The Name of the Rose [Interstellar]

force' phenomenon, astronauts will encounter.You don't need to be nervous, and don't look around.Just keep your eyes on the instrument display on the helmet visor.Remember? "

"Remember." Qi Lian replied.

He can't quite understand his current situation, but he vaguely understands one thing: if he can endure all the things that will happen, and satisfy these fierce strangers, it will be good for Xue Yuan.

So he secretly decided that no matter what happened next, he would endure it without saying a word.

For ordinary people, the instantaneous acceleration of 10 G is the limit that the body can bear - imagine what it feels like when the body suddenly becomes ten times heavier, and you can roughly understand the feeling.

Anna saw that the parameter that the training officer asked the operator to input was 15G.

She quietly retreated to the corner of the test site and called Qin Huan.With Xue Yuan not around, he is the only person who can directly intervene in Qi Lian's training process.

The dial rang for a long time, but no one answered.

Anxiously, Anna dialed Secretary Qin Huan's phone number again, and got the reply: "The minister is patrolling outside the ship, deploying the meteorite rain protection net, and all other matters are postponed."

In a corner of the universe, a huge spider web unfolded silently.

Six medium-sized destroyers are distributed in the hexagons of the net, quietly defending the vast Eurasian fleet behind them.

After inspecting the equipment of the Chang'an, Qin Huan returned to the shuttle.He was accompanied by a technical officer named Andy.

Andy doesn't have a good reputation among his colleagues, but he is a well-deserved young talent in computer technology, and he is very likely to become a candidate for the chief technology officer—provided that there is no Xue Yuan pressing on top of him.

At this moment, he is seizing every opportunity to flatter: "Compared to the defensive network, your blasting plan is more effective. The entire billion people in the Asia-Europe region depend on you."

Qin Huan nodded solemnly and remained silent.In fact, he knew very well that this statement was an exaggeration.

According to his calculations, in the absence of remote communication, the risk factor of blasting meteorites is too high, and the probability of success is less than 50.00%.

Therefore, he deliberately arranged half of the new mobile phone engineers, so as not to wipe out the elite backbone of the technical department.Others have no objection to this - I have sent out my two acting chief technology officers, and my right and left are willing to contribute. What are you dissatisfied with?

If the big meteorite really fell, it would have to detonate the nuclear bomb carried by the first ship remotely at the moment it penetrated to control the damage within an acceptable range.But this kind of plan cannot be put forward explicitly, it can only be done according to the circumstances.

Compared with the meteorite, he was more concerned about another thing: just now he discovered from the telescope that a comet passing through the orbit of Pluto had a short tail.

Under normal circumstances, only when the comet passes through the orbit of Mars and is about to approach the earth, the ice layer on the surface will evaporate and form a comet tail.

And now, even the comets far away in the orbit of Pluto have comet tails.

"The strength of the sun is stronger than we imagined." Qin Huan said worriedly, "If we don't figure out the origin of the 'invisible wall', I'm afraid those doomsayers will take the opportunity to cause trouble."

By doomsayers, he refers to those who spread negativity within the fleet.

In the years since the fleet set sail, there has been a very intriguing phenomenon.Many people had to die and abandon their families to obtain the qualification to board the ship, but after they set sail, they suddenly felt remorse because they witnessed the tragedy of the earth, and were surrounded by a strong sense of guilt.

In the first few years, psychological intervention is mandatory for most people to prevent high suicide rates.

Later, the suicide rate was brought under control, but another problem emerged: Some people turned their guilt and regret outward.They believe that humans should never have escaped from Earth in the first place.

"Since God wants to destroy Sodom and Gomorrah, it means that everyone is guilty. We are not the survivors of mankind, but the traitors of mankind, and we will definitely be destroyed!" - they said.

Thinking of those people, Qin Huan felt a headache: "Be careful. I've seen some doomsdayists. They hide deeply and look positive on the surface, but they are anti|anti-human in their hearts. They are like the inside of the fleet. The invisible wall and the red giant sun, want to kill the future of mankind."

"You are right, this kind of people must be strictly guarded against." Speaking of this, Andy suddenly stopped talking, his eyes rolled slightly, showing hesitant to speak.

Qin Huan waved his hand: "There are no outsiders here, just speak up if you have anything to say."

