Give the rest of your life

Not long after, Wang Jing came back from the meeting and brought back a notice that had no effect on He Siyu.

Wang Jing walked in and shouted, "Xiao He, our school wants a new teacher!"

He Siyu was still depressed, she raised her eyes to look at the very excited Teacher Wang, "Really?"

This depressed tone made Wang Jing worry about her: "Xiao He, what's wrong with you? Did something not go your way?"

He Siyu looked at Wang Jing, who was full of sorrow, and forced a somewhat unsatisfactory smile: "It's okay, I'm just a little uncomfortable."

Wang Jing patted her on the shoulder lightly, and persuaded her, "If you're not feeling well, just sleep on your stomach for a while, and I'll teach you to get up later."

He Siyu shook his head: "It's okay, I don't have any classes, I'll go home first."

Probably because I was too reluctant to be old this month, He Siyu had a fever after returning home.

Drowsy dreamed of many strange things.

Mingming was sitting with Lin Yao on the back hill of the school to watch the scenery at the last moment, the two of you said that I was laughing and playing around.

The next moment, the scene suddenly jumped to Lin Yao kissing herself on the mountain, and after the kiss, she said something very taboo: Are you going to my house?

In the last scene, Lin Yao asked He Siyu loudly at home why he introduced Wang Zixuan to her.

"what!"

He Siyu was startled awake by the strangely painted dream. When he touched the back of his neck, it was covered with sweat, and most of the pajamas he was wearing were wet with sweat. He took a thermometer to measure his temperature. The fever was no longer there, and his body temperature basically returned to normal. 37 degrees 3 is much better than 38 degrees before going to bed.

But what is this dream about, especially the sentence "Do you want to go to my house?"

Did 27 years of single life make me so lonely...

The fantasy object turned out to be... Lin Yao.

He Siyu covered her blushing face, and the hot skin was pressed against her cold fingers, which relieved her a lot.

He Siyu picked up the phone on the bedside, but there was no response no matter how hard he pressed it, he guessed that the phone was out of battery, and when he got out of bed to get the charger in his bag, he accidentally tripped over it, what a pity!

After eating the pain, I propped myself up on the side of the bed and stood up, feeling dizzy instantly.

In a trance, I heard Lin Yao talking - "Open the door!"

He Siyu rubbed his temples, and said to himself: Thinking about her makes me hallucinate?

But when He Siyu heard the second sound of opening the door, he suddenly felt...it seemed to be true.

He Siyu staggered to the door and looked out from the cat's eyes. The familiar face and facial features were undoubtedly Lin Yao.

What is Lin Yao doing at my house?

And... How did Lin Yao know where my home was?

Lin Yao who was separated by the door was still shouting: "He Siyu!"

He Siyu took two deep breaths, patted his chest, it's okay, it's okay, Lin Yao doesn't know how to do anything.

Opening the door, Lin Yao threw a big bag onto the cabinet and turned to look at He Siyu.

He Siyu was very uncomfortable with Lin Yao's inexplicable eyes, and turned his attention to the big bag, "What did you take?"

Lin Yao took off her high heels and put them in order, then found a pair of slippers from the shoe cabinet and put them on, "Eat."

He Siyu brought her to the living room, but Lin Yao touched her forehead as soon as she came up: "The fever has subsided a little?"

He Siyu was surprised: "Huh? How do you know I have a fever."

Lin Yao swept the cups on the coffee table, touched the cold teapot, and turned her head: "Is there any boiling water?"

He Siyu shook his head.

Lin Yao sighed, "How old are you, don't you know how to take care of yourself?"

With He Siyu's confused expression on his face, Lin Yao walked to the front and turned on the water dispenser to boil water, then went to the entrance and carried the bag into the kitchen, and came back after a while, holding a transparent glass in one hand and holding the bag in the other. A fruit plate filled with various fruits.

"Eat some fruit, are you hungry?" Lin Yao sat down and held an orange with a toothpick to her mouth.

He Siyu's brain was confused by Lin Yao's sudden visit. Without understanding the situation, she mechanically opened her mouth and swallowed the orange, "It's so sweet!"

