuckles of the back handle of the wheelchair, she slowly felt her brother's hand against her back trembling uncontrollably.

Lu Wenfei turned her head: "Brother, what's wrong with you?"

She thought that her brother had something important to say, but she didn't expect that her brother just lost his mind slightly, so he pushed the wheelchair and continued towards the door of the arrival hall: "It's nothing."

"Let's go."

Outside the glass walls of the airport, the sun rises over the horizon.It is a rare season in Oslo where the sun shines on the earth.

[Volume [-] / Dim Star / End]

The author has something to say: the first volume is over, thank you for following up baby! !

The aggrieved part of the two cubs has also come to an end, and the next volume will start the revenge upgrade flow>

感谢在2021-05-2102:38:34~2021-05-2201:37:17期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel of irrigation nutrient solution: 10 bottles of pangting; 1 bottle of I want to eat you, why am I hungry again;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!