"Yes." Andy nodded lowly, "I think Ivan is an extremely pessimistic person in his bones."

He sneaked a peek at Qin Huan's expression, trying to see some emotions from the other person's face, so that he could decide whether to say what to say next.

But Qin Huan just continued to gently scrape the fine foam on the surface of the tea with the lid of the cup as usual, without even moving an eyebrow, and his voice was still calm: "Really."

"Uh... yes. Although he usually seems to be cheerful and outgoing, according to the information I have learned from his friends, he is actually quite negative in life."

"Hmm." Qin Huan took a sip of tea, nodded, picked up the delicate jar with "Qimen Black Tea" printed on it, and admired it.I don't know whether the "uh" was a reaction to what Andy said, or a sigh that the tea tasted very good.

Andy thought he was encouraged, and went on: "Besides, there is one thing that I've been concerned about since I found out: his father has a history of mental illness. You know, mental illness runs in families. That's why the federal regulations, If a high-level technical officer has a family history of mental illness, he should take the initiative to report it. But he has been deliberately concealing this."

"Then how did you know?" Qin Huan turned his face away and folded his hands on his knees, as if he was very interested in this.

"He himself told the psychiatrist during his counseling sessions. As it happened, his psychiatrist Anna was my sister. — Ah, don't get me wrong, my sister doesn't give out patient information. I happened to see him go to My sister was there for consultation, and I was a little skeptical, so I secretly checked his treatment file."

"Oh."

"Also, while there's no hard evidence, I kind of suspect he's a doomsdayist."

"There is no conclusive evidence, that is to say, there is still evidence." Qin Huan's tone was still unhurried.

"It can't be completely regarded as evidence, it should be said to be rumors plus my guess."

Andy said, and opened the laptop in his hand.

The transport ship Caucasus hovered above the target meteorite, keeping relatively still with it at a suitable speed.

Through the transparent front armor plate of the "Arctic Fox", Xue Yuan was able to observe the meteorite from a close distance.

It should be a fragment of a large terrestrial planet, not a regular sphere, but a long strip with pointed ends, like a dark giant ship suspended in the vast night sea.Thirty mechas flew above it, like a flock of seabirds, far away from the group alone.

The mech itself can't fly, it depends on the orbiter.This is a small unmanned spacecraft, also called a space tug.The body's shoulder blades are fixed under the orbiter's wings, like a small rocket with wings on its back.There are airflow valves on the shoulders and back to adjust the direction.When the machine gun is fired, the power device will automatically counteract the recoil force with an appropriate airflow intensity, so that the machine body will be fixed in place, so that it will not fly to the distant outer space and die forever.

Xue Yuan tried his best to focus on the operation panel, not thinking about the fact that he was 30 kilometers away from the fleet.Human beings have an inherent fear of the universe. Even well-trained people are afraid of facing this dark and silent infinite universe alone.

There is only one thing to be happy about: the Caucasus does not have an artificial gravitational field, so the body does not have to be ejected at high speed like when it leaves the main ship, and the internal organs can be saved from dislocation.

Although the main ship's central computer cannot be used, Chi Caifan's ability as a dispatcher perfectly makes up for this deficiency.

Her job is to estimate the TOT (TimeOnTarget, simultaneous impact time) based on the trajectory of the meteorite, and arrange the shooting time and shooting angle of each pilot.

Large pieces of cosmic matter are difficult to be completely destroyed by bombing in a single direction. Bombs projected from different angles must reach the target at the same time to destroy it at one time.

Soon, the countdown to the first round of shooting time appeared on the operation panel of each pilot.With the target meteorite as the center, [-] people are scattered and arranged radially, divided into inner field and outer field according to the area of ​​responsibility.The eight people on the periphery are the "firefighting team", all experienced pilots. In addition to the first round of bombing, they are also responsible for responding to emergencies.

After all, no matter how accurate the calculation is, everyone's reaction speed is different, and the impact time may not be [-]% correct.If the force is not balanced, the target will fly to one side, which is dangerous in a vacuum without friction.

When this happens, the eight "firefighters" on the periphery respond quickly and cooperate with each other to fine-tune with small-scale particle stream bombardment, stabilize the fragments in a suitable position, and then carry out secondary blasting.

Xue Yuan is No. 01, the farthest from the center of the target, and the first to launch.

The moment the timer reset to zero, he pressed the launch button, and the reaction time was almost zero.

