I don't fall in love with fools

We Yu Yi are the bravest children.

The sun rises on the branches and the snow melts. Although the weather in early spring is still cold, warmth can already be seen.

Yu Yi wore a white cotton jacket today, which was tightly wrapped. Aunt Zhou also prepared a bright yellow schoolbag for him to carry, looking like a primary school student going on a spring outing.

Yu Yi has been in Jiang's house for nearly three months, but has never left the Jiang's mansion. Aunt Zhou rarely goes out on weekdays, and even if she does, she dare not take Yu Yi with her, for fear that she will not be able to take care of her, and Yu Yi will be bored in Jiang's house. After three months, the mushrooms were almost growing. It happened that Jiang Chu was free today, so he wanted to go out for a walk on a whim.

I was so excited that I had a rare insomnia last night.

Jiang Chu came down from the second floor and saw Aunt Zhou wrapped Yu Yi into a little bear, couldn't help laughing, "Aunt Zhou, the weather is not so cold anymore, please wear less."

Aunt Zhou has her own opinions on food and clothing, "That's not okay, if you catch a cold, you should suffer," she told Yu Yi, "You must not take off your coat, you understand?"

Yu Yi nodded obediently.

Lin Fuxun had already prepared the car and was waiting, Yu Yi followed Jiang Chu and briskly got into the car, lying on the window curiously to see the scene outside.

The scene outside the window gradually changed as the car started, Yu Yi stared at it intently, and let out a small exclamation from time to time.

In early spring, flower buds have emerged from the branches, and there are more and more pedestrians on the street. Yu Yi curiously looked at the awakened world in the car. Feeling a little scared, I looked out of the window and then at Jiang Chu to confirm that I was safe.

Jiang Chuben was answering messages with a notebook, seeing that Yu Yi always turned his head to look at him, so he simply closed the notebook, leaned over to look at the world outside the window with Yu Yi.

"A lot of people," Yu Yi leaned on Jiang Chu's chest, resting his hairy head on Jiang Chu's shoulder, "A lot of cars."

Jiang Chu didn't care that Lin Fuxun was still in the car, he put his chin lightly on Yu Yi's head, and responded to Yu Yi's words.

Yu Yi was fascinated, when the car passed by an inconspicuous small park, his eyes suddenly widened, he leaned back abruptly, his head hit Jiang Chu's chin heavily, Jiang Chu backed away in pain , I don't understand why Yu Yi has such a big reaction, I heard Yu Yi mutter, "Mom..."

Jiang Chu was surprised, "What?"

The small park is almost gone, Yu Yi sticks herself to the window of the car, as if trying to get out, repeating, "Mom, mom!"

Lin Fuxun asked Jiang Chu with his eyes, and Jiang Chu said, "Go back."

Jiang Chu grabbed Yu Yi and held him in his arms. Yu Yi had two extreme emotions of excitement and sadness. With some strength, he locked him in his arms, trying to attract Yu Yi's attention with words, "Did Yu Yi see mom?"

Yu Yi was dazed for a few seconds before she understood Jiang Chu's words, and said vaguely, "Park, Mom."

"Is mom in the park?"

Yu Yi turned her head and looked at Jiang Chu, with tears in her eyes, she called again, "Mom."

Even though he knew that Yu Yi wasn't calling him, Jiang Chu was still a little awkward. He rubbed Yu Yi's head and softly comforted Yu Yi, "We'll go there now, and we'll be able to see my mother."

The car turned around at the end of the intersection and soon stopped in front of the small park.

As soon as the car door opened, Yu Yi couldn't wait to rush down, Jiang Chu couldn't catch it, leaving only the warmth of his hand, he looked at Yu Yi's figure running away, withdrew his hand, his eyes were dim, and he followed quickly up.

This is a dilapidated small park, and it will be demolished soon, so there is no one in the park.

Yu Yi is very familiar with this place, obviously he has been here before, and judging from his inability to remember for a long time, it must have left a very deep impression on him.

Yu Yi ran too fast, Jiang Chu was afraid of losing him, so he had no choice but to trot along, Lin Fuxun stared behind him dumbfounded, and when he hesitated to follow, the two of them had already disappeared.

The flowers in the small park were all withered, and every tree was bare because they hadn’t survived the cold winter. The park smelled of desolation and death.

But Yu Yi ran in here without hesitation, as if this was his warmest baby. Jiang Chu saw Yu Yi turn a corner and trot to follow. When he saw the scene in front of him clearly, his footsteps stopped slightly. .

In the corner of the park, there is an iron-cast five-pointed star, about to reach Yu Yi's shoulder. Because it has not rested for a long time, it has been eroded by wind and rain, and it is already rusty, broken and dirty, but Yu Yi is standing in front of the five-pointed star, staring blankly. For a long time, as if to confirm something, he slowly stepped forward and leaned against the five-pointed star, leaning his head on the rusty building with nostalgia, with a crying voice, and shouting so cheerfully, "Star, Mother."

Jiang Chu remembered that Lin Ximeng spun Yu Yi's lies before his death, and Yu Yi believed them to be true. He couldn't find the stars in the sky, but could only look for the stars on the ground. Xixi's five-pointed star is his departed mother.

During the many years since Lin Ximeng left, did Yu Yi rely on such fantasies to live to this day in suffering?

