Spoil yourself in the arms of the paranoid [Rebirth]

Shen Yang returned to the apartment, opened the diary, and flipped through it page by page from the first page. The pictures of the two of them getting along with each other appeared in front of his eyes one by one through the words, blending with the picture of Gu Chuan smiling at the girl Together, Shen Yang's heart aches unbearably.

Turning to a blank page, Shen Yang wrote down:

Gu Chuan, you bastard, bastard, bastard, bastard, big bastard!

I don't allow you to walk with girls, and I don't allow you to smile at girls. You have never smiled at me, but you smile so handsomely at girls. Do you know that when I see you smiling at others, my heart will it hurts...

Tears fell on the pale yellow diary paper, melting those vented words.

This night, Shen Yang was buried in the soft bed, curled up, his arms tightly hugged to his chest, his brows were furrowed, his pink lips turned white from his biting.

"You are just Gu Chuan's plaything on the spur of the moment. You are naive and stupid. A worthless young master is no match for Gu Chuan."

"It's ridiculous that a splasher who was played bad by Gu Qifeng is worthy of our brother Chuan's sincerity."

"Don't stop me, let me shoot him down, if it wasn't for Brother Chuan's leg, how could he break it! It's all his fault! I want him to pay for it!"

"Your existence is Gu Chuan's biggest weakness. Being by his side will only bring him endless harm."

"Shen Yang, why are you still pestering Brother Chuan even after you are married to Gu Qifeng? I beg you, let him go!"

"Gu Chuan listened to your words and went to the harbor pier, and died without a whole body."

"No, no, Gu Chuan, Gu Chuan!"

Shen Yang roared hoarsely, struggling to wake up from the nightmare, looking at the dark ceiling, feeling the wetness and coldness on the pillow, Shen Yang suddenly returned to the dirty and cramped room before he died.

What is a dream and what is reality?

Shen Yang turned over and hugged himself even more tightly. He didn't even notice that his nails were digging into his flesh, and he murmured feebly: "Gu Chuan, I'm sorry, I really never thought of hurting you, I just want to hurt you." You are well..."

I don't know how long it has passed, and the warm sunlight mischievously penetrated into the room through the gaps in the curtains, dispelling the haze and darkness in the room.

Shen Yang slowly stretched out his hand and put it in front of his eyes, looking at the almost transparent white fingers under the sunlight, the tears dried and condensed on his face, it was very uncomfortable, but Shen Yang didn't care to wash his face, got up from the bed and sat on the desk to write road:

Gu Chuan, I had a dream at night. I dreamed that they didn’t want me to be with you, and they said some nasty things to force me to leave. In fact, I should listen to them and leave you. If I wasn’t so hesitant, maybe you would live a happier life.

Ah, don’t talk about the past, talk about now, I know why I have nightmares, because yesterday I saw you smiling happily at the girl, I was jealous, jealous, and even resentful, I hated why it was her who stood by your side not me.

Hey, did you feel the same way as me when you looked at me smiling at Gu Qifeng in the previous life? I think it should be, because I love you and I have possessive desires for you. Now let me experience your mood at that time, really so sad.

But if my love can't make you happy, what should I do, Gu Chuan?

.........

"Sorry Gu Chuan, I forgot to buy breakfast."

All the way to the school in a daze, until he saw Gu Chuan waiting for him on the seat, Shen Yang suddenly remembered that he didn't buy breakfast, his little chestnut head drooped slightly, and his strong nasal voice sounded extremely wronged.

Gu Chuan frowned slightly, raised his small and round chin with his fingers, and parted his thin lips lightly: "I'm crying."

Shen Yang's eyes trembled slightly, his eyes that should have been dry after crying all night somehow became moist again, he turned his head awkwardly, escaped from Gu Chuan's fingers, stood up suddenly, his fingers unconsciously grabbed the hem of his clothes, dumbfounded. He said in a low voice, "I'll go buy you breakfast."

After finishing speaking, he ran away from Gu Chuan's sight in panic.

The heat source on the fingertips disappeared, and the phoenix eyes hidden behind the black hair narrowed slightly, revealing a slight chill.

Shen Yang lowered his head and went down the stairs sullenly, when he turned a corner, he bumped into someone suddenly.

With a plop, Shen Yang sat on his butt and squatted.

The ass seemed to be broken into eight petals, and it was painful, Shen Yang tightly tightened the corners of his mouth to prevent tears from streaming down, and raised his head to look at the person he hit.

"I'm sorry, ah, is that you?"

Yang Mengrong grabbed the handrail of the stairs with one hand, rubbed her shoulder with the other hand, and said with a gentle smile, "Don't, don't, I'm the one who should say I'm sorry, get up and get cold on the floor."

From the reason, Shen Yang ran headlong and hit someone, but from the result, Shen Yang sat down on the stairs, while the person he hit was still standing properly because he was holding on to the escalator.

Shen Yang looked up at Yang Mengrong, and suddenly felt that the girl's smile was so gentle and beautiful.

Shen Yang blinked, the bitterness seemed to spread from the bottom of his heart to his limbs.

"Shen Yang, are you okay, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, it's because I don't look at the road." Seeing Shen Yang's pale and fragile face, Yang Mengrong quickly reached out to pull him up.

Shen Yang didn't take her hand, stood up on his own, and smiled at her: "I'm fine, that, I'm going to buy breakfast first, you should go back to work."

"okay."

Yang Mengrong watched Shen Yang walk past her, somehow felt that he was about to cry, not the physical tears caused by the pain of the fall, but the sadness extending from the bottom of his heart to the lacrimal gland.

Yang Mengrong was suspicious, when she saw a stern figure out of the corner of her eye, she hurriedly called out: "Gu Chuan, wait."

Gu Chuan stopped impatiently, his phoenix eyes were filled with frost: "What's the matter?"

Yang Mengrong moved her steps and was blocking Gu Chuan's way down the stairs. She looked up at him and said with a smile, "Hey, don't be so indifferent. Anyway, we are too..."

The hostility between Gu Chuan's eyebrows and eyes did not dissipate, and he interrupted coldly: "Say something quickly."

Yang Mengrong lowered her eyebrows and smiled, properly covering up the trace of unnoticed nostalgia, then raised her head and smiled jokingly: "Just now I accidentally bumped into you at the same table, he fell down and squatted, It's like crying."

"Understood." Gu Chuan frowned, walked around Yang Mengrong, walked away with long legs, and his figure gradually disappeared around the corner.

Yang Mengrong shrugged her shoulders and smiled, "I lied to you."

Gu Chuan chased out of the teaching building, and saw a small chestnut head squeezed in the crowd from a distance. Gu Chuan strode after him, hugged his waist and brought him behind the ginkgo tree.

"Young master." Gu Chuan put one hand on Shen Yang's ear, and lifted Shen Yang's chin with the other hand, forcing him to look at him.

Shen Yang lowered his eyelids, his slightly pouty lips said with a strong nasal voice: "I'm going to buy breakfast, what are you doing?"

Although the voice was still soft and delicate, the small movements of resisting Gu Chuan's contact still showed a bit of alienation.

"My little master is crying, and my heart hurts."