Following him, it was time for Joey to shoot.The bombs of the two men flew towards the target with a distance difference that could not be discerned by the naked eye.

In sequence, thirty bombs were projected from various directions one after the other, reaching the surface of the target meteorite almost at the same instant.

There is no sound in the universe, and the loud noise produced by the explosion cannot be heard.No one spoke in the earphones, and in the silence, they watched the blazing flames blooming like red lotuses a few kilometers away.

Most of the material of the meteorite was crushed and melted into granular cosmic dust, which slowly spread around.

But in the cloud of dust, a huge gravel loomed like a suspended mountain peak, and flew towards the six o'clock position at a speed of 180 kilometers per hour, which was close to the speed of the train.

The facts are clear: someone missed.

The ballistic calculation results quickly determined that the person who missed was Luo Suo at the six o'clock position.Compared with others, he has the least experience.His shooting angle was off for some reason. The bomb missed the center of the target, bounced off the surface of the meteorite, and flew a certain distance along the tangential direction before exploding.So the debris was under-stressed in his direction and moved towards him.

This situation is certainly not good, but it is not out of control.

Xue Yuan commanded succinctly: "Cave two, six o'clock, elevation angle [-]; hole three, twelve o'clock, elevation angle [-]; hole four, twelve o'clock, depression angle [-]."

The pilots have a customary habit, usually take the position of the transport ship as the twelve o'clock direction.

After receiving the order, Joey No. 02, No. 03 and No. 04 immediately moved to the corresponding places. Xue Yuan himself also reached the position of six o'clock, with a downward angle of [-] degrees, facing Joey's Rose Knight up and down.

Chi Caifan cooperated with him tacitly, almost following his instructions, a new round of TOT appeared on everyone's screen.

The second bombardment is ready.

The accident happened at this time.

People who make a mistake often subconsciously make up for it with a bigger mistake.

Rosso was almost three kilometers away from the gravel. Even if he didn't dodge at all, it would take a minute to be hit.Such a long time is enough for the peripheral fire brigade to make several shots.

However, seeing a mountain rushing straight towards him at the speed of a train, the terrifying feeling of being overwhelmed by Mount Tai is not something ordinary people can bear.

In extreme panic, Luo Suo messed up his hands and feet, and directly shot the biggest bomb out.

His action caused exclamation in the earphones: "Asshole!! Don't shoot indiscriminately!"

But it's too late.

After the dazzling light flashed past, the gravel instantly turned to the twelve o'clock position.This time it is no longer 50 meters per second, but four kilometers per second.

The incident happened too suddenly, Xue Yuan and Joey, who reacted the fastest, were in the opposite direction at six o'clock at this time, unable to intercept it in time.Everyone watched helplessly as the piece of rubble hit the three mechs that were too late to dodge at an incredible speed, and then head-on collision with the transport ship Caucasus against them.

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Andy spread out the computer and put it in front of Qin Huan: "Look at this."

A long poem appeared on the screen:

〖Fragrant gorse, safe in the desert

……

……

You calm gorse, with fragrant leaves

Dotted silently, this desolate scenery

Before long, you will too

In the cruel ground fire, to perish. 〗

"When the website was hacked, the hackers put the first paragraph of the poem on the homepage. Later, another unknown guy posted the full text online."

Qin Huan didn't take it seriously: "What does this mean?"

"It's not that there is something in the poem itself, it's that the timing of its appearance is very suspicious. This poem says that Mount Vesuvius swallowed everything. Compared with our current situation, doesn't it seem like some kind of prophecy?"

Qin Huan smiled, was noncommittal to his words, and waited for the next sentence.

Andy pulls up a video: "After this, I worked on this."

This is the image recorded by the photography equipment of the Arctic Fox. No.1 is called the angle of view. It records the scene where Xue Yuan boarded the comet to search Voyager 1, but accidentally discovered the invisible wall.

"We've already seen this, what's the problem?" Qin Huan asked.

"When I re-watched this video, I found a detail." Andy stopped the screen and made a timeline, "If you analyze it with software, you will find that before those ice blocks suddenly disappeared, he had activated the emergency Brake, as if knowing that there is an 'invisible wall' there."

"So, what is your conclusion?"