The words she couldn't help but uttered made Lin Yao laugh, "Yes, I ordered some from the Internet, and they were really delicious. I'll bring you the rest next time."

He Siyu was reminded by Lin Yao before thinking about the business, he hesitated to speak but didn't know how to speak, Lin Yao probably saw it, "Do you have something to say?"

He Siyu looked into her eyes, "You...why are you here?"

Lin Yao looked at He Siyu's reddish face, and wanted to reach out to touch her, but raised her hand in the air and put it down again.

He Siyu was a little scared by this action at first, but fortunately Lin Yao's hand fell, but for some reason, he felt a little lost, what kind of feeling is this sense of loss!

Lin Yao gave her another orange: "I came to see you, I heard that you are sick."

He Siyu put the orange into his mouth and swallowed it whole: "How do you know I'm sick?"

Lin Yao threw the toothpick into the trash can, took out her mobile phone and looked through it, "Because I called you and you never answered, and then called your school. Your colleague, Teacher Wang, said that you were sick and resting at home."

"What's the address of my home?"

Lin Yao nodded, "She also said it, why, afraid that I'm a stalker?"

He Siyu's face became hot, "How could it be?"

Lin Yao wanted to say something, but the water was already boiled.

Afterwards, He Siyu naturally took the medicine brought by Lin Yao, and Lin Yao volunteered to cook for her.

"I want to eat noodles, but can you make them?" He Siyu leaned on the door frame of the kitchen and looked at Lin Yao who was busy.

Lin Yao stopped what she was doing, "Of course, I seldom go home when I was studying abroad, and I usually cook and eat by myself."

An imaginary picture unfolded in He Siyu's mind. Lin Yao got up early every day to go to the library to study, and went home to cook for herself at night. Occasionally, she could only eat instant noodles when she cooked badly, and she stayed up late just to prepare for final exams or part-time jobs. copywriting.

Lin Yao must have had a hard time.

"Then... why don't you find someone to share with you?" He Siyu asked her.

Lin Yao was startled: "What?"

"Why don't you fall in love?"

Without hesitation for a moment, Lin Yao stared into He Siyu's eyes: "Didn't I tell you, I have one"

"A person who asks but refuses to give up but cannot give up." He Siyu continued.

The two looked at each other and smiled, as if they had returned to ten years ago.

What He Siyu really wants to ask is, Lin Yao, is the person you like Wang Zixuan?

But then she thought of a more important reality.

"Lin Yao!" He Siyu called her.

Lin Yao put the cleaned perch in her hand on the chopping board, and the knife fell with a sound, only a few centimeters away from the fish.

He Siyu looked at the dead perch and felt a little sad for it. Did this fish know its own fate when it died? Did it know where its companions were going?

Lin Yao saw that He Siyu had been staring at the small perch in a daze, so she swung her right hand back and forth in front of He Siyu's eyes twice, "He Siyu, what's wrong with you?"

Lin Yao's hand blocked He Siyu's sight, so he naturally interrupted his wonderful imagination, "I want to ask you..."

Lin Yao stared at her intently, He Siyu couldn't continue speaking.

"Forget it, it's nothing, you can cook fish?" The ability to change the subject has improved by leaps and bounds compared to when he was young.

Lin Yao raised her eyebrows: "Why, strange?"

He Siyu smiled, "No, I think you have had a hard time abroad."

Lin Yao stared at her, He Siyu subconsciously felt that Lin Yao was going to say something, but Lin Yao never said anything.

He Siyu returned to the sofa and turned on the TV to watch an extremely fast-paced American blockbuster. Spider-Man shuttled between the sky and buildings without hindrance, and the villain smiled ferociously at Peter. In tense movies.

She got up, took two steps and then stopped, trying to sit back, her calf touched the edge of the sofa, and then walked towards the kitchen.

That's all, let's ask clearly.

I want to get married.

The pessimistic character of self-defeating and self-abandonment has not improved as in the world.

He Siyu entered the kitchen again. Lin Yao had already put the fish into the pot and was standing beside the chopping board cutting the seasoning.

Maybe because she sensed the strangeness at the door, Lin Yao looked towards the door, and saw the hesitant He Siyu at the first glance.