Jiang Chu was stunned in place, he hadn't been moved by anything for a long time, but now he felt as if something was holding his heart, sour and astringent, spreading to his internal organs, making him unable to bear to disturb Yu Yi, who was immersed in his own heart. in a dream.

Yu Yi hugged the five-pointed star, the rust made his padded jacket black, and his face was also pressed against the cold building, flushed from the cold, talking to his mother in a low voice. It is people and things that make him happy, and he stuttered, "A lot of beautiful flowers, sweet cakes, Aunt Zhou, big airplanes, glass marbles, deer brooches," he paused, his eyes filled with happiness. Full of broken light, "Jiang Chu, Jiang Chu, Jiang Chu!"

Said Jiang Chu's name three times in a row.

Jiang Chu's palm was numb as if being scratched by some animal's paw. He didn't know how long he stood there. He didn't walk forward until Yu Yi couldn't say anything. He should have disliked it. But he didn't, he wiped the dirt on Yu Yi's face with his hand, and whispered softly, "Is it mom?"

Yu Yi smiled so much that she showed her small canine teeth, "Yes!"

Jiang Chu held his face, "Yu Yi misses his mother?"

Yu Yi was stunned, and the end of his eyes gradually turned red, "I want to, I really want to, I really want to."

Jiang Chu saw crystal tears suddenly gushing out of Yu Yi's eyes. The tears rolled down to his wound, making him shiver slightly. He lovingly hugged Yu Yi in his arms and buried Yu Yi in the Crying on Jian's shoulder, while stroking Yu Yi's back with his hand like a child.

Yu Yi cried until Jiang Chu's shoulders were drenched, so he raised his wet face and said mushyly, "I can't, crying, I will be beaten, it hurts."

Jiang Chu's eyes changed slightly, he wiped away the tears from Yu Yi's face, and kissed Yu Yi's cheek for the first time, it was soft, with the salty taste of tears, "You can cry for me."

Yu Yi sucked her red nose, blinked her eyes, and another teardrop fell down.

Jiang Chu let him cry for a long time.

Yu Yi should be holding back. For nearly ten years in the past, he didn't even dare to cry. What he got in exchange for tears would not be pity, but fists on his body. But now it's different, he can freely Jiang Chu cried in front of him.

The two stayed in the small park for a long time, and Yu Yi was reluctant to leave. In the end, it was Jiang Chu who promised him that he could visit his mother next time, so he left without hesitation.

Lin Fuxun waited in the car for half an hour. Seeing that the two finally came back and was about to talk, he saw Yu Yi curled up in Jiang Chu's arms, looking like he had been crying, and looked at Jiang Chu in surprise.

Jiang Chu was looking for wet wipes in the car to wipe Yu Yi's face, ignoring Lin Fuxun's curious eyes, "Go back to the old house."

After returning to Jiang’s house, Yu Yi’s mood was rare, even Aunt Zhou’s most useful cake couldn’t arouse his interest, Jiang Chu put him in the room, Yu Yi was tired from crying, and soon fell asleep, Jiang Chu Looking at his slightly wrinkled face when he fell asleep, he sat by the bed for a while before going out.

Aunt Zhou thought wholeheartedly, "What's the matter?"

Jiang Chu didn't hide it, "I miss his mother."

Aunt Zhou was so distressed that her eyes turned red.

"Aunt Zhou," Jiang Chu asked with long eyes, confused and clear, "Do people really become stars after death?"

Such a childish question shouldn't have come out of Jiang Chu's mouth, but he did.

Aunt Zhou looked at Jiang Chu lovingly, "Sir and Madam have been watching you from the sky, they want you to be happy more than anyone else."

Jiang Chu was silent for a while, and finally went up to the second floor without saying anything.

He was in a daze in the dim room.

Think a lot about the past.

There are happy, sad, angry, disappointed.

There's also extreme grief—the unspeakable emotion of hearing about your parents' plane crash.

His parents could not even find their bones. The wreckage of the plane fell into the cold ocean, and his parents slept forever in the deep sea.

For a long time, Jiang Chu was afraid of flying, but just by looking at it, he could think of his parents' voices and smiles.

Until a paper airplane landed at his feet.

There are many things he can bring to Yu Yi, but there is also a lot that Yu Yi can bring to him.

To a certain extent, he and Yu Yi have something in common, and he was ashamed to say it, so Yu Yi said it for him.

He also missed his mother's warm embrace.

There was a knock on the door of the room, and Jiang Chu let Lin Fuxun in.

Lin Fuxun held a tray, which was Aunt Zhou's cake, and placed it in front of Jiang Chu.

Jiang Chu raised his eyes in the dark, with an inexplicable light shining in his eyes, "You treat me as Yu Yi, coaxing me with cake?"

"You are much more difficult to coax than Yu Yi. Yu Yi wakes up from sleep and is happy again. How about you?"

Jiang Chu laughed dumbfounded, and sighed, "Yu Yi is stronger than me."

Lin Fuxun was noncommittal, "Whether you want to eat this cake or not, I'll take it for myself."

"Why don't you eat it?" Jiang Chu straightened up, holding the cake in his hand.

Lin Fuxun felt relieved to see him like this.

Before leaving, I heard Jiang Chu say, "Do something for me."

The door opens and closes again, keeping secrets and surprises at bay.