Andy's expression became solemn, as if announcing a life-and-death secret: "The website was hacked and the 'Wall' was discovered. The reason why these two things happened on the same day is not a coincidence, but someone deliberately arranged it. .”

"Nonsense." Qin Huan shook his head, "Things like the invisible wall cannot be manufactured and controlled by human power."

Andy raised his voice slightly: "Yeah, no one made that thing, but someone could have spotted it earlier.

"The Technical Department is monitoring the road ahead of the fleet all the time. If the 'Wall' existed there a long time ago, there is always a certain probability that someone will observe an anomaly.

"But why was it 'accidentally' discovered until we were about to hit the 'wall'?"

He adjusted his mood and returned to his usual tone: "I think that among us, some people realized the existence of the invisible wall very early on, but deliberately concealed this secret from the outside world.

"I don't know the number of people in this group, maybe there are many, maybe there are only one or two. But Ivan must be one of them.

"All technical officers will send the data to him first, and only he can have access to all the information at the first time. Whether it is to cover up something or tamper with it, it is very easy to do."

"You mean..." Qin Huan concluded for him, "Ivan knew about the invisible wall a long time ago, but he deliberately didn't report it, counting the days and waiting for the fleet to hit the wall. The person who tampered with the homepage of the website is also himself , similar to some kind of 'crime | crime forecast'. He directly used his IP to do this, because he knew that day would be the end of all mankind."

"Yes." Andy finished speaking, "but there is one thing he didn't expect: You gave him the task of searching for Voyager 1 that morning. Due to this unplanned event, or some Other factors, he changed his mind ad hoc, and 'accidentally' discovered the wall."

Qin Huan was silent for a while, then chuckled: "Very interesting inference. —— Well, it's almost time, let's go back."

From the beginning to the end, he neither expressed affirmation nor negation of what Andy said.

The moment the Caucasus was hit by the meteorite, the huge shock caused Chi Caifan to let out a scream.

The oxygen generation system was damaged, and the leaked potassium hydroxide sprayed out with flames, and the cabin was immediately filled with acrid smoke.

"Get out of here and go to the escape ship!" The pilot opened the restraints and pulled her up from the seat.She took the breathing mask from him and followed him to the connecting passage.

The escape ship is a quick-response ship that can carry 15 people and is controlled by a computer system.When the ship encounters an accident, the computer will make a judgment of "whether to start" according to the criticality of the situation.If the judgment is "Yes", the spacecraft will automatically separate from the ship within a certain period of time.

"How long is its reaction time?" Chi Caifan asked while running.

The driver's voice was calm: "This situation is now classified as a first-level danger, and the reaction time is only half a minute. We have to run faster, or we will not be able to catch up."

Needless to say, Chi Caifan also heard the electronic voice broadcast: "The escape spaceship will start in 30 seconds, and the countdown starts now. Thirty, 29..."

The two stopped in front of the heavy isolation door.The driver opens the control panel on the wall and enters the password to open the door.

A line of shiny characters popped up on the interface: "502BadGateway."

Chi Caifan couldn't help cursing in a low voice: "The system is pumping again, those guys from the technical department!"

The driver remained calm, and re-entered: "Don't say that, I still don't smoke most of the time."

Electronic voice: "...ten, nine, eight..."

A line of big shiny characters popped up on the interface again: "If you enter the wrong password three times, you will be banned from logging in for one hour."

The driver went into a rage: "I'm from the technical department, I'm cheating on your whole community!!"

Before he finished speaking, the cabin door suddenly deformed in front of him like a piece of crumpled paper, and a white mechanical hand protruded in through the broken gap—the arctic fox had arrived.

The 27 mechas were suspended in the boundless darkness at a loss, becoming a group of children who could not find their way home.

But there is no need to worry about the meteorite fragment anymore.Embedded deep in the Caucasus's twisted and wrecked hull, it flew into space.From a certain angle, it looks like a pair of lovers hugging and falling into the deep sea.Between them were the three mechs that had been completely crushed.

"They..." someone whispered two words.

"Don't think about it, the three of them can't be rescued." Joey said firmly.

It was quiet in the earphones, but it seemed that many people secretly breathed a sigh of relief.Everyone knew that those three people were hopeless, but it was always easier for others to say this conclusion.

After a while, someone spoke again: "Now there is no long-range radio, no pulsar navigation, who can tell me how to go back in this situation?"