He Siyu spoke before Lin Yao could speak: "I want to ask you a question!"

Lin Yao glanced at her, "Ask." Then she lowered her head and fiddled with the condiments.

Such a casual question does not match what He Siyu is going to say next.

"Why didn't you go hiking today?"

Lin Yao picked up the shovel and carefully turned the fish over, but still didn't look up: "Your Mr. Zhang made an appointment with me on Saturday, and today is Sunday."

"Scared? Have I been asleep for several days?" He Siyu asked in horror.

Lin Yao put the finished fish on a plate, "Yeah."

He Siyu nodded disappointedly, it seems that Lin Yao has already gone back.

Lin Yao brought the prepared meal to the table and poured He Siyu a glass of juice, "I squeezed it at home, you can try it."

He Siyu took a sip, "It tastes good!"

Lin Yao stroked her hair, "Then eat quickly, eat slowly."

He Siyu didn't think there was anything wrong with this sentence at first, but when she took the first bite, she understood... She was really hungry!

Lin Yao snatched her bowl when she wolfed down the second mouthful of food.

"Hey?" He Siyu looked at Lin Yao with puffed cheeks.

Lin Yao stared at He Siyu's eyes, and she didn't know what to say in her mouth, but she couldn't hear clearly, so she picked up the water glass and brought it to her mouth, "Drink water."

He Siyu slowly opened his mouth, and Lin Yao fed the juice.

Both of them moved very slowly, as if the juice would flow from the corners of their mouths if they were faster, and it seemed that He Siyu could enjoy more comfort and satisfaction only if he was slower.

He Siyu swallowed the food in his mouth completely, and Lin Yao opened his mouth slowly, but this opening made He Siyu so startled that he wanted to jump.

"I didn't go yesterday." Lin Yao said lightly, her tone was very natural, as if I was referring to passerby A.

He Siyu asked: "Why?"

Lin Yao stared at her, and asked word by word: "Why do you match me with Wang Zixuan?"

He Siyu was at a loss for words, and Lin Yao's question made her feel like she was sitting on pins and needles.

She still remembers that afternoon ten years ago vividly.

She still remembers every sentence, every word, and even the tone of Wang Zixuan's words that she said to Wang Zixuan that afternoon. As long as she closes her eyes, that bitter and sad emotion will burst out of her chest .

More than anyone else, she wished that that incident had never happened, but she knew that it was real and existed, the dialogue between Wang Zixuan and her.

On the afternoon after the college entrance examination, Wang Zixuan, who was in the same examination room as He Siyu, stopped her when she went out, "He Siyu, I have something to tell you."

He Siyu looked at the class next door, but did not find Lin Yao, "Okay."

He Siyu followed Wang Zixuan to the end of the corridor, Wang Zixuan turned his back to the passing crowd, He Siyu had no time to look at his expression, and focused on looking for Lin Yao's face among the students.

With a calm voice, Wang Zixuan uttered a rare and very formal tone: "You are Lin Yao's good friend, no, you can be said to be the best friend."

He Siyu nodded, and then looked for Lin Yao.

Wang Zixuan was immersed in his own world, but he didn't notice that He Siyu was absent-minded: "I will confess my love to Lin Yao tomorrow, do you know what flowers she likes?"

In an instant, He Siyu's eyes were filled with tears, what should come, will come.

She tried her best to keep her voice from trembling: "Rose... Rose."

"It's a rose? I thought it was a lily..." Wang Zixuan murmured, "Then thank you."

Wang Zixuan went away, and He Siyu didn't wait for Lin Yao in the end.

Was it because Lin Yao didn't look for her at all, or was it because her position was too obscure that Lin Yao couldn't find her.

The moment he learned that Wang Zixuan was going to confess to Lin Yao, He Siyu really wanted to ask Lin Yao, would you like to be with me.

But what confidence did she have to ask?

Did he break into the top [-] with Lin Yao's help?

Or can he use his clean but definitely not [-]% new bicycle to drive Lin Yao far away?

When Lin Yao said she was going to get married, could I stand in front of her and give her a ring?

