[Red Chamber] I became Lin Daiyu in my rebirth

Kangxi said softly: "When she returns to the capital, you choose a day to bring her into the palace for me to see."

Hearing what Kangxi said, Yinxiang was overjoyed, and hurriedly thanked him: "Thank you Huang Ama!"

Kangxi looked at Yinxiang's elated look, and thought of the days when he was in love with the queen. After so many years, when he thought of the painful days, his heart still ached, but more of it was the peace of regret.It's not that I haven't complained about the injustice of God, why can't people who love each other like this stay together for a lifetime?Those painful pasts, after the precipitation of time, gradually, I can finally face them calmly.

It is true that time is not forgiving.

Sometimes, people can only be calm if they learn to suppress themselves.Only by learning to deceive yourself and others can you be happy.Only by suppressing the surging emotions in my heart can I go further in this world.

Kangxi thinks of the Queen, she has always been the purest in heart, if she is still alive, she must be very happy to see her lover finally get married.

Empress, since we can't stay together for the rest of our lives, watching our children grow old with their loved ones can be regarded as filling some regrets.

Kangxi gently raised his hand, rubbed the sore corners of his eyes that couldn't help it, sighed secretly, but smiled on his face: "You go back first, I want to stay alone for a while."

Yinxiang thanked Kangxi again, bowed and retreated.

Thinking of Kangxi's look just now, he couldn't help but sigh.It seems that Huang Ama must be thinking of Huang Erniang.Yinxiang knew that only when he thought of Empress Renxiao would Kangxi show such a lost look.There are too many things in that look, which Yinxiang didn't understand before, but now he knows.It is a kind of powerlessness and pain after losing a loved one, and there is infinite nostalgia and regret.Although he is the Son of Heaven, he guides the country in the court, strategizes in the battlefield, he is firm and luxurious, kills and seizes, and says one thing, and seems to be indestructible forever, but in front of love and his beloved Queen Renxiao, he is just an ordinary person. man, a man in love.He holds the fate, or life, of many people in his hands at all times, but he is powerless about his own fate.In front of the god of death, he is also an ordinary person, no matter how hard he can save his lover's life.He watched helplessly as his beloved Empress Renxiao gradually lost her breath in his arms, and gradually, his body became icy cold...

Yin Xiang never met Queen Renxiao, because Queen Renxiao had passed away when he was born.He only knew some fragments of Kangxi and Empress Renxiao from the mouths of those old palace people or concubines.

It is said that Queen Renxiao was only 12 years old when she married Kangxi, and she was only 22 years old when she died.The two had only been together for ten years.Empress Renxiao died in Kangxi's arms.From the time when Empress Renxiao passed away until the body became icy cold, Kangxi stayed alone in the empress' bedroom all night, holding on to the empress' already cold body, and no one dared to get close to him.In the end, it was Su Malagu, whom Kangxi had always valued very much, who risked his life to persuade Kangxi to let him go.When he let go, Emperor Kangxi cried like a child, and finally passed out from crying.Later, when Kangxi personally buried the queen and closed the coffin, Kangxi couldn't help but weeping while touching the coffin, and passed out again...

These are all heard from people, but judging from the days to come, it may or may not be true.Because Kangxi would feel particularly depressed for a few days every year, and I heard that those few days were the death anniversary of Empress Renxiao.In those few days, Kangxi would always go to the empress's former bedroom quietly, close the door of the bedroom, and no one would be allowed in, even Li Dequan, just let him guard outside the palace.So no one knows what Kangxi did inside alone.Often, it is a whole day to go and stay.

Yinxiang glanced at the gloomy sky and sighed. It turned out that Huang Ama also had such a painful past.

Love is the happiest thing in this world, but as Lao Tzu said: when there is misfortune, happiness rests on it;The opposite of happiness is often pain.Moreover, there may be only a wall between the two.When people in love enjoy the happiness brought by love, the pain brought by love will also be doubled.How happy you are when you are in love, how painful you are when you are gone.