Xue Yuan thought about it.

There are no identifiable coordinates in this area, and the only thing that can guide them is one thing.

As he was thinking this way, he heard Joey say the plan in his mind: "The overall direction of the meteorite group is on the central axis of the fleet. We can use this to build an inertial navigation system. The 27 of us are a topological structure." , each mecha is a node. The pilot searches for and locks a meteorite nearby, and calculates its orbital parameters. You are all technical officers, so you don’t need me to teach you how to calculate. Miss dispatcher, can you use these parameters to set The ship's waypoint?"

"Yes." Chi Caifan replied clearly.

"Very good. In addition, use the ant colony algorithm to avoid obstacles. Whoever finds an unknown object ahead sends a signal. The nearby pilots who receive the signal repeat this step. The spacecraft operating system is set according to these danger signals and the dispatch officer. waypoints to generate a safe route.”

Xue Yuan was slightly surprised, what Joey thought was exactly the same as him.

No wonder this kid made two to five to eighty thousand when he first came here. He really has such a little capital.

After tedious calculations, a route was successfully generated, and the spacecraft entered the autopilot mode.

Meteorites have no craters, they faithfully acted as guides, leading the way home.

Finally, after passing a certain critical point, the pilot of the spacecraft announced an exciting news: "Our communication with the fleet has been restored!"

Everyone heard the voice from the fleet: "Caucasus, this is the command center of Chang'an. The liquid deceleration channel has been opened, please calibrate your course."

In order to prevent fires during landing, more than 20 mechas surrounded each other to protect the escape spacecraft in the center.

The pilots all entered the spaceship, and the space that could only hold 15 people was crammed into 29 people, face to face.

"If the landing fails, I don't want to fall to your death with you in this position." Joey said in a muffled voice.His sharp chin pressed tightly against Xue Yuan's neck, causing pain in the pit of his neck.

Xue Yuan tried his best to turn his body sideways, keeping a little distance from him.

"Hey, why is your mecha called Rose Knight?"

Joey squinted at him: "Why is yours called Arctic Fox?"

"I like this animal."

"I like "Legend of the Galactic Heroes"." (※ "Rose Knights" is the name of a company in "Legend of the Galactic Heroes")

The ice blue pupils and the dark maroon pupils looked at each other quietly for a moment, and at the same time looked away.

Violent frictional vibrations came from the bulkhead, which indicated that the escaping spacecraft had entered the artificial airflow layer outside the main ship.The long-lost gravity returned to the body, and more than ten seconds later, the spaceship dragged a long wake and crashed into the liquid deceleration channel with a plop.

More than [-] people sat on the ground in disheveled clothes, as if they had just been fished out of the river, in a state of embarrassment.

Before he had time to catch his breath, Xue Yuan saw his adjutant rushing through the crowd holding his mobile phone.

Xue Yuan suddenly had a bad premonition, stepped forward in a stride, and grabbed the phone with his hands.

"Ivan, Killian is injured." Anna concealed the anxiety in her voice.

"..." In an instant, Xue Yuan's fingertips almost pierced the phone case.

"During the last acceleration test, they set 30 G. Don't worry too much, the doctor said, his recovery ability is very strong..."

"Where is he?" Xue Yuan interrupted her, "I want to see him."

Joey shouted behind him: "You can't leave now, we have to report to the review committee!"

Xue Yuan ignored him and ran straight to the hospital.He didn't hear a word Joey said.There was only one word in his head: 30 G's.

The acceleration of 10 Gs is a feeling on the body, and he knows it better than anyone else.It's hard to imagine the extent of Qi Lian's damage.

On the white bed sheet, Qi Lian's eyes were covered with gauze, curled up and said nothing.Only a slight trembling indicated that he was in severe pain.Doctors did not allow him to use anesthesia to prevent affecting his brain, and he underwent spleen repair surgery while conscious.

Feeling a familiar breath, he turned his face in that direction and tried to reach out and feel for it.

Someone grabbed his hand.

With a "flutter", a rose was put into his palm.

Qi Lian held it tightly.The thorns on the flower stems were embedded in his skin, but he didn't seem to notice it.

His fingers were quickly loosened: "Don't pinch it so tightly, it won't run away."

