Give the rest of your life

When Song Pei spoke slowly, He Siyu was in a trance for a while, so that he lost his mind.

"I have known my cousin very well since I was very young. At that time, I was in the third grade of elementary school, and my cousin was in the first year of high school. I don't know why. In the second semester of high school, my cousin transferred from No. [-] Middle School to No. [-] Middle School. I asked her why in private, and she just said that she didn't have a good time in No. [-] Middle School."

Yes, He Siyu thought about this question back then, but he and Song Pei coincided. The No. [-] Middle School in the city is one of the top schools. Why did Lin Yao come to the No. [-] Middle School to study?

"On Qingming Festival that year, my family chose a weekend to visit the tomb. My cousin and I both went. The reason why I remember it so clearly is because it was the first time I went to the cemetery. My cousin sat with me and chatted with me about learning. After the incident, she didn’t go any further, instead, she changed the subject to feelings, and she asked me if I have someone I like, who can I like when I am eight years old?” Song Pei smiled wryly. After a while, "Of course I told my cousin the truth, but my cousin fell into silence."

He Siyu's heart skipped a beat. Doesn't what Song Pei said at this moment coincide with Lin Yao's confession?

Inexplicably, He Siyu began to look forward to Song Pei's next words even more.

"After getting out of the car, the adults went to worship, and our children were watching. My cousin told me that there was a very interesting girl in their class. I asked my cousin why she was so funny. My cousin laughed very lightly, and she said she couldn't tell. Come, I just think that girl is very interesting, so she has the idea of ​​getting close to that girl.

"I just listened to it, and I forgot it in a few days. Unexpectedly, because my parents were on a business trip, I was taken to my cousin's house for half a month. After that, I got to know my cousin better. My cousin and I live with her, she loves to read, there are many types, but most of them are famous books and popular science books, until one day, she brought home a romance novel."

I don't know if Song Pei intends to show off, anyway, He Siyu blushed when he heard this. Isn't the romance novel the two books that Lin Yao borrowed from her?

I just don't know if Song Pei is talking about the first book or the second book.

Listening to my students tell their own stories is really a bit embarrassing, but this taste is not enough for outsiders.

"I looked at the colorful romance novels and asked her, 'Do you still like this type of book?' My cousin just smiled and didn't answer. My cousin didn't read that book, she just flipped through it repeatedly. overturned."

Pu Yi interjected coldly and asked, "How do you know Teacher Lin didn't watch it?"

Song Pei smiled and pondered for a moment, as if recalling: "My cousin will definitely sit at the table when she reads. She reads very fast, with a speed of about 20 words per hour. For a novel with [-] words, she can finish it in two hours. I can read it, but my cousin spent three or four hours reading it."

Pu Yileng answered again: "Maybe she thinks this novel is good-looking and read it carefully."

"No, she was just touching the paper. I thought the paper was of ordinary quality, so I went up to her and asked her what was wrong. My cousin said, 'This book belongs to her.'"

"Oh..." Pu Yi nodded coldly.

"I asked whose it was, and she said, 'That funny girl.'"

"An interesting girl? Could it be..." Pu Yileng said while looking sideways at He Siyu, "Teacher He, is that you?"

He Siyu smiled, showing a small piece of teeth: "Let's listen to Song Pei."

But how can her joyful expression make people unable to guess the answer?

Song Pei took a sip of water, and then said: "I asked my cousin, the novels this girl reads are nothing more than that, why are they so interesting?" My cousin was silent, and then she seemed to be talking to herself, 'I don't know, maybe it's her Always shy, a girl always blushes when she looks at me, don’t you think it’s funny?” I laughed at my cousin, “It’s funny to be shy? So many boys chasing you, it must be interesting My cousin shook her head, patted my head, and said, "It's different. I only regard those boys as my classmates. This girl... just makes me want to get close to her."

"I asked my cousin, is that girl good-looking? My cousin said that she has pretty eyes and black hair. I said, is it you or her? My cousin was stunned for a moment, and it doesn't matter who looks good? The important thing is The feeling of getting along is not participating in a beauty pageant, who cares about who looks good."

He Siyu's face became more and more ruddy. She always knew that she could only be considered average in appearance. What Lin Yao said about the delicate features was barely true, but when it came to the appearance of the two of them, Lin Yao did not know how many steps higher than herself, could it be Is beauty in the eye of the beholder?Or is it because Lin Yao herself is already very beautiful, so she doesn't care about human appearance?