Suddenly, I am extremely fortunate that the person I love now not only loves me, but is also living in this world well.I can watch her smile and accompany her to do what she wants to do.This is the happiest thing.

The cruelest thing in this world is that "the child wants to support but the relative does not wait, the love is still there but the person is gone".The farthest thing in this world is not that I love you but you love someone else, nor is it that I stand in front of you but you don't know that I love you.The furthest thing in this world is life and death.

The distance between life and death is something you can't reach even in a lifetime.Death means disappearance, it means that there is no such person in the world anymore.You will never see her smile again, never hear her speak again, never give her your pampering, never grow old with her again.The memory of her ends here and will never grow.You will be afraid, you will be afraid, because you will worry that the torrent of time will wash away her face, and you will be afraid that one day, you will no longer be able to remember her appearance.

This is the most painful thing.Death means nothing.Even if it is an enemy who has never been in touch with each other, maybe there is still a day when the grudge can be wiped away with a smile.But death is different. All your assumptions and fantasies will never become reality again.

Thinking this way, fear, luck, and longing filled Yinxiang's heart with all kinds of emotions.

Only when we are separated can we know how deep the love is.

Yangzhou City, Lin Mansion.

Daiyu originally wanted to stay longer, but she heard Jia Lian say that it would be Jia Zheng's birthday soon, so she left early and returned to Beijing.

Lin Ruhai only repeatedly told Daiyu to be more careful along the way, and to take care of herself in Rongguo Mansion.On the other hand, Aunt Jiang couldn't help wiping away her tears: "Yu'er finally came back once, and now I have to leave again."

Daiyu stepped forward, took Aunt Jiang's hand, and comforted her, "What are you talking about? I won't come back to see you and Dad in the future. Auntie, don't be sad, Yu'er has to ask Auntie more Take care of Daddy."

Seeing what Daiyu said, Aunt Jiang stopped her tears and forced a smile: "It's natural, you don't have to worry about me and your father. But you, you are alone at grandma's house, you have to take good care of yourself."

Daiyu nodded and said with a smile: "Don't worry, Auntie, my grandmother, uncle, aunt, and sisters are all fine. I'm fine on my own, but I'm just worried about you."

After chatting on and on for a while, Daiyu bid farewell to Lin Ruhai and Aunt Jiang, and boarded the passenger ship back to the capital.

Rongguofu.

It was Jia Zheng's birthday on this day, and all the people from Rongguo Mansion and Rongguo Mansion in Ningguo Mansion gathered in Rongguo Mansion to congratulate him, and it was very lively.

The flickering official reported: "There is an eunuch from the Liugong Capital, Mr. Xia, who came to issue an order."

For a while, Jia Zheng and others didn't know what happened, they stopped the drama in fright, removed the banquet, set up the incense table, opened the middle door and knelt down to receive it.

I saw Xia Bingzhong, the eunuch of the capital, arriving on horseback, accompanied by many eunuchs.The eunuch Xia never failed to hold the edict, until he dismounted from the horse in the main hall, with a smile on his face, walked up to the hall, stood facing the south, and said in his mouth: "I have a special decree: Immediately declare Jiazheng to enter the court, and see you in the Hall of Mental Cultivation." After Bi, he didn't drink tea, so he went on a horse.Jia Zheng and others couldn't guess where it came from, so they had to change clothes and enter the court immediately.

Jia's mother and the whole family were in a state of panic, and they kept sending people flying horses back and forth to visit.For two hours, I suddenly saw Lai Da and other three or four housekeepers panting and running into the Yimen Gate to announce the good news, and said, "By the master's order: please let the old lady lead the wife into the palace to thank you." Waiting in the corridor of the lobby, the second wife of King Xing, You Shi, Li Wan, Sister Feng, Sister Yingchun, and Aunt Xue all gathered together to inquire about information.