Lin Yao's parents hope to have a new life at home, but no matter how hard I try, I can only provide her with an artificial insemination operation.

When He Siyu walked out of the examination room, her face was full of tears. When her mother saw her, she was shocked: "Siyu, what's wrong with you?"

He Siyu laughed while crying: "It's okay... I'm so excited after the exam."

He Siyu went home and fell asleep.

It was Lin Yao's call that woke her up.

With Lin Yao's level, going to Qingbei is not a problem at all, what about me?

You can only go to one school in the province.

What do I use to stop her from moving forward.

With my useless, ridiculous talents?

Sorry, Lin Yao is more talented than me.

Whether it is beauty, height, talent, IQ, family background.

Lin Yao is definitely worth it, to be owned by better people.

rather than the ordinary self.

But in fact, He Siyu understands that she understands the importance of the joints better than anyone else, that is——

I am a woman.

What about Wang Zixuan?Could Wang Zixuan be that person?

Not enough, Wang Zixuan is not good enough.

Although he is a man, he is not worthy of Lin Yao.

I can't lose her so quickly.

This was the only time in He Siyu's life that he was selfish.

It's very ridiculous, this selfishness seems to be taken seriously by Lin Yao.

He Siyu ran to the living room and raised the phone. Her mother saw her bare feet and called her, "No shoes!"

Panting heavily, picking up the receiver, Lin Yao said, "Hey, I'm looking for He Siyu."

He Siyu took a deep breath, "Lin, Lin Yao."

Lin Yao said: "I'm downstairs at your house, you come down, I have something to say to you."

He Siyu went straight to the door without looking back, and was about to go out in dark blue low-top canvas shoes. Her mother followed her closely: "What are you doing in such a hurry?"

He Siyu had no time to turn around, and said while putting on his shoes, "Go downstairs."

When she ran downstairs out of breath, Lin Yao was sitting on a bench under the shade of a tree, closing her eyes and resting.

He Siyu slowed down and walked over slowly, "Lin Yao...?"

Lin Yao opened her eyes: "Sit."

Sitting next to her, He Siyu wondered why Lin Yao suddenly came looking for her.

Did Wang Zixuan set the date of confession today?

Lin Yao has already received the rose from Wang Zixuan?

He Siyu's thoughts were in a mess, and he repeated and practiced the words that he had worked so hard to think of in his heart.

Lin Yao spoke again: "I have someone I like."

It's Wang Zixuan, I even know the joyful look on your face when you say these three words.

But I'm sorry, Lin Yao, I'm really selfish, I can't let you leave me so quickly.

I can't stand your hand holding someone else's, your lips next to someone else's, your hug shared by a third person.

Love is selfish and blind, and I am no exception.

This kind of self-deception made He Siyu let go of the guilt at that moment.

"Oh? Really? That's great, I also have someone I like." He Siyu smiled innocently at Lin Yao.

At that time, innocence had not yet become an Internet term, it was not the name of a character in a novel, and there was no ambiguity.

He Siyu knew that with Lin Yao's personality, she would definitely ask herself who that person was.

Sure enough, Lin Yao did not disappoint He Siyu.

"Who is the person you like?" Lin Yao's tone was very nervous.

Thinking about it now, He Siyu probably had a little hesitation at that time, hesitating whether to take away Lin Yao's happiness.

But... She couldn't do it, she couldn't be willing to give up her choice for love.

Even if you would hate me, I don't want you to be with someone else.

He Siyu looked straight into Lin Yao's eyes, "Wang Zixuan."

Lin Yao was stunned, her lips parted slightly, as if telling He Siyu that I still have something to say next.

Lin Yao stared closely at He Siyu, her facial expression twitching, He Siyu guessed that it was because Lin Yao knew that they both liked the same person, which caused Lin Yao's surprise.

Time ran so slowly that He Siyu thought it stopped at this moment.

He Siyu could clearly hear the heartbeats of the two of them. Sitting so close, how could they not hear each other's breathing?

Lin Yao laughed, laughing in such an embarrassing situation.

But it’s just right to smile miserably, “Really, then I wish you well... I won’t bother you.”

Lin Yao left after finishing speaking, and He Siyu found that she was not as happy as expected when she left.