It's not that Xue Yuan doesn't know that this cheap little trick is not enough to share the pain Qi Lian is suffering: burst blood vessels, ruptured spleen, massive internal bleeding, and organic damage to the eyes|cornea|membranes leading to temporary blindness.

But he couldn't think of anything else to do.

He parted the hair from Qi Lian's forehead, and pressed a gentle kiss on his forehead.When he was young, whenever he was sick and uncomfortable, his mother comforted him in this way.

"I'm not going anywhere, I'm here with you. You sleep well."

"...(*￣︶￣*)" Qi Lian showed a relieved expression.

After a while, I don't know if the painkillers have worked, his breathing slowed down, and he seemed to have fallen asleep.

Afraid that he would fall asleep and rubbed his eyes, Xue Yuan held his hand and sat down beside the bed.

I never thought that I would care about someone so deeply.

First of all, of course, out of responsibility.But I have to admit that there are indeed some other things besides responsibility.

A kind of non-existent thing.

Like a ray of fragrance, it is invisible and colorless, but it cannot be ignored.

According to the results of the psychological assessment, Xue Yuan's heterosexuality index is higher.It's also true that he has always been very keen on dating girls, since he was a teenager.

He enjoys the process of testing each other's minds and building relationships. To him, it's like some kind of self-running program, and he's happy to see what results it can run.

However, as soon as he reaches a certain critical point, his phobia of intimacy will attack and he will run away.

Only once did he force himself to reach second base.The other party is a beautiful and well-behaved young lady,

If there hadn't been a small episode that followed, maybe the relationship could have survived for two more days - Qianjin forgot to take her satchel in excitement, and when she returned to the office, she saw Xue Yuan rinsing her mouth in front of the sink.Not an understatement to gargle, but the kind of gargle that swallowed a fly.

Second base, pawn.

He also tried to kiss Chi Caifan, and the two had the same feeling: as if they were kissing a wall.

A thought suddenly flashed in his mind: what would it feel like to kiss Qi Lian?

This thought was a bit ridiculous, Xue Yuan shook his head to stop it.

A standard iron storage box was placed beside the bed, which contained Qi Lian's personal belongings.I flipped through it casually, and there were only a handful of things in total:

The name card clipped to his ear at first, the perfume "Sweet Redemption" that Xue Yuan gave him, a rose, and the thin copy of "The Little Prince".

This is all Qi Lian's "property" in this world.

Xue Yuan took out the bottle of perfume.He has now formed a very bad conditioned reflex: when he sees this perfume, he thinks of gorse, poetry, websites and hackers.

It's a bad thing when something you like becomes an annoyance-inducing button.As long as the troubles are not resolved, this connection will not be broken for a day.

In the few seconds that he and Joey looked at each other, he could basically conclude that this guy was not the "Rose Knight" on the Internet.

Joey has a bit of a heroic complex and doesn't like to play tricks in the dark.

And the rose knight on the Internet is a person with a much darker psychology.

Not only that, but the guy's way of thinking is also very similar to himself.

Just like...

Just like another self.

There was a gloomy look in Xue Yuan's eyes.

These days, there is a thought stuck in his throat that makes him restless.

He has checked his private blog, and there is no trace of intrusion.It stands to reason that the song "Gorseuse" shouldn't be spread outside.

Of course, there are still ways, such as intercepting every data packet sent from his IP address.But how much hatred does this have to do? How can ordinary people do this?

Could that "Rose Knight"... really be himself?

While tracking down the guy, he noticed that the guy didn't interact with anyone in the forum, and that he was online and posted at regular times.

Writing a timing program to accomplish these things is easy for Xue Yuan.

Xue Yuan didn't doubt himself like this for no reason, he had a dark history.When he was a child, his brother once told him something that surprised him.

Seeing Qi Lian's peaceful sleeping face, Xue Yuan's heart suddenly moved: He slept with Qi Lian for two days, and Qi Lian stayed awake all night.If he had any strange behavior, Qi Lian would definitely notice it.When he gets better, ask again then.

Thinking of Qi Lian, my heart softened unknowingly.This kid-like guy doesn't understand anything yet.

"Love | Love that cannot be born without desire is sweet redemption."

Will you be my sweet salvation?

The author has something to say: hug those who are waiting for the update, I don’t want to say anything anymore, words are not enough to express my guilt... TωT

Andy is an annoying character, but there is a part of the truth in what he said

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