Grandmother Jia called Lai Da to ask again, and Lai Da reported: "The slaves are only serving in the court room outside, and they don't know the information inside. Later, eunuch Xia came out to congratulate her, saying that our eldest aunt was named Fengzao Palace Minister Afterwards, the master also ordered the same when he came out. Now the master has gone to the East Palace again. Please hurry up and ask the ladies to thank you." After hearing this, Jia's mother felt relieved, and they were all happy to see each other for a while.So they all put on makeup according to their products.Jia Mu led the second wife of Xing Wang and You Shi, a total of four sedan chairs, and filed into the court.Jia Amnesty and Jia Zhen also changed their court clothes, and led Jia Qiang and Jia Rong to serve Jia Mu.

For a time, the people inside and outside the Rongguo Mansion of Ningguo Mansion were all very happy.

In addition, when Jia Lian and Daiyu came back, they sent someone to report in advance: "I will be home tomorrow." When Baochai, Baoyu, and Yingchun sisters heard this, they could not help but smile.

Originally, when Daiyu came to Beijing this time, if she followed the station, she should have gone home out of the moon. Because she heard the good news from Yuanchun, she went day and night.All safe and sound.

Finally, at noon tomorrow, the boat that Daiyu and Jia Lian were on finally docked. There were cars and sedan chairs from Rongguo Mansion waiting at the ferry.

When Baochai and others heard that Daiyu was coming back today, they were waiting in Rongfu early in the morning. After noon, they saw a beautiful car with emerald green cover and pearl tassels approaching from far to near, gradually entering the gate and stopping.

The car curtain was lifted, and Daiyu walked down slowly.

When Baochai and others looked at Daiyu carefully, they found that Daiyu was really more and more elegant.

I saw Daiyu wearing a slightly simple plain white long brocade dress, with dark brown silk thread embroidered with ingenious and powerful branches, and peach red silk thread embroidered plum blossoms in full bloom. The hem extends all the way to the waist, and a wide dark purple belt tightens the slender waist, showing a slender figure, but it also gives people a sense of elegance and luxury. It is covered with a light purple open gauze dress, Every move made the gauze dress feel a little shimmering and flowing, and a jade pendant was tied around her waist, adding a sense of elegance.With a milky white jade bracelet in his hand, his surprisingly long hair was tied up in a slightly complicated hairstyle with purple and white ribbons. It really did not disappoint this beautiful and surprisingly hair. The essence of roses exudes a charming fragrance. A jade hairpin made of emerald is inserted in the hair, which is ingeniously made into the appearance of green bamboo with leaves. It really makes people think that she has a branch of green bamboo on her head. The thin and long bangs on the forehead are neat and rigorous.The willow-leaf eyebrows are painted with carbon black, which makes the skin white and delicate. The charming and charming Danfeng eyes are full of brilliance in the movement of the eyes. Pink rouge is applied to make the skin look white and rosy, and light red lipstick is applied on the lips alone. Lips are red, and the whole face looks extraordinarily radiant.

Seeing Baochai and others, Daiyu had a bright smile on her face.He hurriedly went forward to hold the hands of Baochai, Yingchun and others, "Sister Bao, Baoyu, sister Yingchun, sister Tanchun, sister Xichun, I miss you so much!"

Baochai also laughed, "We miss you too. We look forward to every day, every day, and we look forward to you back! Without you here, we all feel so deserted."

After all, Baoyu, Yingchun Tanchun and others nodded quickly and said yes.

Daiyu also smiled and said: "I miss you very much too, we don't want to stand here anymore, I brought something for you, come with me!" .

Daiyu brought a lot of books this time, busy cleaning the bedroom, arranging utensils, and distributing some paper and pens to Baochai, Yingchun, Baoyu and so on.

Baochai and others helped Daiyu tidy up the room, and after talking for a while, because Daiyu was going to visit Jiamu, they went back separately.

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