Song Pei glanced at He Siyu secretly: "I was picked up not long after, and it was summer vacation when I saw my cousin. My cousin began to ask that girl out, that is, Teacher He. She likes swimming very much. In previous summers, she always Soaking in the water, but alone that year, she only went to the swimming pool twice. I asked my cousin why she didn’t go swimming, and my cousin told me that she didn’t like swimming. I said, what does that matter? She doesn’t like to go You can find someone else to go. The cousin said, I can’t go out too often, your aunt will tell me, if I always go swimming, how can I find her to play? After that day, I felt that my cousin treats this girl, They must have different feelings, at least not as simple as just friends."

Song Pei paused and said: "But I was too young at the time, and I didn't know there were such things as homosexuality, so I didn't think much about it. I just thought it was my cousin who regarded Mr. He as a good friend. Later, I was about to accept leave." , I should also move back home from my cousin’s house. One morning, when we were eating together, my cousin suddenly asked me: “What do you think of me studying liberal arts?”

"I was surprised and asked her: Why do you suddenly want to study liberal arts? Haven't you already decided on the theory?"

"But... she is going to study literature. My cousin said so."

Rao, who had been listening patiently, Pu Yileng also changed his face: "What?! Teacher Lin wants to study literature for Teacher He?"

He Siyu's expression was also a little strange, she never thought that Lin Yao was already deeply rooted in love at that time.

Song Pei held Pu Yileng's hand: "Don't worry, I'll continue."

"I asked my cousin, did you study literature for that interesting friend? My cousin nodded and said yes. I said, will your friend be angry if he finds out? My cousin said: Why are you angry? I was also blunt at the time: You delayed your original plan because of her, isn't it annoying? Someone took the blame for you for no reason. If my aunt finds out, maybe she will be blamed."

Pu Yi was startled for a moment, then smiled: "You are very precocious."

Song Pei felt embarrassed: "It's all thanks to my cousin that I was able to open my eyes early."

"Cousin was stunned, and after about a while, she nodded and muttered something: that's right...then I can only find other ways to get along with her."

"I said: Why do you have to worry so much when you make friends with people? My cousin said: She always likes to think too much, and she doesn't know how many things have nothing to do with her in her mind. The matter of class division is alienated from her, and I'm afraid she will push me out again."

Speaking of this, He Siyu realized that Lin Yao was already worried about her back then, and Lin Yao also worried too much about herself.

She sighed, "Hey, I owe Lin Yao too much."

Song Pei patted her on the shoulder: "There is no debt or debt when it comes to feelings. If my cousin knows that you think so, she will be angry."

He Siyu was taken aback, then nodded: "That's right, Lin Yao is definitely not happy for me to say that."

Song Pei went on to say: "I have always been curious about Teacher He's face and name, until...until it was another holiday, a photo frame suddenly appeared on the low cabinet next to my cousin's bed, and there were two torn photos in it, which were spelled together. We got together. At that time, I finally met the legendary Teacher He... my cousin didn't say who that person was, but I knew that that person was the interesting girl she had always cared about."

"My cousin is always staring at the photo in a daze. One day, she asked me a shocking question: Tell me, can the two girls be together? I was too scared to speak. After a long time, she shook her head again. Forget it, you don’t understand. I asked: Cousin, what’s wrong with you? She smiled wryly, I seem to like that person. Is it this person? I pointed to Teacher He in the bedside photo frame and asked, she nodded, That's her."

"There was a buzzing in my heart, and I couldn't speak for a long time. I asked tremblingly: Then... cousin, are you gay? There was an expression on my cousin's face that I couldn't understand, and she said: Probably yes. After many years, I realized that the expression was helpless, as if there was a hint of pain."

"After that, my cousin was in the third year of high school, and I was also in the fifth grade of elementary school. I was busy with my studies, and I didn't see each other for a long time. After she passed the college entrance examination, I went to live with my cousin again. My cousin helped me with my homework. There was nothing wrong with playing chess and piano with me, but... But one night, my aunt, who never lost her temper, suddenly slapped my cousin and made her kneel on the ground. I was so scared that I hid in my cousin's room and didn't intend to listen Talking, but I still heard clearly and clearly."

"Talk? It's... what talk...?" He Siyu's voice was already trembling, she was very afraid of hearing the answer she didn't dare to hear, and almost instantly, she thought of the worst outcome, If it was because of herself, Lin Yao... Lin Yao must have had a very hard life, right?I did something like that back then, and Lin Yao was at home again... I really went too far.

"Yes..." Song Pei smiled bitterly, and her voice was suppressed: "My cousin was found to like Mr. He."

He Siyu only felt a tinnitus, and then couldn't control himself anymore, and burst into tears. Did Lin Yao expose all this so early?Then how did she survive all these years.

While I was still doubting her, jealous of her, and scheming against her, she silently endured everything that girls were far from able to bear.