Give the rest of your life

When Lin Yao came back from the bun shop, the atmosphere in the ward was rather awkward.

He Siyu was sitting on the sofa reading the newspaper, while Ni Nan was leaning on the bed playing with her mobile phone.

"Siyu, let's go." Lin Yao helped He Siyu take the jacket, sat beside her and held her hand.

Ni Nan, who was sitting opposite, could clearly see the interaction between the two.

"Lin Yao, are you together?" Ni Nan asked very straightforwardly.

Lin Yao looked away from He Siyu's face, raised her head slightly and looked at Ni Nan on the bed, "Yes."

A hum is not enough to show more emotions, He Siyu can't figure it out.

Ni Nan smiled uncomfortably: "Well, it's pretty good."

The meaning inside and outside the words did not seem to be blessing them, but Lin Yao didn't care.

"Then let's go, take care of yourself, something..."

Lin Yao's pause made Ni Nan a little unhappy.

"I won't come to you if I have something to do." When Ni Nan said this to Lin Yao, her eyes were on He Siyu.

Lin Yao looked at her for a few seconds: "It's better to take care of your health and don't make things difficult for yourself."

He Siyu was dragged out of the ward by Lin Yao all the way. It wasn't until she got into the car that she vaguely felt that the conversation between Lin Yao and Ni Nan just now was very wrong, but she couldn't say what was wrong. So, it's really hard to say something about intuition.

Lin Yao didn't start the car, and He Siyu let them sit like this.

She didn't understand why she was in such an embarrassing situation now.

If it was because Ni Nan was angry, it seemed that there was no such need.

But it seems that there is no reason to say that it is because of other things.

He Siyu wanted to ask Lin Yao: What is your relationship with Ni Nan?

I have such a position.

But Lin Yao also said in person that Ni Nan likes men. Doesn't it seem that she is too jealous if she asks this question?

Such a sentence is simple and easy to say, but difficult to say, He Siyu just can't say it.

What does it feel like to have a word stuck in your throat?

It is a sentence that has been repeated countless times in my mind, imagined countless times, and practiced countless times, but I can't say a single word.

Every time you practice, you will reduce your courage by one point.

In the end, this question finally disappeared with the continuous breathing.

Not an iota of courage left.

"I didn't tell you yesterday. You must be very anxious. It was past two o'clock in the middle of the night when she called me. I didn't want to wake you up. I thought it was nothing serious, because it always happened like this before. No matter, I just take care of her for an hour or two. I didn't expect the injury to be so serious this time. When I finished my work, it was almost dawn, and I fell asleep accidentally. When I woke up, I found that you had sent so many text messages. "

He Siyu was not satisfied with Lin Yao's explanation.

It's not that this explanation is not satisfactory, but that no matter how Lin Yao explains it, she is not satisfied.

This is a feeling of worrying about gains and losses. The rabbit finally got the moon, but was anxious all day long, so he could only return the moon to the god.

He Siyu didn't want to be the rabbit, and Lin Yao wasn't the moon in the sky.

He Siyu thought for a while, and finally said, "Let's drive."

Lin Yao looked at her and wanted to say something, but He Siyu quickly suppressed her thought in her throat: "Drive."

Lin Yao drove as she wished.

He Siyu was not happy at all.

She wanted Lin Yao to give her an explanation, but even if she knew the explanation was reasonable, she would not be happy.

Why not happy, perhaps because of that little possessiveness.

Ni Nan, you have so many friends, why did you call him Lin Yao.

On such a lonely and ambiguous night, asking her to save you is really your usual style.

The meal was tasteless for both of them.

Lin Yao suggested to go to the movies after dinner, but He Siyu refused: "Go back and rest early, you've been tired all night."

"It's okay, I'm not tired." Lin Yao said hurriedly, her eyes were full of flattery.

But He Siyu hated her expression very much.

"Go back." He Siyu said again with her eyes closed.

"Let me go to your house today." Halfway through the journey, Lin Yao said.

He Siyu leaned against the car door on the right, propped his elbows on the window frame, and lightly clenched his hands into fists against his low cheekbones, and said flatly, "No need."

When she said this, there happened to be a gust of wind. The wind was a bit strong, and it blew off her hair. He Siyu stroked her hair back with her left hand, and did not speak again.

After a long time, Lin Yao said again: "Then you come to my house?"

He Siyu still closed his eyes: "Let's go back to our respective houses, just leave me at the gate of my community."

"I'll take you upstairs." Lin Yao answered immediately.

He Siyu opened his eyes, a slight smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, a little sarcasm, but also a feeling of understanding, "You send me off, will you go back?"

Lin Yao probably couldn't stand her eccentric tone, and her voice became a little more serious: "What's wrong with you."

This question seems to be very considerate, but unfortunately the tone is so...a bit off, so it is very unfortunate that the opposite effect was achieved, and He Siyu was successfully irritated by her.