How could this be, how could I be so sad.

Isn't Wang Zixuan our biggest rival in love?

Now that Lin Yao gave him to me as I wished, I should be happy, right?

He Siyu sat on the bench distraught for a long time, and her father called her back to reality when she came home.

"He Siyu! Won't you go upstairs?"

He Siyu had already forgotten how she spent that day. It is no exaggeration to say that she didn't even know how she spent that summer vacation.

Because Lin Yao disappeared.

A week after that incident, Wang Zixuan did not come to see her, nor did Lin Yao.

He Siyu was a little panicked.

She hadn't experienced this feeling of panic for a long time.

I dialed Lin Yao's mobile number over and over again, from the number you dialed was turned off to the number you dialed was shut down, until the day when the college entrance examination results came out - the number you dialed was empty.

It was the same situation with Wang Zixuan.

He Siyu smiled wryly, those who harm others will eventually harm themselves, this is all retribution!

In the following period of time, she dreamed of Lin Yao every night, and dreamed that Lin Yao asked her why she wanted to take Wang Zixuan away.

Every time he woke up in the middle of the night, He Siyu would hold his head and cry.

No one can understand the feeling of wanting to contact Lin Yao. She was so depressed that she couldn't be happy even when her mother told her that she could go to the best university in the province.

My mother said worriedly: "I know you want to go to the same school as Lin Yao, but your grades are already very good. We are not far from Beijing, and it only takes one night by train. Besides, she will go home during the holidays." ?"

He Siyu nodded in response: "Yes."

But Mom, I have completely lost Lin Yao as a friend.

The moment I started robbing her of her boyfriend, our friendship ceased to exist.

A few years later, He Siyu thought about whether Lin Yao made a fuss out of a molehill. It was just a simple girlfriend grabbing her boyfriend's time together. Did Lin Yao disappear completely?

She has been avoiding Lin Yao's departure and has never participated in a classmate reunion. She abandoned her QQ number and msn in high school, changed her mobile phone number, and even changed her communication company.

The mobile phone screen changed from black and white to color, and the brand changed from Nokia to Motorola.

She didn't buy the white dresses that Lin Yao liked to wear, she discarded the canvas shoes that Lin Yao liked to wear, and the cone shop that Lin Yao loved was closed down as promised.

It's really great, there is no trace of Lin Yao in the whole world, it seems that Lin Yao never existed in his own world at all.

Until Zhang Zilin's wedding at the beginning of this year——

"Lin Yao has returned to China, do you know?"

He Siyu's mind was like a projector, recalling everything about Lin Yao in the past ten years, and tears burst out.

I worked so hard for a lie that didn't exist at all.

In the end, Lin Yao and Wang Zixuan met again, and even when she was regretting and sad every day, they were studying in the same university.

It's not really an irony.

Lin Yao picked up a tissue and wiped He Siyu's face, her tone was full of tenderness: "Why are you crying? Did I say it hard?"

He Siyu shook his head vigorously, tears were brought out by inertia, and flung onto his cheeks, "No, no."

Lin Yao gently took her into her arms, and He Siyu leaned her head on Lin Yao's slender shoulder: "Then can you tell me why you matched Wang Zixuan and me?"

"Lin Yao, I'm sorry!" He Siyu hugged Lin Yao tightly, almost shouting these words.

Seeing He Siyu in her arms crying even more fiercely, Lin Yao patted her on the back lightly: "What's wrong? What are you saying sorry for?"

He Siyu broke away from Lin Yao's embrace: "Actually, I lied to you when I said that the person I liked was Wang Zixuan."

Perhaps Lin Yao didn't expect He Siyu's thoughts to jump so fast, she was taken aback: "Oh? Why did you lie to me?"

He Siyu sobbed, and said with a sob: "Because Wang Zixuan told me that day that he wanted to confess his love to you."

Lin Yao then asked: "Then?"

"I don't want you to be with him..."

He Siyu's voice became smaller and smaller, until it was almost choked in his throat.

But she knew that Lin Yao heard it.

Because Lin Yao immediately said: "What a coincidence, I don't want you to be with him either."