He Siyu laughed: "Lin Yao, you can accompany Ni Nan, she is your friend, I am just your classmate."

"..." Lin Yao didn't say anything.

I don't know whether to acquiesce or feel guilty towards her.

"Stop, park on the side of the road." He Siyu said.

The car was stopped suddenly, and before He Siyu's body returned to the backrest from the inertia, Lin Yao had already pressed over.

When Lin Yao kissed her, He Siyu didn't feel anything, except anger and shame, she didn't feel anything.

She didn't feel any of the feelings inside her body that were touched before.

He Siyu pushed Lin Yao away, raised his hand and gave her a slap.

Lin Yao was knocked out by this palm, she stared at He Siyu obsessively, "You..."

He Siyu hugged his head and burst into tears.

After crying for an unknown amount of time, He Siyu lost all strength in Lin Yao's arms, so he took out a few tissues and wiped his face.

The patina that was carefully patched up in the afternoon may have been spent. He Siyu didn't have time to pay attention to her expensive foundation, eyeliner, mascara, and lipstick. She just wanted to know why Lin Yao was.

Why do you control your heart.

He Siyu said weakly: "Do you know that every time I see you and Ni Nan together, I feel that I am the third party. Nan snatched you away."

"But she's just my friend."

"Do you want to take care of her friends in the middle of the night? Yes, I know, she was beaten and seriously injured, I asked you for help, you have to help, but why, she has so many friends, why does she have to find you ?”

Lin Yao opened her mouth and repeated several times, "That's because... I owe her too much."

He Siyu wanted to ask again, but someone knocked on the car window.

"You can't park here," said the traffic policeman.

Lin Yao said with a smile on her face, "I'm sorry, comrade, let's go now."

The unfriendly and gunpowder-smelling conversation was interrupted, and what He Siyu wanted to ask could only be put aside for the time being.

At the door of He Siyu's house, Lin Yao insisted on sending her upstairs, He Siyu's hand was between the two of them, and he pushed his palm outward: "I'll just go back by myself."

Lin Yao involuntarily took a step back, her eyes were full of hurt, "Then you go up, go up and turn on the light for me to see."

"Ah."

He Siyu didn't turn on the light in the bedroom until twelve o'clock when he was going to sleep.

He Siyu ignored Lin Yao for several days.

Lin Yao's text messages, the flowers that the teachers in the same group envied were sent anonymously, Lin Yao's non-stop phone calls all day long, and she easily bypassed them.

It was the first time in more than [-] years that he was so decisive.

She didn't care about the provocative words Ni Nan said, she just couldn't get over the test in her heart, it had nothing to do with Lin Yao, and she couldn't see it.

A strong sense of inferiority struck once again.

A family background that can't match Lin Yao's, a beauty that can't be compared with Lin Yao's, even if it is talent, it is not one-tenth of Lin Yao's.

What's even more frightening is that his rival in love seems to be more suitable for Lin Yao than himself.

He Siyu never believed in the love story of Cinderella and the prince in love novels. How can Cinderella overcome many obstacles and stand with such an outstanding person?

Even the easiest gossip can kill this relationship.

So He Siyu was really not optimistic.

But at this time, the grade leader asked her to go on a business trip for a meeting, saying that it was to exchange experience with the teachers of the brother school, and there was another person with her, which was Lin Yao.

"What?! With Lin Yao?" He Siyu stood in Teacher Xu's office and asked loudly.

Teacher Xu smiled: "Xiao He, aren't you and Xiao Lin high school classmates? We are young people, and we should go to study outside, and we can't always let those older teachers go."

"My family has something to do recently, and I can't get away." He Siyu deliberately avoided Teacher Xu's eager gaze, and chose the most common, vulgar and best-used excuse.

Teacher Xu took a puff of cigarette, "This... but our grades have fewer classes, and we don't need to lead the class. It's just you two. Besides, this is an opportunity that Teacher Lin specially won for you."

Okay, Lin Yao, you can't get in touch with me, so you came up with this way to get close to me, it really took pains.

"Okay, then I won't refuse, and I won't bother Mr. Xu."

"it's okay no problem."

After leaving Teacher Xu's office, He Siyu sent a text message to Lin Yao: Let's go to the playground.

When I was young, whenever my classmates quarreled, I always went to the playground to clarify the words. Now that I have grown up, this habit has been retained.

Lin Yao, who hadn't seen her for three days, seemed to have lost a lot of weight. He Siyu felt distressed seeing her like this. Her face was haggard and her eyes were dull. She was fine a few days ago, so why did she become like this today.

But her ridiculous self-esteem told herself that she couldn't hold Lin Yao in her arms, and asked her gently why she didn't take good care of herself.

He Siyu is not angry anymore, but she... can't get rid of this face.

The anger caused by inertia is really tiring.